my lil lala land

Once upon a lie 27

2011-10-23T13:38:00.000-07:00

Look who finally posted! Yaay ;p adre taw elnas..but i hope am forgiven!

Xoxo

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Previously;

Wahab took Shaokha out for her birthday after a cancellation from her, she didn't say why or what went on.. And by the end of the night, 3baid had texted Wahab and said it was important, What was it?

Find out now , Enjoy;*

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After i dropped Shaikha off, i headed home. I tried not to panic as i drove, i sensed that it was a big deal from 3baid's message but i had no clue. And even if i thought for hours, i wouldn't have gussed what he was going to say.

" She was here ! " 3baid said out of breath

" What? Who? your ex girlfriend? "

" What?! NO Whayyib concentrate! the freaky girl you're after! or.. the one who's after you , i don't know.. "

I tried to comprehend , i tried to clear my head, my eyes narrowed and i stepped closer to 3baid

" Say that again.. " i said almost in a whisper

" Whayyib shfeek.. il bnt, el bnt ele eb 360.. ele eb masafe6 el jam3eyya 3ala goltik, ele t7s enik t3rfha! kanat hne! 3nd el bait "

" What the hell did you just say? " I stepped even closer, i was inches away from 3baid and i looked like i was about to punch him in the face

" Ok le hne wana ba6la3 mn elsalfa! cham marra agolik? ana sheft'ha b3yony awal shay knt gayil 3ade bnt w marra bil sayara.. bs she was kind of circling around with her car.. ana glby neqazny knt bil driveway w lama garrabt she was gone "

My heartbeats went fast and faster, i tried to send down but i got up again " Okay. okay that's cool that's okay.. she might.. not be who we think she is " I said still thinking

" And WHO exactly do we think she is ? " 3baid sounded alert, he narrowed his eyes at me

I looked at him from the corner of my eye " Look it could be anyone.. let's assume she is a crazy stalker.. doesn't mean she's after me!! maybe she's after you.. " I knew that was a lie, i wasn't that convincing when i heard myself but 3baid looked like he was actually considering it and that made me smile at my own evil gesture

" What? nooo no it can't be.." He shook his head, he really looked panicked!

" Dude relax! " I laughed " lets just say if she came once.. she's gona come again. right? " i sure hoped so. 3baid shrugged " Whatever man am locking my bedroom door tonight " I laughed again " Dude what are you 12?! it's just a girl in a car! "

"By our house! by our jam3eyya! and almost in all of our outings! And dude, she was NOT there to flirt hat girl looked like she wanted to speak her mind like.. there's SOMETHING going on with her"

I didn't blame him for freaking out..

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" hmmmmmmm.." I head an irritated baby voice

" Nayma? " i smiled

" Wahab shmtaby mimmi mnm 9im7.. "

" Okay, eeeaasy there i only heard mumbles "

Silence

I grinned again, She was sleeping and it was too darn cute

" NemtaY? " i asked again, i only heard her breathing through the phone " Man if i knew you sounded like this i would've called every day at 8 AM ! "

"Mbas wahaab ama bamaaan banaam ma gam t5alene wa5er roo7 " i giggled " 7imdy rabbich gam afham rb3 ele tgolena "

" Mmmm "

" Noom el 3awafii yuba noom el 3awafii.. i was just off to jog by the beach with 3baid this morning just thought i'd let you know"

" I love you " she mumbled again, but that.. THAT i heard clearly, even though it was the same sleepy tone

" Walaaaaaain yuba ma medak ams shayefha 3a6 el bnya facha ya5y ! " 3baid came in

" Me7tar? nesait nfsik m3a sitt el 7esen wla tbe athakrik? "

" Ay sitt el 7esen yubaa.. ra7at mn zman.. 3l 3moom goom goom ana b3dain batrayyag "

" Nswe reyatha w troo7 takilly 6an baith w hal sowalif? "

" La narke'6 marra thanya nha'6em "

" 7abebee!! erke'6 marra thanya m3a nfsik ent w bobby chalb el ajnabiyya ele tyeba kil yom tetmasha feh! ana amer w a6eglik heren "

He gave me the stink eye, " Food is something NOT to be messed with.. Breakfast is the most important meal of the day! "

" It is if you're eating for one.. not five"

" Dude wait up!! we're not on the olympics or anything!!" 3baid was shouting behind me out of breath

I laughed and stopped to face him " Fine am tired of kicking your ass anyway "

He gave me an evil eye, " Hey.. " I put my hands in the air " You wanted a race, you got a race "

*BARK!!* we heard a dog headed our way, It was a beautiful golden retriever with a loose leash " Heyy.. " I leaned down to touch it as it settled near my feet, but before i could do so he ran away as fast as possible to an obviously worried owner running across the beach, it was a girl.. her hair was all up in her face and i could feel her looking at us.. but before i had time to think, she was gone

" Don't tell me.. " I head 3baid behind me , " It can't be.. we're just.. tired let's go eat.. " I said with one last glance behind me where we saw her and then headed to the car

" Hey baby " I answered my phone, we were having breakfast at Johny's and 3baid was eating like it was his birthday

I laughed " Hey you.. " She answered me

" Sleeping beauty finally got up, huh? "

She giggled " Yes, your sleeping beauty is going to get her beauty done alright "

" Huh? " i said as i took a bite out of my bacon

" I have a wedding today " She said " I need to go pick up my dress from the dry cleaners and head for the ladies salon " i grinned " I see "

" What? " She was on to me " Nothing.. " I told her " Well can i see the transformation then? "

She giggled again " Wahab don't be silly ", " Where is it ? " I asked

" Mariott "

" Well what do you know! me and 3baid were heading there anyway! "

" What?! " Her voice squeaked and then she laughed " Sh3ndikkom? "

" Uhh.." I glanced at 3baid who was now eating food out of my plate " 3baid has some business there.. " 3baid choked, stopped eating and looked at me wide-eyed with a silly expression on his face, i grinned trying not to laugh

" Nice try " She said, " Look just one glance.. just one.. i'll be 20 feet away.. behind a wall or something.. in a trick.. " i said, She giggled " Fine.. but that's just a pass not a ticket to see the show " She told me

" I just wanna see your show " I said , " Mr. Wahab!! that flirting thin you got going on is surely a new tred!! "she said stunned, I grinned " Shrayich fene ? or maybe i shouldn't be spending so much time with this full-mouthed Jazora over here " I looked at 3baid , again he looked up with his mouth full, with a (what-the-hell are-you-talking-about) Look

By night time we were both hanging out at the house " so you're going to Mariott? " he asked me

" I think i am " I said

" Alright.. i gotta go to the hospital get some papers and medicine for my dad i'll call you later? " He asked

" Sure.. " I was putting on some perfume when i saw 3baid just stop and stare at the window

I turned around, " What? "

" Nothin'.. " 3baid said casually, but i knew him too well.. i got up quickly and looked out the window " Do't tell me.. "

" I just saw a car.." He told me, " I think it's the same as before.. "

I sighed " It's alright.. whatever.. " I said, but it was far more than alright!

" Wahhaaab.. " He knew i was on to something " What are you gonna do? " i stayed quiet " Wahhab.. " He said again

I looked at him " You should go.. I got stuff to do "

" Yeah.. you got Shaikha too , and if am not mistaken she's waiting for you " My heart sank at the thought of her.. " Just don't do anything stupid yeah? " He told me as i saw a car pass by again

I didn't see it, but i had my heart set on doing something i hated doing..

" You can go 3baid.. " I said again

I texted my beautiful girlfriend waiting at the hotel by the door of an elevator that lead her to the ballroom of the wedding.. i couldn't go.. as much as i hated doing that to her.. i had to

3baid was headed to the pharmacy of the hospital when he saw a tall girl who was clearly scared, wearing a 3abaya over what appeared to be a long red dress.. her hair.. her make up.. clearly showed she was a at party before she came here..

No.. No No.. He was praying in his head it wouldn't be, but it was..

Shaikha..

Once upon a lie 26

2011-09-08T08:10:00.000-07:00

To all my lovely followers and anonymous readers, am so sorry for not posting as often as i used to but i've been having some eye problems that prevented me from using my laptop as often ;( but am, fine 3ade it's not that big! am so sorry guys i really love posting for you and i'll try as hard as i can i promise;*

Enjoy this post!!

And thank you soooo much for your sweet words

Xoxo!

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I watched her eat happily, we almost ordered half the menu. Her crazy way ofcourse.. dessert first! so we started off with some vanilla ice cream with a huge cherry on top. Then the delicious appetizers and main courses came flooding in.

I love how she's a big fan of food, not like other girls who always claim they have to watch what they eat. She didn't seem to mind, and her body wasn't too slim or too curvy.. She was just perfect. For a few seconds i wondered where it all goes, the food i mean. Then she looked at me, smiled and i forgot what i was thinking.

" Wahab? " She asked and i blinked, surprised " hmm? "

She giggled " Shfeek sar7an? "

I gave her a devilish smile and she quickly understood, she blushed and stared at her plate

" Here try this, " She picked up the spoon and fed me something " It's baby chicken with avocado's "

I HATED avocados, 'til she made me try them with that chicken. But i didn't tell her that, i just smiled and ate as she fed me, she seemed to enjoy it and i didn't mind.

" So why did you cancel the other day were you okay? you sounded weird.. " I asked casually, and then she was caught by surprise, flipping the spoon by mistake and making it fall on the ground, splashing a little sauce on my new shirt.

I was surprised to see her that way, she almost seemed.. scared. I looked at her with huge question marks over my brain, but i was mostly concerned about her.

" Am so sorry! " She was even more nervous, she tried picking the spoon off the ground but i stopped her, holding her hand.. But she took it away and reached for a napkin " Look at what i did to you, am so sorry .. " She picked up and napkin and reached for my shirt, trying to wipe it with all her strength

" Hey hey.. it's okay.. " I told her gently " It's okay " I took away the napkin, held her hand closer to my chest and pulled her towards me " Am sorry, if you don't want to tell me that's fine ". Her head was right below my chin and i breathed into her hair, i could feel her heart pounding.. But it slowed down as she settled and relaxed more into my huge arms.

" Noooo " She looked up, " It's not that.. i was just caught by surprise by the question that's all " She giggled nervously, but i knew it was much more than that..

" That's okay, i never saw you this nervous before.. and i kind of like it " I smiled crookedly at her and she made a face

" Here " I picked up my spoon and made her try my steak " Mmm goood " she smiled, and i lifted my eyebrows

" You don't like it do you?! " I asked

She crinkled her nose and smiled " Umm i think i need one more bite.. "

I smiled and fed her once again, " Now? " i asked, she looked up as if questioning it " Mmmm i don't know .. " THEN i knew what she was doing

I smiled at her " You're doing this coz you like me feeding you, don't you ? "

" Uhh yes? " She put on a smile and i almost saw a fake halo up her head

I laughed, put the spoon down and looked deep into her eyes and she looked back

" You don't have to do that you know .. inty bas ashray, i'll feed you all you want " I said brushing my finger with her cheek slowly

She didn't move away this time, like she always did when she felt shy..

She held my gaze a little longer than she did before and then looked down at the table

" Yalla, presents " i said

" No am not done with my food " She suddenly said

" Bawaklich b3d shway, bs awal a36eech el hadeyya "

" Akeed? "

I laughed and picked up the bag off the floor

I knew she was struggling when i was opening the box, she wasn't the most patient person in the world

I looked at her in the process, she was wide eyed like a kid waiting for his ice cream to be ready "Wayed 3ndech action w fu'6ool ma tgderen tan6eren afta7 el hadeyya ? "

" La2.. yo3ana magdar an6er 3ala ma akil marra thanya, bashof shkither yabeelik tba6il el hadeyya "

I stopped opening her gift and she giggled " am kidding! "

" Mo mal surprise intay "

She laughed " Wahab "

I took out the small silver necklace and reached for her neck to put it on, she seemed to shiver when i moved closer, i could see her breathing was heavier and her chest was moving with every breath.. She didn't look at me, she just waited for me to finish as i put it on

While i was straightening it, i noticed a few red marks in her neck, and a few more circles down near the heart shaped crystal, i was taken aback at first, i wondered (what was going on there?!)

I looked at her shifting in her seat " I had a little accident the other day at the dentist " She giggled " You how clumsy i can get and with the kids around " She tried to laugh but it didn't come out right to me.. i couldn't tell her a thing.. nor could i figure out what was up

I was mostly angry for her, angry at the thing that caused it and angry because she felt like she couldn't tell me

But we were having the most wonderful time and i didn't want to ruin it, i tried so hard to believe what she told me .. but if there was an expert in cuts and bruises, it was me. I figured it was just an accident she was embarrassed to tell me about .. or would tell me about eventually just not now. I could see her face, she was so sad, she felt uncomfortable and she wasn't smiling any more..

I quickly moved towards her and kissed the crown of her head " Salamat " I whispered to her, she looked up at me and her eyelashes tickled my chin, i smiled at her and i could feel her breath on my cheek

I kissed her cheek and she giggled again, i was glad.

I loved her childish grin, her crazy attitude and her silliness " NOW you can eat " I jokingly said " Not until i give you your gift, she picked up a box and opened it, it was a black watch with a silver frame, there were small silver initials in the middle ( D&G) and i loved it. It seemed like the type of thing i'd wear

" So every "time" you'd remember me! " she was excited " Get it? " she laughed " AND so you wouldn't be late again " She teased

I grinned and pulled her closer to me " Thank you " i told her, she tried to put it on my wrist "Perfect"

" Yes, you are " I took her hand into mine " NOW you should eat " I told her " Am not that hungry anymore " She blushed " Let's go, " I paid, and lead her to the car

We rolled down the windows, the weather was amazingly good, Shaikha's hair was flying and she was smiling all the way. We cruised a bit by the sea side and i never let go of her hand while i was driving, when i pressed her hand she pressed back

I had this plan, a surprise for her.. we didn't take long at the restaurant and there was still 3 hours until i had to take her home; so i drove in silence and we were both listening to Mu6rif's CD that was in my car. She was too happy i could tell, she even forgot to ask me where we were going

But of course the road was a bit long so she asked me midway " so where are you taking me now? "

" You'll see " I smiled

She didn't push it, she just waited.. But i could tell she recognized the way

" Shalaih " She grinned as we were close to pulling up to park

" I had to bring you to the first place we met "

She grinned

I lead her out and we took a very long walk along the shore, she took off her shoes and walked close to me, we talked until we were tired, The lights were all reflected on the surface of the sea and it was beautiful and calm, the sounds of the waves crashing and tickling our feet calmed us down. It was like this place missed us and was welcoming us back

On the way back, we passed by our shalaih's , next to each other.. abandoned after a long time, well, at least mine looked like it was abandoned..

When we were close enough, Shaikha freezed, squeezed my hand and held me back from moving

She seemed to be lost for words, " I had the place arranged by Mulla il 9iby .. "

She didn't talk, but she seemed to tear up. The place looked beyond incredible, i should give Mulla a very generous amount of money for what he did.

The front porch was all decorated by red flower petals laying around everywhere, small electric lights were decorating the top of the front fence and there was a table with a small box, and two chairs by it

She let go of my hand and hurried there, " This is beautiful .. " She looked around, then.. being Shaikha ATTACKED the box

There was a small cake inside and she grinned " There's no anniversary without cake " I told her, we sat and ate for a while

We were silent then, we had nothing to say we were just happy. Shaikha leaned on my chest for warmth, the cold breeze from the sea was attacking us but we didn't care

" Thank you, " She told me, not looking up " For everything " She whispered to me

" And thank you for being mine " I whispered back

Just then , interrupting the moment, was her mobile, It was time to go.

" C'mmon " we walked to the car, Mulla was standing beside it, i winked at him and gestured for him to clean up and he grinned at me

" Yalla aga7i9 feech lel bait " I said

" Wahab gilna our anniversary bs la teshta6 wayed i think you did enough for one day " I laughed and drove off

Then i got a text from 3baid:

You won't believe what just happened, i'll tell you when you get home.

Once upon a lie 25

2011-09-07T14:44:00.000-07:00

Okay the WEIRDEST thing happened! a5er marra knt msawya post eb my phone w madry enna en7a6 published!!!! so sorry guys walah! bas 7ata ma 7a6ait el takmela ;s

Here it is and am SO SORRY for the mix up!!

Love you all! my 109 Followers and my anonymous readers! ;* enjoy

P.S. Ymkin short shwayya bs la2ana takmilat 24, kanaw el mafrooth 1 post

P.S.S to make up for my mistake am making another post RIGHT now and am gonna post it for you

Xoxo

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“ Yeah but I’ll need some help.. I don’t DO shopping “

“ Fine I’ll go with you after lunch, I’ve got experience”

I stared at him wide eyed

“ Back when I had an actual girl to shop for, rakkiz! “

I laughed “ What happened 9ij?”

“ I don’t wana talk about it “

I would’ve pushed it even more, but he sounded serious and angry.. so I just dropped it “ So here we come DYNAMITE!!” I shouted to lighten up the mood and he smiled

“Hathy 7ilwa..” i held out a Swarovski necklace with a small crystal heart, it was beautiful. I imagined it on her, reflecting her dark hair and eyes and I quickly had the urge to buy it

“ Yeah that one’s nice” 3bdallah agreed

“ Baby!” I suddenly answered the phone, terrified! Hoping she didn’t see me.. I laughed nervously when I realized she was at home “ Ee ana m3a 3baid.. eheh.. ee adeg ana b3dain” I sighed after I shut the phone

3baid was looking at me up and down” 5ebel ent 5ebel?! Shfeek dageen 3alaik amn el dawla?!! Shfeek 5ayif? “

“ Ent chub la a5aleek tred eb taxi “

He rolled his eyes

I was so excited the next day, I couldn’t wait to see her. I couldn’t wait to give her the present. I took a long shower, got dressed in the newest shirt I bought from La Martina yesterday (3baid’s idea ofcourse) and was ready to go

“ Hey you..” She said into the phone, but she sounded muffled

“ Babe what’s wrong? “

“ Nothing.. nothing just umm.. can.. I know today’s is super important and I know we’ve been waiting for it but.. can we do it some other time?”

My heart sank, I was disappointed but mostly scared, what was up?

“ S-sure of course whatever you want, but can you at least tell me what’s wrong?”

“ No don’t worry walah it’s okay.. I just need to go with my father to do something and it might take a while”

“ I’ll wait for you, any time you’re ready boo” I said holding the phone tighter to my ear, hoping she’d still come

“ It’s just..” She wanted to say something I knew it” Just not today Wahhabii..” The way she said my name while she breathed into it, it was like something was aching in her, like she was hurting

“ Whatever you want” I said worriedly

“ Okay.. I’ll talk to you later” she said and quickly hung up

I was worried sick, but hoped for the best

“ She WHAT?!” 3baid said into the phone

“Al7een ana ele 9ayer fene, ent shaku met2azem?”

“ whayyib el necklaaace wel T-shiiirt, hal wagt kina ngdar nro7 n6ali3 feh el mbarat!”

“ Chub el mbarat ma3yooda, w b3dain ent ele ‘3a9ib btyee, elmohim.. wainik ent ana bamer 3amoor el dwaniya dam mako anniversary”

“ Ee yalla ana bas rayi7 achayik 3ala maw3ed el waled el sboo3 el yay.. wayeekom enshallah”

“ Mashy 9ar”

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3baid walked into the hospital, said hello to a few people at the register and checked in to arrange the appointments for his dad

“ No I told you I don’t need this, no! swair it’s a bad idea “ 3baid heard someone say behind him, he took a quick glance behind him then looked again

What the-

IT was Shaikha! What was this?

A girl was playing around with the wheelchair and Shaikha was sitting on it, she was mad.. VERY mad. The girl was fooling around and Shaikha didn’t want to be seated in there he could tell

“ Sara my dad is waiting “ She said, she suddenly met the eyes of 3baid then she flinched, quickly looking away

Her friend turned away and quickly disappeared into the hospital

He shook his head, she couldn’t have possibly skipped her anniversary to come play on a hospital chair .. But didn’t Wahab say she worked in some sort of clinic? Maybe she was working.. or maybe she was here with someone and was goofing around out of boredom..She didn’t look sick, did she?

3baid shook those thoughts away, he only saw her for a split second.. plus, she will surely explain it later to Wahab.. He didn’t have the right to talk about this. Maybe it was personal, or maybe she would tell all to Wahab later.

He left the hospital and washed those thoughts way, heading straight to 3ammar’s house.

While all the guys were sitting there, Wahab’s phone rang and he took it outside. 3baid smiled knowing it was Shaikha.. “ Good, “ He thought, “ It’ll all be cleared out to him now, it’s none of my business”.

Wahab got back and sat next to him” Soo” 3baid winked “ Was it her?”

He smiled widely” Yea.. she just got caught up.. We’re meeting next weekend for sure”

3baid smiled” Cool, Yalla shabaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaab!!” He suddenly shouted “ Kout bo 6!! “ wahab smiled and jumped in to join the circle

The following week seemed to have taken forever to come. AbdulWahab was more than excited to see his girl again..

“ Whayyib tge6ny 3ala sayarty? Ga6ha 3nd bait 7mayin ams..”

“Yalla mashy, goom bs la nt2a5ar “

While the boys drove , listening to Mu6rif’s sweet tunes Wahab suddenly shouted “ KART!!”

“ Huh? “ 3baid wondered

“ 3baid kart! Ma sharaitlaha kart!!”

“5arra3tny allah yil3an ebleees!!!! E9fe6 e9fe6 yam Markaz sil6en Salwa”

“ Yalla degeega w yay!” He left the engine running, and 3baid stayed in the car

Abdullah laughed, the girl got his cousin sprung ..

3baid was glad Wahab seemed so happy.. after all he’s been through 3 months ago, no one would recognize him now..

He was the scariest guy, a very dark sense of humor.. most people looked away when he passed them! They were too afraid he’d start a fight.

Now he was different, he seemed calm and collected.. he seemed HAPPY. He laughed and joked and his face got it’s color back.. 3bdallah was glad.. he actually wanted to thank Shaikha . She must be some girl to have did all this.

The door was opened and closed so fast making the noisiest sound ever, it was like a rock being broken

“ Woah woooow! What up dude?!!” 3baid said

Wahab didn’t talk, he just pushed the gas pedal as hard as possible, making the car SQUEACK in the process

“ whayyib shway shway shfeek ga7a9t?!! yannait??!!!”

Wahab didn’t seem to be with him at the moment

“ Whayyib! Shfeek?!” 3baid repeated

“ It’s her..”

“ WHAT?! Who? Shaikha? “

“ It’s her.. the girl I was telling you about..”

3baid was confused.. then he quickly remembered “ Oh no.. not that girl again.. “

Wahab seemed determined, he was following her

“ Whayiib la tyin! Shaikha na6retek 5al hathy twally goom roo7 7g el bnt”

Wahab didn’t answer him

“ Whayyib.. shfeek ya5ook 5alha twally shfeek..”

3baid saw that scary looking face again, there was NO talking him out of anything.. Wahab was PISSED

“ GODDD!!!” HE suddenly shouted, I” lost her!”

“ Wahab! Ge6ny bser3a w goom roo7 7g el bent! Ent yannait?! Shfeek? 5alha twally yuba shal salfa ele mo ra’6ya t5ali9? “

Wahab calmed down again, he seemed to realize what he was doing

“ You’re right.. am sorry I didn’t know what’s gotten into me” he slowly said

“ It’s not me you should apologize to.. it’s nearly 8 your girl is waiting “

Wahab looked at the clock, he looked broken.. he quickly picked up the phone and called her. Luckily she had just arrived at the restaurant and he just finished dropping 3baid off

“ Go get her dog “ 3baid punched his cousin “ and DRIVE , el tag7eeee9 el sa3a 9 3nd bara7at 7mayin bacher mo elyoom! soog wely y3afeek roo7 7g el bnya “

He laughed and drove off

When he finally arrived, he saw Shaikha wearing a light silver blouse with small crystal beads all over it and very long flowy white trousers, she looked like magic .. and the necklace would go great with it.

What the hell was I thinking?, Wahab wondered, She smiled when she saw him approach and he smiled back

How could I leave THIS waiting for me?.. He thought mesmerized by her, The waiter closed the door of their private table and he slowly sat beside her, she was still smiling shyly, when wahab looked deeper into her eyes, she looked away “ Am sorry “ He said gently

“ For what? I didn’t wait long..” She told him

“ Am just sorry “ He whispered to her again and she grinned at him

He was in love.

Once upon a lie 24

2011-08-10T06:56:00.000-07:00

Hellooooo bloggers!

Okay i know i hadn't posted since June! bas walah TAWNE m5al9a summer course ;( w i have to really work etha i want to graduate next year... ambai even the sound of it is scary! bas ana gilt 9ij i love this place w i love you guys w i love posting for you , fa mn el yooouuuum enshallah ba7awel i post kil youm

Thank you for putting up with me ;p

Enjoy the post

Xoxo

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Previously;

Wahab saw his father looking at some old pictures of Canada, PIctures that Kenzii took. Then he managed to kidnap Shaikha out of the boring party at her house and took her to a playground at the beach

3baid had realized it was Shaikha at the hospital, holding a big file of X-rays at the Cardiology department but didn't tell Wahab assuming it was for her dad who was walking along with her

Wahab had been seeing a weird girl who seemed to be almost everywhere he was, then disappearing immediately after he saw her..

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" 7abeebee.." She was brushing her hand against my face while i laid my head on her lap

I was deeply asleep and we were both sitting on a very green grass, i didn't know exactly where we were, but the weather had a nice fresh breeze and the grass felt soft and tender beneath me

I tried to open my eyes and looked up to see her soft pale skin, her light hair and wide eyes staring at me

" K-kkenzii ?? " i had a hard time saying it, what the hell was going on? where was i? why was she here?

" They said you were .. they said that it's over that you weren't- " But before i could continue, She was running across the green field so fast before i could catch a breath

" No no no .. no wait .. Kenzii " My voice was gone, don't you hate that when it happens? in dreams, when you want to scream as hard as your lungs could pull out but your voice was on mute

" NO!" I woke up shaking, astonished but then relieved that it was all just a dream

I rubbed my eyes glad it's over, what he hell?!

I went downstairs to drink a glass of water, passing by my fathers office on the way back. I stood by the door thinking whether i should go in and i finally did. He was asleep ofcourse, so i took my time and found the box, i sat down and looked at the pictures again

But there was a small picture that fell out of my reach, i picked it up and wished i hadn't..

It was her, back when she was healthy and happy, back when there was still roses on her small cheeks. She was making a face while looking at the camera sticking her tongue out, i loved it when she made that face. I tried to swallow and thought long and hard, she's gone, it's been years this is not right. I put it back in the box, Said a short prayer and i left

This wasn't fair, i had Shaikha. She helped me come out of my shell and made me a different person, she made me forget that scary, angry guy in the black hoodie

-The next day-

" No you have to hold your finger up " I heard Lulu say

" Like this? " a very bored, sleepy voice was saying

" Yes just like a princess " I said as i walked in to see 3baid and the little angel Lulu, his sister sitting on a small table with tea and cupcakes

" Int e7med rabbik enna fe yahal chan walah 3araft ared 3alaik "

" Yahal? as in plural? "

" Kanaa kannaaaaaa ka kaikaa 7g 3mi 3aballah " A chubby cute kid followed by 3 others came rushing in , holding the biggest cupcake that i've ever seen

" Yaaa b3d chabde ent yal ba66a, a5aaaaih yeebha yeebha " He picked up the cupcake and started eating

" ana ba3arf .. ent ma teste7yyy ma tgool ana shmga3dnee bain hl yahaaaal.. "

He gulped and looked up, wide eyed "Yo3an yo3an b3d shnuuu "

" Agool goom goom la a9wrik wafthe7ik rajol bil 21 mn 3omreh yohajem ma2edat a6fal goom! "

" Ooooh " He got up , pinched the cheeks of the chubby kid and left with me

" Off walah qaweyaa " He said when i told him about the dream i had

" Yeah i know, why did i even dream about that? it's too weird "

" Zain whayyib .. kanat 7ilwa bl 7lm y3ny? "

I suddenly slapped his arm, " 7mar ent? 7mar ent?!!! ana al7een gama golik elshay elmohim went ts2alny etha kanat 7ilwa?!! "

" Ya5ee zain zaaaain la t6eeeggg yah! ndre enik til3ab 7adeed bs 3aaad shway shway tawne ana badee takweer "

" Chub chub bs sadait nfsii 7ata mali 5lg akil "

" Whayyib P. F. Chang's 6efa ellaffa " He turned his head looking behind us

" Bawadeek falafel sharaf w y5eb 3alaik 3e8ab "

" Whayyib!!! el youm off abe dynamite whayyib! tara age6 nfsii !! age6 nfsii !!!" e held the door and i laughed so hard

" Zain bs yalla ray7een ray7een! yuba lazm agool sera7t w '6aya3t ellafa y3ny? " i told him

" Sera7t la2anna tethakkart jamalha bil 7ilm? " He winked at me, i gave him a deadly stare then he flinched

" Chinna ma63am eljam3eyya 3nd barakat elhindii y5eb 3alaik b3ad "

" 7ayat elkka3ba ma3eedha 5ala9 5ala9 " He whispered, put a finger on his mouth and i smiled

" It's our 2 month anniversary next week .. "

" Woah dude! that's big! chicks dig jewelry you sohuld get her something "

Once upon a lie 23

2011-06-04T12:49:00.000-07:00

Hellloooooo bloggers!

Now now i know what most of you are thinking : "hathy mn wain 6al3a" some of you might even be very upset with me too ;p Well am sorry i've been laying low these past months but i had A LOT going on ;( but the good news is! am here and back with a new post! hopefully a kick-butt awesome one too! so getting away from all the tension and the finals and the studying here's your post!

P.s. i really missed you guys, goodluck to all and enjoy ;*

P.s.s. ( if there's such thing;p ) sorry i hadn't been visiting alot of blogs lately but i promise i'll get to it as soon as am free

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Previously;

" okay so you saw a girl trying to cross the street, so what? "

" It wasn't just ANY girl 3baid, I feel like i know her from somewhere.. "

-

" Hey dude where are you ? i been calling you " I said into the phone to 3baid

" Sorry man , i had to take my dad to the hospital he couldn't drive "

3baid noticed a tall, cocoa skinned young lady in sweats and a pony tail whom didn't take much notice of him and she looked very familiar except .. he couldn't quite remember where he'd seen her before. She was alone holding alot of papers and one big envelope he'd guessed as X-rays

Shaikha!

-

At the restaurant, Whayyib turned without much consciousness suddenly to realize it was the same girl from the restaurant , staring him down

" Thats it " Wahab snapped and suddenly started walking there without any notice for his best friends

" It was the girl from the supermarket 3baid .. it must be "

Then 3bdaid suddenly remembered seeing her at the hospital today. Was he supposed to talk to Wahab about that?

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" Where are you? " I said into the phone smiling

A beautiful childish giggle came through the other end of my phone " Am not saying "

" Tell me "

" No "

" c'mon Shayou5 it's a weird coincidence we're at the same place w we just figured it out please tell me where you are "

" How do i know you're not a stalker? "

" I don't DO stalking girl, stalking does me "

" I'm trying on a dress i can't see you! "

" Even more appealing, now i wanna see you even more "

" Wahab "

" Fine sorry, golele i promise mara7 adar3em wala ma7al banat .. at least not without your permission "

" Coast "

" Okay now location ? "

" am not telling you "

" Not again , why not? "

" It's more fun seeing you wander around looking in every girl store so people would think you're a weirdo "

" People already think am a scary freak, now you want me to do this? "

" Oh it would be my pleasure " She grinned

Just when she said that I gazed up to see a big sign with the store's name on it

" Too late , i found you "

" WhaT? "

" Am here.. outside , where are you? "

" In the dressing room "

" That would make me a weirdo , a freak and a criminal if i come in "

There was that giggle again

" Wait.. "

" What? " I asked before i went on walking

" You're going? "

" You didn't want to see me and you're a lady in a dressing room .. am not going against your wishes "

She giggled again and i felt someone was watching me so i turned to see from the store's glass window , relatively far a tall beautiful object was smiling at me , doing a little wave

" Woah " was all that escaped my mouth

" What? "

" What are you doing ? "

" Waving at you outside the dressing room, they don't let me out further wearing this dress "

I couldn't see properly because of the dresses that were stalked all over the store, all i saw was was her standing tall with a pretty face

" Okay.. why don't you change and come out, we could go somewhere.. eat or talk.. "

" No "

" Again , what's up babe you slept on the wrong side of bed last nighT? or did you get a visit from the no monster? "

She laughed " Hey you picked up the story of the no monster at the dentist "

" Yeah well , you made me spend all that time with those kids "

" Oh stop they weren't that bad , you loved it! "

" come out i want to see you "

" Nooo it's more fin this way " and she waved again

" Oh so am the weirdo here? that lady should kick you out of her store "

" Oh i didn't say am not a weirdo, people just don't know it yet "

I kept staring at her, i couldn't look away " I missed you , you know "

" I missed you even more " she looked at me and we gazed at each other for a while, then the lady inside stared at me too which ruined the moment. I saw Shaikha smile and get back in the dressing room

" Heeey you went just like thaT? "

" Like i said , it's more fun this way "

" When will i see you again ? "

" I don't know , i told you we have this party at house today.. "

" Yeah which explains cinderella's dress"

" You really learned alot from those kids huh? "

" Moving on shaikha "

" I'll try to call you tonight if it's as awaful as i think it will be "

" Okay.." I said slowly walking away towards the store where i left 3baid looking through a maze of T-shirts

" Okay "

" Goodbye prince charming "

" Bye cinderella "

" No way you're still here?! " i told 3baid as i entered the shop he was in

" Don't look at me like that , i took some time while i was trying a few T-shirts in the fitting room "

" Yeah i bet you didn't stand there waving at people form the shop's window huh? "

" WhaT? "

" Nevermind just pay am starving "

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" Oh hey dad, i didn't know you were home " i entered the office of my father to see him sitting there with a small box in front of him " I just saw the light was one and i came to-"

" Nevermind son "

" What are looking at? "

" Ah just some pictures.. "

" Oh is that from that trip we took i-"

" Ah no no.. " He seemed to have interrupted me fast, he suddenly seemed uneasy ..

I looked at him waiting for him to speak again,

" It's just ahh.. nothing just.. some pictures from uhh .. you know when we were at Canada.. "

His voice was suddenly smaller, i was taken aback by the response but it was okay hearing it .. i guess, i didn't know what i really felt.

I moved a bit closer to his desk but i saw my dad move in his chair, he was uncomfortable , he tried to arrange some papers laying there as well, a newspaper and finally the pictures..

But i took a few before he reached for that pile, then a small one fell on the floor and i reached for it

The picture was of me..

Dressing up in my dark grey hoodie, my face almost hidden , my half smile and my pale color showing only from the side .. and i quickly felt my body flench

I remember this , i remember the exact moment it happened..

My father was ordering at some diner back in Canada and me and Kenzii were hanging outside , she had just bought a new camera she was excited about anf she was snapping pictures of everything that came her way, knowing i wasn't a picture person she pushed me even more to do it..

But all i gave her was half a smile , ofcourse .. all the emotion of happiness i could take out at that time

I didn't want to remember this, i didn;t want to feel this ..

It was weird and uncomfortable and .. well sad.

theni knew why my father wasn't inviting me over to see these, i tried to put it back in the box but then i saw more pictures, of places mostly .. the old cheese shop, a historical pole by the street next to our house.. the garden my dad used to sit and read in ..

And then i had to be out of there, i've seen enough for one day i guess

I wasn't as sensitive about it like before though so that was good, but it wasn't easy either

" I'll see you dad " I said before i walked out, my father was startled too and even he didn't know what to say

" Bye son " i heard him call after me

It was no one's fault, i wasn't mad at anyone this time, i wasn't miserable either i just wanted to go get some peace.

I drove for a while smelling the beautiful night air listening to my favorite Mu6rif songs..

Some of the things i picked up from my boys here, when suddenly i got a phone call and i instantly felt a little perkier than before

" Hey " she said casually into the phone and i imagined her pretty face

" Hey you "

" So are you ready to be kidnapper for the day? "

" Woah wooooow hold it , we just finished the whole prince and cinderella thing take it easy on me am still learning these things, and plus i didn't say i'll play these crazy games of yours again "

She laughed at me " Well am about to change that attitude of yours, am at this boring thing and i can't stay here a minute longer it's all old people and business and weird memories that i don't even remember "

" What? i thought you're still at that store waving at people, didn't that lady hire you? "

" Are you coming or not? "

I found myself laughing and driving by the directions she gave me

I pulled the car near what looked like Shaikha's description and waited for her , waited for a WHILE

Fast enough i jumped as the locks of my car were being tackled and all i saw was a body jumping in my back seat and telling me to "GO GO GO!"

I parked at the nearby beach just like she asked me to , and got down to open up the door for her

I saw her long leg touch the ground at first , then she was able to come out, holding my hand for support

" Oh my god those shoes were impossible i had to take them off! " I never seen a person breathe and speak so fast

I stood there , bedazzled again looking at her glowing with her bare feet and a long light purple dress. Her short hair was straightened and was held by a small silver band

" That dress is not fair "

She smiled at me and gave me a smile that made me weak

" Am serious she should've hired you , people won't resist coming in the store "

" Let's go " She took my hand and lead me to small area that looked like a playground by the shore

" What is this "

" My favorite place on earth "

She slightly lifted her long dress so she could walk around the sand, her bare feet beautifully gliding in and out of the sand and i just followed her, amazed by her

" So you want to tell me how you managed to escape? "

" It was one of the most dangerous exciting things i've done so far "

" Am surprised you haven't bungee jumped without strings "

" I won't be missed "

" looking like that? i think you'd be missed pretty much "

" Well lucky for you , am giving you the pleasure of my company " She surprised me as she turned around brushing against my chest smiling

" Lucky for you i have the time to drive you around , i get paid by the hour miss "

She turned around again and gracefully slid on one of the swings , " Come push me "

I smiled and went to stand behind her , slowly balancing the swing " the weather is amazing today " i said, trying to distract myself from looking at her, even watching her from the back was just as pretty

" I know " She closed her eyes and enjoyed the moment " This is one of the things i love "

" Oh yeah? then we're doing this every day "

" Yeah , this and snow "

" Snow?! "

" Yes "

" Okay that's it , it's my turn next "

She laughed at me and the nice breeze carried her lovely smelling perfume through my nostrils

" I wanna jump out " She suddenly said

" What? "

" I wanna try to jump out of this "

" After all this effort am giving to push you no way ! "

She giggled " i am "

" Shaikha stay where you little lady i don;t know much about clothes but that dress wasn't designed for jumping "

She giggled again and i knew she wasn't listening to me , so i hurried in front and found myself holding her as soon as she stood up

She lowered her head and focused her gaze at me " I told you i wanted to jump "

" And i said no way " I looked down at her the same way

" You're ruining my jumping boy "

" am sure you have plenty of time to do that later "

" You're just holding me like this because you're afraid am gonna run and then no one will push you on the swing "

" You got me "

She giggled and slowly put her hands around my neck

" and you're tricking me into giving you another ride "

She laughed " You got me "

I reached for the crown of her head and kissed it gently " you hungry? " I asked

" Always" She said

Once upon a lie 22

2011-03-09T09:06:00.000-08:00

Helloooooooooooo everyone ! ;*

Am sorry i've been a bad blogger bas walah am trying to post as much as i can with all the stupid Uni. load ;( anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay i missed you ! and i missed Blogger!

Here's your pooooooooooooost XD Enjoy it !

LoveYou

Xoxo

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Previously;

" okay so you saw a girl trying to cross the street, so what? "

" It wasn't just ANY girl 3baid, I feel like i know her from somewhere.. "

-
God knows what Shaikha had in mind for our " hangout " but i was scared. honestly , i was even more scared than those kids. Kind of

" Am glad you came " She grinned at me "Remember when i told you i volunteer for my sister's dental office? Well here i am! and you're doing it with me! "

I hadn't done anything like this before. But , for what it's worth .. I actually enjoyed it

-

" Dude look at what that girl has done to you ! you're so sprung! " 3baid told me

" I know " I smiled , remembering Shaikha's face

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" Hey dude where are you ? i been calling you " I said into the phone to 3baid

" Sorry man , i had to take my dad to the hospital he couldn't drive "

" What?! 3asa ma shar sh9ayir?!! "

" Ma shar ma shar bs tdre el walid mareeth galb w sukkar w 7ala. ta3ab shway w omii galatla lazm tye tchayik inna kil shy ok wana aked mara7 a5alih ysog bro7a "

" Kafu wallah weld el3am "

" 7beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeb , wainik ent ?"

" Walah maku kna bne6la3 kilna m3a elshabab 7mayin tawa dag .. "

" La 5ala9 ent roo7 ma3ahom ana bs a5ali9 aye "

" 5ala9 mashe , slaam "

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" Yalla yuba we9alna , " 3baid parked his R8 and opened up the door making his father lean on his shoulder for support

" Gitlik ma fene shay yuba roo7 7g rab3ik " his father told him " Tara ana a3rf asoog"

3baid laughed

" Ma gilt ent ma t3rf yuba, " 3baid gestured for a porter to bring his father a wheelchair

" Yuba 5l ywadeek oho 3ala ma ana a5ali9 awragik wayee " He picked up some papers at the counter and made his way to the specialty ward of Heart And Arteries

He picked up the pace noticing the doctor approaching his father, scanning through the halls he noticed many elderly people with their sons or daughters, some were even children .. And-

Wait, His mind snapped isn't that? ..

He noticed a tall, cocoa skinned young lady in sweats and a pony tail whom didn't take much notice of him and she looked very familiar except .. he couldn't quite remember where he'd seen her before. She was alone holding alot of papers and one big envelope he'd guessed as X-rays, but it wasn't long until an older man approached her. Probably her father, he'd thought, moving on and paying more attention to his own

" Ha yuba , hala dktoor "

" Ahlain , ent yay m3al waled ? " The doctor shook his hand

" Ee na3am "

" Tfathelaw 3nde bil maktab "

3baid nodded at the porter as he took the wheelchair away and entered the examination room turning one last time before he went in, there was nothing there.

He got a message from Wahab : E7na eb 360 bnte3asha bs t5ali9 sayyer, na6reenik 3al 3asha.

He closed it up and then an idea hit him like a volt, NOW he remembers the girl ..

Shaikha!

Was she here with her father as well? he wondered.

He looked fine to me .. He thought, She on the other hand .. looked rather .. upset?

He quickly shook it off and paid more attention to the doctor and his dad

" Hala bil 7beeeeeeeeeb " 3ammar greeted and the guys were grinning at 3baid as he finally arrived

" Basher shloun elwaled " 7amanni asked

" Walah el7mdelah mako shay bs tdre lazm nchayik 3alaih "

" Lama t5ali9 ana yay weyak ashoof 3ammi " Wahab told him

" 7ayyak " 3baid slapped his shoulder, " Sh6ilabtaw 3ad? Mayyyyeettt yooo3 ! yeebolyy kil el menu "

" W min gallik 3ammoor ma 6ilabha kilha ? " 7amanni said only to be punched by 3ammar

" Wedde marra ag3ad washoof hal athnain 7abeen ba3ath " 3bdallah commented

" La embala kanaw 7abeen ba3ath awal ma ga3adna .. 5 degayig chthy b3dain 5la9 bs radaw 7g 6abee3at'hom " Wahab told him

" Yaaaaa 7abeebee ent whayyib , dawerlik ride ha? mo ana ele baridik elbait " 3ammar said

" Ana mawjood afa 3alaik ya weld el 3am ezhalha " 3baid slapped his back

" Walah lo agdr chan 3erath't 5adamaty ya bol shabab bs 3amoor yayebne mabe anga6 bil dabba " abdulrahman offered

" 7beeb 7mayyin 7beeb " Wahab laughed and looked away only to meet eyes with a girl sitting across the restaurant locking her eyes on him and only him, like there was no one else there ..

Wahab frowned and tried to concentrate on her face, but once she noticed he was looking at her she looked away, not giving him much chance with the darkness of the restaurant as it is ..

" Whayyiiiibbb " 7amanni was trying to get his attention

" Ha? " He suddenly blinked looking at his friend

" We9al 6alabik shfeek ? " he told him

" Ha ee yalla besmilah ! " He grinned , 7amanni shook his head and looked at where Wahab was looking ,

" Etha 3ajbik el 7beeb ele gam ywa9il el akil hnak tara gool 3ade ma7ad bya7kom 3alaik hne "

Wahab laughed " SHNU?! "

" e7terem el ni3ma wel reyayeel ele ga3deen jidamik yalla 3ad! " 3ammar threatened giving him a scary look

Wahab looked over again and she was gone. All thats left was an Indian waiter trying to pick what's left of the food, Now he knew what 7amanni meant

He wiped his forehead and took a long sip from his coke , what the hell was going on in here? Why the HELL was that girl staring at me like that?

3bdallah's phone rang and he pressed ignore and continued on with his food,

" La laah , that can't be good " Wahab commented

" Met'hawesh m3al 9a7baa marra thania el3bd ? " 3ammar asked

" Ma 3aaash mn yaglib wayhik chthy ya el3bd wala yhimmik yal 7beeb " 7amanni said

" La yubaa ma7ad 9a7ba ! " He laughed, " Turns out they all want the same thing .. Money and what money brings "

Wahab stopped eating " Sh9ar bo 3baid ? thak elyoum knt betdawerlaha hadeyat 3eedmilad, ma kan fekom shay "

" Am done bro .. " He shook his head " Ana ma tamshe 3nde hal naw3eyya.. ta3al eshtarle w ta3al 7e6ly w a5er shay ashofha laffa 3ala wa7ed thanii "

" Let me guess , a guy with Ferarri this time? " 3ammar asked

" Woah , ouch man " 7amanni commented

" You're better than that 5twalli .. ent ma tbe tanzel le hal mostawa " Wahab comforted

" Afa 3alaik bs fe malyoon '3airha , " 3ammar told him

" Ma7ad mlyoon , am done. Mane mnazel nfsii elaa laama ashof ele testahal tkon 9ij 7agge "

3ammar grinned " tell me about it bro " He grinned " I was a worse player than 7mayiin and now Am the happiest man on earth with the best family anyone could ever hope for "

" Woooooooooooh chub chub wely y3afeek mo layig " 7amanni told him messing up his face

" Walaaaaih 9ij wai3 3ad ya jima3aa shal mood el5ayes , 5aloona nakil nfs el awadem shyab el6arii el5ayes hatha " 3baid laughed

" 5 more lolipops, 4 buffalo shrimps and 2 midnight burgers siiiiiirrrr " The waiter suddenly interrupted

" Ayabaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa "

" 7e6aa 7e6aa hnee! "

" Aaaa5 bas 3al ree7aa "

They all laughed and continued on with their food forgetting everything about the conversation earlier

Once the boys were done, they took a little tour of the place before heading to the parking lot

" Wana agooool shyab thaka2 7mayyin faj2aa , 6ila3 elmawthoo3 3n elseyayeer el7beeb la tklmaa yensaa 7atta 3omraa! " 3baid was saying

" Lo bas yfla7 eb shay thanii ma tshoofa mjabil wyoohna elsa3eeda 24 sa3a " 3ammar told him

" Chub agool " 7amanni defended

The boys were arguing when suddenly 7amanni hit Wahab's arm lightly , " Whayyib la y6oofik ele hnak labsa aswad "

Whayyib turned without much consciousness suddenly to realize it was the same girl from the restaurant , staring him down like she was on a mission .. like she was about to attack ..

Just when Wahab started staring back, frowning to recognize her features she suddenly turned and disappeared into the crowd

" Thats it " Wahab snapped and suddenly started walking there without any notice for his best friends

" Wow whayyib where are you going man ?! " 7amanni called after him

" Shfee hathA? " he heard 3ammar ask

" Oh no , i just hope he doesnt do anything stupid ," 3baid sighed and quickly ran after him " Whayiibbb "

But there was no use , the pace of Wahab's legs and the weight in his steps said something was up ..

The look on his face was not securing at all..

Something BAD was about to happen , 3baid just knew it

Finally after being able to catch up with his cousin's crazy marathon, 3baid found Wahab standing in the parking lot breathing heavily and too buried in his own thoughts

" DUDE, you scared the hell out of me what's going on ? "

Wahab didn't turn around " It was her .. am POSITIVE " He said through his gritted teeth , it's been a loooong time since 3baid saw his cousin so scary looking ..

A very very long time. He sort of reminded him of the old Wahab ..

Wahab before all of this ..

" Whayyib what the hell are you talking about bro? " He put his hand on his shoulder to calm him down. He just hoped wahab wouldn't take a chance to punch him in the face

" Nothin' " He suddenly said and stopped to breathe

" Let's just go " He said , and they both hopped in 3baid's tinted Audii

He didn't want to push it so he decided to wait for Wahab to calm down, when they were half way home , Wahab started to talk

" It was the girl from the supermarket 3baid .. it must be "

3baid suddenly pulled away his foot from the gas pedal to slow down , " Dude .. you sure?"

" 7mayyin seeing her makes her real. I wasn't imagining that night at the supermarket .."

" Bro there were ALOT of girls there wearing black .. "

" Am not crazy 3baid "

" And am not saying you are .. "

" Let's just let this go am tired man "

" Sure watever you say "

Wahab's phoe suddenly rang and he picked it up

" Hey baby " he said with His dark, deep voice

Abdullah bit his lip in worry, Wahab's tone didn't change ..

He was still angry as hell ..

What worried him even more was that Shaikha's own voice didn't effect his cousin like it always does , not this time.

Then he suddenly remembered seeing her at the hospital today. Was he supposed to talk to Wahab about that? ofcourse it wasn't his place ..

And He certainly wasn't going to do so now while Wahab was in this condition but, should he?

He didn't know. He just drove.

Once upon a lie 21

2011-03-01T12:35:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone!

Am baaaaaaack ! so heeeeerrrre's your next post, hope you enjoy it! love you ;*

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Previously;

" okay so you saw a girl trying to cross the street, so what? "

" It wasn't just ANY girl 3baid, I feel like i know her from somewhere.. "

Shaikha was half asleep in her friend's car, her heart was still pounding and butterflies won't go away , the time she had with 3bdelWahab was just .. perfect.

" Just .. be careful " Shaikha suddenly slapped herself back into reality hearing her fried out. And even though it's only been a little while, she felt like she'd known 3bdelwahab all her life. Like Wahab had said, there was a certain vibe people often got from him. But she didn't see it, he may have been a lot of things in the past, but he wasn't anymore.. at least not with her.

" you know me better than anyone else Swair i KNEW there was something .. something in him that made him so miserable and captured as a prisoner in his own soul. I want to make it GO AWAY "

Here sat Shaikha , the bravest, craziest, most beautiful girl she knew talking about making some guy's life a " happy summer " again , while her own was in jeopardy.

Yes, in spite of her misfortune .. Shaikha had a deeper secret that only the closest people to her knew.

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For an entire week i didn't hear from Shaikha except for the various texts we sent each other every once in a while. I didn't know what was going on with her and i didn't want to be impolite and ask. If she wanted to tell me something, she'd tell me in her own terms, i told myself.

I was in the shower when i heard my phone ring, " Whayyib ! el7ag el9a7ba gam tdeg !" I heard 3baid shout, he knew i was eager to hear from her. Even though i tried to hide it every single time he brought the subject of her up, he caught me. It was no secret that i missed her ever since i saw her the other day at the cafe and she turned my offers to go out down. Both offers.

" Uhh .. can you get it man? am kind of busy, just tell her i'll call right back " i called out

" Uhh .. o-kay .. " I heard uncertainty in his voice , but he picked up the phone anyway " Alow " He answered in his very 3baid like voice, friendly but not too eager voice, i heard a pause go on for a while .. then i heard him say " Uhh.. no, this is 3baid Wahab's cousin, yeah he's in the shower right now i'll tell him to call you right back.. alright.. Bye. "

I finally stepped out of the bathroom to see my cousin's face totally dumbfounded and i laughed " Shfee wayhik "

" Duuude .. " He shook his head " Just call the girl "

I laughed again at his face , picked up the phone and went to the other room so i can change.

" How about i see you today? " I wanted to fake indifference , but i was just RELIEVED she suggested it. I really did want to see her.

" Today's great. Just tell me when and where " i shut the phone and went in again to see 3baid laying on the bed staring at the ceiling

" Ha what are we doing today? "

" Went shaku 3ashan tijma3? "

" WhAT? i thought we did everything together " he gave me a dumb look lifting both his hands up in the air

" 3baid , i told you this many times .. just coz your girlfriend left you and you have no life now, you can't take mine "

He gave me a puppy face " No that's only cute when Lulu does it "

" Maaaaaaaaaan " He got up hesitantly " Can we at least go somewhere where there are hot girls later? "

" Fine. Just please give me 10 minutes to get dressed "

" I'll miss you too much man "

" 3baid wely yer7am omik , shalla5tne "

" Aight am gone " And with that his head disappeared

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Elsewhere

" Noooooooooooooooo " A little kid was pulling his hand away from his mother

" Ya mama ya 7abeebee maku shay i promise ma y3awer " the mother was pulling back , feeling both useless and tired

" uhh .. This isn't exactly what i had in mind " I entered to see a room full of kids crying and screaming , others were just sitting there , scared. Perhaps i didn't mention where i was , i was at a private dental office. Yes, a dental office.

God knows what Shaikha had in mind for our " hangout " but i was scared. honestly , i was even more scared than those kids. Kind of.

" AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH " Another girl with pretty honey locks of hair sat in a chair crying her eyes out , her mouth wide open and her father was sitting helplessly next to her, probably out of encouragement words and wanting to cry himself.

I approached a young kid about 6 years old with chocolate skin and very short hair formed in little curls, and sat next to him.

" Hey man, " the boy looked at me with his wide eyes and wasn't interested at all , i tried to form what should've been a smile but am sure it was something completely different that made the boy turn his head with even less interest than before

" So , scary place? " I asked and he looked at me again with the same cold expression " No? oh okay than guess you're the tough dude around here. But guess it's good to see other kids cry and scream and you're the one who gets the sticker and the pride of being strong after all huh? " I joked and tried to playfully punch him ,but his eyes grew wider , waiting for me to finish as if he had more interesting things to do than sit and listen to me

" Wahab ! " I heard someone clap and i lifted my head to see a tall, tanned beauty infront of me, she was wearing what appeared to be a white coat and her straight black hair was up in a ponytail. She looked simply distracting.

I got up "Hello " i said smiling crookedly at her " Is this another weird one of your things? you're secretly a baby Dr. ? no no wait , you run this business to scare the hell out of little kids just for fun "

" Am glad you came " She grinned at me , the grin that scares but also excites me " and What were you saying to that poor kid? " she moved her head around my shoulder to look at the boy i was next to, He was tilting his head to look at us

" 5 minutes and you already made a friend huh? " She said smiling

" yeah a pretty good friend too " i said sarcastically

She looked at me like she knew what i was up to

" So where exactly would we hang out , you wana sit on those little chairs and play with the blocks , or you wana go sit in the pink waiting room where everyone has a huge cotton in their mouth ? "

" No silly. Remember when i told you i volunteer for my sister's dental office? "

" Yyyess.. " I said carefully examining her face

" Well here i am! and you're doing it with me! " There's that scary grin again

" Uh-oh .." i said still looking at her hoping she'd laugh and say it was a joke, but with this girl .. nothing was a joke.

" C'mmon , you're going to give away toothbrushes! " She said excitedly and led the way

" Brush your teeth " I warned a little boy holding his cotton ball in his mouth tightly " No one likes bad teeth , you're not gonna get gir- " Shaikha stood behind him and made a gesture for me to stop talking " gggood grades! " I finally said and she grinned

The kid looked confused but took the toothbrush anyway

Another girl came in line and i handed her the toothbrush " You should brush your teeth everyday, no matter how beautiful you are those teeth are going to ruin your l-" Interrupted again by Shaikha's hand gestures , i stopped and smile " Your lovely teeth " i softened my voice and the girl left , well, at least that one didn't glare at me. I thought.

Another kid came "Look , dude. Just brush your teeth okay? you get this toothbrush right here and you wash em up alright? " The kid nodded with big dopey eyes and hurried away

I got up " this job is harder than i thought " i complained. Shaikha crossed her hands and looked at me " But am glad you're here to make it easier " I moved closer to her

" Nice save " she giggled and turned away quickly before i could speak or get lost in her sharp features again. So i went back to my toothbrushes

" Oh no no no no please don't cry , please don't cry " I heard Shaikha say in her melody-like voice , i looked up to see her calming a scruffy looking kid who didn't look pleased

The kid was crying silently but all the others were looking at him and were scared as well. This isn't good , i thought. Shaikha then turned her head to look at me with a pleading look

" Me , no " I signaled for her , what the hell did i know about calming kids?

Not able to resist her face i got up anyway, " Hey .. " I managed to say at the short dude , He stopped crying for a second and looked up at me

" What's wrong little man? " I knelled down to his level " You're teeth are hurting? "

The kid nodded, Shaikha smiled and walked away feeling like i could handle it. But i couldn't! I looked like a sick kid myself when i saw her walk away from me

" Uhh .. " I looked at the boy again " i um- hate when that hAPPENS too " i nodded " But you know what the best part is? if you brush your teeth after every ice cream cone and candy cane you eat you're good to go! " The boy looked up at me with a ray of hope in his eyes

" Am serious man you can have the whole deal, candy, chocolates and milkshakes. But you gotta brush okay? and don't over do it! " I warned again and he stared at me in fear, " But girls LOVE a guy with good teeth , " I winked at him and he laughed at me. " And also, don't tell the tall pretty girl over there i said that " He nodded and smiled. Phew, i thought. That didn't go so bad.

I got up again and saw Shaikha from afar calling the names of the children in office to go in, i paused for a second to just stare at her like i always do When i want to have the time to analyze her. She was weird , with the craziest theories and ideas i've ever heard, but maybe that's what's gotten me so sprung up. I dont know what exactly she had on me, i was standing in a dental office trying to stop kids form going wild. I played it over in my head and thought it would be a very funny joke to tell the guys, But for that moment, i just wanted to enjoy it.

I hadn't done anything like this before. But , for what it's worth .. I actually enjoyed it.

Shaikha finally looked my way and smiled.

" Ready to go hang out with people older than the age of 7? " She asked as she took her lab coat off

I smiled at her and bit my lip " There's one particular person i had in mind " She giggled and i followed her outside

" But please , take me anywhere that doesnt have desserts, i got scared after i saw all those cavities "

" There goes my appetite " i commented

She punched me

Am sorry .. What did you just say?

2011-02-22T11:40:00.000-08:00

Hey guys , am sorry I've been out for i don't know how long! but i couldn't post for personal reasons ..

I had an urge to write you a post. It's not a new part from the current story " Once upon a lie " But it's an epilogue of an old one .. or i guess you could call it that for i don't really know if it's the end of my work or a start of another ..

I just know i had to write this , for all the fans of " My beautiful disaster "

Here we go ;*

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" No but daddy you don't understand ! " I was yelling my heart out , my father was a beautiful , wonderful man .. i loved every inch of him ..

But when he got angry, he was another person.

The thing that started the fight is not really worth mentioning. My father is a sick man : high blood pressure , diabetes and he has very low tolerance although he's very young to have all that ..

We're 3 girls in the house and he tries his best not to make any one of us cry .. no matter what the reason was. Yes, we were treated like little princesses and were handed anything we ever asked for ..

All my daddy asked in exchange was respect and nothing else. That day, i had a stupid fight with my sisters .. yes , sounds stupid i know, But when you have 3 girls running around the house and each accuses the other of doing something and yelling starts , you lose it.

" La t3alleen 9outich " He gritted his teeth at me , it was the scariest face i'd ever seen him give ..

" Ma 3alait 9outii ! " Oh , but i did.

Without a warning , i saw a big slap come my way ..

I was 18 years old at the time, and my own father just hit me.A slap on the face. After 18 years of age .. he just hit me.

I stood there humiliated in front of my younger sisters and my mother who was surprised herself, biting her lips and looking at us in shock.

I stared at him for what seemed like forever , his eyes weren't my daddy's eyes .. i was no longer his angel ..

" La t6al3eenee chthy ! " He yelled again. Couldn't believe it i ran upstairs so fast and closed the door behind me

I hadn't cried that hard in a very long time. The issue was very stupid and i didn't deserve what he gave me, But i have witnessed my father go through a very hard time in the past couple of weeks .. We all noticed.

Things were crazy at work, stock market gone wild and every little issue that comes up in the family , my dad had to take care of .. and then there was us. And i admit we can be a handful sometimes.

I cried until i couldn't see what was in front of me, but i knew there was one person i wanted to talk to .. i don't know why or what the hell i was thinking..

I just grabbed the phone and dialed.

" Alo? " His voice was as surprised as i was. Clear, beautiful and angel-like

" Faris " I managed to say between sobs

" Angel ? Shfeech tabcheen 7yaty? 9ayer shay?! " There it was , that word..

You remember the end of my story right? i don't know how long it has been since i last talked to him, and there he was talking to me like nothing had changed.

" Faris oboy 6agne.. " I couldn't believe the words that came out of my own mouth! My father was NOT like that .. and everyone knew.

" O55 ! SHloun , LAISH?! "

" Madree salfa sa5eefa.. Faris .. 6agne "

" Allah yhada shfeeh? laish eb shnu mza3leta entay? "

" Madree .. madree mo 3arfa afakker .. " I was crying endlessly

" My5alif Angel my5alif .. ana elwalad cham marra ya36eenee wa7da chthy wana ga3ed .. bil n3al bil eed ele tabeena "

That was the Faris i knew and loved. No, scratch that .. Know and STILL LOVE. He could make the worst situations seem meaningless , he could take you out of the very worst situation and turn it into a joke .. ofcourse, i ended up laughing. I always ended up laughing when talking to Faris. yes, Past tense now.

" Am sorry " I wiped my tears , " I hadn't called you in forever and suddenly i call crying my heart out and i didn't even say hello "

" La it's okay 7yaty entay, mes7y dmoo3ech "

" Faris am sorry , i just didn't want to talk to anyone else ..i knew your voice was the one i wanted to hear "

" I know "

There was a long pause before we started speaking again. He was trying so hard to make me forget and it kind of worked.. But the mark on my cheek was much .. much worse..

It was almost a week and my father and i hadn't even exchanged looks. There was ofcourse lunch and the endless efforts of my sisters to get us to talk again. Until one day he called me to his room ..

We talked and talked and talked until my tears started pouring , he smiled at me " Enty laish gam tabcheen al7een? "

" La2anik ma t7ebne "

" Fe a7ad ma y7eb bnta? hatha elkalam 3adil? "

" You NEVER hit me! You never Yell at me baba "

" 7aggich 3lay "

He kissed the top of my head that day and i cried even harder. I love my father, and i never would've asked for a better one.

" 3a6aitaw Angel hadeyat'ha? " i heard him call out

My mother came in them with a small black box in her hand, inside was the cutest Red Chanel wallet with hearts all over.

I smiled and hugged him. " Tara ana mnaggeeh "

I went to sleep that night so happy i almost jumped on it. But all i could do was stare at my ceiling remembering Faris's voice that day ..

How i called him and he answered immediately, comforting me without hesitation,or a second thought, not even a question of why the hell i was calling. Talking to me like there was no bad past to begin with ..

How proud i was i had a guy like that in my life. How badly sick i felt wen i hung up coz i missed his lovely , lovely voice.

" Etha youllich nas terthain ? " My aunt called me up one day , it was the end of my first year in college

" What?! 3amety mn galich ana a9lan abe atzawaj?! " It was my aunt Salwa , the wife of Faris's father who stopped living with the married couple after an incident that no one agreed to tell me about.

" A7acheech , hatha ele enty na6reta mara7 eyee " My heart immediately sank, she knew .. and his father knew ..

It was no mystery the love Faris and i shared. But my aunt Salwa was my best friend.. and we were never dishonest with each other.

My heart sank as i heard her say that. She didn't say his name but i knew her point. I WAS thinking about him , but he wasn't the reason i didn't want to get married ..

I was still young and struck by what she just threw at me! i wasn't ready to get married! i wasn't even marriage material! i still skip when i walk the hallway, i still Clap when me and the kids go buy candy and go all hyper when i see Barney and Spongebob!

" Mohandes mashallah w bya5thech w ykamil derasta barra , 3ndihom 5air mashallah wana a3rf 3ammata yhabloun, be7e6ounich b3yonhom "

I was quiet , was she serious?

She sighed and decided it was no use, When the phone got handed to another person

" Alo "

" Hala 3ammee " It was his fsther , crazy how they sounded so much alike

" Hala eb Anoon , ha shfeech yuba m3a 3ammetech?" He was the coolest man , he was great and funny and .. Just like Faris.

" Elwalad zain w ma yn3ab , enty laish mo rathya? ehy kanat bta5eth rayich gbl la tgol 7g omich .. "

" 3ammee ana mabe "

" a7acheech , mithil ma galat 3ametech .. ele na6reta mara7 eye. Angel welde Fairs mara7 ta5theena .. wetha yabeech ana mara7 artha! 3esht m3a omaa w ma gedart akamil , enty bnt 3ez w dalal .. ywadech hnak w omma t'thilich , shetsaween? fathya 7g mashakil w ma5afer? tezawejeeh. W 6ab3an mara7 ygol shay , y7ebech w ymot 3alaich ee.. bs hathy omma , tabena yogaf eb wayeha?. Angel agolich 7achy w sem3eh 3adil ana 7sbat oboch wabeelich el 5air , welde Faris ma ta5theena ! wenty lo 9ij t7ebeena w tabeenla el 5air twa5reen 3anna 5air shar wala ashoof raqmich eb talefona. Hatha 7g ma9la7tich w ma9la7ta "

I was struck by that and kept quiet. I sat there shaking , hearing for the second time that i couldnt be with the boy i loved though there wans'nt anything going on! The awful movie was repeating itself.

No no no no no no no.. i kept telling myself. This is not happening ! After all that time i spent meditating , getting over him and the whole drama movie gone bad this happens?!

knowing that you and the one you love are not going to end up together is one thing , but hearing it .. for the second time , loud and clear is a another. None of them was trying to be mean or rude, they were RIGHT. and they were looking out for me.

That day i got a call from him that i took with heartache and a sour throat.

" Please don't call me "

" I heard you were getting married! Angel is this true?! "

" Faris please don't call me anymore, please "

" Why?! what happened mnu mthaygich golely 5l aro7la al7een ! "

" Ma7ad faris .. please. Let me be "

" You love that guy?! who the hell is he ? shesma ? "

" Faris ma7eb a7ad! just please leave me alone "

I said it with an ache so bad in my throat. I was stuck .. i couldn't tell him the truth , he'd know my aunt called and he'd pick up a fight with her and his father and i didn't want that. I couldn't be the reason of a family feud with his mother , or father or my aunt.

I didn't want to put him in a position where he had to choose. " Wainich ana yay al7een !! walah ayeech lel jam3a! wainich entay? Lazm aklmiich "

" Faris c'mmon dont act crazy "

" Tdreen shra7 asawe en tezawajtaY? " I didn't like the tone of his voice

" Angel t3rfeen ele 7regat 5aimat el3ers bil jahra? ymkin aswe nfs'ha w akthr b3d , ymkin aye 7g oboch wagola ana abech wa7ebech wayee a56ebech minna "

" Faris you're scaring me! " And he did .. But i knew him well, he's amazing but he was angry. And i wasn't disappointed .. " Ana asef .. okay mara7 a7reg shay .. bs baye a56ebech mn oboch , ymkin yertha , ma tdren allah shnu katib "

" La2 Faris "

" EE laish?! "

" La2ana omik ra7 tkrahnee ! obok ma5eth 3amete ! oboy ykrah obok w a9lan elkil 3nda mashakil m3al thanii !! "

There was a pause " Enty mn galich kil hatha? "

" It's not a secret Fairs , "

" Angel you dont know my mother , she's not a monster , she'll love you because I love you! you'll get her to fall so hard for you just like you made me go crazy for you "

My eye teared up " Please dont call me , Faris " and i hung up..

Two years ago and i still remember it like it was yesterday. Faris never stopped calling me, there were Valentines messages i often replied with anger and disapproval, birthday greetings answered coldly.. phone calls left unanswered..

But one day when i just lost it, i made a decision that i very much regret, a decision that really hurt someone and i didn't realize it until now ..

" Omi darat "

" SHnu? "

" Faris omi darat " I closed my eyes so hard hoping someday he'd forgive me and the lie i told ..

Praying that no one would get hurt, i did it with a good heart,it came from the right place, and it seemed like the right thing to do. At the time.

Just the last Eid i spent, something awful happened. My mother was driving the first day of Eid and without a warning a car hit us from behind. 7mdelah a million times no one got hurt , but it was bad. A speeding car hit us from the back and its' hood was all gone under my own. But thank god , no one was hurt.

After that i just suffered bruises and a severe headache. We were just heading out of Zwara that i didn't like. I was used to people looking at me and giving me complements all the time. I believed in " 3ain " and " 7asad " but i didnt like to think about it at all. My father always told me to read holy Quraan before i left the house and i always smiled and did .. most of time. It wasn't until this day that i truly believed it was harmful and got scared.

" Your daughter is beautiful ! "

" 20 ?! mashalah ma ybayin 3alaich ! "

" We ya 7lwech walah ya 7lwech kebartay "

All sentences i heard and smiled at. Not knowing where it would lead.

but it was all meant to happen " qatha2 w qadar " w shay be9eer, as my mom had described. My father was out of town .. and i felt so weak and lonely and ..scared.

You might think am crazy , mean or whatever.. i honestly dont have a word for it .. but i didn't want to call anybody but him.. Maybe i was using him, but i just wanted to talk to my baby.

I had a near death experience and all i wanted was to hear his voice. What if i died that day ( allah la ygoul ) With him mad at me? or with him believing i dont love him?

I called and ofcourse was greeted me with respect and sympathy.. but he wasnt my Faris anymore .. he was someone else.

" Shfeek tkalimni chthy ? "

" Shloun tabene aklmich? laish mnu entay? "

" Faris ! "

" ana Asef .. shtabeen al7een? "

" Mabe shay ... ana ele asfa "

I had no excuse , i had no right to ask or demand respect or other words..

He said what was respectful and what had to be said , as a friend .. and as a good person.

His birthday came , it was the day he turned 22 .. and i swear i was counting the minutes so i could send him a text. We were mad at each other , we werent together in any possible way .. But this was tradition .. we always did this , NEVER forget a birthday .. NEVER.

I wouldn't call the messages am going to write down now a shock , because you're in for a treat once you continue to the end,

'Happy birthday Faris , kil 3am wenta b5air w 3asa ayamik kilha afra7 walah ywafgik eb kil 56wa ta56eeha ya rab '

' Walah la ywafgich w 3asa ayamich kilha araf w 7zn w marath ! shtabeen daza message? mabe asma3 minich shay wala abe astelem minich shay "

' Enta shgam tgoul? mn 9ijik? wain Faris , i need to talk to him. This is not him , ma y7acheene chthy '

' La y7acheech w ni9 ! ana Faris , ana ele be3teeh , w 5alaiteh ythee3 w thaya3teh ma3ach ! 5alaiteene aro7 6ereej la allah y7ebba wala a7ad yerthah , 5alaiteene akrah kil banat eldnia , 5alaiteene amshi wat7asaf enny 3ayesh a9lan ! enty madre shtabeen mini , 5aleene eb 7ali wen sheft raqmich ma tloomeen ela nafsich sam3a? '

This was a guy i know for almost 5 years, a person i grew up with , a person that had love and respect for me like no other. You could imagine my face when i read those messages .. but still , the shock comes later..

Being me i had to call , i couldnt sit and read like an idiot , i knew that when i talked to him it would be a different story

" Alo "

He answered, Calm and collected

" Faris "

I could hear him sigh as i said his name, it was always his weakness. All anger was no where to be found " Laish kitabt kil hatha Fairs laish? wlah mo mini ele 9ar walah '3a9ban 3laay " the call his father and i had came rushing through my head and i couldn't forget ' etha t7ebeena 9ij hedeeh w 5aleh eb 7ala '

" Na3am Angel , shnu tabeen? bs golele shnu taben walah ra7 asweeeh. 3ashan ana arta7 wa3arf, walah basafer baroo7 ba6la3 mane ga3ed hne, e5thy ra7tich .. ma7ad be2atheech b3d "

" Faris la tgool chthy please .. " I was on the edge of crying but i kept it together

" Walah madre shtabeen mini , madre shnu tabeen ! lasih dazatle msg ? 5ala9 enty mo nasyatne?! laish yaya t'thakreenee fech? mabe asma3 minich wala a3rf 3annich mabee !!"

Sobs were coming to my throat and i couldnt stop them, " Ana asfa .. bs abeek t3rf ana asfa " And i hung up before i said anything stupid and it got more messy ..

i looked at the phone eagerly , knowing him he'd call .. he knows when am upset and he ALWAYS calls .. i waited and waited and waited until i fell asleep ,

I woke up to a flashing red light to see a message ,

" a7ibbich " i understood the craziness, i know it sounds crazy weird .. but we just had each other .. we know each other , we completed each other. No matter how crazy things go , we know .. we just know.

" Ana akthar faris " I found myself replying

" a3sheg el trab ele tamsheen 3alaih w rabby , mabe a3eesh bhal dinia etha enty mo feha 3asaa yomy gbl yomich "

His words were like sweet poison coming through my veins, i melted. I just melted reading that. Crazy the love i had for this person..

We were a very big mess. Two of the craziest people who knew each other very well. 5 years and i never grew out of it.I never got over him quite well. The beauty of it was .. i knew deep in his heart and he knew in mine that we both belonged there.

Then it didn;t matter to me, problems or no pbroblems .. grown ups .. craziness .. i was willing to take a risk for the man i loved..

I was willing to take a chance to be happy , knowing that no one in the world could give that to me. i wasn't happy and i wished to be , the smiles and laughs he gave me no one else could.

Lamia , my cousin and my best friend , knew of all people what we went trough and why .. and she just wanted me to be happy. She'd seen my ups and downs and swore , she'd never seen me smiling the way i smiled with HIM.

But too bad for me, i didn;t see it coming.

" YOu were right " One night , i called and his voice was heavy and serious

So NOT faris like

" What? "

" We shouldn;t be together "

" Faris shgam tgool? why? i want to be with you ! i love you !! "

" Angel lazm t5aleenee agolha? "

" Tgool shnu?! "

" Ana 5a6ib "

I felt my heart stop for a few minutes , " SHNU? "

" Ana 5a6eb wa7da Angel , w a7ebha , w t7ebne .. w 5osh bya 7aram athlimha ma3ay "

" Chathab "

"Shnu? "

" Enta chathab !! "

" Laish achatheb? "

" MO BKAIFIK t7eb wa7da thanya !! shnu wain kalamik thak ilyoum?!! wain ele y7ebne w ymoot 3alay?!! 3ndik 5a6eeba faris?!! wana madree?? "

" Angel , e7na kbarna 5laa9 enty gilteeha, lazm nfakker le jiddam mo le wara, e7na mo yahal nfs awal nfse wele nabeh w nakshit bil mostaqbal ... 5l nfaker eb 3goolna .. mo bgloobna "

" Faris a7ibiik " the words i knew were Kryptonite to my beloived Faris , no longer mattered

" Angel , allah ywafgech fe 7yatich .. allah ma3ach "

Tears came down as he hung up , i called again and again like a maniac just crying " La tdegeen Angel wely y3afeech la t3wreen glby .. bs 5ala9 entahaina "

" Faris !!!! " I cried shamelessly , so loud that i didnt care who heard me

" Please goulli gam tchatheb ! enta kila tsaweha fene !! kila tswe fene dagat la2ane ma36eek wayh !! yalaa bser3a eth7ak w goulli yal 9aida nfs kil marra , please faris gooli gam tet'3ashmar .. may9eer t7eb wa7da enta t7ebnee ana, chathab walah ma a5aleek tetzawajha ! "

He was quiet , " Angel , la tsween chthy eb 3mrech bs 3awarty glby walah el 3atheem "

Yes , am ashamed to say i was having more than a nervous break down , but i swear i had no idea what was happening to me. I couldn't digest it.

" chub! enta galbiik 9a5ar! a9lan waina?!! ma 3ndek galb enta !! wain faris ele a3rfa waina faris ele 7abaita?! akrehek !! ambai akrehek mabeek ! "

" Angel etha yait 5e6abtich bacher terthain? "

" HA? " i stopped crying and stared at my shadow in the dark room

" Walah , walah el3atheem ya Angel en gilty eeh bacher ana yay 5a6bich mn oboch w maly shi'3il ba7ad , etha ma tbeen aye a56efech wawadeech jazeera wn3eesh hnak , bs golele enna y9eer wana aye "

" Wel bnya ele bta56ebha?!! li3ba ehya?!! ana ma artha tsawe feha chthy!"

" Ana a7eb wa7da bs .. ana a7ebbexh 5 sneen wehya shahrain .. "

" CHub faris chub!! la tgool ashya2 '3abiiya " He suddenly laughed

I cried agian " Enta mojrem walah ma3ndek galb , laish gam teth7ak 3alay? "

" A7ebbech "

" Chub ma tgouli a7ibich wenta btetzawaj may9eer ! "

" Mako bnya angel"

I could've broke my own phone right then, but i was too stupidly happy to do so..

I was quiet,

" YOU LIED TO ME!!! "

" You lied to me too " He was as calm as ever,

" I love you so much , but you lied to me too .. wain ele omha darat? do you really think am that stupid? "

" No .. but-"

" You lied too .. how is that different "

" Ana chathabt la2any a7bik ! la2ana makan 3nde 5yar thani ! gitlik omi darat ma gitlik a7eb wa7ed thani !!! entaa gitly 7abait w 5e6abt!!!! mestaw3eb???!!! 7a6ait wa7da thani mokani faris "

" Mestaw3eb .. bs a lie is a lie .. dont blame me for something you did too darling. W enty bnafsech ma jawabtay la2anich tdreen ma ngdar , tdreen ma ngdar nkoon m3a ba3ath Angel "

I hated to admit it, but he was right

" a3eed so2aly .. etha yait 5e6abtich bacher , terthain? walah eny ma gama t'3ashmar w mo 5ayif asaweha .. mabe a7ad '3airich y3esh eb dinyiti .. bashoufich enty 3al koosha .. abe ayeb ma3ach 3yaly wa7fadii .. abe akbar ma3ach w nsafer el 3alam "

" I cant " My voice was a whispers , i cursed myself for saying it over and over and i still do ..

But i couldn;t be the reason he and his mother have fights, i couldnt be the reason of his father , mine and my mothers unhappiness ..

I couldnt put my own happiness infront and leave mass destruction behind me, it would never work ..

As much as i loved those movies where they say love concurs all , that love is stronger than anything ..

They;re not real , my life isnt a fairytale or a cheesy girly love film. But now .. dreaming like a little kid, i want it to be.

He hung up the phone that day disappointed and angry in all ways possible ..

I know that because today i called.

You know why i did?

I got a BBM yesterday from my aunt , saying he .. my baby, my Faris .. is engaged to be married in June ..

To a girl he wanted since LAST YEAR and couldnt marry until he finished college.

I know hes angry , am shocked and still am probably ..

Am writing this post with anger , hate , sadness and mostly crazy love.

I had to vent.. and i couldn;t leave my story untold.

Faris was as cold as ever when he answered me.. and said he never wanted to speak to me , he was through ..

He was through with calling me back and telling me whats wrong ..

But there was one thing he also said, That whoever told me he was getting married was lying.

But if it was true , his first daughter was to carry my own name.

Once upon a lie 20

2011-01-04T00:37:00.000-08:00

Hey guys ;*

Okay so please don't hate me i just finished my finals w OMG wallah i worked SO hard you wouldn't believe! so here i am writing you a post right before i travel! enshallah baroo7 el 3mra tomorrow mnu yabe ad3eela? Enjoy the post guys w sorry i took so long

Love yooooouuuuu

Xoxo

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Previously;

Abdulwahab was taken over by the thoughts of Shaikha, She was something. Something i didn't quite understand. But maybe that was the beauty of it. Every day is a new discovery and it's just too exciting. That was what it felt like for me. Except .. i found her prettier than any flower.

" I think you're beautifully weird " i looked beside me to see her eyes closed

Shaikha finally gave in and gave him her number , just like she promised him when they first met, that if fate was kind enough they'll see each other again without knowing it.

'She did as she promised, now i have a way to contact her'.

There stood a girl trying to cross the street, Wait a minute, Abdulwahab thought. Do i know her?

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" okay so you saw a girl trying to cross the street, so what? " 3baid was laying on his bed fidgeting with Lulu's teddy bear

" It wasn't just ANY girl 3baid " i was pacing around the room not able to sit down. Like the people you see in those CSI Tv shows when trying to solve a case, one of them is always walking around trying to act all smart and in deep thought. " I think i know her from somewhere .. i don't know .. my mind was already blurry "

" Waaaih kil hatha sawweta feek 3gb ma ra7at? you can't even think straight , the lady has got you goooood " He shook his head disapointed

" 6ali3 mn gam yet7acha "

" THERE IT IS !! " I heard a little screechy but not at all annoying voice come through the door. A very angry little Lulu walked in frowning with her tiny hands forming fists. Honestly , i was scared of that little cupcake shaped kid who stood in front of 3baid ..

" THANK you very much " She took the teddy bear from 3baid's big hands still frowning , then turned around to face me " Hi Wahabii " her frown was suddenly gone and i was facing the most angelic smile in the history of smiles , I patted her tiny head and she ran right through my long legs

" No , THAT little lady has got me good " i told him

3baid laughed " ana o5oha ma tsweele chthy "

" What can i say when you got it , you got it "

" So from where do you think you know that chick? " He asked as i sat down next to him, " someone back in Canda or .. " As soon as 3bdallah said that my head was in a huge bubble and it refused to see or hear anything else around it. No, i thought. It can't be ..

I quickly brushed away that thought and decided to go back to reality , It can never be her, i told myself. It's not possible.

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Shaikha was still half asleep in her friend's car but she couldn't close her eyes from the excitement , her heart was still pounding and butterflies won't go away , the time she had with 3bdelWahab was just .. perfect.

" you know your cheeks look like fresh tomatoes right now, i'd ask but am sure you're on cloud 11 by now so am just gonna excuse you for today " Sara , Shaikha's friend had commented

Shaikha let out a warm giggle then pushed her head back on the seat and refused to comment , she knew her friend was exactly right, But it wasn't a bad thing either.

" I have nothing against the guy, and he seems .. well, HOT.. " Sara started

Shaikha giggled at her friend's comment , True. She thought.

" Just .. be careful " Shaikha suddenly slapped herself back into reality hearing her fried out. There was a small sting in her heart for having to think like that, but she knew her friend was just watching out for her.

And even though it's only been a little while, she felt like she'd known 3bdelwahab all her life. Like Wahab had said, there was a certain vibe people often got from him. This ridiculously captivating handsomeness and manhood that he possessed often had a bad boy , " ladies man " reputation attached to it. But for some reason, Shaikha didn't see it. He made her feel anything BUT scared or threatened, he actually made her feel the exact opposite. He may have been a lot of things in the past, but he wasn't anymore.. at least not with her.

Shaikha smiled again , she had something on her mind that her friend couldn't quite catch ..

" First time i saw him i saw this .. big strong hot guy sitting on the beach with the saddest eyes i've ever seen .. " Shaikha started to say

" you know me better than anyone else Swair i KNEW there was something .. something in him that made him so miserable and captured as a prisoner in his own soul. It was weird seeing the weakness in that amazingly strong figure that no one else saw. All i heard my heart say was .. i want to make it GO AWAY. From that moment on i was determined to make that boy's life a shiny warm summer again. Yes, you may say 'ana shako' w it sounds freaky but, He had it on me and now i can't turn away "

Sara had nothing to say after that. But it didn't stop her from thinking of how amazing her friend was. Here sat Shaikha , the bravest, craziest, most beautiful girl she knew talking about making some guy's life a " happy summer " again , while her own was in jeopardy. In spite of the misfortune Shaikha's fate had brought to her , She was the happiest person Sara knew. The only one who thought life was worth living to the absolute fullest and the most optimistic mess of a friend. She knew the exact meaning of fun. Yes, in spite of her misfortune ..

Shaikha had a deeper secret that only the closest people to her knew. After many pleads from her, promises were made from her father and best friends to act as if nothing went wrong, and the subject was never to be brought up again.

" Here we go " Sara pulled by Shaikha's house

" Thanks S " She kissed her friend's cheek and got in to see her father sipping on a cup of coffee and reading a small brown book. She bit her lip and hoped she wasn't too late for her usual curfew. Not that there was one, Her father was tired of making rules then forgetting he actually made them, but Shaikha liked to give the credit of the rules she made up to her old man. It was fun! was how she described it , her friends all thought she was crazy for doing so

" We all wish our parents forget the rules and curfews they give us! and you PRETEND that your father does that? " they would say

" I just don't want to hurt his feelings, i want him to feel like he's doing a great job being a father. You know, like every other parent " She'd blush

" Oh sweetie no matter what he does, it's in your brain you're a lunatic he can't make it better " Lamia would pat on her back

But she didn't care. It made her father feel happy, it made him feel like he was taking good care of her, which he was .. but in his own sweet way. As a kid she watched her aunts scold their kids when they ate chocolates before dinner, and her father would look at her grinning because no one knew they shared ice cream before bed, or watched Tv while working or doing homework ..

He was overprotective in many ways, but he refused to show her that. He didn't want to show her that after he made a promise to her .. a promise not to control her life and assume the worst. At least not in front of her face.

Shaikha had an amazing life and an incredible father, but she grew tired and angry when his parenting methods were questioned. Too much ice cream and Tv were just the start, her aunts would tell him. What was he going to do when she went to college? Everyone would ask, That's why Shaikha did this ..

To help her father realize that not only he was doing what every other parent was doing, but only better.

" Hey daddy " She hugged him from the back of his neck

" Hey sweet heart " He kissed her fingers

" How was the Shalaih " She froze and bit her lip remembering she stayed against his will

" Sam7an told me about you not wanting to go back .. " Her heart sank, Okay now she was scared

What have Sam7an told him? She hoped this had nothing to do with AbdulWahab

" Uhh what- what did he tell you? " She looked nervous but her dad was still looking at his book, his voice casual

Good sign , she guessed

" Just that you didn't want to leave, you could've just told me "

She quickly giggled , poor Sam7an .. he's a good man.

" Next time i will, "

" Good then, did you have fun? " he finally closed the book to look at her

" Great fun "

" That's great honey, don't be so late next time "

Shaikha glanced at the wall clock which showed it was exactly 9;40 and tried to hide her smile

She knew he didn't even know what time it was, but he felt like it was his fatherly duty to say so. Bless him, she thought.

She wasn't making fun of him or taking him for granted. But the contrary, every day she'd love him more and more for trying to be everything for her and being there every step of the way, even though Shaikha knew .. he was lost without her mother as well.

" Night daddy " She kissed his cheek , ran upstairs and slipped into her PJ's

She checked her phone but there was nothing. She was kind of hoping there was something there from Wahab ..

Sure it's been like 15 minutes since she saw him , but .. it wouldn't hurt. would it?

She smiled and put the phone down , laying her pretty head on the pillow ready to dream about his sexy scars and those strong arms that held her by the sea.

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" I don't know about this dude, " I was saying

" Wallah ma 3eraftlik ana , you say you miss her bs ma tabe tdeg .. agolik dez msg hm ma tabe .. agolik 5alne anam ham ma tbe ! "

" Shaku ana bnoomtik al7een ? "

" Madre ba7es enik t7ebne, i was kind of feeling left out "

I threw a pillow at him , " Oh what the hell, " I grabbed my phone and pressed the little letters

' Goodnight ' my message had said,

" Hatha ele gedart 3alaih ? " 3bdallah said while he was taking a peak behind my back

" I ain't sending no kisses or hearts if that's what you're implying "

" Wayed 3alaik "

" Agool e5mid bs e5mid " I punched him playfully , but somehow he was thrown back at his pillow " ULLAAH " He said with his mouth open

I laughed and shook my head

3bdallah didn't get enough sleep and neither did i, we both woke up at almost 9 and decided to head to the nearest Starbucks

" Ygoulik fayzeen Barcelona 2-1 ! A77 shloun 6awafna el mbarat? " 3baid was saying as he sipped his coffee and dug into the morning's paper

I was honestly too lazy to speak, i opened the cap of my drink to let it cool off and took a sip

" Najwa Karam bte3tezel ?! la laaaaah " He said in a dramatic voice as i left him to get some sugar

As soon as i turned around from the counter i almost bumped into something soft and sweet smelling, She stood there staring at me lips apart, her face startled but not at all surprised

" Wahab "

" Shaikha " I mumbled through my sleepy voice , there i was fully awaken then by the face of an angel

She was wearing a white dress , not a hint of make up on her face and her hair was all straighted down

" Good morning " She smiled at me

" It is right now " I smiled back

She giggled " I didn't know you were a morning person "

" Am not " I glanced back at 3baid who had no idea what was going on, he let out a voice which i translated as he was trying to try my coffee but burnt his tongue in the process

She giggled again and looked at me

" You .. wana hang out today ? " I was reluctant to ask that , but i was trying new things , wasn't i?

I saw her face hesitate , then she said " I have this .. thing i have to do today "

" What about tomorrow? "

" It depends on- the thing i have to do today " I saw her frown, she was confused herself at her own words

" Oh " I was caught by surprise but i tried to keep a straight face " Okay then i'll call you later? "

" Okay " She smiled at me and i gestured for her to go and order

" Ygoulik elbor9a nazla " 3baid said as soon as i sat at the table

" Dear god 3baid, bas 5ala9na door el fata el mothaqaf 5ala9 mo ila tigra kil el 9af7at ele bil jareeda "

" Ohhhh thank you i was waiting for someone to tell me to stop " He closed it and faced me " So what's up "

" Shaikha's here " I told him

He gasped looking a little scared " did she follow us ?! Le hal daraja ma 3ejabha el message ?! "

I shook my head , this guy was helpless.

Then i looked back at Shaikha who was standing by the counter, Man she was a work of art.

Why did she say she didn't want to go out ? Okay, she had an excuse ..

But i felt something weird going on, What was it? i wondered.

Once upon a lie 19

2010-12-09T01:58:00.000-08:00

Hellooooo my lovely people!

So my followers finally reached 100 YAAAAYY!

Ambai so sorry i hadn't posted in like e a decade ! you must hate me bas wallah things were CRAZY with university gam at3aaab ;( i got sick then i had to study for like forever then i got sick again ! waaay if i didn't get my GPA up 3ala kil hal ta3ab ymkin aro7 ashte'3el eb mcDonald's! at least i'll enjoy the food ;p

La la just kidding ;p uni is tiring bas walah it's a blast i love it, goodluck to all of you w wallah i missed you all SOOOOO MUUUUCCCHHHH ! ;*

P.S.

Te5ayilaw i wrote the entire post w it didn't save w 9ar disconnected el wireless w enmesa7!!! babche knt lol. Enjoy!

Loveyou,

Xoxo

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Previously ; After Wahab and Shaikha left the shalaih, they had a chance to meet again at the same place. A fight with wahab's father and a bad day at Shaikha's home, made room for a lucky coincidence there. Having bonded at the beach almost an entire day the two had alot to think about.

" I'll take you home , or at least let me drive you somewhere where your friend can pick you up "

" I'd like to feel the water before i leave this place , to remember the tingles i get from it .. how it effects my heartbeat and how my skin feels .. "

She was looking up at me her eyes twinkling against the lights behind me

" We should go " I gently whispered to her

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I drove in silence and ease. To tell you the truth , i was deliberately driving that slow just to spend more time with her ..

Half way through , Shaikha's sudden crazy chats and spontaneous laughs have stopped and i found her pretty face looking out the window. I didn't want disturb the moment , neither did i have anything to say. But i liked it that way ..

It was just good to sit there with her.

" You know how stars die ? "

" What? " her question came in the middle of a daze i was in

" They just lose their shine .. they burn and they fall.. That's too sad ,isn't it? "

I smiled " Tell me about it " I had no idea what that girl was saying most of the time or how her mind worked. How it got her thinking about every single thing in this world. Weird , good or bad ..

She was something. Something i didn't quite understand. But maybe that was the beauty of it , how i had no idea what she was about. For years I've lived , seen and known a lot of people , but she was nothing like anything I've ever known.

I wasn't a florist , nor did i take any time to grow anything but my muscles, but you know when you have this flower growing? almost everyday you try to check up on it , see it opening up petal after petal. The thought of it being complete takes over your mind and you can't wait to see it, But every day is a new discovery and it's just too exciting. That was what it felt like for me. except .. i found her prettier than any flower.

" Are you making fun of me in your head now? " she asked

" What? No. What makes you think that? "

" You were smiling quietly to yourself "

" No i wasn't " Okay what the hell ?! i was SMILING ? i did not DO smiling. Let alone to my own thoughts ..

There it was again , She was already making me do things i wasn't keen on doing and i wish i knew how to stop. Okay , i didn't exactly hate it but .. i just wasn't used to it. And i wasn't the one to embrace change.

" And now you're frowning " She commented

" Will you please stop reading my face? "

" Why not? It's fun "

" Let me guess , it's one of those weird things you do "

" No " She rolled her eyes , " I wonder if i can learn that though .. " She gazed up as if i gave her something to think about

I shook my head and focused on the road ," You really think am weird?" she asked me

I looked at her with a perfectly straight face, She was giving me an innocent look that i found more than endearing " Yes i do " i told her

Her lovely eyes grew a little bigger with surprise, then she looked ahead " Wow, i didn't read THAT on your face "

I tried so hard to keep my teeth from showing, pressing my lips tightly together. How the hell can someone stop smiling with the presence of this creature?

It was only a few minutes later that i had something to say of my own

" I think you're beautifully weird " i looked beside me to see her eyes closed,her head tilting slightly resting on the big smooth seat of my car forming a pretty picture

I didn't know how long it took a person to fall asleep on a seat of a car. And i didn't know if was actually asleep or just pretending to be. but i didn't mind any of that. Whether she heard me or not. I just said it.

I slowly parked near the co-operative Shaikha told me about. I looked at her still dozing off peacefully and i didn't want to disturb her so i just waited. I heard a low moan and i looked to see her head move and her eyes open

" Did i fall asleep ?! " Her head snapped up so fast and she looked at me with big sleepy eyes , strands of stray crazy hair jumping out of her head. My own eyes grow bigger with surprise, it was scary!

" Oh good we're here " She said in a perky little voice this time, her tone back to normal. I looked at her crazy hair then back into her eyes. I didn't know if it was crazy but she actually looked cuter that way.

" Thank you Wahab " She suddenly said to me, She looked out the window then back " My friend's car is right there " She said, still making eye contact

She suddenly took my phone and started dialing some numbers. The whole fate making us
see each other again worked and she did as she promised, now i have a way to contact her.

She smiled at me and i smiled back, neither of us wanting to ruin the moment. But soon she gave her back to me and unlocked the door. When she was out of the car i took in a very deep breath. It felt as if i hadn't been able to do that through the entire day and i had no idea why

I felt like there was a huge void, like there was something missing when she left..

It wasn't nice. Not having her there after i've spent almost the entire day with her. The feeling was getting to me and the thoughts were getting confusing so i pulled my gear and reversed the car

Before i started driving again, there stood a girl trying to cross the street so i waited patiently for her to do so. She looked at me while she did, her eyes crinkling from the headlights of my car

When she finally crossed the street, i felt a deep sting in my stomach

Wait a minute, I thought

Do i know her?

My phone rang and it was 3bdallah

" Hey man "

" Hala bil 7beeeb , wainik ent ? 6ool elyoum madre 3anik " His loud voice came through

" Walah ta3ban , it's been a long day .. ent wainik? "

" Bil bait. 7ayak el waled hne "

" Yalla yay "

As soon as i arrived at the house, i felt a small lump of meat jump at me

" Wahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaab "

" Hey beautiful " I grinned as i put her down

" Where were you?! " Little Lulu frowned at me

" You're 4 inches tall and you're already scolding me? "

" What? " She looked confused

I kissed her cheek " Wain o5och? "

" Whayyiiiibbb " 3bdallah suddenly slapped my back

" Hala bil 7beeb "

We walked in the living room to see my aunt, uncle and my father who was looking at me with those big powerful eyes. I knew all was forgiven, that all it took was for me to just go and sit next to him

" Hala yuba " I said as i took my seat

" Hala feek yuba " his smile made everything better

As they started talking again about a subject i didn't quite catch up with, my head was too busy thinking back about what i saw at the co-operative ..

I looked at 3bdallah who was giving me a funny look " Shfeek? " He mouthed the words to me

I wish i knew, i thought.

Once upon a lie 18

2010-11-30T13:31:00.001-08:00

Hey guuuuys ! ;*

I missed you so much! so as promiiiiisssseddd here's your post

Hope you like it , tell me what you think

Xoxo

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Previously ;

AbdulWahab had a fight with his father causing him to storm out of the house and go to the Shalaih, where he hears yelling and it turns out to be Shaikha with some man. After punching him up for mistreating Shaikha, Wahab discovered that the man works for Shaikha and her father.

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" So are you going to tell me how you barged in here like superman, even though you weren't on saving people duty or should i guess? "

She was looking at me and i had a hard time realizing what she was saying , her eyes had me lost and honestly all i heard was " superman and guess " but i knew it had something to do with what just happened

You know , with me almost killing her driver and all ..

I smiled " I thought i told you , the door of the porch was open "

She gave me a ' don't joke around , am serious ' look tilting her pretty head my way

I bit my lip and looked at the table then back at her " I heard you shouting .. Shaikha .. no driver yells at their boss like that , wain ga3deen e7na? "

I saw sadness cover her beautiful features , she shifted in her seat looking at the ground " It's just .. complicated "

" So is my story but that doesn't mean you're not gona make me tell it now, does it?"

She looked back at me and gave me a crooked smile " if i tell you - and theres really not much to tell - would you promise to tell me what brought you here ? "

I nodded " promise "

" Okay , " She sighed " My father is .. difficult .. Sam7an was working for us for as long as i can remember and- well let's say his primary job is to keep an eye on me more than drive me around .. he's not exactly a ' driver ' and .. if something wrong happened to me , god knows what my father might do to him. So don't blame him for going all crazy "

" That's not an excuse to talk to you like that " I was still angry , who the hell did that bag of dirt think he is to talk to her like that? But Shaikha interrupted my thoughts ..

" Ever since my mother died .. my father made sure i was well protected giving to my crazy personality. He might not show it , telling me to go for everything and ' live the moment ' but i know what he's thinking almost all the time "

I looked in her eyes and i could tell there was so much more to that story , there's so much she wanted to say i could tell ..

But for that moment , i decided to take all i could get.

" I don't really mind him being over protective , i don't. I just .. want him to loosen up a bit , to be honest with me .." Her voice was lower , her eyes warmer

" He tells me to do whatever i want , to live my life and be happy when he's controlling all that behind my back " she took a breath " I love my father so much .. but i just want him to trust me. I want HIM to be the happy one "

I nodded " You know he only does that because he loves you " The words came out of my mouth and my mind was slowly processing them ..

It was something i should've told myself before i stormed out of the house. I was the one who should've known that ..

Flashbacks of my father's angry face crossed my mind and i instantly felt my heart fall

" So tell me " She began again

I looked out to the sea behind her , the waves crashing and arriving at shore , each shining with hints of sun rays on top , the relaxing sound not too far away from us ..

All i wanted to do was run and jump in , acting like a big baby i know ..

But it seemed like a very effective way to blow off some steam. I looked back at her staring at me and patiently waiting for me to continue , having the courtesy not to pressure me even further

" Your story is not too different from mine .. i .. just stormed out of the house not knowing where to go and i suddenly found myself here "

Her eyes were sympathetic and dazzling , it made me want to share more, The warmth in them made me want to stare all day

" He was angry at me for no apparent reason. Well, no recent one at least. He started saying all those things about what i did in the past and i just .. couldn't stay "

" You shouldn't be angry at him .. just like you told me , it's coming from the right place "

" Wow. We both have daddy issues "

Suddenly , the most perfect pure sound filled the air

It was the sound of her laugh. Just an honest , genuine laugh

I was glad i changed the mood , lightened up the atmosphere surrounding us

She looked outside then back at me

" You know , Sam7an also brought food " She gave me a pair of crazy eyes

" What?. Was.. was this your plan to trap me then eat me? "

She laughed again and playfully punched my arm

We repeated what we did last time , we had another picnic on the beach ..

And to my surprise , i wasn't sick of it. I liked it because it reminded me of our first picnic at the exact same spot

Our talk was nothing like the one we had just had , there was no pain .. no pressure .. no gloom.

The big grey cloud above our heads was gone.

" So .. is this was you always do on your free time? come here and enojy the company of the sea? "

" No. I actually do A LOT more " she rolled her eyes at me

" Let me guess , shopping? "

She threw a tissue at me " Seriously ? all this and you throw a TISSUE? " I looked down at my Abs and i saw her stare for a split second

" Shutup "

I smiled and gazed at her again , she blushed and looked away

" No it depends on my mood " she began again " I go to my sister's clinic sometimes she's a dentist "

" Oh that's cool you help out? "

" No really. I usually go put on the nurse costume , talk to the poor kids then give them stickers and candy when they leave. The first part's good but my sister doesn't appreciate the ' sugar induced drugs ' i give them " She made a face and i smiled

" It goes well , you know it's fun .. until the children start crying .. and then i cry too. Out loud. in front of them. Remembering MY awful days with the dentist, God! i hate the dentist. Which is ironic because my sister is one! i don't know WHERE she got her genes from "

She stopped and i was startled , i didn't know whether to laugh or be scared.

" Yeah , seems to me like she also got all the brains in the family "

She gave me a look " well i don't do that ALL the time am not crazy "

" Oh god there's more " I crinkled my eyes playfully , pretending to be cautious of what's coming out of her pretty mouth

" I also go to this cute little center where art classes are held "

" Oh that's nice , you paint? "

" No i just go there to watch now. I used to .. until they kicked me out for telling the teacher his painting was ugly " she bit her lip

I raised my brow

" What?! he made a pretty mean comment about mine , i was working on it for two weeks! "

" What did you draw ? "

" An Orange and two Grapes "

" Wow, yeah i heard Picasso started out that way too "

" I go watch them , you know to feel like am learning something too " She said ignoring my silly comment

It's true i was making jokes , but i admired her personality ..

I didn't know if it was her craziness or her genuine heart that had me captivated

But i knew that all of her together , she was nothing like i'd ever known.

The feel of my vibrating phone suddenly interrupted , " I gotta take this ,will you excuse me? "

She smiled and nodded " Take your time "

I got up and moved away from the spot we were sitting

" Hala yuba "

" 3bdelwahab yuba , wainik ? "

The fatherly voice of the man who raised me , the worry and pain he was feeling suddenly made my heart sink

I could sense he regretted everything he said back at the house from the moment i walked out , i could hear him aching inside wanting his son to be alright

He dealt with me for all those years , trying to do a good job .. a better job .. having to preform duties of two parents instead of one and that for me , was just enough to make him more than a man in my eyes

" Ana b5air yuba la t7atee , ana yait el Shalaih a'3ayer jaw shway "

I looked back at the beautiful lady that awaited me and my stomach tied knots , i was exactly where i wanted to be

" Ee zain tswe yuba , ment rad elbait? "

My mind quickly thought of Shaikha , what about her?

Is she even going home? i couldn't just leave ..

And am sure as hell wasn't going to let that shit of a driver take her home

" Ana ashouf yuba w adeg 3laik enshallah "

I hung up the phone and headed towards her again

" That was my dad .. "

" Is everything okay? "

" Great " I said

" The sun's almost setting .. What are you gonna do ? " i asked

" I don't know yet , but am sure not gonna stay here alone it's getting late "

" Alone? "

She smiled shyly " ofcourse you're here but i meant the Shalaih is empty and the girls aren't .."

" I get it "

" I'll go clean up for a bit , you go relax you need it .. " she told me

" If you need anything am right next to you "

" Good to know " she smiled

I helped her get everything cleaned from the shore , then i politely thanked her for lunch and left

I entered the Shalaih feeling weird without my buddies being there , i jumped on the couch again , not a single trace of anger or madness in me this time

Just trying to lay back and relax ..

The thought of Shaikha only a few steps away drove me crazy. Even though i spent all the afternoon with her i still couldn't get enough

I knew i was being selfish but i didn't want to be away from her

I took a hot shower easing my muscles for a bit , after an hour i was thinking of checking on her.

I went downstairs and my eyes lay upon a lovely tall figure by the beach , with her back to me staring out at sea

I smiled and slowly made my way towards her

" Hey .."

She quickly turned around with a crooked smile

" Hey " Her voice was soft , easy and attractively low

" Did i interrupt something? "

She shook her head

" Did you talk to the girls? "

" I was just going to call Sam7an to take me home .. "

Once i heard his name i felt my throat block

" Can't anyone else get you? "

" They can't , plus it's a long drive "

" I'll take you " I blurted out

" What? "

" I'll take you home , or at least let me drive you somewhere where your friend can pick you up , just don't ride with that dude " i wasn't trying to be the psychotic type and nor was i bossing her around. I just wanted her to be safe

" Wahab .. "

I looked at her waiting for her to continue but she didn't. I saw the corners of her eyes crinkle beautifully and she said , " Okay "

" Okay whaT? "

" I'll go back with you , you can drop me off at the co-operative next to my house and my friend will pick me up from there "

" Okay cool " I smiled

" Cool "

She looked at the sea again

" Can i .. just do one more thing before we leave? " She asked me

" Sure " I told her

And suddenly she took off her shoe and put her toes in the water, lifting up her long baby blue dress so it doesn't get wet

" Shaikha what are you doing ? " I asked

She smiled and continued to put her other leg in as well , i could see her shivering the water was freezing for sure and small waves were crashing by the shore

She was just standing there , eyes closed and breathing in

" I'd like to feel the water before i leave this place , to remember the tingles i get from it .. how it effects my heartbeat and how my skin feels .. "

I sighed and took off mine as well , i walked in slowly behind her and i could feel her body tense up alarmed, realizing i was only a few inches away from her

She slowly turned around to face me

" What? " i asked

" Am waiting for your silly comment on this one "

" There isn't one " I smiled

" WhaT? why? " She looked cute with her brows creased and confused staring up at me

" Because .. if you'll allow me " I looked down on our shivering feet drowned gently " I want to remember how this feels as well "

I slowly reached out for her waist and gently wrapped my hands around her shaking figure

" How what feels? " Her voice was almost gone , scared but yet peaceful and safe

" How in this crazy cold weather, with our bodies almost freezing , our legs dipped in there like two frozen sticks of ice cream we don't feel a thing because the warmth we're feeling right now being this close to each other beats the hell out of everything else around us "

She was looking up at me her eyes twinkling against the lights behind me then she looked down again and closed her eyes, savoring the moment

Interrupted again her phone began ringing to snap us back into reality

" We should go " I gently whispered to her

3eedkom mbarak!;*

2010-11-15T13:14:00.000-08:00

3eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedkom mbarak everyone !!

Hope you enjoy it w have a great one ! hang out with your family , go out or if you want to escape the crazy za7ma you can go to ya5our aw Shaleih aw hotel ;p

My plans mostly involve family , cinema and dinner hehe ;p what are yours?!!

And okay maybe i've been a really really bad blogger w your comments are becoming less and less bas walah am sorry ;( i had a serious of unfortunate events that involved falling down of a scooter and almost breaking my back , being sick and missing my midterm * sniff sniff * ;(

Bas 7mdelah alls better now w enshallah enshaaaaaaaaaallllaaah i'll post the greatest post for you everrrr

I missed you and blogger so much , Love you all ;*

Xoxo

Once upon a lie 17

2010-11-06T11:10:00.000-07:00

Hey guuuuyyys ! ;*

I finally managed to take an hour break mn studying to enter my blog bacher 3ndee midterm ! bs am happy to write for you again XD " Dances a little "

W sorry tara if it's short bs promise to put a longer one next time enshallah

Love you all wallah w am sorry again ;(

Hope you enjoy this ! w don't forget to comment ;***

P.S; all my fellow bloggers i promise to visit your blogs as soon as i get the chance wallah i love you ! keep up the good work guys

Xoxo

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" What the hell are you talking about?! .. WHERE IS MY SHIPMENT?!! I SENT THE ORDER YESTERDAY ! WELL CHECK YOUR CALENDER OR YOUR BRAIN THE SHIP DIDN'T SINK ! "

I heard my father yelling out loud from his office downstairs , normal routine .. I thought.

My father was very passionate about his job , if anyone was good at it .. it was sure him. I never saw anyone work that hard , giving him being my father a lot of people have assumed i would turn out to be exactly like him ..

Much to their dismay and his , i didn't.

In fact , i turned out to be the exact opposite. He gave up on me half way through , having enough of repeating the same old things to me was like a bouncing ball that came right back to him every time he threw it ..

It seemed The only thing i was passionate and careful of was .. well , disappointing him over and over again by every mean possible. Don't get me wrong i didn't do it on purpose..

Not every single time , anyway.

He caught me rubbing my sleepy eyes trying to escape to the kitchen , so i stopped

" Whayyib , ent tawik teg3ad ? "

" Hala yuba .. "

" Ta3alli el maktab abeek "

I took a glance at the kitchen's doorway with sadness , hunger and disappointment all in the mix and followed him in

" 5air yuba "

" I talked to a few people in various colleges the other day .. it wasn't easy but i pulled a few strings .."

I blinked trying to comprehend what he was saying

" You're going to check out a few colleges of my choice .. you didn't care so i took matters into my own hands "

Ofcourse , i thought.

" Visit each and every one of them , try to engage and see what you really want to do with your life , it's time for you to actually WORK HARD for something other than getting a girl "

That was the moment when i paid more attention , what THE HELL?

" But dad i- "

" DON'T you say another word 3bdelwahab " He suddenly said , his voice more intense

I froze

" I gave you everything am capable of , i wanted to guarantee you a better future , a better life! it's about time you thank me and do as i say ! "

I gulped , hurt and anger in my eyes

" You have got to stop acting like this! you thank god i didn't leave you with your mother! "

NO , he did NOT just say that.

" I put you in the BEST schools , i tried to raise you well so you can adjust and i wanted to be the father AND the mother all at once! but do you care? NO. Do you actually give a damn thing what happens to this family ?! JUST for once ! for once 3bdelwahab act like am your father and DO as i say! "

If i was the 3bdelwahab i was back then .. just a few months ago .. i would've talked back , broke something , screamed my lungs out at him and left.

But i wasn't him anymore. As much as i wanted to throw a hurricane down his path ..

As much as i wanted to yell and punch my fists through every single thing in the room , i fought it

I just nodded and looked at the floor , hoping my resistance would stay a little while longer ..

Just praying glimpses of the old me wouldn't come rushing destroying everything i have built for myself

I knew he wasn't angry at ME , that he didn't mean it and he was just taking everything else out on me. And i excused him. Something i rarely did

For the first time in my life i didn't fight back and i can tell my own father was surprised as well ..

" Enshallah " i suddenly said , his shock and mine collided when i slowly got up and exited the room as quiet as a feather ..

Leaving my father alone in his office shocked and confused , i hurried to the front door grabbing the car keys that lay on the stand by the door and rushed out

I drove as fast as i could , venting all my anger on the gas pedal and the steering wheel probably breaking 16 road violations per minute only to find myself at the front door of the Shalaih

It took me about 15 minutes in the car to realize where i was and how i got there ..

I finally grabbed the door handle and entered. 3baid and the guys always left a spare key hidden somewhere for emergencies and i thanked their better judgement ..

My body pushed itself towards the biggest couch and i lay face down frozen like a dead fish on it

My anger didn't go away , not a bit. If anything it GREW more intense

I wanted to HIT someone .. i wanted to DRINK .. SMOKE .. something just ANYTHING to get my mind off of what just happened.

My body suddenly stiffened. Blood rushing fiercely through every available vein in my angry body. My senses were all suddenly awakened opening my eyes to notice a big loud scream next door ..

" AM NOT GOING BACK WITH YOU !! "

I was a volcano just ready to erupt

My fists punched the soft cushion of the couch pushing my upper body up , my fast legs carrying me to where the sound was

I moved closer to the near familiar Shalaih to see Shaikha yelling at some guy who obviously wasn't welcome ..

The sliding door was already open so i took the liberty and excused my own manners. Before the guy knew what hit him , he was on the floor

" 3bdelwahab ! " Shaikha suddely yelled , her hands covering her mouth

I couldn't believe what i just did.

My nostrils were flaring trying to let out some of the air that i strongly refused to breathe, My fingers were still forming two big fists ready to be murder weapons and my heart was going to jump out and lay next to that poor man on the floor

" I thought the lady said she wasn't coming back with you "

It took me a minute to realize the guy on the floor had an Indian nationality and he lay weakly suffering from a huge nose injury fighting the urge to cry

" 3bdelWahaab .. " I heard Shaikha softly speak , her voice suddenly eased every tense muscle i had ..

Every angry bone in my body .. Every single crazy thought in my brain.

" I think you just killed my driver "

Her words came down like little hailstones on top of my bare chest in a blizzard

I looked at her then back at the poor man on the floor and hurried to help him " I am SO sorry " My voice failed to show honesty as i helped him up

I knew it was terrible of me to say , but i swear it felt SO good to finally punch my fists through something ..

The man mumbled something through his nose , smiled at Shaikha then looked at me with pain and fear and ran out of the place

I was still struck by my own action and fear of facing Shaikha took over me..

" 3bdelWahab .." Her sweet voice came ringing in my ear again

Without second thought i turned around to face her and the words flew right out of my mouth " I am SO SO sorry for what just happened. " i said as politely as i could

My heart finally started beating again when i saw a hint of a smile on her pretty face

" Look i just heard you yelling and i thought-"

" It's fine , really. Don't apologize "

" I thought you were in some kind of trouble , you were pretty loud .. "

" I know he was just trying to make a point and i didn't want to listen so .. "

" Wait a second was the driver Yelling at you ? " my voice was never more angry , i felt all that rage come back and i was afraid this time i couldn't stop it

Her face pretty much said it all.

My legs were already turning around to the main door about to follow that sucker when her soft hand suddenly touched my arm " no 3bdelwahab! " her voice was scared and her small hands were shaking around my tensed arm and all i thought was 'what in the world just happened to me?'

When i looked at her face , her hand had disappeared and she was already red

" Well then the only thing am sorry for is that i didn't get to kill him "

I saw her blush again and bite her lower lip , " He was just caught up in the moment trying to explain something .. "

" Whatever he wanted to say , no one yells at a lady that only means he's a- " But thank god i stopped myself there ..

That devastating smile decorated that face of hers again and i forgot what i was about to say ..

" Mn wain 6ila3t enta tawwa anyway ? " We both glanced back at the open door and all the flashbacks of the last 45 minutes came rushing through my brain

I suddenly sighed and looked at her not knowing what to say ..

And as if she read my mind , She just smiled at me and said " How about i get you a glass of water ? "

Once upon a lie 16

2010-10-30T11:47:00.001-07:00

Helllooooo bloggers !!

Okay i know some of you might be mad at me bas wallah things were CRAZY ! ma gedart ashbik wayed w i couldn't post for you guys bs i promise i'll try harder to write you the best posts ever

Again ! am sorry and i love you all SO MUCH w i missed you and your comments ;(

Hope you enjoy this

Xoxo

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Previously : AbdulWahhab left the Shalaih with his friends after Shai5a also left with hers , leaving him a letter on the doorstep explaining how she had a wonderful time and that if fate was kind enough .. they'll see each other again.

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I woke up the next day on my bed feeling relaxed and calm after a goodnight's sleep. Even though i left 3baid's house late the previous night i slept in this morning and it felt great. My covers felt smooth and warm against my dark tanned skin , One of my legs stretched out of the cover along the wide mattress and i took a moment to yawn and take in the view around me , having spent two weeks at the Shalaih i liked being back at my own place.

I had a dream about her ..

Maybe it was too soon for me to miss her this much but i did. I missed the sight of her long dark hair , i missed the matching color of her eyes and her scent ..

I dreamt about her swimming around me , smiling and torturing every single stream of blood inside my veins. I couldn't do anything but stare , mesmerized and numb. She had that effect on me even when i was asleep and dreaming ..

As soon as i took a minute to turn over and stretch out some more , i felt a huge figure jump in and my entire bed felt heavy

" Afaaaaaaaaaaaa whayyiiiib ent lel7een nayim ?! " 3baid's voice came piercing my ear , i didn't even have time to blink

" Yaaaaaaallaah 9ba7 5air " I mumbled through my lazy lips

" Yalla goom goom " My bed was shaking , 3baid was on his knees going up and down like an excited kid

" Yaaaa 7abeebee ent ! wain agoum ? "

" Whayyib ENQETHNEE! "

" Shfeek?! "

" Bacher 3eed milad el 9a7ba wana ma sharait shay! wala 3arif shnu bashteree "

" Went mthayi3 bedal la troo7 ts2alha yay tne6 3ala sereeree ana ? "

" Ya5ee ma3arf ! manee daree sh'bashteree "

" W mn galik ana el 5abeer ? "

" Whayyib tkfa tkfa ! n5aitik ! " He was jumping up and down as he said it and it made my head go dizzy , it was VERY hard to ignore him

I gave him a death stare " Tdree wedde a9ikkik rashdee 3baaaaaid bs masik nafsi mabee aliffik eb gara6ees w awadeelik yaha hadeyya t5are3ha eb 3eed miladha "

" Hahaaaaaaaaaaaay 7abeebee wallah " He grinned at me and i jumped out of bed running to the bathroom

I've been to malls.. Many of them. But i never really endured more than 15 minutes in them. All the rush , the noise, chicks rushing from one store to another ..

It was a prohibited mystery for me , I never got it and i really didn't want to. I tried to work in one of the shops in a mall back in Canada but that didn't quite workout..

I mean , who knew that throwing a product at a guy (who by the way asked me to bring it for him from the storage room over 75 times and left the store when i finally got up and got it for him) was a crime that could get you banned from somewhere?

" What do you think of this? " 3baid held up a silver bracelet with a little red apple dangling from the end of it

" Baby i told you am more of a banana type of person "

He frowned at me and punched my arm " C'mmon dude , i want to get her something nice"

" La wallah am serious now , i think she's gonna like this "

" Good " He smiled and put it down again , he looked SO happy ..

I could tell he enjoyed doing this for his special girl , it was obvious he was crazy about her

I smiled as i watched him tell the lady at the counter to wrap it nicely , he was so excited. Knowing he was already imagining the look on his girlfriend's face ,i didn't
want to ruin his moment.

We got out of the store and into the wildness of the mall again ,

A group of guys were following a couple of girls in skinny jeans and funny colored tops , a father running after his kid who was wandering happily with his tiny little feet and a group of girls were blabbing happily about something .. i had no idea what it was.

3baid wanted to get a drink so i patiently waited on the other side of the cafe line when i spotted a tall , long haired girl glance at me then turn and walk away quickly

I tried to take a good look at her but i couldn't! my heart began racing and i was too scared of the possibilities ..

I didn't do much thinking , my legs were already on their way after her

I tried hard to focus on her long locks and follow where she was leading .. but the place was too crowded and for some reason i couldn't catch up with her

She finally appeared beside the elevator but i still couldn't see her face. But when i was close enough, the steel doors have opened and she was already in

No , i thought, please wait !

Before i could take another step i bumped into something , small and delicate

" Sorry " i automatically said without looking. Disappointed that my target was already gone , i finally looked down to see a blushing young lady looking up at me with eyes sparkling and a grin on her tiny face

She was a little younger than me , big lazy eyes decorated with a thick black line just on top of them , a small round nose and the hair was in carefully polished waves. The girl was cute and she had the attention of many guys but she wasn't my type ..

" Am .. sorry miss .. i didn't mean to .. "

" It's okay " She was still grinning and her face seemed awkward , I frowned and tried to smile " Okay then , "

I slowly backed away taking a last glance at the elevator which was already closed , leaving the short blushing lady behind me

" Wain re7t? " i found 3baid back at the cafe with his drink in hand

I didn't exactly know how to answer , but i was pretty sure my face explained what i couldn't say

" Dude , you okay? you look like you've seen a ghost "

" Oh am pretty sure i have , i saw a girl who i thought was Shai5a .. "

3baid smiled " I can't believe she got you like this .. " He shook his head then smiled again " Well ,was she ? "

" I don't know she disappeared "

" Dude , don't tell me you're imagining her now "

" No man that's too ' romantic movies ' for me " I frowned and shook my head

" Alright good , Did she see you ? "

" She was looking at me , i only saw half of her face .. and maybe a smile ..? "

He suddenly slapped my shoulder " Let's get you out of here before you go crazy bro "

We headed for the parking lot when suddenly 3baid froze, His face looked like he ate something expired and his voice was gone

" Shfeek? " I asked , but my answer was a bag punched down at my packs

I got that he wanted me to hold it for him

" '3ala .. " he suddenly said looking at something behind me

I turned around to see the cutest girl with short brown hair down to the end of her ear which was decorated with two piercings ,up and down. Her eyes glowing under her bob and a big shiny smile on her white face and .. Uh-oh ..

She was with that girl i bumped into a few minutes ago

" Baby " Her grin was bigger when she approached Abdullah " What are you DOING here?"

" Uhh .. i was with My cousin.. just getting some stuff for his nephew.. " 3baid was a BAD liar , i mean BAD

Like The definition of a bad liar was invented just for him , i rolled my eyes and hoped for the best

I heard her giggle and her voice was just lovely. She took a glance at me then turned back to him saying something i didn't hear , I instantly knew why 3baid was so crazy about this girl .. And i didn't blame him.

I noticed that the girl i bumped into was still looking at me , also with that smile ..

I swallowed and tried to fake a smile which am sure turned into something frighting..

I wasn't good at these stuff at all

When they parted , 3baid came towards me breathing again ,thank god.

" Dude what happened to you ? " I asked

" I was holding a Jewelery Shop's bag which was meant for her birthday that i didn't want her to know about Whayiib rakkez willi y3afeek "

" Oh yeah , right 3ashan chthy gitlaha it's for MY nephew " i laughed , " The look on your face though .. PRICELESS "

He gave me the death stare

" So anyway i think her friend REALLY likes you " He continued

" Oghh " My face wasn't quite happy with that comment , i looked like i smelled something bad

3baid instantly laughed at me " NOW Wahhab ? YOUR face is priceless "

I punched him and pushed him to car

I didn't have a problem with a girl liking me i seriously didn't! I was used to that..

But now? now i had a certain girl in MY mind ..

And she didn't seem to leave it alone

Once upon a lie 15

2010-10-12T11:42:00.001-07:00

Hello my lovely readers !;*

According to the request of my beloved Taboula and to you my lovely peeps ra7 asawee shay yedeed 3ashaan aqalil mn mo3anatkom ma3ay ;p

I know i don't post as frequently as i should bs walah am getting really busy ;(

Sooo! 3ashan la tet3eboun w t7awloun tathkeroun shno sar eb my last post ra7 aktiblikom briefly what happened in the previous one !

Lovekooooom and sorry again walah ;p ;*

Xoxo

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-Previously ( part 14 )

I stood there for a little while watching her gracefully dancing through the water and found myself in a daze. I hurried to the shore and jumped in

" Ambai! " She popped up again holding her hand close to her chest " Wayed 5eft! WAYED! "

" You swim beautifully "

" It's what i live for .. I won a golden medal once , but i never got in any contest again after that "

" May i .. please take you to lunch? "

" But i'd love to sit down for a picnic on the beach with you "

" So .. You're not going to give me your phone numbeR? " I asked

"I'll tell you what .. am sure you'll come back here with your friends soon , and i will too. If we're meant to see each other again here at the exact same spot we first saw each other , then we'll see where we go from there. Then , i'll be more than glad to give you my number "

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I went back to the Shalaih where the guys were sitting playing cards. As soon as they saw me , they stopped and their woow-ing and whistling filled the room

I could feel my stomach flip funnily . Honestly , i was too happy to care for their usual teasing

" la laaaaa 5athat 3agla mn al7een ! shouf wayhaa! " 3ammar commented

" Ashouf?!! Eeeeee 3adiiiiil maloomik Whayyib wallah " Salim told me

" Ta3al ta3al bs ma 3alaik minhom , ta3al el3ab w goulina sh9ar " 3baid pulled a chair for me

" B3333d ! agoulikom sh9aar ? "

" Aham shay sa2altly 3n el motaar wela laaaa222? " 7amanni asked

" Eskitt ent lajaitna! 3ndik mowater ma9ani3 almanya kilha w ham mako fayda !" 3ammar threw a card at him and 7amanni made a face

I laughed and joined them

" Ma tbe tgoulina sh9ar y3nY? " Salim was staring at me like a lovesick puppy

" Shagoulik ent el thani ?! "

" Did you at least go to second base? "

I stared at him for a little while , then grabbed the nearest pillow i could find the threw at him " El3ab bs el3ab "

We spent our last night doing a Barbecue out front and sweet old tunes were coming through the speakers. I did listen to a few classic Khaleeji tunes back at Canada and i was a big fan

But i can't remember the last time i related to any of them , not since Kenzii passed away anyway ..

Rwaished , 3abdo, 3bdelmajeed and Rashid were my ultimate favorites. I related to their passion , emotion and sensibility when preforming each and every song

Not necessarily having experienced what they had but listening to them , you might as well have ..

3bdallah was checking if the coal was still good , 3ammar was preparing more Skewers and 7amanni and Salim were by the porch each in his own thought trying to get in the mood of every song

As we were all too busy we heard sweet feminine melodies of laughter come through carried by the wind. We looked around to see a bunch of young ladies making their way through the sandy ground , giggling and stealing a few peeks at us

One of them murmured something to her friend and they both turned around to a girl on the left corner behind them who shushed them , trying to avoid eye contact with me and the guys

I smiled instantly as soon as i knew who it was. They were coming closer to us a few still smiling at Salim and 7amanni who were enjoying every step those girls took towards us

And i didn't blame them

The wind blew her sweet scent right to my nostrils. She walked in front of me looking at me with the small corner of her beautiful eye and hiding her smile

As soon as they were far enough away , we heard 3bdelmajeed break into his unforgettable oldie ' Tente'6er kilmat a7ibbak .. '

All the guys suddenly whistled and laughed " a5aaaaih " 3bdallah said shaking his head with a smile " Ma dagait 3al 7ob el youm "

" Yaaaa5ee e7sas ! tkfa Whayyib sallifnee ! " Salim shouted over to me and 7amanni laughed

3ammar was having the usual dumb look on his face , as if he was too cool or too mature to act like the rest of us , when he really wasn't ! which was the funniest thing about it. Having a wife as a best friend and a soul-mate was enough for him and i knew deep inside he was thinking about her .. missing her ..

See the beauty of an old song is not only that it represents a deep beautiful meaning , but that it carries with it a certain memory to each heart that listens to it

We see millions of people having tastes in different forms of art and music. Even though they're looking at the same painting or listening to the same melody , Their impressions , memories and thoughts are all different somehow and i loved that

The meat was finally getting done and our appetites were all too excited. The night came to an end and we all turned in ready for a long drive home the next day

The next morning Salim managed to make a fast breakfast. We were all running around trying to check our bags before we leave , hooking the Jets to our cars and making sure we didn't forget anything

3bdallah ,7amanni and 3ammar were out back putting everything in the car , arguing of course or laughing at whatever stupid thing they said ..

When Suddenly they all went silent , i wondered what had happened but i was too busy eating Salim's fresh made eggs

I tried to grab my plate and went outside to see what was going on , but all i saw was a car leaving and my 3 best friends stood there dumbfounded just staring at it

" What's going on ? " I asked as i put a mouthful of eggs in my mouth, 7amanni just hit my chest without looking at me when i realized he was holding a piece of paper

" Shno hatha? " He didn't answer me and didn't bother to look , he and 3ammar still looked like they were hypnotized by a stage magician and 3bdallah was grinning at me

I took the paper and gave him my plate , when i read the name on it my mind was in complete shut down

It was from Shai5a

" We didn't see her drop it off , we only saw them drive away when you got here " 3bdallah explained " She has it BAD for you , bro ! "

" Tell me about it , a5er wrega kitbat'ha mortii 7agi kanat listat el jam3eya " 3ammar was saying

" I need to get myself a girlfriend man " 7amanni was saying

" You already have Lalii " 3ammar told him and 3bdallah laughed hard

" I never got you as the cheating type, 7mayyin " I said

" Lalii is his Lamborghini " 3ammar gave me a serious look

" Hey " 7manni said with a warning tone " 7addik 3ad that's my baby "

" What's up?!" Salim finally came out

" Whayyib's girl just left him a letter " 7amanni explained

" WHAT?!! Dude ! " He jumped at me and looked at it

" Eg3ad Zeer el nesa2 " He winked

We all got in our cars and i decided to read the letter on the way ..

I hesitated before opening it. I was thinking if she had changed her mind ..

If she finally wrote her number on that paper ..

I finally opened it and began reading silently

Dear AbdulWahab ,

I wanted to thank you for the wonderful time you made me experience. I enjoyed the pleasure of your company and i really hope to see you again. I wrote you this in case i don't , but i have a feeling that i will. I can feel it!

I wish you the best ,

Shaikha

A smile ran across my mouth as i closed the letter , 3bdallah looked at me and i knew what he was thinking

" Dare i say you're liking her more than you thought you would? "

I laughed and shook my head " She just showed up in my life out of nowhere .."

" They usually do my man , and your life is just never the same once they're in it" he said reminiscing and i laughed at him

The boy just went through so much in the ladies and love area , and i wasn't surprised. It had been his expertise since we were in kindergarten !

It all started when a little girl named Ameena gave him a cookie , he just wasn't the same , I think that was his first love

We arrived at the house and were greeted by my aunt Nadia who was thrilled we finally came home

" Lulu was just asking about you , she'll be thrilled once she knows you're back " She told me and i smiled

I couldn't believe it , but i actually missed her tea parties

And i can never blame 3baid for being addicted to those cupcakes , they're just insane!

" Wahabiiiiiiiiiii ! " I heard a little shrieking voice call me from the very top of the long staircase

I turned around to see a tiny little figure managing to skip a few steps to get down as soon as possible

Before i knew it , her tiny hands were wrapped around my knees tightly " You're back!"

I picked her up and kissed her cheek " yes i am. I missed you "

" We should celebrate , i have cupcakes upstairs " She told me

" Adree ma te5lain , it's like you read my mind "

" Hey what about me? don't i get a kiss? " 3bdallah stood in protest , she giggled and pulled his neck to kiss him

" I will offer you cupcakes this time , but only if you promise to kiss miss pink piggy , you hurt her feelings last time "

I looked at him confused as i put Lulu down , " Pink furry thing .. got lost with my socks .. long story " He whispered

" 5al aroo7 agoul 7g el 5adam yzahboun '3orafkom " Aunt Nadia announced

Man, it's good to be back

Once upon a lie 14

2010-10-04T11:02:00.001-07:00

Sorry i took so long again guys! Bas jam3a bedaaaat w ente5abaat w looyaa ;( bas hope this post is long enough for you guys 3ashan testansoon ;p

Walah a7ibkooooom ;* Sorry again !

Hope you enjoy thiiiis w tell me what you think !

Xoxo

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I slept like a baby that night. The fact that i was spending more time with her made me feel good. The girl had a vibe .. An Aura surrounding her , you know what those weird psychologists always say ' that a person carries positive energy? and that person may carry his/her energy to effect others around him/her ?'. I think that's what happened to me when i met her.

I woke up and found that 7amanni ,Salim and 3bdallah went out to Sul6an to get some stuff and 3ammar was still sleeping. I went straight up to the porch and just as i had hoped , she was there.

I stood there for a little while watching her gracefully dancing through the water and found myself in a daze. I hurried to the shore and jumped in slowly arriving at where she was floating beautifully, she suddenly gasped and flipped herself under

" Ambai! " She popped up again holding her hand close to her chest " Wayed 5eft! WAYED! " She took some time to breathe and looked at me with piercing eyes " 3bdelwahab .. "

And i found myself acting like a fool again , i couldn't help it .. It happened every time she mentioned my name

" You can't sneak up on people like that "

" I wasn't trying to scare anyone " I said as gently as possible, i honestly wasn't !

She frowned and looked away breathing slowly " feel free to scare me when we're actually on solid ground , i watched Jaws yesterday and am not a fan! stupid Lamia made me watch it. I hate her now .. this .. not even Mcdonald's could fix " There it is , the non step blabbing i was a sucker for. I smiled at her not really knowing what to say

" WhaT?" She asked

" You know sharks couldn't possibly BE at this part of sea right? "

" YOU watch that stupid movie and tell me how YOU react when you take a swim alone and someone sneaks up behind you "

" Am .. sorry? " I tried to say but my face wasn't helping , I was still amused by her genuine reaction

But before i said anything else , she disappeared again under water and i found myself looking left and right to see where she went

I remembered the other day at the beach when i saw her suddenly jump and went right after her ..

I remembered how scared i was for her , i had no idea why ..

I looked again and again and that feeling wasn't nice at all , i didn't like looking for people .. or things for that matter, because after some point you freak out and your senses start being overworked.

When i was 10 i lost my Ultimate Battlefield crafty yoyo my dad had got me from a mini mart. ALL my friends had one of those things and we'd use them in the shower if our parents said we could. I lost mine one day and missed out on an important match with my other buddies only to find that it was under my bed the whole time, so all my crying and anger was for nothing. After that i decided i HATED looking for stuff .

I knew it was silly , that there was no need for me to act like that, She was just playing around .. But memories came flooding in and i didn't like them to ..

I could't help what i was feeling and my reaction was uncontrollable. But at just the right time her pretty head popped out again behind me forming a mischievous lovely smile on it " See? told you it doesn't feel nice "

I smiled , god if only you knew what happened to me just now , i thought.

" You're right , am sorry "

" So why are you up at this hour ? " She asked as she flew by me again , swimming rhythmically in a circle around me

" I told you i wanted to see you "

I could see her smiling , It's been a while since i put so much effort in when i liked a girl .. It felt crazy weird , but still nice

It was worth it , i mean .. if only you looked at her

The way she was at ease moving in the water , the grace she had , the rhythm .. All indicated that she wasn't just swimming for fun. Her actions showed a lot more than that

" You swim beautifully " I told her

She swam a little closer to me then stopped when her face met mine " Thank you " She said meeting my gaze , her cheeks were burning i could tell but she tried so hard to hide it

" It's what i live for .. " Her hand ran across the surface of water then she looked back up at me " I won a golden medal once , but i never got in any contest again after that "

" Why not? "

She just smiled awkwardly and looked away at the horizon again , i didn't want to pressure her so i just changed the subject " The weather is perfect today "

" Yeah , " She turned her head to where i was looking and i took the chance to steal a glance at her again ..

I just couldn't look away , she was breathtaking

Her black hair was even shinier under the rays of the sun , her matching eyes were twinkling fighting drops of pure shiny water on her face

I never saw much of that back in Canada , everything was different here. The girls couldn't be more lovely over there , they seriously couldn't. but this ..

I remembered characters from Arabian nights , the beautiful women who made men go crazy over them ..

My friends back there told me they'd kill for an Arab featured girl with black hair , dark eyes and a caramel complexion to match , and now i knew what they meant.

She caught me again staring at her , but i just smiled. If she knew she had that effect on me so be it , i didn't mind ..

" Do you mind if i ask you a question ? "

" Sure go ahead "

" May i .. please take you to lunch? " my voice was hopeful

I saw her face turn red with surprise , but then she smiled

" 3bdelWahab .. " She began " i don't know about the whole going out part , " Her face fell " am not used to that sort of thing "

I was a little disappointed then. Okay ,very
disappointed . But she was right , i couldn't just offer something like that to her , she barely knew me

" But i'd love to sit down for a picnic on the beach with you "

My heart instantly went back to it's regular beating ,Before i could react " McDonald's is what i live for "

I found myself laughing , Man

I think i just found the perfect girl

" So McDonald's it is. I'll be at your Shalaih's porch at 2 ?"

" Perfect "

She disappeared again before i could say another word , i watched her run out of the sea and grab her towel.

Then she was gone again

I hated for her to go , to run away on me like that .. But i had a certain pleasure of watching her, even when she was leaving ..

I waited at her porch as planned , after i told the guys what happened they went crazy on me

3bdallah thought it was a great idea and offered to come with me to prepare for our picnic, 7amanni told me to ask if the color on one of the cars near Shai5a's Shalaih was custom made , Salim gave me some Gel i couldn't really use on my crew cut and was going to come with me and Shai5a if 3bdallah hadn't punched him

And 3ammar .. He said i reminded him of the good old days. But said that the beauty of marriage , is that you can have dates whenever you want without appointments with the woman you love

I was wearing a dark Abercrombie shirt and jeans , Salim thought shorts were going to be an understatement of the evening ..

God knows what THAT means

So in a short while she showed up , wearing a nice white sun-dress that made her skin glow , her hair was down and decorated with big nice waves pulling up only the first two strands on each side of her head

" Good afternoon " i said as she approached me

" Good afternoon to you too " I didn't know whether to concentrate on her captivating scent or her pure voice " Shall we go ? "

She nodded gently and i took her to a nice nearby spot away from all the busyness of the Shalaih's

A baby blue mat me and 3bdallah got from Sultan's lay at ease on the sand and big McD's paper bags were lined there too

" After you " I gestured for her to sit , she giggled and sat before me

" I didn't know what you liked , so i picked up a few of my favorites .. I hope it's not much "

" When it's McDonald's theres no such thing as too much food "

A girl who loves the sea and food?! i think am in love

" I got you ice cream too , i hope it didn't melt yet "

" Let's start with it then ! " She suddenly said excited

I stopped and looked at her surprised and amused at the same time " Start with ice cream before real food? "

" Dessert is ALWAYS more fun before the real meal , plus life is too short man! "

I laughed and pulled out 2 Oreo McFlurries " Thank you " She said and took one from me hand

" So , do you do this often ? " She asked

" Do what? " I said after taking a mouthful of ice cream in my mouth

" Do picnics on the beach with girls and buy them all of McDonald's Summer stock ?"

I laughed , " Not really , no. Am not really that guy "

She gulped " Really ?! "

" Really "

" And .. your ex didn't mind? "

It was a little painful to hear about Kenzii as my ex , but i sucked it up for Shai5a's sake and answered politely " We weren't exactly that sort of couple "

" No movies, no sharing popcorn and no long walks on the beach? "

I shook my head with a smile , " You really do watch a lot of movies , don't you? "

" Not Jaws .. " She shook her head " God knows i won't watch THAT stupid movie ever again " She looked at the Sea and her body shivered

I laughed " It's okay , i guess i can take a few sharks down "

" Wah! Mr. big head "

" Better , i been Mr. big muscle for way too long it won't hurt to change " i winked at her

She laughed " You're unbelievable "

" What about you ? Dora the explorer ! what .. you want to travel over to the north pole and save Penguins now ? "

She looked at me in a funny way " Okay , i won't even ask how you know that show "

I smiled remembering little Lulu , i missed that little thing and i had to say i owe her alot

I mean , the girl introduced me to a whole new culture on TV !

I couldn't wait to see her tomorrow , wait! we're going back tomorrow

My heart sunk at the thought of it , means i won't be able to see Shai5a sitting out on the sand or swimming around ..

I won't be able to steal a sneak peak at her face whenever i wanted to

" So , when are you going back to the city? " i asked reaching for the other bag to take out our Sandwiches

" Tomorrow i think "

" Us too " i nodded

" Shai5a .. " I hesitated before i asked

" hmm? " She looked up at me

" Do you mind if i gave you my number? "

She almost choked " What did .. did i say something wrong? " i asked again

She giggled " No , But why do you want to give me your number ?"

" So we can call each other ? " I shrugged , " You DO use a mobile right? you don't think it's against humanity or that it's going to turn into a Robot and kill you or something , do you? "

" Whaat?! Why would it do that it's a machine ! "

" Did you NOT watch I-robot? "

" There's a movie too ! " Her voice was a little too loud , okay .. there was a little possibility she was going to freak out on me

She put her hand on her forehead , closed her eyes and sighed " Dear god , there are a whole lot of movies i been saved from , thank you so much "

I would've laughed if i didn't find it too darn cute , i just kept thinking when would this girl stop amazing me?

We continued eating our meal and i truly and utterly enjoyed her company more than food itself , which was a huge miracle ..

She had Ideas about the world that no one's ever thought of , she had meanings for words i could never understand ..

But i liked that about her

After we were done , we took a long walk ..

Which she enjoyed , because she wanted to ' introduce me to the world i never knew ' as she said it , since i wasn't ' that guy '

I didn't say she wasn't weird .. Shai5a was beautifully weird

And i absolutely loved every single second i spent with her

I walked her to her Shalaih at last , " So .. You're not going to give me your phone numbeR? " I asked

I saw her smile mischievously , she lowered her head and moved closer to me " I'll tell you what .. am sure you'll come back here with your friends soon , and i will too. If we're meant to see each other again here at the exact same spot we first saw each other , then we'll see where we go from there. Then , i'll be more than glad to give you my number "

I stood there startled after being rejected for the first time in my life, even when it wasn't rejection .. not really ..

But something inside me told me to wait , to listen to her

To believe her and go with it

I found myself smiling

" We leave tomorrow morning " She told me " But in case i don't see you .. " She moved even closer to me and her head was only a few inches from the side of mine

She moved a little next to my ear and i could sense her breath " Thank you for everything , 3bdelWahab " She whispered to me

And then again , she disappeared

I stood there not being able to move , that girl had a spell on me and i had no idea how to break it

Once upon a lie 13

2010-10-01T10:49:00.000-07:00

I was very intrigued. I couldn't wait to see a glimpse of her again , i wanted to talk to her, to feel her presence. I wanted to know what she's doing ..

Aside from making homes for turtles and learning childish skills , i wanted to know.

Her dazzling picture never seemed to leave my head , i always ended up with a silly smile on my face having 3baid throw a pillow at me,

" I don't blame you though , " He had said " i had the exact same face on lama sheft el 7ob "

He thought it'd be a good idea if i tried to make something more out of those coincidences i shared with her and it made me think , after all .. we were leaving the Shalaih the day after tomorrow

I wasn't sure if i could go through with it though ,it'd be the first girl am serious about after Kenzii ..

I was sitting alone on the porch of the shalaih when i saw her walk out of hers' , and an instant buzz went through my stomach

As soon as i left my seat she turned her head to me , the same beautiful blush decorating her lifted cheeks " hey .. " i greeted

" hey .. " her hands dipped in the pockets of her hoodie , the wind blowing through her hair

" So .. you solved the broken glass problem ? " I asked

" yes " She smiled making herself a comfortable seat on the soft sand beneath her , i hesitated as i saw her sitting there gently with her legs crossed close to her chest , i couldn't help but join her

" Why aren't you in bed? " I asked

She suddenly shrugged lifting her shoulders " couldn't sleep .. "

I nodded , knowing exactly how that feels

" I just love coming out here .. " She was saying " I love the sea breeze going through my hair , the smell of it and the feel of sand between my toes " She enhaled deeply

Boy , I was sure the sea didn't mind her being there either

I had to admit , i wasn't paying as much attention to the sea as i was staring at her. She snapped me out of it by turning her face to me , expecting me to say something

" I .. used to live in Canada so i didn't get to experience much of all this .. "

" Oh " She nodded sounding interested " How long have you been there for? "

" Almost 9 years "

" Wow that's a long time "

" Yeah , but am glad to be home again .. "

" What do you miss most of all ? " She asked her eyes twinkling as she looked at me

" My friends and family here mostly .. " I answered honestly , " i was there alone with my father "

She nodded " what about your mother? "

" She .. isn't with us .. " I told her , " She's living somewhere else " I tried to explain , not liking to go through much detail about the issue

She understood and smiled sweetly " I live with my father too , my mother passed away 3 years ago .. " she told me

" Am so sorry "

" Don't be , at least your mother is still here somewhere. Do you contact her? "

Her question took me by surprise " No. Never did and i doubt that i will "

She seemed almost hurt by my blunt answer " It was a long time ago .. she didn't want to be with us "

Her face fell , " I just don't get it .. " her voice was small

" A mother never abandons her child or family by will .. There must have been a reason "

Yeah , another rich man .. I thought but decided to leave it out

" Well you should contact her , it's never too late .. am sure she'd be glad to hear from you "

I barely knew this girl and here she was giving me advice and telling me how to handle my life. Normally i would just shake my head and tell the person to mind his own business , shutting him up by the rudest ways possible..

But i knew better when it came to talking to a lady. Besides, I had an impulse to listen to every word she had to say , and i wasn't angry with her. Not even a little bit.

I was more than glad to listen to her

" Tell me more about youself " I told her enjoying every second that passed us by

" Let's see .. " She began " am 21 and i still hadn't decided what college am gona attend. Instead i try to learn as much as possible from attending various classes and seminars held in different places "

" That's .. something .." I said with a smile , she looked like the girl who had all her life perfectly planned and decided , i was surprised when she told me that.

" See my mother always said it's not what you study , it's what you learn. You try to learn about life and it's surroundings ,from every aspect. You try to hear what each person has to say .. you try to understand and accept every persons' idea about things and broaden your mind range. That's why i never stick to anything in particular , i think i still need more time .. i want to know more .. i want to be ready for college when it starts , when i finally decide what i want to be involved in "

" Wow, you don't hear that alot. " I told her " My excuse is way worse .. "

" You don't go to college? "

" No. i did went to several but .. college and i just didn't suite .. " I told her , i found that good enough explanation for now. I didn't want her to know my bad side just yet. At least for now , i'll keep that part of me hidden until am ready to talk about it all

She nodded understanding perfectly , being polite enough not to ask more.

" What else? "

She smiled at me " Am all for saving animals but am not a hippy like most people think. But .. i laugh every time i see a fly coz i think they're dumb and the idea of mosquitoes sucking my blood terrifies me , it makes me think of vampires existence. I love the sea and all its' attachments , i started swimming at 7 and i won 2 golden medals. Which is funny because i suck at all other sports .. " She bit her lip as if she just admitted a deep dark secret that she wasn't supposed to tell to a single soul

I smiled at her. " i don't watch the news .. they just .. irritate me. They tell you everything bad that's happening around you and honestly, i don't want to know! " She suddenly lifted her hands in the air

I seriously admired her for admitting all of this in only a few seconds , the girl had a personality bigger than Mars. She was impossible to blend in with a crowd ..

She was just something .. different

" You think am weird , don't you ? " She suddenly said pouting at me , i thought it was the most beautiful thing in the world

" What?! No ! no i think .. i think you're .. just perfect "

I saw her blush and look away quickly. Even i was surprised from what came out of my mouth

I didn't mean to be like that with her. It wasn't meant as a line or a flirt .. I just felt like i had to say it. Like , everything in me agreed that it was true

" That's not fair , you didn't tell me about yourself " She suddenly looked up at me

I smiled , " There isn't much to tell really , " I began , " I lived in Canada all those years and i now am came back to my family and friends .. i never been happier " I said quickly remembering Kenzii

How happy i was with her ..

How she was everything i liked living for ..

" But you sound so sad when you mention it .. " She tilted her pretty head to take a good look at me , her features shining more beautifully than the starts above me " Do you regret leaving? "

" No no .. am actually glad i left , " I said " I just didn't want to stay anymore " I looked away at Sea trying to keep my mind from thinking about the details of my departure

" There was a girl , wasn't there? " She said it so gently , i didn't feel angry or offended at all , I felt an urge to say more

" Yeah. Yes there was " I nodded

" Well , " She shrugged not knowing what to say " it's okay .. it doesn't have to be a sad ending "

" It .. is a sad ending "

She stopped and looked at me " She passed away a couple' years ago " I explained

I could sense her face fall and her heart beat louder , she lifted her face up again trying to search for the right words

" It's okay. I know it's hard to lose a loved one. " Her voice was too beautiful to resist " I lost one too , it gets easier with time i promise. It doesn't become okay and normal .. it just gets .. better "

I looked at her with a smile on my face , but she still wasn't smiling. She was too hurt for me i could feel it

" I came here in search of a new life , a good life .. " I began saying again

" Far away from the one i had before , God knows it wasn't perfect. I just want it different this time , i want it better "

" Why what did you do , rob banks or something? " She smiled

" Something like that " I winked at her

" People just have this .. idea about me." I continued " They could sense am trouble , it's enough to scare them away even if i don't intend to "

" Well , you don't scare me 3bdelwahab "

She said that name and i felt my heart stop for a while.

My name just had a whole new meaning , a whole new sound to it

I did love every word that got out of her mouth , But THIS i wanted to hear again and again ..

I looked deeply into her eyes , not minding to be hypnotized by them over and over , until she broke it and looked at her watch " I should get going "

Don't go , I wanted to say. But it was late ..

" Alright. walk you to your Shalaih ? " I offered , knowing it sounded stupid since it was 10 steps away from mine , but i offered anyway

She blushed " Sure "

We walked in silence until we reached it , " Will i see you tomorrow? " I asked

" Am gona have an early swim .. " She gave me the most irresistible look

But before i could give her an answer , " Goodnight 3bdelwahab, I had a lovely time talking to you "

And there it is again! i was numb again

I couldn't move and no word managed to escape my mouth. She left me standing there like a fool who had cubes of ice thrown on his head

Once upon a lie 12

2010-09-26T08:56:00.000-07:00

Greetings loved ones!

How's uniiiiiii or schooool or woooork or kilaa ?!! way ana el youm dawamt za7maaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ;'( it took me half an hour to get there w AN HOUR AND 15 MINUTES TO GET HOME! way waay ma2sat lool we could barely walk between classes mn kither ma fe nas ! el moshkila koliyatna 9'3eeraa w yaybeen 600 more students mashallah wain nro7 b3d ? ;s bs it was fun though seeing everyone agaaaain w chthyyy hehe EVERYONE is like sun-burnt w they look like they've had a good vacation , how was your day?!

So this is my 12th post 7g el story , tell me what you think;*

Love you guuuuys

Xoxo

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It's been a while since a girl came to my mind. And i found it very weird honestly. I mean , don't get me wrong i don't MIND and i don't find it annoying at all! I just .. feel different. And i learnt that it's not easy having a girl on your mind.

You see , after that morning when me and Shai5a finally talked i spent the day with my buddies. That's when i didn't get to think of her. I didn't have THAT much sleep because of course they didn't let me. Let alone let me think about Shai5a or anything else for that matter. Lunch ran a little late because the driver my aunt Nadia sent was still on his way so we decided to play some ball

I love football. I love everything about it. The rush you get when you're just about to score .. The thrill of it when you do , the rush you're filled with when you see the other team coming to get the ball from your possession , your teammates having your back knowing exactly what your next move is .. I find it thrilling

I didn't get much time to play back in Canada , my friends were big fans of OTHER sports if you consider partying one , and i didn't mind really ..

I love my friends back their with all my heart but being here , now felt so much different and somehow better. It wasn't the same at all, Even though i had some pretty amazing time back then , this however felt more REAL , more livable. Something of more importance. Like this right here had a meaning to it all. like this , this was just the plan to get me back into my old easy lifestyle

Not everything has to be easy as in lay back while you drink some booze, enjoy life as it asses you by and care less of the whole thing ..

NO.

I had learnt that it's NOT the answer. well , i THOUGHT it was at some point of my life but .. that's just not it.

When that moment comes in your life and you finally have the chance to experience it, you'll know exactly what i mean.

You see, to enjoy life you actually have to live it. ENJOY LIVING it. Something i did the wrong way. See i thought i was enjoying myself but i figured to enjoy you'd have to be actually HAPPY. Which was something i was far from reaching.

In order to be happy your surroundings must also help. I was there at the beach right in the middle of the most awesome football game with my best friends when i realized i was enjoying myself here. That sick feeling inside my stomach and that ache in my heart was just .. GONE and i could trace nothing but a warm , nice emotion taking over that's happieness

It may not be such a big deal to others but at that point , it was a big development for me. For the first time in a long time i knew what it felt like to just live right in that moment and forget it all.

Forget the past.

Forget hurting.

Just Breathe.

" WHAYYIB LIIK !! " i heard 3bdallah shout as he passed the football to me , i smiled as i saw 3mran coming straight at me with a devilish smile on his face ready to steal it away

I took my position ready to catch it when something as hard as rocks hit my head. I ducked after it hit me feeling piercing pain from the back of my head

" ULLAH ! " I heard 3ammar say

" Oh my god! " i heard someone say behind me , i smiled instantly when i recognized the voice and turned to see her

" Let me guess , yesterday you were trying to save turtles and now you decided to kill humans? " I said as soon as she approached me

She had her hand close to her mouth and she was biting her lower lip. Her long black hair was pulled back with only a few strands coming down on her matching scary-beautiful eyes. Her cocoa butter face shining under the sun i can see she was not amused at all " I am SO So sorry , i don't know how it reached your head i was pointing it in the other direction "

" What .. what did you throw at me anyway .. ?" i looked around to see what hit me , and i saw an L shaped wooden thing laying on the sand beneath us

" It's a boomerang ?.. " She sounded guilty when she said it

" Yeah aren't .. aren't these things .. supposed to be for kids and .. and not cause brain damage ? "

She choked with a laugh " Am so sorry , i swear i didn't mean to hit you 3bdelWahab" As soon as i heard that sentence all my senses were numb

" Come again? " I heard myself murmur. Okay , What was THAT?!. Did she just say my name ?

Well of course she did i mentioned it to her but it never sounded sweeter coming out of any human being's mouth ,i swear.

" Am .. sorry?" She said again

I heard my friends out back TRYING to speak in low voices but failing to and i KNEW exactly what they were saying. Who was this girl and what the hell is going on with her and Wahab?

" No it's alright , you didn't mean it. Why is it like this anyway? it looks weird "

She rolled her eyes before she answered " Well i was TRYING to get the plastic one but my friends said i was acting like a baby .. and i wanted something .. bigger and i just COULDN'T play with the plastic one! " she was talking the same way she was telling me the crab story, breathless and beautifully nervous. But she wasn't comfortable making eye contact this time which confused me a little before i realized i was shirtless and standing right in front of a lady

I felt the corners of my eyes crinkle and my cheeks lifting lightly to form a light laugh " Well then , i hope you get the hang of it " i told her. I saw her cheeks blush instantly and then again i was left alone with a wooden stick beneath my feet and a heart beating so loud out of my bare chest

Damn it , why do you do that to me? I wanted to tell her. It wasn't fair to me..

It just wasn't fair.

" HEEEYYY! " 3bdallah punched me , " La7tha la7tha la7thaa!! "

Salim's hands were up , 3ammar was still standing there with the most RIDICULOUS expression anyone could ever have on their faces and 7amanni was lost

" What the hell man ? " 3bdallah said " EXPLAIN "

I laughed and told them a summary of what had happened between me and her , i never mentioned her name and said nothing more than the fact that we met following some short coincidences , that's all.

3bdallah picked up the weird boomerang and gave it to me " Man , you're in for a long long ride "

I smiled " Tell me about it "

" And duuuude THAT Is one HELL of an engine " 7amanni was saying as he checked out Shai5a one more time , i snapped my finger on his forehead

" a77 ! "

By nighttime each one of us was doing his own thing. We took perfect use of the definition ' Chill '

3ammar was sitting on the couch with a huge bag of chips , 7amanni and Salim were fighting over some bet they made on who's going to win a match and 3bdallah was taking a hot shower

I had some little time to think about the boomerang and i decided i should give it back. But see the problem was i didn't know when to ..

And if i did give it back i would have to say more than just ' Here you go '

I just picked up the boomerang and got out , not having enough time to think of what to say i suddenly saw the familiar lovely tall figure standing on the porch of her Shalaih

As soon as she saw me get closer she smiled shyly , this time making eye contact with me. As she did, my heart almost melt right there on the sand. Fully dressed this time, i headed towards her holding the wooden stick in my hand " 'Evening "

" Good evening to you too " i must be crazy but her voice DID sound sexier with nightfall

" I came to return this to you " I held the boomerang up

" Ahh .. " i saw her frown , " The alleged kill tool "

" I won't press charges " i held up my arms

She reached out her long toned hands and the wind blew her sweet scent that flew right through my nostrils. She smelled like fresh cut peaches

" Shai5a " My mouth felt so sweet as her name lingered out of my breath , a thing she herself was surprised to hear. I felt the same reaction form in her as it did when she said my name.

I knew there was no better time to ask her this , so i went for it

" I wanted to- " Before i could manage to let the words out , we both heard the sound of shattered glass from inside her Shalaih

" Ambai Lamiaa this is the second glass you break! " A girl was saying

Shai5a's head turned then snapped right back at me , " I just wanted to say.. Better luck learning the game " i blurted out with a smile

If i wasn't so distracted by her dazzling face i could've sworn i saw disappointment in her eyes " Thank you " She smiled. Politely enough she waited for me to turn away before she hurried inside the Shalaih to see what happened

Oh well , i thought Maybe next time..

Once upon a lie 11

2010-09-15T15:15:00.000-07:00

Hellooooo people! ;*

I know i know ;( badddaaaada333t these last weeks knt a VERY bad blogger am sorry ;p , bs you should know i been writing this post madre shkither sarlee ! kil ma abee asawee post akteb shwayya b3dain y6la3lee shay w ma yamdee akamla!

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Hope you enjoy it , though!

Loveyou!

Xoxo

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I couldn't sleep that night either. And i'll be honest, it wasn't a bad dream this time. It was HER.

All the guys went to sleep in after the Barbecue but i told them i wanted chill on the beach for a while. I don't know why i was making a big deal out of it. I mean , she's just a girl. Right? just .. a beautifully tall ,athletic, dazzling person..

I waited for one of the guys might wake up and we can play some cards, but all of them were pretty hammered. Then that question came to my mind

' WHAT IF '

Woah big words there , i thought. They sounded so cheesy like i just got out of some corny TV show to win 3 cars or 5 houses and my dreams will come true or something ..

I shook my head and got up to my feet. I don't really know what the hell i was expecting sitting here on the shore anyway. Only to be disappointed with the fact that she wasn't there. Okay, am here to clear my head a little bit , i told myself. But it would've been nice if she was here too like the night before. I was standing there hands in the pockets of my sweat pants looking out at sea when i heard a voice that i was sure wasn't a seagull or a wave's ..

I turned to see what was it but there was no one there. I ignored it and went back to my thoughts looking out at the sea again. But then i felt some drops of sand brush the tips of my toes. I shook my feet realizing i was at the beach and it was normal for sand to get caught between my toes, but the sand wasn't just sitting there brushing my feet , it was THROWN at me.

I frowned looking at my feet then followed the traces of little odd out grains of sand to arrive at a nearby spot. I couldn't sea a thing although the sun was only a few minutes away from coming up. As i got a little closer i saw a small toy shovel being used , which explained the sand that was coming at me ..

Or should i say the shovel was being abused? poor tool. The person who was using it was using it so fiercely that i barely saw his figure. Now that scene would've scared any child who ever wanted to use a toy shovel. I stood a little closer trying to see what was going on

The person was sitting down with his back to me digging in a very small ,almost shallow hole. He had a Cap on worn backwards. The dude was going at it, SO into the job that he wasn't aware of his surroundings

Maybe i should tell him he's using a toy.. I thought.

But then , i heard a soft depressed sigh " Stupid crabs ". I held back my laugh. Okay , that is NOT a guy, I told myself.

" Can .. can i help you miss ? " I hesitated before i asked , god knows i was scared it might be HER

I heard her let out a small gasp and turn her head to me quickly, scared. " I- am sorry i didn't mean to frighten you ", I apologized holding my arm out to show i had no intention of harming her. A vibe anyone would pick up from me as soon as they saw my built up body and my serious face.

I had this scar , a straight line just above my left brow that sent the wrong message somehow. But i never got it ..

I didn't know whether it was me or them, but am sure there was SOMETHING intimidating to them.

Her face fell not scared anymore just .. Frustrated. " No .. ugh .. " She put her toy shovel down and took off her Cap, giving me a chance to see those captivating intense eyes. Various strands of her hair were flying everywhere, it was straight this time but still messy ' The after-effect of the cap ' which had an instant charm on me

I waited politely for her to finish what she wanted to say " There was just these little .. tiny crabs , you know? " She said that with some weird hand gestures i didn't get at all

" And .. and .. they were just theeeeerrre everywheeerrre and they just disappear into the sand! and rocks! " Then her hands went up higher making me want to step away a little so i wouldn't get hurt, to be honest.

" And they don't know what they're getting themselves into i mean they can't just GO inside, i mean where the hell are they going?! they can't just .. just PINCH people ! they must be scared and they're scared because .. because they don't have a home and am trying to build them a home but they don't want one and .. and .. am sorry i talked like this , you understand right? " She was breathless after that whole speech

NO , i don't understand a THING You're saying woman! , I wanted to say. But instead i just smiled gently and lowered myself a little as if it gave me a better understanding of the situation. Which it didn't. Not even a tiny bit.

You know how they always say a man can NEVER get what a woman is saying? , he can never truly know what she was talking about or what she wants? , like she was made from an entire different substance created for own little world?

I read somewhere that a man's brain goes through some stages so he can actually have a conversation with a woman. You see , when a woman talks , The man listens and he only SEEMS to be on the same page but what really happens is that the man's brain has to first listen , then translate the woman's words and fill in the blanks so THEN he KNOWS what the hell she's talking about.

So when a woman is talking nonstop then she suddenly yells at the man and tells him he's so cold and he's heartless by ignoring her or just being quiet , He's NOT!

The male's brain may be still in the process of realizing WHAT the female is saying.

" Am .. Sure they appreciate you're building them a home , they very much do but .. it's almost 4 A.M , i think you should give yourself a rest " I told her

She looked up at me and waited for more " Uhh .. umm .. " I really didn't know a shit about those stuff! (excuse my language) ,but i wanted to try anyway

" Am sure .. you know, those little .. Crabs know what they're getting themselves into .. " i nodded ,Trying to give the impression i was confident and positive of the information i was giving

" am sure they have tiny homes of their own , you just don't know they do , uhh .. they .. they can be little on the outside but they can really handle themselves out here , it's .. it's part of the .. uhh .. whole world plan and stuff "

Okay maybe i shouldn't have added ' AND STUFF ' that was stupid. But her face seemed to be beaming already , I waited as she looked at the sand then at her shovel Then , lifting her face to look at me and What do you know ?, there it is a smile!!

I smiled back " Thank you .. " She suddenly said , her cheeks forming the prettiest, shy face and man i was lost. I almost forgot my manners " You're welcome "

" Am Shai5a " She suddenly told me. I liked that name , it was unique and sort of old but .. having HER actually say it to me was just something ELSE.

" 3bdelwahab " I let her know. She smiled shyly and turned her face to the sea. I was afraid that that was it , The moment was gone and she'll just disappear like a beautiful dream like the other day

I didn't want her to go , not just yet. I wanted to talk to her , i wanted to hear her voice again , but i wasn't a big talker .. i didn't DO small talk!

What do people usually talk about when they see a girl? This wasn't Canada i can't just smile devilishly and tell her to hop in my car now, can i?

" So .. You like crabs? " The words were out i couldn't stop them i swear! , My fist clenched a little and i wanted to jump in the water right away. What kind of a STUPID question is that Wahhab? , i asked myself.

" I do ," She suddenly answered , not minding the stupid question " I think they're adorable with their flat little faces and orange color but .. i feel sorry for them because their claws are too big " She said that with such ease and confidence like she wasn't saying anything weird at all

I frowned a little but smiled again, I had no idea what this girl was saying but i found her randomness charming. Her presence gave me a weird warm feeling that i hadn't had in a long time..

" Do YOU like crabs ?" She suddenly asked me and i was startled " Me? uhh.. well i don't really have any sort of emotion towards them whatsoever " I admitted

Then i heard a magical sound come out of her mouth , she was laughing. " I admire your honesty " She suddenly told me.

" I saw you here the other day , " I told her " it was dawn and you were sitting here watching the sea "

" Yeah , i saw you too " She said shyly " See i have a theory. They say ge6 hmoomik ba7ar right? , I think that you should do that right before every sunrise. you know , new day , new plans? so when the sun comes up you'll already feel better because you put all those worries behind you "

I just looked at her. I spent no more than 6 minutes with this girl and i was already impressed. She was more than a pretty face, let me tell you. Her words dug deeper in me and made me want to hear more. No matter how weird they sounded.

" And you do that every sunrise? " I asked ,

" Only when i have a lot on my mind " She explained " Oh! Or when am bored or sleepless "

I nodded. " Why were you here? " Her question took me by surprise

" I had a lot on my mind too "

She smiled and turned her face away again. There was something on my mind that i knew i HAD to ask , But i didn't quite know where to start. But before i could open my mouth , i heard the sliding door from our Shalaih open up

I turned my face to see Salim Scratching his head , his messy brown hair all over the place " Whayyib ? " He took a moment to yawn , " Ent hnee wana adawrik da5il ? "

I looked at him then back at Shai5a , She was a little awkward i can tell " I .. I should go the sun's already out " She suddenly said and got up

I was too startled to reply , I watched her head to her Shalaih and close the door behind her

" Whayyib?! " Salim came with a somewhat loud whisper " Eggg3aaaaaad ! wallah 6ila3t mo hayyin " He slapped my back

I laughed and hit his arm " It's not what you think "

" Suuuurrrre , i was still dreaming when i saw you out here with a girl " he scratched his head

I moved closer to him , he was only a few inches away from me and shorter by a few centimeters , his body slightly smaller than mine " you what? " i told him

He swallowed and i smiled

" Dang it man , you always ruin iiiiit " He whined, i grabbed his neck " Let's go have some of your eggs , shall we? "

" Boiled or scrambled? " He grinned at me

Salim started talking about playing some football outdoors today by the beach as he cooked , but i was barely there ..

My mind could think of nothing BUT that girl

I knew after that day , Something was soon going to change

Once upon a lie 10

2010-09-08T20:55:00.000-07:00

3eedkom mbaraaaaaaaak my beautiful beautiful peoples! ;p

Sorry etha bada3t feekom hal fatra bs tadroon 3eed a looya! i hope this will do bas enshallah there will be a longer post next tiiiiime;*

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Xoxo

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I sat very still , i meant to do that. I didn't want to move afraid that any sound might tell her that am here and ruin this. But it seemed like i was forced to ,like i had no control over it. I was just NUMB.

I looked at the side of her mysterious , extraordinary face to steal another glance without her knowing. What was she doing here at this hour? why wasn't she in bed? Was she here for the same reason i was? escape her past , think of her present and her future?,look for the solutions of all her problems beneath that shiny blue creation ?

I saw her adjust her position , crossing her legs and pulling them close to her chest , folding her hands and resting her chin on top. God, I thought. She looks even more beautiful as each passing breeze moves a lock of her hair away from her face.

I quickly looked away , this wasn't right. It wasn't even polite to stare like that at someone. Besides .. if she knew she'd think am a freak .. or a stalker. Let's not forget the crazy scene of bravery where i jumped in the water after her to see if she was okay..

God i was seriously going to lose it. I didn't even know the girl and just looking at her made all sort of thoughts come through my brain

I felt her move , i could see from the corner of my eyes that her tall figure was already standing. Without looking , i suddenly got up and turned to her

She was looking at me , i couldn't tell if she was scared or surprised. I couldn't think of anything actually ..

" Hello " The words came out of my mouth before i could stop them

I saw a hint of a smile on the left corner of her mouth , She looked down at her bare feet as she smiled even wider. She pushed back a strand of her hair behind her ear and then she started walking away

She just WALKED AWAY.

WHAT?!, My mind was spinning

Where are you going come back!! , I wanted to shout

But instead i found myself smiling too. She might not have said anything back , but she smiled ..

That meant something right?

I was too happy to even answer that , i walked back to the Shalaih and found the guys still sleeping peacefully. As soon as i put my head on the pillow this time , i went straight to sleep.

I woke up after a pillow punched my face " Whayyyiiiib " i heard 3ammar say, " Yalla yubaaa 5ali9naa goooouum "

" walaaaaaiiiih .. " i mumbeled " yuba ana mo nayim shfeekoooom , " I turned away and gave him my back, just to get hit by ANOTHER pillow " Yalla goum goum !" i heard 7amanni call too

I turned at them again and tried to open my eyes " Geeemmmt , bas la ta7thif m5adda thanya 3ammar la2anaa btshouf shay ma shefta " i warned. And what do you know ?! , a couple of pillows knocked me down this time

" THAT's IT ! " I got up " You're both dead " I took all the pillows i could carry showered 3ammar with them " Waaaaih baskom 3aaad , endagaitaw silf al7eeeen " we heard 7amanni complain

Me and 3ammar looked at each other and then back at him , Next thing he knows 7amanni was thrown on the floor calling out to the others for help

I took a quick shower and we had a nice energy drink that Salim made

" Ana asbegkom .. " i announced , and as i was standing by the shore ready to jump in, i heard small squashes and thuds of sand nearby , they sounded FAST and CLOSE

I quickly looked up to see a terrified girl running towards me , her face turned around back not even noticing what was in front of her

" WOAH! " I let out as the girl suddenly hit me. I held her shivering figure gently with my hands " You okay there? " She seemed out of it , she finally turned her face and looked at me with frightened eyes. Oh dear , i thought. Not you again ..

Her face was different this time , she was terribly frightened. Her eyes were shocked but still as beautiful. her body not being able to slow the pace and relax ..

" You okay there ? " I asked gently , But she seemed to be too struck to talk

" I .. there .. there was .. am sorry .. i ... " She couldn't quite catch a breath yet and i had no idea what she was saying , i just waited patiently for her to breathe and talk again

" Am sorry i hit you .. " She said as soon as calmed down , " Uhh , no no no .. that's fine really. are you alright? " I asked her again, looking back at where she came from.

But there was nothing there ..

Before she could answer me , i heard a girl call out from the Shalaih right next to us " Shai5aa ?! " I looked at the girl then back at her

" I have to go , am sorry again .. for .. this " She slowly moved away from me a shy smile forming on her pretty face that was now a bit calmer ..

She hurried to her friend who was looking at me with intense eyes and then they both entered the Shalaih closing the sliding door behind them.

Woah , I thought . What the hell just happened?

Just then a big strong hand clapped on my right shoulder " Whay-yyib?! " Salim looked at me with a smile " Wallah 6ila3t ment hayyin ! mno hathy?! "

I looked back at him and laughed " Ya 3ammiii , wallah age9 3laik etha gitlik enny a3rfha "

" Afaaa " He moved his hand away " 3alainaaaa 3alaainaa whayyiiiib ? Yalla ma 3alaaih la tgoulii al7een bas b3dain netfaham "

" Shfeekom? " 3baid , 3ammar and 7amanni were approaching us

Salim smiled and winked at me " Wala shay .. yalla yallaa la yrou7 3alainaa el wagt 6ibbaw "

" Ayabaaaaaa el may shaklaa ydawe5 el youm!" 3ammar took his shirt off and jumped in

3baid and 7amanni followed But Salim stood still smiling at me " After you "

I laughed , took my shirt off and grinned at him again. I quickly took his head in my arm and pulled him in with me " Aaaa77!! " He managed to say before we both caused a big splash , we wrestled in the water for a bit before the others joined in

We had a terrific time and i ALMOST forgot about that girl.. But couldn't entirely quit ..

I kept looking back at her Shalaih to see if she got out again , but the voices of my buddies were too distracting

By night time , we decided to have a little Barbecue since the weather was 'awesome' 3ala goulat 3ammar , We did it by the side of our Shalaih away from the shore so the cold gentle wind wouldn't ruin the fire that we set

The smell filled the air and it was just amazing , Salim managed the sauce and 3baid was grilling while 7amanni was arranging the cups and plates, 3ammar sat doing nothing but waiting for the food to be done ..

And me? well .. i took the liberty of playing some good old Kuwaiti tunes as we all sat there , the mood seemed right and the atmosphere was just perfect.

But as much as i tried to enjoy my time , my head took me back to that exact spot where Shai5a stood in my arms scared and helpless ..

What the hell happened to her?

" 100 fils for your thoughts .. " Salim suddenly sat next to me with a smile

" 100 3aaad? walah wayed .. "

He giggled " Betgoul wela shloun ? "

" Walaaih walah di3la ent .. " I shook my head

" Tara ana ele msawee el 5al6a bette3asha el youm wela laaaa2? "

I hit his head " La w yhaddid b3d ! 7alaya el wayh "

"5ali9neeeee " He said as i hit him again " Whayyib! " He got up mad and irritated from all the slaps he got " Tara eedik mo reesha ! "

" Eg3ad entheber ashoooouuuf , " I pulled his arm laughing " Okay .. Remember the girl from Mcdonald's? "

He grinned at me " Daaaamn right i do , who could forget THAT ?! "

Once upon a lie 9

2010-09-07T18:34:00.000-07:00

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I am not a man of many words. yes , i do have feelings, i just don't like to show them. I don't know WHO hit that guy but it wasn't me. I don't do laughing very well. Because i don't like engaging with idiots. Touch me again and i WILL have to kill you. NO! for the last time, that's not my Gun.

All answers to questions am used to hearing.

Wherever i go people may see me as a trouble maker just because of my intense eyes or the way i walk. some find it scary and try to avoid me while others find it cool or attractive and try to approach me in as many ways as possible.

My father and my friends find it weird that i don't laugh that often. we do share jokes .. lots of them , but instead of laughing i just share a hint of a smile and a shrug and that would mean they had a success. Now am not saying my life was miserable and i never laughed in my life! i mean am not Gargamel from the Smurfs!( Sharshabeel mn el sanafer as some people like to call ). I just preferred it came spontaneously over something or by someone who somehow managed to make me happy.

Maybe it's because i wasn't used to happiness or nice things that's been said or done in my 23 years of life, i don't know.. My life was fine it was just .. OK. It wasn't happy like some overrated fairytale so i found it rarely important to share feelings or happy thoughts. Whoever comes over and tells you he's happy with his life, that means he only WANTS to believe that he is. At least that's what my father used to tell me when my mother left us ..

I heard a number of psychologists say that a divorce may lead a child to suffer emotional pain and have suppressed feelings. That's BULLSHIT. well , at least for me. Now that WAS one of the things that made me laugh.

I did NOT suffer emotional damage , am just built like this. And my father didn't think i had that either so i was glad. All he said was that i was a man and i should suck it up and be one , so that's exactly what i did and thought every other guy should do too.

Am not scary am just not social. I don't look angry all the time i just don't see a reason for a goofy smile drawn on my face every time i walk , or see a person or when a person smiles at me. Am not a pessimist i just believe in good things happening when they DO happen.

A few things I don't really know why am saying but felt like i needed to. Maybe because i really wanted you to know who i am , what am like .. Or should i say WAS?

Because soon maybe very soon , you'll see how much of a changed man I came to be. Or maybe am REMINDING MYSELF of what Abdulwahhab USED to be.

Especially when that girl entered my life and turned it UP_ SIDE_DOWN

Literally.

I didn't want to tell my friends just yet. about the Sea incident and about how i just saw her again, i mean it was just a girl..

A very .. different sort of a human being ..

I didn't know if a 'girl' even suited the kind of creature she was. Okay, i don't want to overreact but if you see her , you'll know what i mean

She was just .. something else. She was a mixture of Yasmin from Aladdin and a Barbie Doll, i didn't see anything like her i swear

Let me tell you , i've met and seen a good share of girls in my lifetime ..

Blonde , brunette , redhead , blue eyes and brown , tall , short and gorgeous i must say. That was mostly back in Canada and thanks to 3bdallah i Did have the pleasure of meeting the blissful beauties here in Kuwait who did not serve what my friends mentioned right ..

But this one? She makes your heart just ACHE

Her hair was just so black , long and dazzling matching her intense big eyes that had a certain pull at the angle that made you feel she was hypnotizing you. Her nose was sharp , held up to make her lips show beautifully. Her skin was the perfect Kuwaiti shade and had an additional shiny tan, a trademark of the beautiful city she was from..

" EEMM222mmm ! Now where did THAT come from?! " Salim noticed her as she hand walked towards me , we watched her hop in her car and about to leave the place

" Where what came from? " 7amanni asked oblivious though he was right next to us " A77!! 6a3 el motar !! " he suddenly said

" Ee walah motarhaa 7lo bs ehe a7laa " Salim said

" La qa9dee el 7beeb ele wagef hnaak , shabab 3n ethinkom rayi7 as2alaa bcham ybee3" Salim left us to go greet the guy outside

" A5aaaaaaih! no wonder you were bedazzled bro " Salim put a hand on my shoulder and shook his head

I laughed " I seriously don't know what happened to me .. "

" Girls to that to you man , girls do that to you .. " He said shaking his head. Looking like an old man with a lifetime of experience and willing to share the good, the bad and the ugly of it all and top you up with an advice you'll use as long you live, and i liked that about him. knowing that Salim have had a good share of girls and relationships considering his looks

" Yalla yubaaa ye3naaaa yaaaaaaaah la t5alounii aroo7 adebba '3oouzii eb shalaih bo Jasssoooum ! " 3ammar was saying approaching us

" Eskit eskit , ma sheft 9a7ibna hnee sh9ar fe tawwa " Salim told him

3ammar's head snapped at me " Sh9ar goul! tabe faz3a ana hnee !! goulii wnaa a5ouk ana a3een wa3awin " 3ammar slapped his own chest ready to do whatever " W el Salam la tshoufa chthy shakla tara yenfa3 w rabbi mjarba anaa "

I slapped his shoulder " Yaaaa b3d chabdii ya bu 3amraa bs el salfa mafeha la faz3aa wala hagwetii el m3awan befeed.. " I told him

" Il salfa feha bnayya " Salim said

And 3ammar's head snapped at me again " Haaaa ! Mnu bet'thabi6 goulee bas wainhaa dalnee dalnee bas 3ala mokanhaa .. " He started looking around and i laughed harder

" La yuba shathabbe6 3ammour shfeek ! "

" Bas 3ammour ra7at 3alaik yuba 5ala9 , la t5aleenee adeg 3alal maraa al7eeeeen . 5al el tethebbe6 7aggi w 7g whayyib "

" Maaaaan i remember some good tiiiimes i haaad .. " 3ammar looked up at nothing as if reminiscing on days.

" You might think he means that, but he really doesn't .." Salim shook his head and blinked at me

" Al7een 9arla m3a morta 7 sneen w yayeb minha 3 3yal .. ma kan y7ebha gbl wala y3arfhaa , 5athahaa mn bait ahalha seeda old school marriage.. y7ebha w ymout 3alaihaa w la tshooufa hnee weyanaa bil shalaih hathy awal 6al3a lah mn 3 asabee3 kan msaferhaa m3ah shahar 3asal thanii "

" Shqa9diik el Salaam ?!! haaaaa ashouf gam ta5eth ra7tik wayeddd " 3ammar's scary voice came through. You did NOT want to get in a fight with this guy. he could take 4 down in 7 minutes, we were witnesses to that record.

" Ya yubaaaa ma qa9dee shaaay bs gam agoulaa y3ny .. " Salim explained

" Eeh .. 3abalyy b3d "

I was actually impressed. 3ammar LOVED the ladies , that's what he was always known for since we were teenagers. And he still did ,trust me .. but the love of his life was one woman and one woman only ..

His wife and the mother of his children whose been given ALL of his time and devotion. He did talk about girls and how lovely they were , but he never dared to even look at someone or cheat in any sort of way ..

And that's why he grew bigger in my eyes. He was still the old 3ammar who changed to be a better man but didn't truly lose who he really was

After all , it was what they called ' She6anat 9bayan '

" 6a3 hathak el thanii b3d , el talefoun ma 6a7 mn eeda .. haaalka el walad w la3ba fe 7esbitaa " Salim noticed and we turned to look at 3bdallah

" 5alouh 3ala ra7ta .. ya m3awad mo kil youm tilga wa7ed t7ibba, w ymkin t7eba el youm w ma tilgah bacher .. " They all turned to me

Like i said , i wasn't a man of many words. But when i say something and it's really that deep .. everyone seems to shut up with surprise

I stopped " Walaaaaih shgilt b3d?! "

" Duuuuuuude " Salim said taking a deep breath and giving me crazy eyes

" That was DEEP " 3ammar said

I shrugged " i was just sayin .. "

They didn't have to be geniuses to figure out i was a man of a deep dark past and a very bitter experience , my friends knew .. even though i didn't tell the rest of them the whole story, it was easy to guess.

The gentlemen they were , they didn't ask me about it. They just nodded and hit my shoulder as in to say..' hang in there dude '. That's what we were like , that was who we were.

7amanni was just done checking out the motors out in the back and asking the guys about the best garages and the kind of engines and Rims they used.

He was one of the best racers in the city , he was ALL about everything with wheels on it. The Guy wanted to drive since he was 14 ! his father let him sit behind the wheel just to start the car and feel the roar of the engine just so he wouldn't go crazy on them.

We finally ate glad that something did come through our eager stomaches. Trying to ignore 3bdullah's teases to 7amanni and Salim's flirting games with the girls around and 3ammar's slaps for me accusing me of thinking about that girl again.

Man , that was a good evening.

It was nearly morning when we were back at the Shalaih each in his bed after long long fist fights , pillow fights and our own creation ' juice box fights '

We were pretty battered, each body laying with a crazy gymnastic pose on each bed. I finally slept ignoring the loud snoring and was so far in it that i began to dream

I was sitting on that same pavement i waited on for Kenzii to show up , waiting .. eager .. worried ..

Everything was so dark

Hearing her voice , happily i turn around only to see her father coming at me with all his strength angry , cursing me

I woke up with a gasp sweating and trying to catch a breath , i looked over at the guys who were heavy sleepers -thank god-

I went down to drink a glass of water and revive a little. I looked out the huge windows that overlooked the peaceful sea at Dawn and decided to go out for air..

I got out and inhaled deeply enjoying the refreshing breeze of the ocean. i lay on my back on the sand looking up at the sky in its' different beautiful layers ready for the sun that soon to come out. Just .. breathing

I sat up again and looked at the sea , admiring every detail from the endless horizon on my left ..

Then to the Shalaih's that were right across from ours separated by the big sea ..

To the right side's endless horizon to a.. head?

My breathing suddenly stopped and my heartbeats just grew faster. It was a person ..

Sitting up with the exact same position as mine seeming oblivious to her surroundings .. including me.

Once upon a lie 8

2010-09-04T17:37:00.000-07:00

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I watched as she floated gently above the blue surface , tucking her water-groomed hair behind her ears

She started swimming backwards holding her head back against the water , closing her eyes and smiling at nothing but the sky above her , her golden skin was glowing in the sunshine her hands dancing beautifully in rhythm with the small waves of the sea

I was stunned. I was struck and my eyes were just .. STUCK there looking at her. I couldn't look away , why THE HELL wasn't i looking away? it was like she hypnotized me

" Ambee you crazy person ! come back here !! " I saw a couple of girls approaching the shore looking at her

" Great now she'll never get out of there .. " Another girl said shaking her head

They didn't seem to notice me and i thought it was a better idea if i didn't wait for them to. I turned my head back to the other side of the sea and tried to think of something else

" Come on let's go , she's never going to listen , mn 9ijiich? " i heard the first girl say and i could sense them walking away back to their own Shalaih

So slowly i turned my face back to where the girl was and look at her again , i WANTED to look at that girl swimming again.

Woah , I suddenly told myself. Wahab shfeek ?

My eyes searched almost half the surface , i couldn't see a thing .. not a single floating object in there

Wait .. where did she go?! My head was thinking.. Okay, NOW am getting worried

Where's that girl ? , i searched again and again .. Why wasn't she there?

She couldn't have went back i heard what the girls said. my heart was racing and my mind wasn't thinking at all. Next thing i know i was face down in the water swimming like crazy ..

What the hell am i doing?!. what am i even LOOKING for?!

I tried to swim back to were i saw her , my mind in complete shut down. I looked like a lost fish

But then , out of nowhere i saw a head snap out of underneath the water again

It was her! it was that girl! , my mind was saying. I looked at her and tried to make sure she was okay when suddenly she turned to me

If we were only in a story , She's be a non-existing mermaid

If i was completely nuts .. i could totally make her up as a mermaid when i tell this story again , i thought.

I didn't quite see her eyes , but i saw something glow in them. They were big and dark and .. frighteningly beautiful. She looked at me intensely as if taking in the awkward situation like i was .. or , i thought again , Maybe she was looking at my silly face staring at her like i was a freak out of the waters.

Just when i tried to take another breath , she was gone.

I saw her swimming in a dash back to the beach , like a big shark was behind her

Wait a minute , would i be the shark in HER story?. I suddenly laughed at myself for my stupid thoughts

What was i doing in the middle of the sea?!

I watched back again to see her , but she wasn't there .. she just DISAPPEARED.

I laughed again at myself and swam back to the Shalaih. I went in to take a shower and A few minutes later the guys caught up with me

We were all pretty tired and just wanted to sit our butts down on the couch. We watched a little TV , Smoked some cigarettes and made some sandwiches for dinner. As much as i wanted to .. i didn't say anything to the guys about what i saw , i suddenly remembered the crazy fishermen's story with the mermaid and snapped back into reality

I looked over at 3baid who was snoring endlessly on his bed and smiled. I turned to my own sleeping position and i was out.

I woke up the next morning with a weird feeling in my stomach

You know those days when you wake up and try to remember a dream? and no matter how HARD you think and squeeze your head to try and remember it , you can't.

I swear it was just in my head a few minutes back , why couldn't i remember it now?

You know when your stomach feels the exact same way it did in the dream , funny and ticklish like something good happened in there and you want to know what

" whayiiib wain shorty Abercrombie? " 3baid suddenly cut off my thoughts

" Ha? "

" Shorty ma shefta? chinny 7a6a ams bil jan6a .. "

" La shoufa bjan6etee ymkin 7a6aita bil '3ala6 "

I shook my head and told my self i was being a little too gay. what the hell? , since when do i want to remember a dream?

I laughed a little at myself in the process. If only the guys knew ..

They'd make my life a living nightmare. I went downstairs to see them surrounding the dining table " 9aba7hom el 5aaaair "

" Ya halaaa wyahhhiiiib ta3al ta3aaaal el salam msawee 5osh baai'6 wallah ma hagaitaa y3rf ysawee shay '3air el m'3azal " 3ammar pulled a seat for me next to him

" Yah yaaaaaaaaahh mn metaaa Chef el 7beeb?! " i asked , i had to admit i was impressed!

You take one look at Salim's face and you'd take him for a preppy dude too into his looks and maybe a little full of himself and i can't say i blame him .. The guy managed to get 11 girls to fall for him in 2 weeks

" wa7sh el salaaaaaam '3adak 3lay el youm haa ?" 7amanni commented

I laughed " 3a6nee ballah 5l ashouf bai'6ik shloun 9ayer "

We ate in peace until it was time for another joy ride on the jets , we all took off and rode away with them

By the time we got back to the Shalaih i remembered the girl form yesterday. Where was she today? No one seemed to be out accept for us

I shrugged and parked my jet. We all lined them up and took seats next to each other on the sand

7amannii digging in the sand , 3ammar just laying there relaxing his head , Salim swimming in his own tanning oil and 3bdallah checking his phone for missed calls from his Girlfriend..

We were guys after all , 10 minutes in those positions and we instantly got up for it was time for lunch

We drove in 3ammar's car til we got to McD's Bnaider

" Hoooob ayabaaaa ba6lib ana el menue kilaa! " 3ammar shouted as soon as he got in

" Hello siiiiiirrrr " The kind Philippino's greeted us

" Hala halaaaaa tkfa tkfa tkfaaa ne5aitik ! " 3baid almost flew to the counter " Make us sanwiches and make them fast haa? or i die here "

The place was surprisingly empty accept for a few foreigners minding their own business and eating in peace , it was my turn to order and just as i was about to speak,

A tall figure came in a rush and stood right next to me " Hello ma'aaaam sorry we forgot to give you your other baaaag " The lady at the counter said and i turned to look at whom she was speaking

" It's okay .. " She said and her eyes met mine

Oh SHIT. , suddenly exploded in my mind

Her eyes were black , her hair matching them wonderfully and her curls lay gently on each shoulder. Her skin was perfect cocoa butter and gold form the sun and her lips drawn in a such a way you just want to stare

I saw her shrug , eyes dropping to the floor and she was gone again

I watched her leave , baggy T-shirt and Jean shorts .. she was almost dancing gracefully as she went

" 3bdelWahab !!! " i found 7amanni nudging me

" Ha?! " i snapped and looked at him

" Shfeek tanna7t? el rayal 9arlaa sa3a ygouliik shtabe ta6liib "

" Uhh .. Ee abee Mcroyal large size , please "

" Eeeeeeehhh Mcroyaaal ? ashwa inha 6la3at ! .. Goulii ashooouuff shilly ma5ith tafkeerik ballah? "

Was he NOT here when the girl showed up? how can someone miss THAT?!

" Uhh .. " I tried to speak again , i wasn't a man of many words trust me ..

Everyone who knew me would say that i was't a talker but .. THIS was too wrong , even for me

As i thought a bit further i suddenly remembered, the girl in the dream was the same girl in the sea and the girl in the sea..

She just walked out of that door

Once upon a lie 7

2010-09-02T19:12:00.000-07:00

Anoon malgoofa; Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay;D i announce! you're the winner 5alas , choose your prize ;p

Caramela ; eee ana b3d yeee333t ;( Slider wayed shay jameel ya jima3a a7ib ele sawah ;p

Om Ya3goub; thank yoooouuuu YOU GO TOO GIRL! lol we'll see who will win 3bdelwahab's heart ;p

H ; eeeee they're supposed to be chthyyy the hot Kuwaities ele you melt over ;( lol don't even get me started on our guys! a7ebhom ;(

Random.Rm ; Lol ok i think that's a vote for 3bdallah ppl ;p bs el 9a7ba el 9a7ba mskeen myaninitaa ;p lool

Hope ; 5alaaaas sharing is caring b3d shensawee , hal wahab mskeen lel7een ma nagga el bnyaa w il 6alabat gam ette7athaf mn al7een am glad you're liking the characters! that means am doing a good job ;p

Anonymous; am sorry sweetie i made my theme chthy coz i thought it would be easier for my readers 3ashan la te7wall 3younhom wehma ygroon long paragraphs , plus i have issues with DOUBLE SPACING lol thanks to my english Prof. ;p am going crazy over it ! bs ana a7essa 3adee y3ny unless enty shabka mn phone ;( bs i'll try ok?

Nawarii ; Okay ladies this is the second vote for 3boud! ;p lool let's see what happens shall we? love yooouuu toooooo Nawarii

I LOVE YOU ALL and i LOVE your comments akthar so tell me what you think of this one! enjoy this guys

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See the problem is that I wasn't even looking for her ..

I wasn't looking for that girl , the one who everyone keeps telling me am going to find. What if after a while you just grow out of it? you just don't care if you fall in love again? Like it's not the most important thing in your life..

What if it just doesn't matter to you?

I wasn't a guy you'd call " happy " but I was CONTENT. I didn't have a family. I had a father , and there was me. But now I do , and I kind of like it that way

I don't go to university anymore , but I like the feeling of freedom.. It might sound stupid but that's how I feel. You know , not having to worry about failing or attending.. Whatever.

And am not saying I won't go. Period. No, am just .. Waiting. I don't know if that's even the right word because if you ask me , I don't even know what am waiting for!

See I was just living .. And living for me was ok .. All smooth and easy

Not like before where I had to watch my back and try with all my power to stay away from trouble. But here , It was different somehow. Like .. I wasn't getting into trouble because trouble wasn't even there to be found

A part of me likes this change. But , the other part's like what the hell are you doing ?! Just hanging around and doing nothing.. Where did Abdulwahab go?

To tell you the truth , I don't know . To answer that I have to continue on with my story. Then , we'll see if i can find the answer

" Hii wahabii "

" Woah!! " I suddenly opened my eyes to see a small head with curls bouncing around it from all sides smiling at me with a gap between the first two teeth

I was on the floor and the room was upside down. I didn't even recognize it

" Lulu .." I tried to speak through my lazy mouth , I just woke up and not by birds or bells!. Let me tell you this , I DON'T LIKE to be woken up. AT ALL. I liked to do that on my own terms and this , here .. Wasn't good

" What are you doing here? " i asked her

" What am I doing here ? What are YOU doing on my brother's bed " she giggled

" Oh!" I snapped , I slept here yesterday because me and 3bdullah were going to the shalaih. So THAT's why I didn't recognize the room and was woken up by a tiny little fuzzy creature

" 3bdallah waina? " I asked blinking at her cute face , trying to wake up. God I was so tired

" In the bathroom , now tell me What did you do without me yesterday?"

I suddenly laughed " ask me what I didn't do! O5ooch ma 5alla mokan ma waddani yah "

She frowned at me not liking what she heard " well don't go with him ! He doesn't know all the cool games I do"

I nodded trying to be cool with it " games? .. Uhh .. Okay ? Sure maybe I can do that .. what do you like to play? "

Poor me , i had no idea what i was getting myself into

She suddenly grinned at me , a devilish smile that was too pretty to be called that. But it was enough to scare anyone who'd never tried playing with a 5 year old before

" We can have tea in my mini teacups and we can make chicken in the ovvveennn and we can dress up Barbie , i hadn't changed her clothes since yesterday! "

" Oh dear ! " i made a face " Then we must do it fast "

Suddenly something burst with laughter behind me , it was 3bdallah in a towel

" Wenta 3ala shno gam tith7ak ?" i asked sternly

" Rou7 rou7 labbis Barbie na6ra "

I turned to Lulu " Lulu .. Barbie 3o3o ele lazm nlabes'ha malabes'ha " She laughed and i smiled at 3bdallah

" Chub. 6il3aw barra athnainkom "

" Excuse me pretty lady I have to go to the restroom and I'll be right with you " I got up and went to do my business. Then got out again and saw 3bdallah smiling at me. Fully dressed this time thank god

" So do you want to have breakfast here wela bil shalaih? " 3bdallah asked

But before I could answer , we saw lulu standing in the doorway hands on her hips " come on the tea is not gonna pour itself "

" Enty mn wain te6li3eelina?!! " 3bdallah asked her , the man seriously looked frightened

" Wahabii is having breakfast with ME " she looked at me " 9a7? " Her eyelashes were hard to resist

" Uhh.." I didn't have to answer , I was lead to a pink room with little butterflies hanging from the walls and I was intimedated by the scene

There was a small table with little teacups and cupcakes on it. And the food was real! Oh dear , I thought to myself

" Okay you sit on the floor la2anna el karasee ma ykaffoonik " She told me

" Eee ee feek 5air kasser karaseeha , you'll be sorry " 3bdallah was saying

I looked at him " Why do you think she doesn't talk to me anymore? i just liked to experience them.. they looked too nice " he held up his hand " Eg3ad eg3ad bas kammil shi'3lik ana rayi7 2akil akil 9ijji cupcake man "

" ma 3alaik kila eyee yby yakil cupcakaty la2ana y7ebhom la2anhom 7ilween bas ana ma a3zema " Lulu told me , and it wasn't 2 minutes until 3bdallah's head popped in again " Lulu .. can i have a cupcake? "

I threw a pillow at him and he threw it back " Hey hey!! " Lulu shouted " Gam t5arboon 7aflitii bas mabeekom 6il3aw barra "

" Afaa Lulu .. w breakfastnaaa w el oveennn wel Barbieeee wain ra7aw? " she pouted at me, picked up a cupcake and gave it to me " Thank you for coming "

She was waiting for me to leave i knew it , " thanks " I smiled and left the room

" Tabe takilha kilaha? " 3bdallah was looking at me , i laughed and gave it to him

by 10:30 we were on our way to Bnaider , the weather was already beautiful and the sun was perfect

We arrived there and couldn't wait until we unpacked and settled in , we instantly took out our shorts and towels and hit the water

Man it's so good to be out here again, I thought to myself

The feel of the waves crashing in and splashing salted drops upon your face , the sun shining right down on the dazzling blue sea to make it a little greenish warming you in the process ..

It was all so relaxing that i couldn't believe it. I really really needed that. Then i asked myself a hundred times ' why didn't i think of coming back here sooner .. under other circumstances .. or by choice?

But i was glad i was here anyway. we got out the fresh water to have a meal that my aunt had prepared for us. A name no man could ever resist " M6abbag Zbaidee "

We ate in joy as usual then waited a while for the food to settle in before we hit the water again

By 4 o'clock the guys; 3ammar , salim and 7ammanni showed up. They were old buddies and neighbors of ours and were both surprised and happy to see me again after all those years

" Welaaaak bo shmais el shalaih ele yamnaa el thaher tawhom nazleen , w rabbe 9a5ar 9a5ar .. kil hal modda nyee ma nadree shesalfa yamnaa " 7amanni was saying as he took his bag upstairs

" E7liif? walah wala adree 3anhom ana ge6nee hnee w ensanee " 3bdallah answered

" Haa whayyiiib goulina 3ad shlounhom hnaak ?! ga6eenik bain hal sheger wel 7emer ma thaba6tlik sitta , sab3a.. ? " 3ammar asked

I laughed " La yubaa wain .. ana 3gb ele shefta hnee .. la tes2alnaa 3n ele hnaak ma ygayshoun w rabbi "

" Yah yah 6a3 el 7beeeeeeeeeb!! motayyam mn awalhaa ! mno hathy ballah ele 6ayi7itik mn awalha ? " Salim asked me excited

" Wallah mako .. bas el banat hnee akeed '3air 3n ele hnaak "

" Eee wallah akeed hee el zain kilaa , bs ma gilna shay bs el ta'3yeer 7lo ya5ouk wel 7aya tajarob ent shwaraak .. " 3ammar laid back on the sofa

" Ra7at 3laik 3ammour , hatha went metzawwej b3d w tabe ta'3yeer .. 3yal e7na shngoul" Salim said

" La yubaaa la 7beebee hathy om el 3yal '3aaair hathy akeed mako mithilhaa .. " He smiled as if remembering her face , Salim threw the tissue box at him

" Yalla shabab gemna gemna gemnaaaa!! " 3bdallah was already running to the beach towards the lined up jet-skies

We all followed having a crazy good time. But after a little while i had a little headache , i signaled for the guys and went back to shore , i stopped the engine and found myself thrown off on the soft golden sand

I laid back enjoying the relaxing sensation , the light breeze touching my face , inhaling the sweet fishy scent of the water ..

I got up again and watched the waves , taking in ever detail when i heard a strong splash nearby

I couldn't tell what went in the water exactly but a head came out on the surface again. It took me a few minutes to realize it was a girl

Once upon a lie 6

2010-08-30T15:45:00.000-07:00

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And to EVERYONE who's reading my blog!

A7ibkoooom all walllah and enjooooy this post !!

Xoxo

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I woke up the next morning with the warm yellow rays of sun laying gently on my forehead

I lay there for a few minutes taking in the new scene and scent around me. I found it so comfortable that i didn't want to get up

But eventually i did , took a shower and headed downstairs to find my father already gone to work

There was still noise coming from the kitchen and i was curious , i stood close enough to see my aunt Nadia with a bunch of maids busy going through piles and piles of plastic bags

" 9ba7 el 5air " I interrupted the busy atmosphere

My aunt looked up with a grin on her face " Wey! hala 7beebee enta gemt? waaay tawnee 3ad yaybatlikom machlat el baait gilt mayamdeekom b3d .. hal 5adam thb7oonii te3awedaw 3ala '3yab el m3azbeen 9araw ma y3arfoon 7atta yeshta'3loon "

I smiled as i looked at her. Back in Canada we didn't even THINK of getting help or even maids, this was a change ,i thought

A pretty cool one too, now my dad doesn't have to worry about what to cook us for dinner ..

But am sure he'll miss it though

" Ela 3baid waina 5alty ? " I asked

" Waaih yumma 3baid nayim ! mn ynam bedala hal walad ? deg 3laih yummaa , b'3ait shaY? "

" La walah 5alty bs as2al "

" Eee tara obok gbl shway ra7 dawama , wentaw '3adakom 3ndii fa la t7atii betshoufa hnak enshallah lma yred "

" 5ala9 enshallah " I nodded

I got out of there feeling weird , like there was something missing ..

There was something i was supposed to do but am not doing it ..

I kept thinking about it , maybe it was because i hadn't been here for so long

I didn't know. But i wanted something to do

If i were in Canada i would've just went for a jog or something ..

But to be honest , am not fimiliar with these streets yet

Last time i was here i was about 14 years old

I heard the phone ring and i went to pick it up

" Alo "

" Whayyyiiiiiiibbb " 3bdallah sounded like he was fighting the urge to asleep

" Hala feek , ha el walda 3ndina tgoul inik nayim "

" Waaain la yubaa tawnee ga3ed , madre shfeenee ya5ook el 9a7ba m6al3atly groon "

I laughed

" Ha ma tabe tyee ? nrou7 ngez shway , neshtereelik cham '3arath 3ala ma t9eer 7azzat el '3ada. Shrayik ? "

" Yalla fouga "

" 5ala9 9ar . Shway wamerrik ana "

I hung up the phone with a smile on my face , it's been a while since i hung out with a friend

I missed the streets and i wanted to see them all so badly

It wasn't long til 3bdallah came , and we were on our way

" Gilt nrou7 markaz sil6an net6amash w neshtereelik chm shay , w minhaa tshouf el ba7ar "

" Ee wallah ya 7ilwa .. " I looked out the window to check out the blue beauty

" 5ala9 jahhez nafsik hal yoomain nrou7 el shalaih , 9arlik dahar mo 6abba akeed"

" Ee walah hnaak s7teneee ensa shay esma ba7ar "

" a77!! la laaaa yuba ana etha ma sheft hal azrag jiddaaameee wen ma sema3t te6eg6eg el jetskiyyat 3al may ! w hal shawiii w hal ga3daaa ya5ee ma3arf a3eesh ! "

" 5ala9 3ayal 3la eedik ! "

We arrived and picked up a few stuff for me and my dad and then we cruised some more until it was time for lunch

I was happy for the second reunion , Everyone was there including Lulu who was there sitting next to me

Having fought with both 3bdallah and s3oud to sit beside me , she was extremely happy

" Where did you go today? " She asked

" Re7t markaz sil6an m3a 3bdallah ashteree a'3rath " i answered

She suddenly frowned and looked at her brother " Why didn't you TELL me?!"

Abdullah who was sipping juice suddenly shrugged and coughed " Wenty sh7aga btyeen ma3ana? "

" I wanted to go with 3bdelwahab too!" She made a face at him

" Mama ohma 9bayan enty wain btroo7een ma3ahom ? " Aunt Nadia interrupted

She just turned away her face not liking what she heard and continued eating

" El youm berrou7 nil3ab kora bmal3ab 9aboun ," s3oud mentioned " Tyee whayyib? " He asked me

Before i could answer , Abdullah interrupted " Laa ana w whayyib 3ndena shi'3il il lailaa " He suddenly blinked at me and i shrugged

"EE 9a7 9aa7 .. " i went along with it though i had no idea what was going on

I liked the feeling of being busy , wanted and accepted by my family members

Their warm voices , their welcoming smiles

They were including me in their daily activities already and it was like i was never gone

It was nice to feel i was part of something , even if it was so little

It was huge for me and they had no idea

" Ana b3d 3ndii shi'3il "Lulu suddenly said not bothering to look at any of us

I gotta say , the girl has attitude .. and i won't say i didn't like it

I smiled at her but she seemed to have a lack of interest in my face

" Wenty kila razza wayhich yal nizqaa? " 3bdallah commented , she didn't look like she cared

" 5ala9t Wahabii ? " She suddenly asked me and my eyes popped open , did she just call me Wahabii ?!!

Man , i think am in love

I suddenly laughed " Why yes i have " I told her

" Yalla goum 5l n'3asel eedee " She suddely got up making her way to the toilet

I shrugged and followed her

Everyone at the table smiled with amusement , except for 3bdallah

By 7 i was still at my aunt's , My uncle a7mad and my father left hours ago discussing business and S3oud left for the football game , my aunt Muneera was watching tv and we were in Abdullah's room getting ready to go out

" Ashwa inik yebt malabes 3ayal .. " 3bdallah was saying

" Wain ray7een ? " I asked as i took my shirt off

" Hehee we're going out for dinner , you're gona love it "

" Yeah i hope so " I was a little intimated by 3bdallah's devilish smile , Back in Canada my friends' devilish smiles were out when there was drinking involved ..

But i knew we were no where near that place

And i didn't even WANT to think of the person i was and what i had done before i came here ..

A little figure suddenly popped in " Hii Wahabii "

I smiled instantly " Hala wallaah hala bil zain kilaa "

She made herself at home walking in the room and without warning she hopped on my lap

" Haa haa 5air enshallah dasha la e7m wala dstoor? " 3bdallah objected

" Wain betroo7oon? " She asked not giving any concern for her brother

" Bnet3asha " I answered

" I wana come too "

" 3aib e7na 9bayan kbaar .. sheyeebich ma3ana? " 3bdallah told her

She made a puppy face that i swear i hadn't -in my entire 23 years- seen anything like it

" Not gona work Lulu " 3bdallah told her as he sprayed some perfume

" You're mean! " She suddenly jumped out of my lap and stormed out of the room

And before we could react , her tiny head appeared again in the door frame " I was talking to 3bdallah not you Wahabii "

I grinned at her and she left

" Can i just say i love this girl? "

" Dude too bad she's five ,Yalla goum goooouuuum meshainaa " we left the room

We drove for a bit until we got to a nice little place called ' Slider Station '

" Here we go , you're never going to forget this one " 3bdallah said as he hopped out of the car

" Yeah? , food's that good? "

He looked at me " Food , girls , atmosphere .. i'll leave it for you to judge my man"

And 3bdallah was right , i liked the place already

It was nice and cozy and the food was just perfect , and the ladies?

Man , i only saw girls like that in magazines

" Tell me again why did i live so far away when we had all this here ? " I was saying as i sipped my Coke

3bdallah laughed " You haven't seen nothing yet "

I looked away again taking in the place when i saw this cute little face staring at me with a shy smile

She had nice curly brown hair with matching eyes , her smile was shy but i could see there was some bad in there too

" Woah check THAT out " , 3bdallah commented " Only one night out and you already got fans " he bumped my shoulder with his

I laughed " La yubaa shda3waa "

" Dude! she's been checking you out since we got in! "

I smiled but couldn't look at her again as a painful memory crossed my mind

I was thinking of Kenzii

" Dude come on .. " 3bdallah nudged me " Don't tell me you're thinking about Kenzii again "

He knew all about it , and after 2 and a half years .. he too thought i should move on

And i was going to i swear , i was just .. taking it slow i guess

" 5ala9 allah yer7amha wana 5ook la tswee chthy 3ad , btyee wallah btyee ele betnaseek Kenzii wely yabhaa "

I smiled at him " Wily ma yby yensa bo shmais ? "

" Btensaaa enshallah w bt3eesh w bt7eb '3airhaa el dinia tamshii ya 5ooy hawnehaa w t'hoon "

" Yuba 5alna mn hal swaliif al7een e7na yayeen nestanas , gouly wain ray7een al7een?"

" Yah yah ! ashoufiik te3awadt 3al gazz mn al7een Whayiib "

" Mn 3ashar 8oom ! " i shot back and he laughed

We paid and were ready to leave when suddenly 3bdallah stopped and whispered

" Zain agoul Whayyib .."

" Haa ? " I leaned in

" Gbl ma namshee ma ra7 ta5eth el raqam? "

Without a word i suddenly hit his head " Emsh emsh bs jiddamee 3afia "

Once upon a lie 5

2010-08-28T14:36:00.000-07:00

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Xoxo

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I remember the last time i saw my cousin 3bdallah

We were early teenagers and i was going away with my father to Canada

He practically begged my father and asked about 45 times if i could stay with them until he finished work , my father just smiled and promised we'd be back soon

Aside from the emailing and calling we didn't see each other for a long long time

And seeing him now , joking and talking about our crazy adventures ..

It's like i was never gone

I looked out the window to the lights and the palm trees ..

It was different here from Canada that's for sure

I missed it here

I liked being here

" W Hatha e7na we9alnaaaa , yalla 3ammi 7ayakom ! el 5adam beyeeboun el jina6 .. ommi da5il woboy shway w yoo9al "

I got out of the car looking at the house i used to come to when i was a kid , i remembered some good times me and 3baid had ..

He suddenly patted my back " Hala bWHayiiiiib! "

I laughed " Hala feek "

" Ma b'3ait tyee ! "

I laughed not kowing how to answer him " Yalla 7ayak 7ayak da5il "

We entered the house and we were greeted by my aunt Nadia , 3ballah's mother

She was my dad's cousin and my uncle's wife .. she nearly raised me

" Hala 3ammetii "

" Hala 7beeebeee hala 3bdelwahaaab " Before i knew it i was pulled in for a big hug " Waaaay sh7ilwik 9ayiiiiirrr "

I laughed " Hala feech 3ammiitii shlouniich? "

" We b5aaair shoofatkom tred el rroooou7 , deshaw deshaw 7ayakom allah "

She was more beautiful than i remember , she was glowing

A weird feeling came over me when we parted ..

I liked that feeling

Growing up after my mother left us was hard , i never really got that many hugs to be honest ..

My father was more gentle and sweet with me than anyone but still ..

Having lost the feeling of having a mother to look after me or kiss me goodnight was weird , But my dad made up for it

And so did my aunt Nadia , i liked having her around ..

When we were kids she'd bring us some sandwiches and juice boxes and we'd go crazy!

And even now without the sandwiches and juice boxes , it felt so nice having her near

" Tslemeen ya um 3bdallah tslemeeen " My father said

And as soon as we sat down , a tall built figure came in

It was my uncle a7mad , Bo 3bdallah ..

" Halaa bily zaayiirnaaaa hala wallah "

" Hala bo 3bdallaaah hala bo5ooy "

They exchanged hugs and kisses and it was my turn " Mashallaaah hala bwhayiib wlidii , kebart walah "

" Eeee w 9ar yabeelaa mara tra3eeh w tdareeh " My aunt added

I smiled shyly , i never even thought of that ..

" Afaaaa yumma wana?!! " 3bdallah came to stand beside me

" Ent ehye3 bil awal ! ent btyannin el mara mskeena betna7esh'ha gbl la too9al "

I laughed

" Waaaaiiiihh whayyiiib awal knt atlaigaf abee nfs al3abik , al7een kebarnaa w kbarat m6alibna " he rested his hand on my shoulder

" Sheft shloun ? "

Just then , something came from underneath me , held my jeans and started pulling gently

I looked down to see a tiny girl about 4 or 5 years old staring up at me with the most adorable look in her eyes

She had long brown hair with a few honey colored locks in it , her cheeks were irresistible

In my entire life i've only met a few number of kids , and even when i did .. i never formed any sort of contact or relationship with them

Nor did i imagine having one with any someday ..

I grinned and knelt down to her level " Hi " she suddenly spoke with a very serious cute face

" Hi there .. what's your name? "

" Am Lulu .. am 5 years old .. and i live here , who are you? "

I couldn't help but laugh " My name is 3bdelwahab and am 23 .. and i think am your cousin "

" cousin?!!! where have you been this whole time? " She made the cutest hand gestures at me and i found myself picking her up

" 3bdelwahhab .. meet my baby sister Lulu , she's a talker but you'll get used to it" Abdullah added

I smiled at my aunt Nadia " I didn't get to meet this little thing "

" No you didn't , but trust me .. she'll keep you posted. It'll be like you never even left " She told me as Lulu was putting her hand through my crew cut hair

" You're tall " She commented " And you're a tiny little thing aren't you? " i looked at her

" El salam " Just then , my other cousin S3oud came in holding up his hand

He must be 15 or something now , years went by fast

He reminded me of Abdullah when he was his age

I put Lulu down and shook hands with him " Ya7lailiik bo s3ayyid kebart "

" Wainik entaaaa allah yhadaak , ta3al ta3al bs eg3ad eg3ad 5nsoolif "

I shrugged and went to sit with the rest of them

We talked for hours .. we talked about everything we missed out on

Leaving out the bad parts , me getting kicked out of college .. Kenzii dying ..

They needn't to know that , and neither did we need to be reminded

We had a nice time and we enjoyed each other's company

It's been a long time since we've had a get together so me and my father were more than glad to be there

It was finally time to go home ..

How Weird calling it that after we left our house in Canada

We hadn't been to this place in almost 9 years , and we were going there now

I was happy just thinking about it

Remembering it

But then i remembered my mother , and that just turned me off

I suddenly looked up to see my house .. my old house ..

Seeing it now made me ache inside

" 7mdelah 3al salama yuba " My father patted my back

I smiled and followed him inside

It was spotless clean , aunt Nadia must've had the maids do everything before we arrived

I took a quick glance and hurried to my bedroom upstairs

Nothing had changed, not a thing misplaced

Man .. i loved it here

I took a small spin and then before i knew it , i was laying there already asleep.

Once upon a lie 4

2010-08-27T18:49:00.001-07:00

Wow you guys !

I see you had a lot of strong views about my last post ;p but don't worry i promise you a great story ;*

Thank yoooouuuu for commmentiiiing my new and old blogger friends a7ebkoooom kilikom wallah

And To answer your questions , read the posts to come and see what happens

Enjoy my lovely readers

Xoxo

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" I .. Am sorry i had to tell your dad over the phone Wahab i really am .. " Those words came out of the man I've always hated

Words of sorry and regret ..

But they didn't ease my pain , not even a little bit.

I knew he lost his daughter too , i knew i was the one who was supposed to apologize and at least give my condolences

But i was too paralyzed to say anything

" How did she just go like that? " My voice was not loud and i wasn't shouting this time , but anger and rage were clear in it

" 3bdelwahab .. yuba yalla 5alna nrou7 " My dad took my arm scared i was going to attack the man, " NO! " i suddenly pulled away from him

" I want to KNOW " i saw fear in her father's eyes , like he was scared i was going to do something crazy

And that's what my dad was thinking too " 3bdelwahab .. 9al 3al nibii yuba hatha yoomha , emsh 5al nrou7 el bait roo7 rayi7 w 9allik chm rek3a "

I breathed hard , in and out and i could feel them just staring at me

The noise that came out of my lungs wasn't normal at all , i looked like a wild bear who came out of his cave just to attack them

Her father didn't say a single word to me. I let my father drag me to the car and drive away , but i still watched him from the side mirror

Waiting for something ..

Maybe for her to come out , maybe for a nightmare to be over ..

But nothing.

I knew several days later that her family had all gone away somewhere , i didn't know where exactly and i didn't care

I never went by her house again and i didn't want to

Everyday the conversations with my dad would become shorter and shorter. There came days where we didn't even talk at all.

There were days where i'd come home accompanied by the police , or a kind stranger who found me drunk and lost ..

There were days where i'd start mumbling things in my sleep that my father never really understood

I stopped seeing my friends .. i stopped talking to anyone ,

My only way of communicating was by shouting or hitting things or people..

My dad wanted to give me space , time for me to heal but i wasn't doing anything useful at all

That continued for exactly two and a half years

I went out of line

WAY out of line

It wasn't until this day .. when my father found me laying on the front doorsteps in the early hours of the morning

Drunk out of my mind til i fainted and lay there ..

My dad grabbed me and threw me in the shower , and when he saw that i gained a little strength and my head was slowly coming back to reality .. he gave it to me

" THAT's IT !! HATHY MO 7ALA YA 9BAY NESAIT AHALIK , NESAIT DEENIK , NESAIT NAFSIK !! ANA KNT ABEE A9EER METFAHIM , KNT GAYIL 7ALA W T3ADDEE .. KNT T7EBHA MA GILNA SHAY , BAS EL SALFA ZADAT 3N 7aDHA YA WaHAB .. IT'S BEEN 2 YEARS FOR GOD'S SAKE "

Though i wasn't really in the right state of mind , though i didn't hear all the words right

I understood very well what my father was saying ..

I knew i was in trouble , i was a mess

I was in need of a serious intervention , and i got it that day

The next day , when i finally had some rest and was able to put the pieces of yesterday together i went to my father

I sat down on a chair in front of him not sure what to say

" Look son , i know it's hard i swear i do .. but just try , you have to try living .. you can't go on like this. Am so sorry for your loss but it's not the end of the world , it may be a beginning of a new life for you .. "

I was too embarrassed to look my father in the eye , he was my father .. my Idol .. he was all i had ..

And i acted out and made a fool of myself , i embarrassed him and let him down and i had no idea how to make it better

" I am your father " He went on " And it's my job to help you through life son , you're not alone in this "

My heart fell as i heard those words , i really respected that man .. he was a hell of a father and an amazing man

And i realized i needed him to say those words to me , to snap me back into reality

" That's why we're going to start something new .. we're opening a new leaf "

I looked up at him and waited for him to continue

" Get your stuff ready , we're going back to Kuwait "

As soon as i heard those words , it was like my ears were shut out not wanting to hear anything else

" A-Am sorry dad , what did you say? "

" Gilt benred el Kwait , ent lazm tred deertik .. lazm t'3ayer 7yatik w tkamilha .. warak jam3a warak shi'3il w warak mas2ooliya , manee mga3dik hnee wala degeega akthar. w 6ayaratna t6eer bacher "

I was too shocked to say anything .. but deep down inside , his words didn't sound so bad ..

For the first time in 2 years , i felt like i was actually looking forward to something

Something great was going to happen

Something new

Something that can at least keep me going

It was a long flight and i couldn't wait for it to end

I sat there with my father , already bonding again

Making up for lost times as they say ..

I apologized to him over and over again

I couldn't stop thinking of how my new life would be like

What i was going to do ,

But it was exciting and all my patience had ran out

I finally heard the captain speak , we were soon landing at Kuwait's national Airport

I smiled

The whole process in the airport went smoothly , people were indescribable

They were nice and friendly , i was actually relieved to see familiar Kuwaiti faces around me

And as soon as we got out of the arrivals gate , i breathed in hard and took in the new atmosphere in front of me

The faces of anticipating people waiting for their loved ones, flowers and chocolates awaited on so many hands , kids were running around or hanging by the silver bars

And all i could think to myself was ' Wow. This feels good already '

" Welcome home son " i heard my dad whisper and i smiled

Far in the left side corner , i saw a familiar grinning face

I wasn't sure who it was , but when we got closer i recognized the eager young man facing us

" EG3AAAD BO SHMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIISSSS ! " I suddenly shouted and took him in my arms

" Hala bil 7beeeeeeeeeb !! " As my cousin patted my back , i felt something fall into place

I felt something nudge me and say " hey .. you're finally home " BOy did this feel right

It just felt RIGHT.

Once upon a lie 3

2010-08-25T17:34:00.000-07:00

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And hope the rest of you enjoy this as well!

Love you all Xoxo

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I held her hand to distract her a little bit

But no use

" Wana go home? " I asked in spite of my will for her to stay with me

" mhhm " She nodded and i smiled " Let's go "

I drove her home holding her hand the whole time , her grip was hard as if she never wanted to let go of me

When we were finaly there , she looked out the window and then back at me with a sigh

" I'll talk to you later? "

" Sure " I said , still sad she was going so soon

I watched her enter the house and then i left thinking ' Please call now '

But Kenzii didn't ..

I slept with the phone in my hand and woke up to find it on the floor

I panicked and hurried to pick it up thinking i must have slept while it rang and rang..

But no missed calls .. no messages .. no nothing

I was a little disappointed i had to admit but i called her instead

" Alo " her voice was tired and sleepy

" Hey baby .. you alright?"

" Mhhm .. just sleeping .. sorry i didn't call last night "

" No no baby it's fine , things okay with your dad? "

" Uhh .. yeah i guess "

" Do you want to get together later ? "

It was the first time that i heard a pause from Kenzii after that question

" umm okay .. meet you at the usual spot? "

Though i didn't like the way she said it , i agreed and hung up

I kept thinking about her tone , it was weird .. something must be up . I thought

I took a shower and went downstairs to see my dad making breakfast

" Il salam "

" Hala Yuba , ashwa inik gemt tawnee msawe el ryoog ree7ta tred el rou7 "

I smiled , my father was a great chef

I sat down ready to eat , my stomach was already making noises

Then i remembered me and Kenzii didn't eat dinner last night

And WHY we didn't

I hated to think of that right now , i was with my dad ready to enjoy a nice meal in the early morning and I wasn't in the mood to be pissed off just yet

My dad set the plates infront of us and the smell was spectacular

" Here we go i made eggs , pancakes , toast and some ham "

" Thanks dad it looks great "

" So .. did you think about what you're going to do ? "

I froze and looked up at him " About what? "

" University "

I took a bite of toast " I .. don't realy think they're going to let me in again dad .. "

" If i was them i wouldn't let you in either "

I shrugged

" You have to think of your future .. ana ma3ndii 9bay yhed el derasa w yamshe , ma fad fe hathy el jam3a fe alf '3airha "

I nodded

Okay , there are smart hardworking people who get good grades and enjoy studying..

And there are slackers , lazy people who prefer to do nothing at all ..

And there are people who were in between .

Let's just say .. i wasn't in any of those categories above

I mean , first .. i liked to study the material that was given to me

University was new .. exciting and i felt mature and all grown up

I liked the new routine in my life

But later .. things started falling apart , i don't know why .. but they just did

I couldn't study because i had other things in mind .. or heart ..

I tried to be as nice as possible to the professors and explain some situations but some of them weren't really worth the time and some .. well they were just plain old Assholes ..

Excuse my language

So , one thing lead to another and i ended up getting really bad grades ( if you want to call them GRADES )

And somehow i was responsible for beating up half the faculty

AND some students ..

My dad was just happy they didn't sue us

I thought long and hard about what i was going to do , but i needed more time

I needed more space , i needed .. change

Maybe i didn't like that last word . But it was true

" Enashallah yuba .. enta 3a6nee bas fer9a afakker shasawee , w may9eer 5a6rik ela 6ayyib "

" 5ala9 5air yuba .. "

" Ila ma gitly yuba shloun el dawam ? "

" Walah el 7mdelah omorna mashya .. el kil na6rik t5ali9 hal jam3a w tyee tshoflik sha'3la tfla7 feha .. tsa3ed obok "

I smiled . I wasn't into business

I WAS my son's father in many ways , but we didn't share that interest

He smiled back , he knew what i was thinking

He knew i had other interests

" Worth a try " He took a sip of his coffee and we continued our pleasant breakfast

As agreed i went to our usual spot to meet up with Kenzii , and this time she wasn't late

Her eyes were a bit tired , lack of sleep .. i thought

Or lack of food ..

Kenzii wasn't much of an eater like me and sometimes i had to Literally stuff the food in her mouth

" Hey you " I greeted her

She smiled weakly at me " Hey .. "

She hugged me tightly and i hugged her back

She inhaled " Boy am i glad to see you "

I smiled " Wana tell me what's going on ? "

" Why does something have to go ON so i'd hug you ? " She looked up at

" it's not that it's just .. i dunno i feel like there's something wrong and you're not telling me "

" There's nothing wroong " She took my hand and lead me forward

I had no choice but to follow

kenzii was that way for the 3 days that followed

She didn't talk much though , and when she did she'd say stuff like

" you know i care about you right? .. i love you 3bdelwahab .. you need to do something new with your life "

It was very weird

I'd woken up at noon after spending the night watching a horror movie with my dad and i realized i only talked to Kenzii for 10 minutes yesterday and we had no plans yesterday or even today ..

I washed up and went downstairs to see my father talking on the phone

" uhh .. What- what do you mean? .. i see .. 3atham allah ajerkom ya5oy .. m3al salama .. "

I frowned seeing only the back of my dad's body

He sounded so surprised and upset ..

I moved closer and he turned around , seeing his yellow motionless face scared me

I only saw him like this once , when my mother left ..

" Yuba .. 5air sh9ayer? " i wasn't even sure my voice was loud enough

He looked at me not sure what to say , he reached for my shoulder and rested his hand there

" Yuba 3bdelwahab .. eg3ad shway bakalmik "

I frowned again and tried to read his face " Yuba manee ga3ed shfeek sh9ayer "

My heart was going to fall out of it's place

" Yuba 3bdelwahhab .. manee 3arif shagoulik , el bnya .. 3a6itik 3merha .."

I instantly moved away his hand " SHNO?!! "

" 9al 3al nibii yuba ethker allah .. allah 5atha amanta ya wlidii ya Wahab may9er chthy "

" Yuba ana ams mkalimhaa!!! AMS MKALIMHA BILAIL!!!! MAY9EER CHTHY MAY9EER!! "

My voice was getting louder and louder , i realized it was the first time i yelled at my dad like this

" Ehda yuba ehda ethker allah .. el a3mar beed rab el 3alameen " he tried to put his hand on my shoulder again and calm me down

But i just moved away from him going more hysterical

" Ana barou7 ashofha !! barou7 ashoofhaa " i grabbed my keys and was ready to go

" LA22 !! " i suddenly stopped at my dad's angry voice " 3a6nee el mefta7 Ana awadeek mara7 troo7 chthy ent "

He took the keys from my shaking hands and i showed him where Kenzii's house was

I barely had the strength to get out of the car and my father helped me

It was hard enough to walk on those steps she walked on every single day .. it was just too crazy for me to accept

we tried to knock on the door but no one answered , the place seemed deserted

We suddenly heard noise from the back , and we turned to see her father looking straight at us

For the first time i saw that man's face fearful and broken ..

He was lost , sad , angry ..

we just stood there looking at each other , not sure what the hell to say

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P.S,

Please don't hate me? (a)

Once upon a lie 2

2010-08-24T07:25:00.000-07:00

I entered the house and closed the door behind me

My dad was sitting on the sofa reading a book , he took down his glasses as soon as he saw me

" It's nearly morning .. " He commented

I stopped walking and turned to face him " Yeah .. " I nodded not knowing what else to say

He sighed " it seems you're coming later each day "

I looked out the window and the sky was shades of blue , purple and orange notifying that the sun was about to rise , then he cut me off thinking

" Is it that girl again ? "

My head snapped back and i blinked twice , he understood " Son you have to stop doing this .. "

" Dad-"

" La oboha rathy wala ana 3ajibnee el wath3 "

And once again i had nothing to say. My father always had an open mind , he respected my decisions and reviewed my problems and i loved him for it But when it came to discussing the issues i had ..

Well , let's just say he wasn't happy. And i don't balme him .

I knew he was angry from the look in his eyes but he always stayed calm , his words were gentle but tough at the same time

I might be a rebel , but i never talked back to him or made him feel less of a father though i had so much in me i wanted to let out

" Just be careful what you get into , 3bdelwahab "

I looked at the floor

" Am going to bed and so should you " He closed his book and placed it on the table

" Enshallah yuba " I headed ustairs before he did , and as i hurried up i could feel him look at me and sigh

I never wanted to disrespect him or cause him pain , i always wanted my father to be proud of me

But i couldn't control the things i did , and even if i tried ..

I didn't know how to

As soon as i took off my jacket and threw it on the floor , my phone started flashing

I grinned and hopped on the bed , excited that she'd called

" Alo " I was so eager to hear her voice again , but my tone was far away from that

" Hey .. were you sleeping ? "

"No .. how did it go with your dad? "

" Ohh .. nothing different from the usual "

" So you okay? "

" Ofcourse , you want to do something tomorrow? "

I smiled " Yeah .. "

" Fine then , i'll meet you at the usual spot "

" Don't keep me freezing to death "

She laughed " i'll try "

I slept that night remembering her face , happy that i was seeing her again tomorrow

Who knew me knew i wasn't the guy to fall in love , but with Kenzii it was different

We rarely even said it .. but we knew ..

And everyone else did for that matter

Kenzii was the first girl in my life and being attached to her made me feel .. GOOD

Just GOOD

Even if it was crazy with her father , we both felt it was right

So i waited the next day for her to show up , and she did come .. but later than the day before

It didn't matter to me , but i wasn't just about to get in a fight with her father so we had little time with each other before she had to go home ..

So we went to this nearby diner ..

The place was cool and packed with all kinds of people , and i liked the atmosphere

We weren't exactly crazy about the going out , having dinner part

We didn't do what other couples our age did ..

So we enjoyed the change

we sat in a small booth , and i started checking out the menu

Kenzii looked around the place trying to take it in , then she leaned in towards my arm to see the menu

" What do you want ? " I asked

" Hmmm.. maybe a milkshake? "

" Kenz you don't eat at all .. shno milkshake? "

" Am in the mood for it "

" Fine .. i'll have a double cheeseburger then , and am not sharing "

She gave me a teasing look and i surrendered " Fine you can have a bite "

" I wasn't even thinking that but nice to know i have the option "

I laughed

I started ordering and Kenzii looked the other way , her hand grip was harder on my jacket , i looked at her chocked up face and followed her gaze

It was her father with a bunch of guys

" You want to get out of here ? " i knew there was going to be trouble

She looked at me then nodded ,

I cancelled the order and we got out before he could see us , i started walking But Kenzii was still stuck behind the glass door of the diner looking in

" What's wrong? " I asked as i approached her

" I don't know those guys .. "

" So? they might be new friends or something "

" They don't LOOK friendly "

" They might be some business partners or somethig .. don't worry about it "

She hesitated before she went , and before we continued to walk , we saw them get up

" We better go if we want to avoid a scene with your dad .. " I said gently

She smiled at me " Let's go "

We walked away but i could still feel her eyes wanting to see what's behind

She was worried , i could tell .

Once upon a lie 1

2010-08-23T15:56:00.001-07:00

Here we go! part ONE

Drum roll pleeeeaaaase .. ;p

It's not a story about Widd and AbdulAziz am sorry to say .. but maybe you'll like it even more

Enjoy it guys , don't forget to comment

Love you all Xoxo

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I sat there waiting on the cold pavement . I didn't mind realy .. it's like i was built for those things ..

My body felt entirely numb , a good feeling i was surprised to know . But not as good as it felt when i was close to her ..

When my arms wrapped gently around her freezing pale skin ..

She was beautiful

She had foreign features just like her mother . Ignoring every hint of the Kuwaiti ones her father had

She had honey brown hair and hazel eyes . Her body was tiny and pale And she lived with her family here in Canada , where i met her and fell in love with her .

I couldn't feel a thing except for the racing beats of my heart waiting for her , i was too lazy to even check my wrist and see my watch

But i knew she was late .. and i probably knew why

" Hey baby! " A sweet rushing voice came to my ears through the icy breeze , it seemed like she was running to get here

I smiled without looking back at her , and just then .. her hand came to give a hard smack on my shoulder

I got up and faced her " You're late "

" I know i know .. am sorry "

" Nevermind .. it was cold at first , but then i got numb and i didn't feel a thing " She made a face at me

I smiled " Get in "

I drove as fast as i could trying to get to where we wanted to go .. but there was no place in mind. I was just a crazy driver .

We were too cold to speak . Our hands intertwined and that eased the pain of the cold air piercing our skin

" 3bdelwahab " i knew it was mushy and stupid but as she spoke i could feel my heart melt at the sound of her voice . But of course it was me so i didn't show a sign of any emotion what so ever .

" Hmm " i said without looking at her face

" Did you talk to your father about University yet? "

" No . and i don't want to "

" But .. you HAVE to get back , you HAVE to "

" Kenzii i don't want to talk about this right now .. "

" But-"

" They let me in 3 times before , they're not going to do it again "

" But what if your dad talked to them again .. am sure-"

" Kenzii i beat up half the faculty there , they probably built up an entire immune security system just for me " I couldn't help but laugh a little

I remembered my father's face when he knew i was kicked off a third time.. and i felt a little bad

She giggled " I wish i had beaten somebody up too "She shook her head

I found out that i was just going in circles . I just cruised the beautifully lit streets of Toronto

It did't matter where i went as long as i was with her

Having her hand buried in mine , i needed nothing else

I drove as slow as i could , i tried to avoid it as much as i could .. but we were there ..

I hesitated as i parked my car in front of her house

" Don't give me that face " She playfully pecked my cheek

" What face? " i played dumb

" Wahab it's nearly morning! the sun's about to come out .."

" So?"

" I think we pissed my dad off enough for one day " She gently said with a smile

" Again.. so? "

" Common " She hit my shoulder " i know how he is but he's still my dad .. "

I rolled my eyes . What more could i say? i physically and mentally HATED the man .

She turned her back on me ready to open the door and leave

" Hey hey hey .. wain wain , don't i get a kiss? "

She bit her lip to stop her from laughing " Common Wahaaab what the hell have we been doing for the past 3 hours in the back of your car? "

" The goodbye kiss counts the most "

She smiled and leaned in just when the most resentful man on the planet showed up at the front door , hands on his hips and an angry frown

" KENZII ! " He shouted

She suddenly gasped and jumped away " Oh my god ! "She whispered " Wahab my dad! "

My nostrils flared and i leaned my head down the window to look at him , give him a look of hate and despise

She rushed out of my car and hurried towards him , her face full of fright and regret

" ENTY MATESTE7EEN 3LA WAYHIICH ??!! ANA MO GAYILICH HAL 9BAY MA TSHOOFEENA ?!! "

That's it . i got out of my car and he looked at me

" WENT ! En sheftik wa6wa6t hnee marra thanya ma tloom ela nafsiik , ent fahim ?!!! "

" Baba la2 .. " He looked furiously at her " am not going to stop seeing him .. am sorry but am just NOT "

Before he could answer , she had ran inside .

" Ent shna6er hnee ?!!! ethlif 3n wayhy yalla !! "

I wasn't about to get in another fight , i just sighed and got into my car

This wasn't new . It wasn't new at all ..

This happened from the second i met Kenzii's father . Almost every time i took her out ..

Am not saying am the good guy here and he's just a mean old man . Kenzii and i weren't angels , we weren't even close

Allow me , for i forgot to mention ..

My name is Abdulwahab . I had lived in Canada for almost 7 years with my father who took the responsibility and took care of me after my mother had left us.

My father had to work here in Toronto for some time and we found it comfortable.

Well , perhaps ' I ' found it a little TOO comfortable .. and my dad wasn't too happy about it.

Good news!;*

2010-08-22T16:33:00.000-07:00

Alohaaaaaaa everyone!

Awal shaaaaay H ; I miss you ALL too wallah w i love your comments bil 3ax u weren't blabbing ! ;*

Nawariii ; I MISS you TOOO walah love you too babe w thaanks ;*

Hannoish ; i miss you more ( SPACESAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT B3D !! ) lol thanks hun ;*

lost , Shushu ; HUUUUGS !

R'3d ; i commented on your blog , thanks for stopping by;*

Today my lovely readers i decided to give you some news . Good news too !

As said ' mn 6awal el '3aibat yab el '3anayim ' ;p soooooooooo maybe that's what am doing.. There's a NEW STORY coming .. Hopefuly SOON

I hope you'll like it , i don't want to ruin it for you but the name of the story will be " Once upon a lie "

Hope you like it as much as the last one .. or maybe even more ;p

Tell me what you think! until next time , A7ebkom

Xoxo

Hello ! ;*

2010-08-15T19:05:00.000-07:00

Greetings loved ones !

OH EMM GEEEE i miss the blog and i miss you guys so muuuuuch ;(

Okay so remember my soul searching thing ? lol that's why i laid low these past weeks , my BBM is off .. i don't come online that often ..

No am not going crazy or Amish or anything ;p i just needed to get away from all the technology lol ( shda3wa 3lay ! )

La 3ad wallah its good shwayya y3ny , anyway !! mbarak 3laikom el shahaaaar w allah ytqabal min el kil enshalllaaah w hopefully soon soon sooooon i'll write you a new story !

To all my lovely lovely followers and anonymous readers thank you all so much for your kind words walah a7ebkom and am glad you like what i have to say ..

Like i promised enshallah i'll be back to write more i just don't know when , if you have any comments .. ideas or whatever please don't be shy ;p

Love you all w taqabal allah enshalah

Xoxo