16.11.10

3eedkom mbarak!;*







3eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedkom mbarak everyone !!



Hope you enjoy it w have a great one ! hang out with your family , go out or if you want to escape the crazy za7ma you can go to ya5our aw Shaleih aw hotel ;p



My plans mostly involve family , cinema and dinner hehe ;p what are yours?!!




And okay maybe i've been a really really bad blogger w your comments are becoming less and less bas walah am sorry ;( i had a serious of unfortunate events that involved falling down of a scooter and almost breaking my back , being sick and missing my midterm * sniff sniff * ;(




Bas 7mdelah alls better now w enshallah enshaaaaaaaaaallllaaah i'll post the greatest post for you everrrr




I missed you and blogger so much , Love you all ;*




Xoxo

6.11.10

Once upon a lie 17

Hey guuuuyyys ! ;*



I finally managed to take an hour break mn studying to enter my blog bacher 3ndee midterm ! bs am happy to write for you again XD " Dances a little "




W sorry tara if it's short bs promise to put a longer one next time enshallah




Love you all wallah w am sorry again ;(



Hope you enjoy this ! w don't forget to comment ;***




P.S; all my fellow bloggers i promise to visit your blogs as soon as i get the chance wallah i love you ! keep up the good work guys



Xoxo



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" What the hell are you talking about?! .. WHERE IS MY SHIPMENT?!! I SENT THE ORDER YESTERDAY ! WELL CHECK YOUR CALENDER OR YOUR BRAIN THE SHIP DIDN'T SINK ! "



I heard my father yelling out loud from his office downstairs , normal routine .. I thought.



My father was very passionate about his job , if anyone was good at it .. it was sure him. I never saw anyone work that hard , giving him being my father a lot of people have assumed i would turn out to be exactly like him ..



Much to their dismay and his , i didn't.




In fact , i turned out to be the exact opposite. He gave up on me half way through , having enough of repeating the same old things to me was like a bouncing ball that came right back to him every time he threw it ..





It seemed The only thing i was passionate and careful of was .. well , disappointing him over and over again by every mean possible. Don't get me wrong i didn't do it on purpose..




Not every single time , anyway.



He caught me rubbing my sleepy eyes trying to escape to the kitchen , so i stopped




" Whayyib , ent tawik teg3ad ? "



" Hala yuba .. "




" Ta3alli el maktab abeek "




I took a glance at the kitchen's doorway with sadness , hunger and disappointment all in the mix and followed him in



" 5air yuba "




" I talked to a few people in various colleges the other day .. it wasn't easy but i pulled a few strings .."



I blinked trying to comprehend what he was saying




" You're going to check out a few colleges of my choice .. you didn't care so i took matters into my own hands "



Ofcourse , i thought.




" Visit each and every one of them , try to engage and see what you really want to do with your life , it's time for you to actually WORK HARD for something other than getting a girl "




That was the moment when i paid more attention , what THE HELL?




" But dad i- "



" DON'T you say another word 3bdelwahab " He suddenly said , his voice more intense



I froze



" I gave you everything am capable of , i wanted to guarantee you a better future , a better life! it's about time you thank me and do as i say ! "



I gulped , hurt and anger in my eyes



" You have got to stop acting like this! you thank god i didn't leave you with your mother! "



NO , he did NOT just say that.



" I put you in the BEST schools , i tried to raise you well so you can adjust and i wanted to be the father AND the mother all at once! but do you care? NO. Do you actually give a damn thing what happens to this family ?! JUST for once ! for once 3bdelwahab act like am your father and DO as i say! "





If i was the 3bdelwahab i was back then .. just a few months ago .. i would've talked back , broke something , screamed my lungs out at him and left.




But i wasn't him anymore. As much as i wanted to throw a hurricane down his path ..




As much as i wanted to yell and punch my fists through every single thing in the room , i fought it



I just nodded and looked at the floor , hoping my resistance would stay a little while longer ..



Just praying glimpses of the old me wouldn't come rushing destroying everything i have built for myself




I knew he wasn't angry at ME , that he didn't mean it and he was just taking everything else out on me. And i excused him. Something i rarely did



For the first time in my life i didn't fight back and i can tell my own father was surprised as well ..



" Enshallah " i suddenly said , his shock and mine collided when i slowly got up and exited the room as quiet as a feather ..




Leaving my father alone in his office shocked and confused , i hurried to the front door grabbing the car keys that lay on the stand by the door and rushed out



I drove as fast as i could , venting all my anger on the gas pedal and the steering wheel probably breaking 16 road violations per minute only to find myself at the front door of the Shalaih





It took me about 15 minutes in the car to realize where i was and how i got there ..




I finally grabbed the door handle and entered. 3baid and the guys always left a spare key hidden somewhere for emergencies and i thanked their better judgement ..



My body pushed itself towards the biggest couch and i lay face down frozen like a dead fish on it



My anger didn't go away , not a bit. If anything it GREW more intense




I wanted to HIT someone .. i wanted to DRINK .. SMOKE .. something just ANYTHING to get my mind off of what just happened.



My body suddenly stiffened. Blood rushing fiercely through every available vein in my angry body. My senses were all suddenly awakened opening my eyes to notice a big loud scream next door ..




" AM NOT GOING BACK WITH YOU !! "





I was a volcano just ready to erupt





My fists punched the soft cushion of the couch pushing my upper body up , my fast legs carrying me to where the sound was




I moved closer to the near familiar Shalaih to see Shaikha yelling at some guy who obviously wasn't welcome ..




The sliding door was already open so i took the liberty and excused my own manners. Before the guy knew what hit him , he was on the floor




" 3bdelwahab ! " Shaikha suddely yelled , her hands covering her mouth




I couldn't believe what i just did.



My nostrils were flaring trying to let out some of the air that i strongly refused to breathe, My fingers were still forming two big fists ready to be murder weapons and my heart was going to jump out and lay next to that poor man on the floor




" I thought the lady said she wasn't coming back with you "




It took me a minute to realize the guy on the floor had an Indian nationality and he lay weakly suffering from a huge nose injury fighting the urge to cry




" 3bdelWahaab .. " I heard Shaikha softly speak , her voice suddenly eased every tense muscle i had ..



Every angry bone in my body .. Every single crazy thought in my brain.





" I think you just killed my driver "





Her words came down like little hailstones on top of my bare chest in a blizzard




I looked at her then back at the poor man on the floor and hurried to help him " I am SO sorry " My voice failed to show honesty as i helped him up





I knew it was terrible of me to say , but i swear it felt SO good to finally punch my fists through something ..




The man mumbled something through his nose , smiled at Shaikha then looked at me with pain and fear and ran out of the place




I was still struck by my own action and fear of facing Shaikha took over me..



" 3bdelWahab .." Her sweet voice came ringing in my ear again




Without second thought i turned around to face her and the words flew right out of my mouth " I am SO SO sorry for what just happened. " i said as politely as i could




My heart finally started beating again when i saw a hint of a smile on her pretty face



" Look i just heard you yelling and i thought-"




" It's fine , really. Don't apologize "




" I thought you were in some kind of trouble , you were pretty loud .. "



" I know he was just trying to make a point and i didn't want to listen so .. "




" Wait a second was the driver Yelling at you ? " my voice was never more angry , i felt all that rage come back and i was afraid this time i couldn't stop it




Her face pretty much said it all.




My legs were already turning around to the main door about to follow that sucker when her soft hand suddenly touched my arm " no 3bdelwahab! " her voice was scared and her small hands were shaking around my tensed arm and all i thought was 'what in the world just happened to me?'



When i looked at her face , her hand had disappeared and she was already red




" Well then the only thing am sorry for is that i didn't get to kill him "




I saw her blush again and bite her lower lip , " He was just caught up in the moment trying to explain something .. "





" Whatever he wanted to say , no one yells at a lady that only means he's a- " But thank god i stopped myself there ..





That devastating smile decorated that face of hers again and i forgot what i was about to say ..




" Mn wain 6ila3t enta tawwa anyway ? " We both glanced back at the open door and all the flashbacks of the last 45 minutes came rushing through my brain





I suddenly sighed and looked at her not knowing what to say ..




And as if she read my mind , She just smiled at me and said " How about i get you a glass of water ? "