31.8.10

Once upon a lie 6





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I woke up the next morning with the warm yellow rays of sun laying gently on my forehead



I lay there for a few minutes taking in the new scene and scent around me. I found it so comfortable that i didn't want to get up



But eventually i did , took a shower and headed downstairs to find my father already gone to work




There was still noise coming from the kitchen and i was curious , i stood close enough to see my aunt Nadia with a bunch of maids busy going through piles and piles of plastic bags




" 9ba7 el 5air " I interrupted the busy atmosphere




My aunt looked up with a grin on her face " Wey! hala 7beebee enta gemt? waaay tawnee 3ad yaybatlikom machlat el baait gilt mayamdeekom b3d .. hal 5adam thb7oonii te3awedaw 3ala '3yab el m3azbeen 9araw ma y3arfoon 7atta yeshta'3loon "




I smiled as i looked at her. Back in Canada we didn't even THINK of getting help or even maids, this was a change ,i thought




A pretty cool one too, now my dad doesn't have to worry about what to cook us for dinner ..




But am sure he'll miss it though




" Ela 3baid waina 5alty ? " I asked




" Waaih yumma 3baid nayim ! mn ynam bedala hal walad ? deg 3laih yummaa , b'3ait shaY? "



" La walah 5alty bs as2al "



" Eee tara obok gbl shway ra7 dawama , wentaw '3adakom 3ndii fa la t7atii betshoufa hnak enshallah lma yred "




" 5ala9 enshallah " I nodded



I got out of there feeling weird , like there was something missing ..




There was something i was supposed to do but am not doing it ..




I kept thinking about it , maybe it was because i hadn't been here for so long




I didn't know. But i wanted something to do




If i were in Canada i would've just went for a jog or something ..




But to be honest , am not fimiliar with these streets yet




Last time i was here i was about 14 years old




I heard the phone ring and i went to pick it up



" Alo "



" Whayyyiiiiiiibbb " 3bdallah sounded like he was fighting the urge to asleep




" Hala feek , ha el walda 3ndina tgoul inik nayim "




" Waaain la yubaa tawnee ga3ed , madre shfeenee ya5ook el 9a7ba m6al3atly groon "




I laughed



" Ha ma tabe tyee ? nrou7 ngez shway , neshtereelik cham '3arath 3ala ma t9eer 7azzat el '3ada. Shrayik ? "




" Yalla fouga "




" 5ala9 9ar . Shway wamerrik ana "




I hung up the phone with a smile on my face , it's been a while since i hung out with a friend




I missed the streets and i wanted to see them all so badly



It wasn't long til 3bdallah came , and we were on our way




" Gilt nrou7 markaz sil6an net6amash w neshtereelik chm shay , w minhaa tshouf el ba7ar "




" Ee wallah ya 7ilwa .. " I looked out the window to check out the blue beauty




" 5ala9 jahhez nafsik hal yoomain nrou7 el shalaih , 9arlik dahar mo 6abba akeed"



" Ee walah hnaak s7teneee ensa shay esma ba7ar "




" a77!! la laaaa yuba ana etha ma sheft hal azrag jiddaaameee wen ma sema3t te6eg6eg el jetskiyyat 3al may ! w hal shawiii w hal ga3daaa ya5ee ma3arf a3eesh ! "




" 5ala9 3ayal 3la eedik ! "




We arrived and picked up a few stuff for me and my dad and then we cruised some more until it was time for lunch





I was happy for the second reunion , Everyone was there including Lulu who was there sitting next to me





Having fought with both 3bdallah and s3oud to sit beside me , she was extremely happy




" Where did you go today? " She asked



" Re7t markaz sil6an m3a 3bdallah ashteree a'3rath " i answered




She suddenly frowned and looked at her brother " Why didn't you TELL me?!"




Abdullah who was sipping juice suddenly shrugged and coughed " Wenty sh7aga btyeen ma3ana? "




" I wanted to go with 3bdelwahab too!" She made a face at him




" Mama ohma 9bayan enty wain btroo7een ma3ahom ? " Aunt Nadia interrupted





She just turned away her face not liking what she heard and continued eating





" El youm berrou7 nil3ab kora bmal3ab 9aboun ," s3oud mentioned " Tyee whayyib? " He asked me





Before i could answer , Abdullah interrupted " Laa ana w whayyib 3ndena shi'3il il lailaa " He suddenly blinked at me and i shrugged




"EE 9a7 9aa7 .. " i went along with it though i had no idea what was going on





I liked the feeling of being busy , wanted and accepted by my family members





Their warm voices , their welcoming smiles





They were including me in their daily activities already and it was like i was never gone




It was nice to feel i was part of something , even if it was so little




It was huge for me and they had no idea




" Ana b3d 3ndii shi'3il "Lulu suddenly said not bothering to look at any of us




I gotta say , the girl has attitude .. and i won't say i didn't like it




I smiled at her but she seemed to have a lack of interest in my face





" Wenty kila razza wayhich yal nizqaa? " 3bdallah commented , she didn't look like she cared




" 5ala9t Wahabii ? " She suddenly asked me and my eyes popped open , did she just call me Wahabii ?!!




Man , i think am in love



I suddenly laughed " Why yes i have " I told her




" Yalla goum 5l n'3asel eedee " She suddely got up making her way to the toilet





I shrugged and followed her




Everyone at the table smiled with amusement , except for 3bdallah





By 7 i was still at my aunt's , My uncle a7mad and my father left hours ago discussing business and S3oud left for the football game , my aunt Muneera was watching tv and we were in Abdullah's room getting ready to go out





" Ashwa inik yebt malabes 3ayal .. " 3bdallah was saying





" Wain ray7een ? " I asked as i took my shirt off





" Hehee we're going out for dinner , you're gona love it "





" Yeah i hope so " I was a little intimated by 3bdallah's devilish smile , Back in Canada my friends' devilish smiles were out when there was drinking involved ..






But i knew we were no where near that place




And i didn't even WANT to think of the person i was and what i had done before i came here ..




A little figure suddenly popped in " Hii Wahabii "




I smiled instantly " Hala wallaah hala bil zain kilaa "





She made herself at home walking in the room and without warning she hopped on my lap




" Haa haa 5air enshallah dasha la e7m wala dstoor? " 3bdallah objected




" Wain betroo7oon? " She asked not giving any concern for her brother





" Bnet3asha " I answered





" I wana come too "





" 3aib e7na 9bayan kbaar .. sheyeebich ma3ana? " 3bdallah told her





She made a puppy face that i swear i hadn't -in my entire 23 years- seen anything like it





" Not gona work Lulu " 3bdallah told her as he sprayed some perfume




" You're mean! " She suddenly jumped out of my lap and stormed out of the room





And before we could react , her tiny head appeared again in the door frame " I was talking to 3bdallah not you Wahabii "




I grinned at her and she left




" Can i just say i love this girl? "




" Dude too bad she's five ,Yalla goum goooouuuum meshainaa " we left the room





We drove for a bit until we got to a nice little place called ' Slider Station '





" Here we go , you're never going to forget this one " 3bdallah said as he hopped out of the car




" Yeah? , food's that good? "





He looked at me " Food , girls , atmosphere .. i'll leave it for you to judge my man"




And 3bdallah was right , i liked the place already





It was nice and cozy and the food was just perfect , and the ladies?





Man , i only saw girls like that in magazines





" Tell me again why did i live so far away when we had all this here ? " I was saying as i sipped my Coke





3bdallah laughed " You haven't seen nothing yet "





I looked away again taking in the place when i saw this cute little face staring at me with a shy smile




She had nice curly brown hair with matching eyes , her smile was shy but i could see there was some bad in there too





" Woah check THAT out " , 3bdallah commented " Only one night out and you already got fans " he bumped my shoulder with his




I laughed " La yubaa shda3waa "




" Dude! she's been checking you out since we got in! "




I smiled but couldn't look at her again as a painful memory crossed my mind




I was thinking of Kenzii




" Dude come on .. " 3bdallah nudged me " Don't tell me you're thinking about Kenzii again "





He knew all about it , and after 2 and a half years .. he too thought i should move on




And i was going to i swear , i was just .. taking it slow i guess





" 5ala9 allah yer7amha wana 5ook la tswee chthy 3ad , btyee wallah btyee ele betnaseek Kenzii wely yabhaa "




I smiled at him " Wily ma yby yensa bo shmais ? "




" Btensaaa enshallah w bt3eesh w bt7eb '3airhaa el dinia tamshii ya 5ooy hawnehaa w t'hoon "





" Yuba 5alna mn hal swaliif al7een e7na yayeen nestanas , gouly wain ray7een al7een?"





" Yah yah ! ashoufiik te3awadt 3al gazz mn al7een Whayiib "





" Mn 3ashar 8oom ! " i shot back and he laughed




We paid and were ready to leave when suddenly 3bdallah stopped and whispered



" Zain agoul Whayyib .."




" Haa ? " I leaned in





" Gbl ma namshee ma ra7 ta5eth el raqam? "





Without a word i suddenly hit his head " Emsh emsh bs jiddamee 3afia "

29.8.10

Once upon a lie 5





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I remember the last time i saw my cousin 3bdallah




We were early teenagers and i was going away with my father to Canada




He practically begged my father and asked about 45 times if i could stay with them until he finished work , my father just smiled and promised we'd be back soon




Aside from the emailing and calling we didn't see each other for a long long time




And seeing him now , joking and talking about our crazy adventures ..




It's like i was never gone




I looked out the window to the lights and the palm trees ..




It was different here from Canada that's for sure




I missed it here




I liked being here



" W Hatha e7na we9alnaaaa , yalla 3ammi 7ayakom ! el 5adam beyeeboun el jina6 .. ommi da5il woboy shway w yoo9al "




I got out of the car looking at the house i used to come to when i was a kid , i remembered some good times me and 3baid had ..




He suddenly patted my back " Hala bWHayiiiiib! "




I laughed " Hala feek "



" Ma b'3ait tyee ! "



I laughed not kowing how to answer him " Yalla 7ayak 7ayak da5il "




We entered the house and we were greeted by my aunt Nadia , 3ballah's mother




She was my dad's cousin and my uncle's wife .. she nearly raised me



" Hala 3ammetii "



" Hala 7beeebeee hala 3bdelwahaaab " Before i knew it i was pulled in for a big hug " Waaaay sh7ilwik 9ayiiiiirrr "




I laughed " Hala feech 3ammiitii shlouniich? "




" We b5aaair shoofatkom tred el rroooou7 , deshaw deshaw 7ayakom allah "




She was more beautiful than i remember , she was glowing



A weird feeling came over me when we parted ..



I liked that feeling




Growing up after my mother left us was hard , i never really got that many hugs to be honest ..




My father was more gentle and sweet with me than anyone but still ..




Having lost the feeling of having a mother to look after me or kiss me goodnight was weird , But my dad made up for it




And so did my aunt Nadia , i liked having her around ..




When we were kids she'd bring us some sandwiches and juice boxes and we'd go crazy!



And even now without the sandwiches and juice boxes , it felt so nice having her near




" Tslemeen ya um 3bdallah tslemeeen " My father said




And as soon as we sat down , a tall built figure came in




It was my uncle a7mad , Bo 3bdallah ..




" Halaa bily zaayiirnaaaa hala wallah "




" Hala bo 3bdallaaah hala bo5ooy "




They exchanged hugs and kisses and it was my turn " Mashallaaah hala bwhayiib wlidii , kebart walah "




" Eeee w 9ar yabeelaa mara tra3eeh w tdareeh " My aunt added




I smiled shyly , i never even thought of that ..




" Afaaaa yumma wana?!! " 3bdallah came to stand beside me




" Ent ehye3 bil awal ! ent btyannin el mara mskeena betna7esh'ha gbl la too9al "




I laughed



" Waaaaiiiihh whayyiiib awal knt atlaigaf abee nfs al3abik , al7een kebarnaa w kbarat m6alibna " he rested his hand on my shoulder



" Sheft shloun ? "




Just then , something came from underneath me , held my jeans and started pulling gently



I looked down to see a tiny girl about 4 or 5 years old staring up at me with the most adorable look in her eyes




She had long brown hair with a few honey colored locks in it , her cheeks were irresistible




In my entire life i've only met a few number of kids , and even when i did .. i never formed any sort of contact or relationship with them



Nor did i imagine having one with any someday ..




I grinned and knelt down to her level " Hi " she suddenly spoke with a very serious cute face




" Hi there .. what's your name? "



" Am Lulu .. am 5 years old .. and i live here , who are you? "



I couldn't help but laugh " My name is 3bdelwahab and am 23 .. and i think am your cousin "




" cousin?!!! where have you been this whole time? " She made the cutest hand gestures at me and i found myself picking her up



" 3bdelwahhab .. meet my baby sister Lulu , she's a talker but you'll get used to it" Abdullah added




I smiled at my aunt Nadia " I didn't get to meet this little thing "




" No you didn't , but trust me .. she'll keep you posted. It'll be like you never even left " She told me as Lulu was putting her hand through my crew cut hair




" You're tall " She commented " And you're a tiny little thing aren't you? " i looked at her




" El salam " Just then , my other cousin S3oud came in holding up his hand



He must be 15 or something now , years went by fast




He reminded me of Abdullah when he was his age




I put Lulu down and shook hands with him " Ya7lailiik bo s3ayyid kebart "





" Wainik entaaaa allah yhadaak , ta3al ta3al bs eg3ad eg3ad 5nsoolif "




I shrugged and went to sit with the rest of them




We talked for hours .. we talked about everything we missed out on





Leaving out the bad parts , me getting kicked out of college .. Kenzii dying ..





They needn't to know that , and neither did we need to be reminded




We had a nice time and we enjoyed each other's company




It's been a long time since we've had a get together so me and my father were more than glad to be there




It was finally time to go home ..




How Weird calling it that after we left our house in Canada



We hadn't been to this place in almost 9 years , and we were going there now




I was happy just thinking about it




Remembering it




But then i remembered my mother , and that just turned me off




I suddenly looked up to see my house .. my old house ..




Seeing it now made me ache inside




" 7mdelah 3al salama yuba " My father patted my back




I smiled and followed him inside




It was spotless clean , aunt Nadia must've had the maids do everything before we arrived




I took a quick glance and hurried to my bedroom upstairs




Nothing had changed, not a thing misplaced




Man .. i loved it here



I took a small spin and then before i knew it , i was laying there already asleep.

28.8.10

Once upon a lie 4






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" I .. Am sorry i had to tell your dad over the phone Wahab i really am .. " Those words came out of the man I've always hated




Words of sorry and regret ..




But they didn't ease my pain , not even a little bit.



I knew he lost his daughter too , i knew i was the one who was supposed to apologize and at least give my condolences



But i was too paralyzed to say anything



" How did she just go like that? " My voice was not loud and i wasn't shouting this time , but anger and rage were clear in it




" 3bdelwahab .. yuba yalla 5alna nrou7 " My dad took my arm scared i was going to attack the man, " NO! " i suddenly pulled away from him




" I want to KNOW " i saw fear in her father's eyes , like he was scared i was going to do something crazy




And that's what my dad was thinking too " 3bdelwahab .. 9al 3al nibii yuba hatha yoomha , emsh 5al nrou7 el bait roo7 rayi7 w 9allik chm rek3a "





I breathed hard , in and out and i could feel them just staring at me




The noise that came out of my lungs wasn't normal at all , i looked like a wild bear who came out of his cave just to attack them




Her father didn't say a single word to me. I let my father drag me to the car and drive away , but i still watched him from the side mirror




Waiting for something ..




Maybe for her to come out , maybe for a nightmare to be over ..




But nothing.




I knew several days later that her family had all gone away somewhere , i didn't know where exactly and i didn't care




I never went by her house again and i didn't want to




Everyday the conversations with my dad would become shorter and shorter. There came days where we didn't even talk at all.




There were days where i'd come home accompanied by the police , or a kind stranger who found me drunk and lost ..



There were days where i'd start mumbling things in my sleep that my father never really understood




I stopped seeing my friends .. i stopped talking to anyone ,




My only way of communicating was by shouting or hitting things or people..




My dad wanted to give me space , time for me to heal but i wasn't doing anything useful at all



That continued for exactly two and a half years



I went out of line



WAY out of line



It wasn't until this day .. when my father found me laying on the front doorsteps in the early hours of the morning



Drunk out of my mind til i fainted and lay there ..




My dad grabbed me and threw me in the shower , and when he saw that i gained a little strength and my head was slowly coming back to reality .. he gave it to me



" THAT's IT !! HATHY MO 7ALA YA 9BAY NESAIT AHALIK , NESAIT DEENIK , NESAIT NAFSIK !! ANA KNT ABEE A9EER METFAHIM , KNT GAYIL 7ALA W T3ADDEE .. KNT T7EBHA MA GILNA SHAY , BAS EL SALFA ZADAT 3N 7aDHA YA WaHAB .. IT'S BEEN 2 YEARS FOR GOD'S SAKE "



Though i wasn't really in the right state of mind , though i didn't hear all the words right




I understood very well what my father was saying ..



I knew i was in trouble , i was a mess




I was in need of a serious intervention , and i got it that day




The next day , when i finally had some rest and was able to put the pieces of yesterday together i went to my father




I sat down on a chair in front of him not sure what to say




" Look son , i know it's hard i swear i do .. but just try , you have to try living .. you can't go on like this. Am so sorry for your loss but it's not the end of the world , it may be a beginning of a new life for you .. "




I was too embarrassed to look my father in the eye , he was my father .. my Idol .. he was all i had ..




And i acted out and made a fool of myself , i embarrassed him and let him down and i had no idea how to make it better




" I am your father " He went on " And it's my job to help you through life son , you're not alone in this "




My heart fell as i heard those words , i really respected that man .. he was a hell of a father and an amazing man




And i realized i needed him to say those words to me , to snap me back into reality




" That's why we're going to start something new .. we're opening a new leaf "



I looked up at him and waited for him to continue




" Get your stuff ready , we're going back to Kuwait "




As soon as i heard those words , it was like my ears were shut out not wanting to hear anything else




" A-Am sorry dad , what did you say? "




" Gilt benred el Kwait , ent lazm tred deertik .. lazm t'3ayer 7yatik w tkamilha .. warak jam3a warak shi'3il w warak mas2ooliya , manee mga3dik hnee wala degeega akthar. w 6ayaratna t6eer bacher "




I was too shocked to say anything .. but deep down inside , his words didn't sound so bad ..



For the first time in 2 years , i felt like i was actually looking forward to something




Something great was going to happen



Something new



Something that can at least keep me going




It was a long flight and i couldn't wait for it to end




I sat there with my father , already bonding again




Making up for lost times as they say ..



I apologized to him over and over again




I couldn't stop thinking of how my new life would be like




What i was going to do ,




But it was exciting and all my patience had ran out




I finally heard the captain speak , we were soon landing at Kuwait's national Airport




I smiled




The whole process in the airport went smoothly , people were indescribable





They were nice and friendly , i was actually relieved to see familiar Kuwaiti faces around me




And as soon as we got out of the arrivals gate , i breathed in hard and took in the new atmosphere in front of me



The faces of anticipating people waiting for their loved ones, flowers and chocolates awaited on so many hands , kids were running around or hanging by the silver bars




And all i could think to myself was ' Wow. This feels good already '




" Welcome home son " i heard my dad whisper and i smiled




Far in the left side corner , i saw a familiar grinning face




I wasn't sure who it was , but when we got closer i recognized the eager young man facing us




" EG3AAAD BO SHMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIISSSS ! " I suddenly shouted and took him in my arms



" Hala bil 7beeeeeeeeeb !! " As my cousin patted my back , i felt something fall into place




I felt something nudge me and say " hey .. you're finally home " BOy did this feel right




It just felt RIGHT.

26.8.10

Once upon a lie 3





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I held her hand to distract her a little bit



But no use



" Wana go home? " I asked in spite of my will for her to stay with me




" mhhm " She nodded and i smiled " Let's go "




I drove her home holding her hand the whole time , her grip was hard as if she never wanted to let go of me




When we were finaly there , she looked out the window and then back at me with a sigh




" I'll talk to you later? "



" Sure " I said , still sad she was going so soon




I watched her enter the house and then i left thinking ' Please call now '




But Kenzii didn't ..




I slept with the phone in my hand and woke up to find it on the floor





I panicked and hurried to pick it up thinking i must have slept while it rang and rang..




But no missed calls .. no messages .. no nothing




I was a little disappointed i had to admit but i called her instead




" Alo " her voice was tired and sleepy



" Hey baby .. you alright?"



" Mhhm .. just sleeping .. sorry i didn't call last night "



" No no baby it's fine , things okay with your dad? "



" Uhh .. yeah i guess "



" Do you want to get together later ? "



It was the first time that i heard a pause from Kenzii after that question




" umm okay .. meet you at the usual spot? "



Though i didn't like the way she said it , i agreed and hung up



I kept thinking about her tone , it was weird .. something must be up . I thought




I took a shower and went downstairs to see my dad making breakfast



" Il salam "




" Hala Yuba , ashwa inik gemt tawnee msawe el ryoog ree7ta tred el rou7 "




I smiled , my father was a great chef




I sat down ready to eat , my stomach was already making noises




Then i remembered me and Kenzii didn't eat dinner last night




And WHY we didn't



I hated to think of that right now , i was with my dad ready to enjoy a nice meal in the early morning and I wasn't in the mood to be pissed off just yet




My dad set the plates infront of us and the smell was spectacular




" Here we go i made eggs , pancakes , toast and some ham "




" Thanks dad it looks great "



" So .. did you think about what you're going to do ? "




I froze and looked up at him " About what? "




" University "



I took a bite of toast " I .. don't realy think they're going to let me in again dad .. "



" If i was them i wouldn't let you in either "



I shrugged



" You have to think of your future .. ana ma3ndii 9bay yhed el derasa w yamshe , ma fad fe hathy el jam3a fe alf '3airha "




I nodded




Okay , there are smart hardworking people who get good grades and enjoy studying..




And there are slackers , lazy people who prefer to do nothing at all ..




And there are people who were in between .




Let's just say .. i wasn't in any of those categories above




I mean , first .. i liked to study the material that was given to me





University was new .. exciting and i felt mature and all grown up




I liked the new routine in my life




But later .. things started falling apart , i don't know why .. but they just did




I couldn't study because i had other things in mind .. or heart ..



I tried to be as nice as possible to the professors and explain some situations but some of them weren't really worth the time and some .. well they were just plain old Assholes ..




Excuse my language




So , one thing lead to another and i ended up getting really bad grades ( if you want to call them GRADES )




And somehow i was responsible for beating up half the faculty




AND some students ..




My dad was just happy they didn't sue us



I thought long and hard about what i was going to do , but i needed more time




I needed more space , i needed .. change



Maybe i didn't like that last word . But it was true




" Enashallah yuba .. enta 3a6nee bas fer9a afakker shasawee , w may9eer 5a6rik ela 6ayyib "




" 5ala9 5air yuba .. "



" Ila ma gitly yuba shloun el dawam ? "




" Walah el 7mdelah omorna mashya .. el kil na6rik t5ali9 hal jam3a w tyee tshoflik sha'3la tfla7 feha .. tsa3ed obok "




I smiled . I wasn't into business




I WAS my son's father in many ways , but we didn't share that interest




He smiled back , he knew what i was thinking




He knew i had other interests




" Worth a try " He took a sip of his coffee and we continued our pleasant breakfast




As agreed i went to our usual spot to meet up with Kenzii , and this time she wasn't late




Her eyes were a bit tired , lack of sleep .. i thought




Or lack of food ..



Kenzii wasn't much of an eater like me and sometimes i had to Literally stuff the food in her mouth




" Hey you " I greeted her




She smiled weakly at me " Hey .. "




She hugged me tightly and i hugged her back




She inhaled " Boy am i glad to see you "




I smiled " Wana tell me what's going on ? "



" Why does something have to go ON so i'd hug you ? " She looked up at




" it's not that it's just .. i dunno i feel like there's something wrong and you're not telling me "




" There's nothing wroong " She took my hand and lead me forward




I had no choice but to follow




kenzii was that way for the 3 days that followed




She didn't talk much though , and when she did she'd say stuff like




" you know i care about you right? .. i love you 3bdelwahab .. you need to do something new with your life "



It was very weird




I'd woken up at noon after spending the night watching a horror movie with my dad and i realized i only talked to Kenzii for 10 minutes yesterday and we had no plans yesterday or even today ..





I washed up and went downstairs to see my father talking on the phone




" uhh .. What- what do you mean? .. i see .. 3atham allah ajerkom ya5oy .. m3al salama .. "




I frowned seeing only the back of my dad's body




He sounded so surprised and upset ..



I moved closer and he turned around , seeing his yellow motionless face scared me




I only saw him like this once , when my mother left ..




" Yuba .. 5air sh9ayer? " i wasn't even sure my voice was loud enough




He looked at me not sure what to say , he reached for my shoulder and rested his hand there




" Yuba 3bdelwahab .. eg3ad shway bakalmik "




I frowned again and tried to read his face " Yuba manee ga3ed shfeek sh9ayer "



My heart was going to fall out of it's place



" Yuba 3bdelwahhab .. manee 3arif shagoulik , el bnya .. 3a6itik 3merha .."




I instantly moved away his hand " SHNO?!! "



" 9al 3al nibii yuba ethker allah .. allah 5atha amanta ya wlidii ya Wahab may9er chthy "



" Yuba ana ams mkalimhaa!!! AMS MKALIMHA BILAIL!!!! MAY9EER CHTHY MAY9EER!! "




My voice was getting louder and louder , i realized it was the first time i yelled at my dad like this



" Ehda yuba ehda ethker allah .. el a3mar beed rab el 3alameen " he tried to put his hand on my shoulder again and calm me down




But i just moved away from him going more hysterical




" Ana barou7 ashofha !! barou7 ashoofhaa " i grabbed my keys and was ready to go



" LA22 !! " i suddenly stopped at my dad's angry voice " 3a6nee el mefta7 Ana awadeek mara7 troo7 chthy ent "



He took the keys from my shaking hands and i showed him where Kenzii's house was




I barely had the strength to get out of the car and my father helped me



It was hard enough to walk on those steps she walked on every single day .. it was just too crazy for me to accept




we tried to knock on the door but no one answered , the place seemed deserted




We suddenly heard noise from the back , and we turned to see her father looking straight at us



For the first time i saw that man's face fearful and broken ..




He was lost , sad , angry ..



we just stood there looking at each other , not sure what the hell to say



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P.S,



Please don't hate me? (a)

24.8.10

Once upon a lie 2






I entered the house and closed the door behind me



My dad was sitting on the sofa reading a book , he took down his glasses as soon as he saw me



" It's nearly morning .. " He commented



I stopped walking and turned to face him " Yeah .. " I nodded not knowing what else to say




He sighed " it seems you're coming later each day "




I looked out the window and the sky was shades of blue , purple and orange notifying that the sun was about to rise , then he cut me off thinking




" Is it that girl again ? "




My head snapped back and i blinked twice , he understood " Son you have to stop doing this .. "




" Dad-"



" La oboha rathy wala ana 3ajibnee el wath3 "



And once again i had nothing to say. My father always had an open mind , he respected my decisions and reviewed my problems and i loved him for it But when it came to discussing the issues i had ..




Well , let's just say he wasn't happy. And i don't balme him .




I knew he was angry from the look in his eyes but he always stayed calm , his words were gentle but tough at the same time




I might be a rebel , but i never talked back to him or made him feel less of a father though i had so much in me i wanted to let out




" Just be careful what you get into , 3bdelwahab "




I looked at the floor



" Am going to bed and so should you " He closed his book and placed it on the table




" Enshallah yuba " I headed ustairs before he did , and as i hurried up i could feel him look at me and sigh




I never wanted to disrespect him or cause him pain , i always wanted my father to be proud of me




But i couldn't control the things i did , and even if i tried ..




I didn't know how to





As soon as i took off my jacket and threw it on the floor , my phone started flashing



I grinned and hopped on the bed , excited that she'd called



" Alo " I was so eager to hear her voice again , but my tone was far away from that



" Hey .. were you sleeping ? "



"No .. how did it go with your dad? "



" Ohh .. nothing different from the usual "



" So you okay? "



" Ofcourse , you want to do something tomorrow? "



I smiled " Yeah .. "




" Fine then , i'll meet you at the usual spot "



" Don't keep me freezing to death "



She laughed " i'll try "




I slept that night remembering her face , happy that i was seeing her again tomorrow



Who knew me knew i wasn't the guy to fall in love , but with Kenzii it was different



We rarely even said it .. but we knew ..




And everyone else did for that matter



Kenzii was the first girl in my life and being attached to her made me feel .. GOOD





Just GOOD



Even if it was crazy with her father , we both felt it was right




So i waited the next day for her to show up , and she did come .. but later than the day before




It didn't matter to me , but i wasn't just about to get in a fight with her father so we had little time with each other before she had to go home ..




So we went to this nearby diner ..



The place was cool and packed with all kinds of people , and i liked the atmosphere




We weren't exactly crazy about the going out , having dinner part




We didn't do what other couples our age did ..




So we enjoyed the change





we sat in a small booth , and i started checking out the menu



Kenzii looked around the place trying to take it in , then she leaned in towards my arm to see the menu




" What do you want ? " I asked




" Hmmm.. maybe a milkshake? "




" Kenz you don't eat at all .. shno milkshake? "




" Am in the mood for it "




" Fine .. i'll have a double cheeseburger then , and am not sharing "




She gave me a teasing look and i surrendered " Fine you can have a bite "




" I wasn't even thinking that but nice to know i have the option "




I laughed



I started ordering and Kenzii looked the other way , her hand grip was harder on my jacket , i looked at her chocked up face and followed her gaze





It was her father with a bunch of guys




" You want to get out of here ? " i knew there was going to be trouble




She looked at me then nodded ,




I cancelled the order and we got out before he could see us , i started walking But Kenzii was still stuck behind the glass door of the diner looking in




" What's wrong? " I asked as i approached her




" I don't know those guys .. "



" So? they might be new friends or something "



" They don't LOOK friendly "




" They might be some business partners or somethig .. don't worry about it "




She hesitated before she went , and before we continued to walk , we saw them get up




" We better go if we want to avoid a scene with your dad .. " I said gently




She smiled at me " Let's go "




We walked away but i could still feel her eyes wanting to see what's behind




She was worried , i could tell .

Once upon a lie 1





Here we go! part ONE


Drum roll pleeeeaaaase .. ;p


It's not a story about Widd and AbdulAziz am sorry to say .. but maybe you'll like it even more


Enjoy it guys , don't forget to comment


Love you all Xoxo



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I sat there waiting on the cold pavement . I didn't mind realy .. it's like i was built for those things ..



My body felt entirely numb , a good feeling i was surprised to know . But not as good as it felt when i was close to her ..




When my arms wrapped gently around her freezing pale skin ..



She was beautiful



She had foreign features just like her mother . Ignoring every hint of the Kuwaiti ones her father had



She had honey brown hair and hazel eyes . Her body was tiny and pale And she lived with her family here in Canada , where i met her and fell in love with her .




I couldn't feel a thing except for the racing beats of my heart waiting for her , i was too lazy to even check my wrist and see my watch




But i knew she was late .. and i probably knew why



" Hey baby! " A sweet rushing voice came to my ears through the icy breeze , it seemed like she was running to get here




I smiled without looking back at her , and just then .. her hand came to give a hard smack on my shoulder



I got up and faced her " You're late "



" I know i know .. am sorry "



" Nevermind .. it was cold at first , but then i got numb and i didn't feel a thing " She made a face at me



I smiled " Get in "



I drove as fast as i could trying to get to where we wanted to go .. but there was no place in mind. I was just a crazy driver .



We were too cold to speak . Our hands intertwined and that eased the pain of the cold air piercing our skin




" 3bdelwahab " i knew it was mushy and stupid but as she spoke i could feel my heart melt at the sound of her voice . But of course it was me so i didn't show a sign of any emotion what so ever .



" Hmm " i said without looking at her face



" Did you talk to your father about University yet? "



" No . and i don't want to "



" But .. you HAVE to get back , you HAVE to "



" Kenzii i don't want to talk about this right now .. "



" But-"



" They let me in 3 times before , they're not going to do it again "



" But what if your dad talked to them again .. am sure-"



" Kenzii i beat up half the faculty there , they probably built up an entire immune security system just for me " I couldn't help but laugh a little



I remembered my father's face when he knew i was kicked off a third time.. and i felt a little bad



She giggled " I wish i had beaten somebody up too "She shook her head



I found out that i was just going in circles . I just cruised the beautifully lit streets of Toronto



It did't matter where i went as long as i was with her




Having her hand buried in mine , i needed nothing else



I drove as slow as i could , i tried to avoid it as much as i could .. but we were there ..



I hesitated as i parked my car in front of her house



" Don't give me that face " She playfully pecked my cheek



" What face? " i played dumb



" Wahab it's nearly morning! the sun's about to come out .."



" So?"


" I think we pissed my dad off enough for one day " She gently said with a smile



" Again.. so? "



" Common " She hit my shoulder " i know how he is but he's still my dad .. "



I rolled my eyes . What more could i say? i physically and mentally HATED the man .




She turned her back on me ready to open the door and leave



" Hey hey hey .. wain wain , don't i get a kiss? "



She bit her lip to stop her from laughing " Common Wahaaab what the hell have we been doing for the past 3 hours in the back of your car? "




" The goodbye kiss counts the most "



She smiled and leaned in just when the most resentful man on the planet showed up at the front door , hands on his hips and an angry frown



" KENZII ! " He shouted




She suddenly gasped and jumped away " Oh my god ! "She whispered " Wahab my dad! "




My nostrils flared and i leaned my head down the window to look at him , give him a look of hate and despise



She rushed out of my car and hurried towards him , her face full of fright and regret



" ENTY MATESTE7EEN 3LA WAYHIICH ??!! ANA MO GAYILICH HAL 9BAY MA TSHOOFEENA ?!! "




That's it . i got out of my car and he looked at me




" WENT ! En sheftik wa6wa6t hnee marra thanya ma tloom ela nafsiik , ent fahim ?!!! "




" Baba la2 .. " He looked furiously at her " am not going to stop seeing him .. am sorry but am just NOT "




Before he could answer , she had ran inside .




" Ent shna6er hnee ?!!! ethlif 3n wayhy yalla !! "



I wasn't about to get in another fight , i just sighed and got into my car




This wasn't new . It wasn't new at all ..




This happened from the second i met Kenzii's father . Almost every time i took her out ..



Am not saying am the good guy here and he's just a mean old man . Kenzii and i weren't angels , we weren't even close




Allow me , for i forgot to mention ..




My name is Abdulwahab . I had lived in Canada for almost 7 years with my father who took the responsibility and took care of me after my mother had left us.




My father had to work here in Toronto for some time and we found it comfortable.




Well , perhaps ' I ' found it a little TOO comfortable .. and my dad wasn't too happy about it.

23.8.10

Good news!;*





Alohaaaaaaa everyone!




Awal shaaaaay H ; I miss you ALL too wallah w i love your comments bil 3ax u weren't blabbing ! ;*




Nawariii ; I MISS you TOOO walah love you too babe w thaanks ;*



Hannoish ; i miss you more ( SPACESAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT B3D !! ) lol thanks hun ;*




lost , Shushu ; HUUUUGS !



R'3d ; i commented on your blog , thanks for stopping by;*




Today my lovely readers i decided to give you some news . Good news too !



As said ' mn 6awal el '3aibat yab el '3anayim ' ;p soooooooooo maybe that's what am doing.. There's a NEW STORY coming .. Hopefuly SOON


I hope you'll like it , i don't want to ruin it for you but the name of the story will be " Once upon a lie "




Hope you like it as much as the last one .. or maybe even more ;p




Tell me what you think! until next time , A7ebkom




Xoxo

16.8.10

Hello ! ;*






Greetings loved ones !


OH EMM GEEEE i miss the blog and i miss you guys so muuuuuch ;(



Okay so remember my soul searching thing ? lol that's why i laid low these past weeks , my BBM is off .. i don't come online that often ..



No am not going crazy or Amish or anything ;p i just needed to get away from all the technology lol ( shda3wa 3lay ! )




La 3ad wallah its good shwayya y3ny , anyway !! mbarak 3laikom el shahaaaar w allah ytqabal min el kil enshalllaaah w hopefully soon soon sooooon i'll write you a new story !




To all my lovely lovely followers and anonymous readers thank you all so much for your kind words walah a7ebkom and am glad you like what i have to say ..




Like i promised enshallah i'll be back to write more i just don't know when , if you have any comments .. ideas or whatever please don't be shy ;p





Love you all w taqabal allah enshalah



Xoxo