my beautiful disaster ( part 16 )

' I .. I don’t understand Soso what are you talking about? '



' Angel..that 7amad boy ..'


And as soon as I heard that name my heart sank..


God I knew that boy was bad news!!

' Go on..'


' Now I don’t know anything yet but.. '

' But what Soso !? What!? '

' That day of the 3azeema..'

' Eeee!!??? '

' He saw you two outside talking.. being a jerk with no life he had to see what was going on..'

' I knew I heard something out there!! '


' A I don’t think he's just gonna leave you like that .. he's that type of boy.. he doesn’t want anybody to be happy !'

My face was burning and I couldn’t believe what I was hearing..

' What does that mean !!?? He told H7m7 !!?? It was him wasn’t it ??!! WASN'T IT SOSO!!?? '

' I don’t know A !.. but who else y3ny ? mno 3enda ma9la7a ysawee chthy feech w fe Faris ? '

My eyes were filled up with hot tears..

I wasn’t sad at that moment.. I was ANGRY !

How could some people be that low ? what did I ever do to that guy ?

' y3ny enty la ytheeg 5lgech y3ny.. now you know.. Faris did Not lie to you.. he DOES love you ! '


' Soso bas you're not sure who told H7m7 .. '


' True.. but after all this time.. do you think Faris is lying ? '


' I don’t know what to think anymore Soso..'


' A please.. you have to talk to him.. talk to Faris don’t just leave him hanging ! '

' Soso I'll talk to you later.. I gotta go now '


' okay hun see you..'



Click.

Was it true ? was 7amad behind all that ?

Or is the amazing guy im in love with is NOT that amazing after all?

But how can all that love be fake ?


Just then I realized I needed to see two of my favorite people ..

Two who were sure to make things all good again

' You guuuuyyyys ..' I say into the phone as soon as the call conference was set up between me , Tala and Lamia

' You need to get here ! NOW ! ' I demand


' Sure my dad is on his way out right now I'll tell him to drop me off..' Lamia said

' Heey ommy msafra! So is my dad !! mno yeebny ballah ? ' as usual Tala had a whole different issue to deal with


' I would come to pick you up bas my dad broo7a met2a5er! So I'll see you in a few bbye !' and Lamia was gone


' Eff zain where is Baysab ?..' Tala asked

'He went to pick up my sisters from somewhere.. I don’t know..'


Just then I heard 3ammars' voice .. Tala's bigger brother yell out


' Hmm.. we'll figure something out ! see in a few ! CHAW! '


It wasn’t long till Lamia almost broke my rooms' door when she walked in..

' Yo ! am here babe ! ' holding one fist up in the air and putting her other hand on her hip, she looked like a rock star !


' Wow ! well hello to you too miss ! dramatic enterance..' I said impressed and she gave me one of her huge goofy grins

Few minutes later my other crazy maniac came in with her fresh smelling curly hair holding her new Betsy Ville bag that we got her for her b-day laughing so hard she looked crazy !

' Ahahahahaaaa ' she burst out holding her stomach

I laugh at her and look at Lamia who had no idea what was going on ' ambee shfeeha hathy mno m7acheehaaa 7amdelah wel sheker !? '


' 6afkom 6afkooom !! ' thank god she was using earth language now

' 3ammor stole my moms' Bentley and dropped me off here ! ' she finished her sentence

' AMBEE !! mo min 9ijja !! ballah shafkom sher6y !! ambee hal 7mar 5al ydeer bala ! hes not even 17 yet ! la wel a5 rahee ma5eth your moms' Bentley ! ' I freaked out on them


' Pffft 6a3 hathy ! roo7ay zain 3adee he's a guy theres no age limit for them to be driving a9lan THAT’S SO COOL !! HAHAA !! HOW WAS IT T !?? ' Lamia made a face

Typical ! how am I related to these people ? I DON’T KNOW !

' Ambee wanasa ! bas don’t worry kaho hnee yamkom his friends house .. y3ny mara7 yroo7 mokan b3eed ..' Tala reassured me


' Zain zain ambee ME TIME ! ' Lamia started yelling now too


' AMBEE YOUSEF MO 9IJY ! you guys he's madree shno ! I cant believe how he understands how totally crazy I am ! and doesn’t even care ! its like 3adee kil il nas they do what I do ! he doesn’t care .. he thinks its cute ..'


' Heey ya 7mara ! why don’t I know this !!?? ' Tala yells at her


' 7amdellah wel sheker tawnee badya il salfaa gam agoolich yaha now ! ' Lamia laughed at her


' Eee 3abaly b3d am the last to know ! ' Tala ended her "almost- breakdown "

As I watched them go on and on being all crazy .. I realized that’s all I needed..

Im so glad to have these people in my life .. there just what I need at this time..


Later I told them about the update on me and Faris and what Soso said


' Eff 3ad I didn’t even like him ! ' Tala said


' la 7araam.. bas y3ny you still don’t know A.. tell me do you think you know him pretty well to be sure he would never lie to you ?'

' Im so lost you guys.. I .. I just don’t know.. but deep down inside I know he would never do that ! not Faris..' then I lowered my head

' 5alas 3yal ! don’t be like this babe ma 3leech mn il nas inty ele t3rfeena mo ohma .. enshallah its all gone be good.. if you're meant to be you'll be..' lamia told me


' Bas remember what I told you.. you'll have no life left to live now if you revolve around him ..' Tala continued


' You guys I love you..' I say with a smile


' love you too..'

' hate you too ' ofcourse Tala.. as always shows her affection


We sat around a little more until they went to their houses.. I stayed home... Got ready for bed early.. it was becoming a habit of mine at those awful days of my life

I guess it was because I didn’t want to face the life that had no Faris in it..


I didn’t sleep well though.. I always had that tired look on my face .. and those awful black circles around my eyes


My meals weren’t set according to a specific time.. and my eating was becoming less and less..


Untill this one day .. I woke up early in the morning having trouble breathing.. my throat was swollen


I managed to reach my moms bedroom to tell her how I was feeling.. as soon as she touched my forehead she gushed and went quickly to change her clothes..


We were going to the Hospital..


It was very early , I felt sick and sleepy and I barely saw what was going on ..

They put me to rest on one of those white beds.. I felt sick just by looking at them !

I didn’t like Hospitals at all..

As I rest there my mom called up someone whom I hadn’t heard his or her name .. I just decided to take a little nap

Just for a little while..


I woke up to a screaming blonde big girl over my head smiling at me..

' Sosoo ? ' I said in surprise

' Hala ya galbee haa ga3adtaay ? ' I look to the other side to see my aunt salwa

' Aunty Salwaaa.. you're heeerrreeee…ambee thank you all for coming.. shloon 6ila3taw mn dawamatkom ? and wheres my mom ? '

' ohh ! nevermind ! hell with dawamat ! your mama ra7at tyeeb shay teshraba 7beebtee , now let me just go see whered that Dr. Go !?? ' She turned her head and went looking for the Dr. ele apparently yimkin men7ash minhaa.. mayendara ..

I look again at Soso and notice beautiful red roses on the table next her..


' Heey whats that, who brought them ? ' I asked


' Ehehh..umm.. guess what ? ..' She gave me a weak guilty smile


' tell me.. ' I said with a smile ( poor me I really had no idea what was about to come

my beautiful disaster ( part 15 )

I couldn’t believe what just happened to me


Lamia and Tala were calling me nonstop but I ddnt answer..


My mind was just too busy thinking !


I grabbed my phone and called h7m7 to try and understand what was going on


' shtabeen ..' she answered rudely


' shfeech enty ?? whats going on what do you mean by all that ?'


' ta3alay bacher w y9eer 5air ! la tlaw3een chabdee!! BYE! '


Tears fell down my cheecks as soon as she shut the phone


I didn’t know what to do.. I didn’t even know what I did for her to talk to me that way ..


I went upstairs and changed fast and I went to bed .. all I wanted to do was to call up Faris and cry


I knew that he of all people would make me feel better no matter what the situation was


Instead I just shut my phone and went to sleep thinking the worst , so scared that I held a pillow so tight to my chest to keep me from feeling that way even though it only helped so much



We all woke up the next morning and got dressed for the zwara we had , I didn’t feel like dressing up at all !


I put on my jeans and an extra large shirt and rapped a scarf around my neck and headed their


Everyone told me that I looked so tired and worried and I knew it showed..

Tala and Lamooy weren’t their yet so we sat down ready to eat lunch when they arrived at once..


They kept looking at me and asking me if there was something wrong but I just couldn’t talk



' We kept calling you all night where were you ?'



' Why'd you switch your phone off faj2a ? you said you'll call back ! '


I just said am sorry and smiled weakly.. they knew something was wrong they just knew ! but it wasn’t the time or place to talk



I barely touched my plate though the food looked amazing , I kept looking over at my aunty H7m7 to try and figure something out from her expressions but she just kept looking away..


As soon as we were done I went upstairs as she told me and waited in her room , it was only a few minutes until she came and locked the door



' Enty shemsawyaa ? ' she asked sharply



' What do you mean !!? '



' you heard me ! that boy Faris !! shelly bainich w baina ?? '



' Whats your deal !? he likes me okay ?? and I like him ! actually .. I LOVE him and he LOVES me ..'



' ay 7ob ay ba6ee5 !! enty yahil w '3abeyya !! mat3rfeen shno y3ny 7ob !! b3dain gooleeleee .. enty ray7a bait'hom ? '



' ee re7t ! lesh saweet shay '3ala6 lmn aroo7 bait 3ammy wehwa mawjood ? '


' ee wehwa shyabee mawjood hnaak ?'



' Enty mynoonaaa!!?? HE LIVES THERE !! '



' Did he try something ??'



' Huh !!!!!!!!??????????? something like what y3ny !!!? '


' Madree anything ..sem3eeneee !! hal walad il zeft ! is a bad person Angel .. he's lying to you ! he doesn’t love you ! he has this idea in his head just like most guys here ! w mala da3eee agoolich whats that idea..'



' laa pleeaaase tell me ! please I want to know ! shno hal tafkeer il 5ayes ele eb rasech !! mestaw3eba what you're saying ?? min gallich inna may7ebny ?? w gam yge9 3lay!! '

' someone knows him pretty well ! w he heard everything he said ! sem3eenee !! tgooleelaa y5aleech mn al7een ! w you are never to see him again ! EVER!! Zain minny ma gilt 7ag omich aw oboch 3shan y3rfoon shi'3ilhom m3a hal 5ayes !! '


I just sat there.. stunned.. shocked .. disappointed .. heartbroken ..


She grabbed my phone looking for his number and started calling him

' Aloo Faris shloonik ? agoolik ra8am Angel tensa w mabee ashoof aw asma3 inik dag aw shayefha fahim ?? ensaha w wa5er 3anha ! w lo t7ebha 9ij matsaweelaha mashakil..' CLICK

And just like that it was over.. it was like she didn’t even care.. she didn’t even bother to hear me or him out ! if ONLY I knew who told her that ! IF ONLY !


' talefoonich hatha ra7 t5aleenaa 3ndee sam3a? '

' e5thy !! WHATEVER !! MA ABEE!! '

Then I couldn’t take it anymore .. I headed for the door unlocked it and ran outside for the other room..

There I found Tala and Lamia waiting for me with their worried faces

As soon as I saw them I collapsed on the floor


' OMG !! ANGEL !! Tala go get her some water ! and don’t let any of the kids up here please ! ' I heard Lamia yell and she hurried to help me up


' Lamiaa.. he.. he… he's gone.. lamia.. I .. ' words wouldn’t come out of my mouth.. I couldn’t even manage to breathe.. I spent a year with a guy and have totally fallen in love with him.. to find out that I cant be with him ..


' Babe just CALM DOWN ! breathe .. now tell me slowly whats going on ..? '

I waited for a while until air came out of my lungs


' she.. she said that he's lying to me.. he's with me for all the wrong reasons..'
'WHAAAT !!?? EEW WHAT KIND OF DISGUSTING FREAK WOULD SAY THAT ! ' Tala came in rushing with a glass of water


' I don’t knoooww… I … ' then I started crying again..

This time I didn’t stop.. I COULDN’T stop..

Lamia just held me tight and let me let it all out..

' Look babe we have to know whats going on this cant be happening.. im sure theres a misunderstanding.. someone must've known about you two.. and didn’t like it so they tried to ruin this for you..' she told me


' I.. I don’t know I don’t care ! Lamia ! I love him ! '

' I know babe I know ..'


' He… he doesn’t …he llii..' then I had another sip of water because I thought I was really going to die at that moment.. the whole scene was scary.. we looked like people out of those stupid Kuwaiti drama's who were over acting scenes.. except.. this was real and scary and none of us were faking..


After all that time.. after all that love.. Faris couldn’t be liar ! he just couldn’t ! the sweet crazy Faris I fell in love with ! .. he's NOT a liar .. he's NOT ! and deep down inside I knew there was something wrong ..


They tried to make me calm down until it was time to go home..

I hadn’t spent much time with my family that day.. but it was okay.. I didn’t want anybody to see me like that.. I looked so Unlike Angel.. that perky , happy , crazy short girl they loved.. I just wasn’t her ...

Before I went home h7m7 gave me my phone back.. she told me that she trusted me .. and made me promise I wouldn’t answer his calls or messages or try to contact him at all..


She said that she bought me credit.. she tried to make it sound like she gave me a gift or something.. but deep down I felt like she only did that to check if I ran out of credit the next day it would mean that I spent it all talking to Faris..


I wasn’t in the mood for any food or sleep that night.. I looked horrible .. my mom thought I was sick so she ordered me to go to bed early that day..


I put my head on the pillow , hot tears coming effortlessly out of my eyes even when they're closed .. but then I just slept..


I woke up in the middle of the night only to see my phone flashing and flashing.. his Inreques' hero ringtone came softly to my ears ..

Faris !!

He was my hero.. my baby.. my prince..my Faris.. at that time I truly believed that song was so me and him.. for a moment I was happy.. Faris is calling..

My I'll be yours forever Faris..

My I'll never leave you Faris..

But then I remembered what happened that day..

And I cried again.. and again.. I felt like I was running out of tears really..

He was calling.. even though my aunt told him not to.. even though he was gonna get into trouble for this..


After millions and millions of phone calls.. he sent me a message


" 7yaty am scared.. please answer me w gooleelee shfeech ? sh9ar il yoom ? why did your aunt call me ? "

I didn’t answer..


Another message..

" 5ala9 baby you must be tired and sleeping I hope you're okay.. aklmich bacher a7ibich ;* "

That message made me cry harder and harder..


Till my mom opened up my door and came rushing towards my bed

' Angel yuma smillah 3leech shfeech ?! 5arra3teenee !! '


' Bad dream mama !! please please !! gawmeeneee! Allah y5aleech gawmeenee mn this nightmare ! ' and I held her so close to me

At that moment I wished I could tell her everything.. but it wasn’t the right time..

' 7beebteee smillah 3leech sherby may wegreelich cham aayaa wenshallah mafeech ila il 5air..' she kissed my forehead and went out of my room..


I just stared at the ceiling with my tired eyes.. until I fell asleep again ..


The next day I didn’t even feel like getting out of bed.. at the old days.. Faris would be the reason I got out of bed.. seeing his picture in my head and knowing I have this amazing guy in my life was enough for me .. he would be calling me any time to talk about his day so i HAD to be up ! but now.. why would i ??

I went and washed up and prayed.. and I got down to eat lunch with my family..


' haa 7beebtee enshallah you're feeling better today ? ' my mom asked

' ta3alay ta3alay yubaa ge3dy yamyyy.. a7e6lich legma takleenha t3addil mazajich.. ommich msawya 5oosh machboos ! ' I smile at my dad and sit down


Still not touching my food.. only playing with the fork and spoon in my hand.. I act like am enjoying the food and try to make some spaces in my plate so it would look like I actually ate something..


I got up and went upstairs again.. only to find H7m7 calling..


' haaa dag 3leeech hatha b33d ?' she asked


' No H7m7 for the gazillionth time he didn’t! ..' I answered


Just then phone calls from my friends came like crazy


' A he's calling me ! what do I do ? ' Rawaa told me ' he's worried about you ! but I told him that you cant talk to him right now.. OMG ! even snorlax sees him at school.. he doesn’t look so good..'


' Ambee Angel he called me last night asking about you.. I told him I don’t know but it would be best if he doesn’t call you right now..' Lamia called to say that too..


Days, weeks passed by.. and Faris didn’t NOT ONCE ! stop calling me ..


And neither did H7m7 ! like crazy.. checking up on me.. see if I called or answered.. not forgetting to check my phone every chance she got to see if I was lying to her ..


Untill one day.. I got a phone call from my cousin Soso.. the girl who helped this love story start between me and Faris..


' Angeellll 7yaty how are you doing ? listen to me.. Faris called me and told me everything.. I think I know whats going on..'


' What do you mean ?' I asked her puzzled


' I think I know who's destroying things between you and Faris A.. I think I know who told h7m7 those awful things..'

my beautiful disaster ( part 14 )

I was stunned! What did he mean hes not coming ? my hands didn’t even feel like typing the letters for the message

"What do you mean you cant come Faris ?"

He replied

" Im so sorry.."

My heart sank.. I was all dressed up and happy.. I wanted him to see me tonight.. but he's not coming , hes NOT !


*At Nino*

' Hey its crowded today..' Lamia said as soon as she walked in Nino

' yea bas lets sit outside the weather is 3ajeeb !'

' Oh yeah 7addaa'

So they go and sit outside it was a nice cool night , they ordered and started chattering away and saying the stupidest most retarded things that came to their minds

' Ambee 7araam that guy mino 6agga w gayilaa eg3ad barra?!' Tala looks at a poor guy sitting down with his wife and shivering from the cold

' Wee yimkin his wife wanted to sit outside ..' Lamia tells her

' we3 shno hatha lo ana agoolaha wallay ana bardan ge3day broo7ech!'

' Haahaaaa '

' If A was here she'd be like allaaaaaaaah wanasa that’s romantic ! '

' Heheee I know our cousin is a helpless romantic ! '

' Ambee L .. don’t freak out !! bas guess who just walked out of the door..'

' WHO !!?? ' Lamia stopped sipping on her tropicano drink

' Okay but don’t look ! I think its your hottie phone dude'

' WHAAAAATTTTT!!!??'


' Hush idiot hes gona hear you! Retarded much ?! '


' ohh sorry.. ambee what is he doing here!' Lamia whispers


' I don’t know ! heey are you sure you didn’t send him a message telling him to be here? '


' CHUB 3AD T ! I didn’t !! wee3!! '

Tala giggled

' Ambeeeee Talooo maybe its like fate !! serendipity !! '


' Hmm I think Angel has a huge impact on your brain sells you're starting to sound just like her '


' La ya7mara mn 9ijyyyyy waaaay bamoot !! I need to go the bathroom ! '


' Betroo7een bathroom wela you just want to walk so he can see you ?' Tala raised her brow


' Both… ' Lamia says in a whisper ' La La ya7mara ! 3ad 9ij I need to pee!! '


' Ahahahaaaa!! '


So Lamia gets up , turns around and starts walking towards the door to go inside..

Theres his friend ! where is he !!?? WAINA!?? she though to herself

Disapointed Lamia walks inside towards the restroom

After she's done with her business she stops for a second to check out her look

She looked cute wearing a navy blue winter dress with an off-white scarf rapped around her neck , her hair was held up in a sexy pony tail and she wore her favorite brown UGGS

Lamia got out of the bathroom concentrating on her cell phone , she was texting me at the time going crazy and talking about how Tala saw Yousef and she didn’t ! and was checking on how I was doing with the 3azeema..

Just then !

Oops!

She bumps into what felt like a solid wall

She looks up and

OMG !

She just stands there ! holding her breath

YOUSEF !

Her hottie yousef !

Her mont blanc YOUSEF!!

' Asef .. 3awartech ?!' he said his face looked concerned


' Uuuh .. la2 shda3wa!.. ' she managed to smile


' Sh'hal 9odfa il 7ilwa..' he tells her and gives her a killer smile


Lamia just blushed and smiled

' So am guessing you saw the draft ?'

OMG OMG OMG ! I totally forgot about that !


' I was thinking I'd introduce myself better that just putting my name in that message.. am Yousef..'


' Lamiaa..'


' That’s a cute name lamiaa.. nice to put a name on a face..'


' Well I really gotta get going my cousin is waiting for me..'


' Oh yea ofcourse..'


And she headed to her table

As lamia and Tala sat down and pretended to have a civilized convo they were TOTALLY freaking out on each other because of what just happened in there !


As soon as they left the restaurant and headed to where Baysab was parking , a blue Aston martin passed by them..


Lamia took a glance and WHAT!!??

There was Yousef smiling at her !


He didn’t try anything but he sure seemed to have liked what he saw!


· * At my uncles' house *

As I walked I nside the big house my heart was feeling funny


Should I be sad that he's not coming or should I be optimistic and hope that he may show up here ?

I let it out a sigh and walked in to greet everyone

I politely went and said hi to everyone , all of them were telling me how beautiful I looked that night and how pretty my dress was ..


But I didn’t care.. I really wanted Faris to see me here today but he didn’t show up! He didn’t come !


After a lot of greeting and laughing I felt my mouth go dry and I had to go get something to drink


I didn’t see any of the maids around and I was familiar with the house so I decided that I go get one myself

I got out of the huge living room and headed towards the kitchen then I told the maids to get me a glass of water and I waited outside the kitchen taking a tour of the other small living room nearby


I noticed some old photos on the wall ..


' Nice pics huh ? '


Fariiissssssss!!!!!!!


' BESMILLAH !! ' I almost screamed as I put my hands on my chest


' Asef 7yaty asef mo 8a9dee a5ar3ech ..'


' Enta shgam taswee hnee!!? '


He just stared at me looking stunned


' Shfeek t6ali3ny chinik shayef wa7sh ?! '


' Enty wa7sh?? Illaa shayef il goomar sh7alata hnee jiddamee w mo m9adeg .. '


' What are you doing here I thought you weren’t gonna come..' I tried to thaye3 il salfa


' 7yaty shno hathaa ? are TRYING to kill me y3ny ? '


' What ..? ' I looked at him scared


' Lesh chthy 9ayra sh7alatech w yayaa .. at3ab wallah ? wainich 3anny enty mn zmaan wainich !? '


' Fariiiisssss…' I said looking away , i wanted him to stop coz my face was burning


He too looked GORGEOS tonight!

'3etra w 3gaaal.. his face was neatly shaved and his big beautiful eyes were sparkling !
and he never took them off of me

Yepp Taloo and Lamooy did a great job indeed!


' 3yoon Faris enty.. 3omree kilaa.. aamry..'

' you said you werent gonna come ! whyd you lie to me !?'

'Baby i didnt wallah i had work to do ! .. a7bich ' he gave me a goofy smile

' Stop it ..' I blushed and looked at my feet..


' Yah yah.. teste7een minny 7yaty? '


Just then the maid came interrupting our moment , she smiled at us and then walk away

We held our glasses of water and just stared at each other ..

' I could stay here and look at your face all night ..' he told me


' Faris badda3na we should go sit with them 3aib ! '


' Mara7 y9eer 3aib oogaf ma3ach chthy 3ogeb cham yoom lmn t9eereen 7alalee..'


' HUH?? ' I just stared at him and my eyes twinkling with joy


Did he just say that!!!!????

' Yalla baby lazm nroo7lihom .. '


' Tell me what you just said..'

' You heard me ..' he gave me a wink and brushed my BURNING cheeks with his finger ..

I quickly looked at the ground


He did not just do that!!!!!!


He walked infront of me and I walked behind and before we knew it we were standing there in the big living room looking at everyone else.. they were so busy talking and laughing


My aunt Salwa looked at us for a second and smiled then she signaled for me to go sit next to her

I looked at Faris then walked away.. my heart was filled with joy that I was almost skipping on my way to sit down..


' Laaa ashwa laygeen.. chinkom il ba5at.. ' She tapped on my hand


What was she talking about ?!

' Huh?' ' I asked puzzled

She just smiled at me

I turn my head to see Faris admiring me from the far..

I grab my phone and send him a message


" Stop looking at me like that wallah yimkin a7ad y7es ;s "


He grabbed his phone and smiled then replied

" how can I NOT ? baby you're the most beautiful creature I've ever seen"


Then I gave up !


After a while my phone vibrated again .. and it was Faris !


I look up and he's no where to be found


" Baby come meet me outside "


I hesitated a little .. but I also didn’t want to keep him waiting ..


As I walked out the back door I held my jacket tighter to my chest


It was a bit cold


Then I saw that strong tall Faris of mine standing beside his car waiting for me , I almost wished that his car was the big white horse I always dreamt about.. but it wasn’t.. it was just a black range rover..

But that doesn’t hurt either!

' Faris its cooolllldd..'


' ya 3omree ana asef.. I just wanted you to give you something..


Then he searched deeply in his pockets and took out a small baby green box..

Tiffany's!

' Here.. look baby.. I know that many guys here are out just to play girls and lie to them.. and am not like that at all.. I just want you to know that..'

' Faris I never thought about you eb that way..'


' I know but still.. I want you to know that am not playing around here.. consider this gift as a promise for you.. a promise that I'll be yours forever .. '


' Faris I ..'


' I know guys normally give promise rings.. bas yours is on its way.. am gonna wait till we're old enough.. and you'll be mine forever..'


My eyes filled up with tears but I didn’t wana seem crazy and cry infront of him..


' Yalla da5il al7een il jaw berad la tamretheen..'

Then I heard a voice like something cracked behind me

' Did you hear that ? ' I ask him


' Hear what ?'

' never mind ..' maybe its my imagination

I smile at him and go inside..


I hid the box inside my bag quickly and soon it was time to go home


As I got home I instantly called Tala and Lamooy


First they were all screaming and I didn’t understand a word !

But then I realised that they were talking about yousef
' Ambeee wanasaaaa he saw meeee!! ' lamia was so excited and so hyper


' Chub hey! Lo mo ana chan ma sheftee! ' Tala snapped


' Ambee you guys he loved my look ! he couldn’t keep his eyes off of me! ' i told them dasha 3artha but i could wait !


'Yep that’s the point sweetie..' Lamia told me


' Thaanks to us ! 3abalich mgawmatna mn il 9ib7 for nothing ! la mama we do our jobs pretty well !! '

I laugh and tell them about the gift


' Oooooh ! Tiffany's !? me likey! Bas that doesn’t mean I like him ! '

' that’s sweet getting you that.. bas A you're still too young..'

' Hey were not getting married now y3ny ! hehee its just a promise..'


' Look just don’t make him your entire life then when he' gone you'd have no life at all babe ..' Tala advised


' Hey! You're young just have fun ! am really happy for you sweetie ' Lamia added


Just then my phone flashed and I had another call , I looked at my phone and it was H7m7

' Hey guys I'll call you back..'

I answered and before I could speak her sharp voice filled my ears


' ENTY MNO GAM TKLMEEN HAL 7AZZA !!?? FARIS MO !!?? SEM3Y YA7MARA ! BACHER AWAL MATYEEN BAITNA TE93EDEEN FOOG ABEECH EB MAWTHOO3 FAHMA!?? BYE!!'


Okaaaay what the hell was that about ???????


I still held the phone in my hand and I fell on my bed


Still in my pretty black dress


SHOCKED!!


What the hell just happened to me!?

my beautiful disaster ( part 13)

So I wake up extra early in the morning very excited about today and I decide that AMBEE I wanna go shopping for today !


So I call up my cousies!


' hmmmm…' Lamia answers in her sleepy voice


' Yalla goomay 7ajjiyaa am picking you up m3a Baysab we're going shopping !'


' mm what ? now ? '


' YES! ' I say very excited


' mmmhhhhmmm A its 10;30 …'


' I don’t care GOOMAY! Yallaaaaaaaaa 3endech 15 minutes! '


' mmmmm…'


' BASICH t2am2emeen 3lay! GET UP ! GET UP ! GET UP !'


' way3aaaaa gemt gemt efff!!'

I giggle and shut the phone

Next victim Tala ..

She was NOT a morning person at all ! she loved sleeping ! if she could have it her way .. she would spend all of her life on her bed! And it was mission impossible to wake Tala up ! unless of course at SOME days when we have sleepovers and we'd jump and the bed and steal the covers till the other wakes up !

Our sleep overs are ALWAYS crazy!! And we always end up being yelled at , laughed at or stupidly documented with videos, scribbles on notebooks or pictures.. Normally when we wanted to FINALLY sleep our goodnights usually were ' ya 7mara banam ' or ' SHUTUP DE5T !'


Our outings were always full of action ! many people become victims of our constant criticizing and they were simply UNFORGETABLE !


Laima would start hating people for no reason , then Tala agreeing with her and just when I had something to say somehow I was forced to shut up just because! ' chub Angel you don’t know anything !' that was a sentence I often heard

And then half way Lamia would gets hungry and starts 7inning NON STOP until we go sit our asses somewhere and EAT!


So I call up Tala .. no answer 6ab3an !! So I call her house

' Aloo..' her brother picks up

' 3azoozeeee al7een troo7 u jump on Tala's bed and tell her to wake up yalla am waiting ! '

' eyyyyaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!' I hear him scream and hurry to wake her up I giggle I knew she was going to kill me for doing this !


After a long long LONG wait on the phone she picks up

' Aloo.. '

' FINALLY !!'

' CHUB !!! SHTABEEN ! WHY DID YOU WAKE ME UP !!!???'


' LOL a39aabiich !! we're going shopping !'

' Al7EEN !! ITS EARLY !'

' Yalls goomay lebsay 5al9eenee am coming tara al7een bs6la3 mn il bait ! lamooy is getting dressed ..'

' Eff zain zain !'


So then I pick them up and head to the avenues.. they kept whining in the car about how mean I am for waking them up this early but I just ignored them


We arrive there then we realise we're HUNGRY!!! We cant do any shopping done in this condition of ours !


So we head for starbucks.. there were some decent looking people there.. they all looked so peaceful and happy.. each one sipping his drink or eating the good smelling muffins ..


' Yallaa ana akthar wa7eda yoo3ana so am gonna go order..' Lamia says

' Okay then we'll pick a nice couch..' I tell her and walk to find a nice place to sit outside..

A few minutes later Lamia comes with our orders..

' OMG OMG OMG !! YOU GUYS!!' theres The HOTTEST GUY !! EVER !! he was sitting there inside and he was totally checking me out !'

' wain ??' Tala turns her head to look

' HEY !' Lamiaa hit her


' A77 what !? bashoof ' she giggles


' Not now b3dain .. way eyannin !'

We laugh at her , Lamia wasn’t the lovey douvy mushy stuff kinda girl .. She wasn’t the girl that had a thing for guys , they weren’t her main interest but when she liked some one we had to know theres SOMETHING SPECIAL about him

' Weeeeh 6a3 il '3abee!! I said extra caramel !!' She says

' Baroo7 aredda …' then she goes inside again

While me and Tala chat and wait for Lamia to show up , we realize that shes taking a long time

' Heey sh9ar feech enty! ' I ask her when she finally came

' madreeeeee hehee the dude was taking a while for my drink.. plus it didn’t hurt having time to just be around that hottie in there'


' Malat !' I tell her

We chat a little more and ironically Lamia finishes her drink first and start scribbling stuff on the napkin .. she loved to do that it was a habbit of hers she started writing random things

Just then I saw 2 good looking guys coming out of starbucks one of them looked around like he was searching for something then he headed for our table ! he starts looking at lamia and lowered down his head to her level on the table

Lamia being in her own world scribbling away didn’t notice him !

Then THAK GOD she did ! she almost jumped out of her chair when she saw him ! ' OHH ! uhh hii..' she said with a goofy smile because she had no idea what was going on

' uuhh.. I think you forgot this..' and then he handed her her phone !

The idiot ! me and Tala looked at each other and smiled

' ohh..' she looked at the phone.. ' I .. I didn’t notice I left it.. thank you..'

' You left it the counter.. the guy wanted to come after you but I insisted I'd take it to you..' he told her

Wow ! was he trying to flirt !!??

' Uhhh thank you ..' and then she took her phone from his strong looking big hands
' Yalla asef 3al ez3aaj.. I'll leave you get back to what you were doing..' looking at her crazy drawings on the napkin


' Ehheehh thanks again..' she said with a smile

And as soon as he left he let out a huge sigh

' What the hell just happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????' I ask


' I DON’T KNOW !! I don’t even need to tell you ! that’s him ! that’s the hottie ! '

' WOW ! he is a hottie indeed ! you have to fall in love ! NOW!' Tala joked

' mynoonaa?' Laima tells her

' Okay yalla you guys shopping time !' we grab our bags and hit the stores

We take our time going to a lot of stores checking out different things .. make up , underwear, PJ's , dresses and shoes

Then .. I found it ! the perfect dress! As soon as we walked in Chloe I had my eyes on the cutest black dress! It was lovely ! 3la 6ool i decided to go with pearl earrings and necklace , an old style flower with some feathers to put on the side of my hair.. and I also got the hottest black jacket to cover up my shoulders since it was a little cold at night

' Ambee eyannin 3leech ya7mara!' Lamia tells me

' 7adda 3ajeeb BUY IT! ' Tala adds

' Okay okay! '

And before we head home we decided to take a final look at mont blanc for the sake of lamia

We go in and !! HOTTIE DUDE WAS THERE !

Laima froze in her place then I held her arm and made her walk because she wasn’t going to !

He gives her a smile and she smiles back then looks quickly at us and pretends we're having a conversation

' You're an idiot ' Tala tells her

I giggle

' Ooow ra7! ' Lamia whines

' Bas shno 7alaw! 5ally il walad yroo7 bait'hom ' I tell her

' La2!! Don’t worry L we're going to stalk him and find him !' Tala joked

' Haha ' I could tell Lamia was a little disappointed.. but what could we do!

So finally we decided to treat ourselves with some bracelets and got out of the avenues..

We arrive home and I start working on my hair with the help of Tala

Laima was just sittng on the bed tired and going through her phone

' There !! its GREAT!! Very blair waldorf '

I loved how my hair looked ! it was curly and I put the sparkly black flower on the side , I put on a little mascara some blush and a dark hot shade of red on my lips

' ya 7maraaaaaa you look AMAZING !' Lamia said looking at me

' 9ij allah !! that’s my first complement from you! ' I tell her

' Eff 7asafa ana msawya sha3rech magdar agoolich wee3 so THANK ME! ' Tala adds

Then .. the dress!!.. I put it on and I slipped into a pair maroon cute jimmy choos that matched my nail polish

' ITS PERFECTION !' Tala yells

' TOTALLY !' Lamiaa went to pick out the perfume , she decided to go with the purple versache perfume that I got for my b-day it was PERFECT for winter!

Tala was tired so she went to sit on the bed and grabbed Lamia's phone, she liked going through peoples' phones

While Lamia was spraying me with perfume Tala interrupts ' aaaahhh L ?? why do you have a draft that has a number and a certain yousef written in there ?'

' WHAAAATT!!!' and she runs off to see her phone

' AMBEE ITS HIM ! IT HAS TO BE HIM !! why didn’t I see that before ! ' she wonders

' Coz you're stupid..' Tala laughs at her

' Ambeeeeee mo min 9ijaa!! ' I say feeling surprised ' that’s the cutest!!?'

It was cute how he did that because he liked her ! and the whole " I insisted I bring it myself".. now if it was any other guy we'd be disgusted we would call him 3gaidy and hate him right away .. but yousef looked like a very nice guy.. and the way he looked at L it said that he respected her

Then I heard my mom call from down stairs

' Its time..' I tell them

' Go ahead cinderella' Lamia tells me

' And don’t forget to call !! ' Tala says

'YOU don’t forget to tell ME what goes on !! what are you guys going to do anyway ? ' I ask them

' Oh don’t worry about us we're just gonna steal Bayasb bedam you're leaving with your parents and go eat dinner at Nino' Lamia says

' OFCOURSE! Yalla you guys I gotta get going.. wish me luck ! ..'

' Love you !!' they shout out when I leave the room

' Yah yah yah !! sh'haal zaaaain ..' my mom says when she sees me I just blush

' 9ayra 7ilwa yuba ..' my dad tells me

' Eeeeeee Angel ! 7looo nafnoofech !' my sisters tell me


We all head for the car and as I sit there looking up at the stars thinking about seeing Faris and his face when he looks at me tonight..

I get a message ..

Baby ana mara7 agdar aye il 3azeema..


Ay shay Faris !!!!!????? mo min 9ijaaa !!

my beautiful disaster (part 12)

' Ambee emshaw ana ashoof bas laitat il 5aima..' I tell them



And then their whistles became louder and louder and I was getting more freaked out ! this was NOT the right time for a blackout ! AT ALL !


Efff Faris yalaitik mare7t… I thought shivering

We had no idea where we were it was different out here in the dark..

Just then I saw a shadow of a another guy facing us from the far and his head was looking our way but I couldn’t see his features

Perfect !! yalla wa7ed thany ?? bhal thalmaa!!? stupid kuwaity guys!

' Eff ma3aleekom ywally shbesawoon y3ny ?! emshaw w 5ala9 ma3aleekom !' Lamia told us , she was always the tough one and I loved her for not being afraid of anyone


' ee sa7 sa7 e7na man5af min a7ad mamaa 9ij shbeesawoon?' Rawoo2 added

As we walked closer to the other guys shadow I didn’t even bother to look his way makent nag9a y9eer shay 5ayes b3d..

' BABY !! I was looking all over for you ! waay I was so scared! ' he came rushing towards me , theres my Faris ! he came for me!!

Just then the lights came on , and he looked deep into my eyes .. then I noticed the three 3gaidy guys turning around to walk away , Faris saw them and then looked at me

' Shno hathool?'

' they were behind us.. '

' Yet7areshoon..?' and before I could reply he turned to follow them

' Faris ! Faris wait ! ' I walked behind him and held his arm

' Haa 7yaty?'

' wain rayi7?'

' Baroo7 a3alimhom shloon yet7arreshoon hal 3agad hathool! '

' 5alhom ywalloon Faris.. 3ashany..' I tell him


' Tdreen lo 9ayer feech shay bhal thalmaa ?? .. Angel amoot '

7yatyyyyyyy

' Bas ma9ar fenee shay.. enta yaitly..' I smile and look into his eyes

He smiles back ' ma7ad ygareb 9oobich dam ana hnee..'

' You guys are you okay?' he asks Lamia and Rawaa who were so glad to see him

' Yes we're fine thanks !' Rawaa said

' You saved the day Faris ! YAAY!' Lamia joked


He laughs at her ' yalla emshaw 5anred..'


He walks infront of us and Lamia and Rawaa walk beside me


' Ya5teee!! ' Rawaa tells me

' I know!' I tell her


As I get in the big 5aima No one had any idea that there was a blackout outside ! they're soolifing.. drinking tea and laughing !

Mo mn 9ijhom il jima3aaa , I giggled


' Hala ! hala eb Angel..' my aunt Noor greeted me


' Eee ana gilt mn zmaan… Angel 7g 3azeez..' she seemed like she finished some sort of argument that was going on

What the hell !???

Lamia , Rawaa and Faris looked at me


' Eeee wanal 9ajja ! bas b3d lesh ndawer? Kahy shzeenha chinha il ba5at!' she continued


' Weee y3ny 5ala9 ette5athtay il 8arar om 3azooz?' my aunt Salwa smiled at her


Heey!! Eb kaifhom y3ny!!


' Bsstt Angel !' 3azeez whipers behind me

I turn around..


' Ma3aleech il walda old school shway ' and he gave me a wink

I LOVED 3azeez ! he was older than me eb 4 years.. he was my big brother! He never said no to me and he always cared , it was clear he didn’t look at me that way, he didn’t wanna marry me but as he said.. his mom was old school and she always said she liked me too much that she wanted me to marry her son !

Then I looked at Faris who was staring at the floor w wayha ma9foog


Oh baby..!

I didn’t know what to say ! me and 3azeez werent interested in each other ! EWW not that way! Bas 3ogeb il maw8ef elle tawa .. shloon afahim Faris ??

He looked up to me and smiled ' Mabrook A..' and he walked out of the 5aima..

Oh no ! ta3al !! wain rayi7 !!!

I wanted to follow him ! scream my lungs out and tell him its HIM , I love HIM and I want HIM ! bas I couldn’t ! how can I ?? not with everyone here


I waited for a while .. started small talk to thaye3 il salfa.. then I ran outside the 5aima.. my heart pouding so fast !

I have to find him !!

I started walking and looking EVERYWHERE! I passed by basketball courts and I noticed a couple of guys playing there.. and I moved on


Then were more basketball courts.. but these were empty.. I was tired of walking around , I needed to sit down and realise what had happened..


I went to sit on the chairs facing the courts..


Then I heard a whisper from the back

Oh NO ! NOT AGAIN !!!!!!!!! tara ra7 a6eg a7ad il yoom !

And just then this guy came and sat beside me

'Faris!!!!!!!!!!' I almost screamed when I saw him


He gave me a weak smile


Then my smile faded away as I saw his face, I knew how bad he felt


' Faris wallah tara fahamt '3ala6..' I start telling him

Then I make him understand how my aunt just liked me and she said random things, 3azeez was like the brother I never had.. we weren’t interested in each other in any way!

' 3ayal leesh il kil acts like its made up wenna 5alas enty 7agga?'

' There just like that ! they were joking around ! masema3t 3azeez wehoo yeth7ak w ygooly ma3aleeh ? ohma shway mthay3een il jema3a!'


He laughed ' wallah a7ebbich.. '


' Wana b3d.. I cant believe 3abalik ana 7ag a7ad '3airik.. '


' Marra thanya.. ra7 atkallam !! ra7 agoolihom mo kaifkom hathy 7aggy!!'


' YOU'RE CRAZY!'

' ma7ad yannanny '3airech..'


We head back to the 5aima bas not together ofcourse so no one would notice..


After a long day we go home..

After several phone calls from Tala sibbing me and telling me that her daddy bought her a new juicy cotoure bracelet and bag i was happy for her ! and i told her what happened and how she missed the drama

' Ambeee ! wanasa ! bas still ! am glad i didnt come to jabil wyoohkom ! my daddy bought me these inspit of the sucky grades i got ! WHOSE THE WINNER NOW BABY WHOSE THE WINNER NOW !?? AHAHAHAAAAAA!!!'

crazy brat! i laugh at her then i hang up

Then i lay there talking to Faris .. about everything.. butterflies in my stomache.. so happy to hear his sleepy voice.. it made me feel so peaceful and comfortable..

' zain bacher fee 3azeema eb baitna.. everyone is coming..'


' 9ij ? ma7ad gally !'


' Ana gam agoolich now..'


' Hmmm lazm adawerly lebs kash5a 3ayal ! hathy 3azeema mo mo5ayam !'


' Enty tyannineen 7ta lo yaiteelee eb 5aisha..'


' 5aisha 3ad Faris ! '


Then we laughed..

It was time to go.. I didn’t want black circles around my pretty eyes when I see Faris tomorrow .. I needed my beauty sleep !


So we say our goodbyes but ofcourse.. being Angel I couldn’t sleep ! thinking AMBEE SHALBES BACHER !?

Faris always saw me in these jumpers and regular winter clothes..


Bacher am gonna look like a LADY! Ill make him see the other pretty dressed up side of me..


And I couldn’t wait !

my beautiful disaster ( part 11)

After a long amazing day at madina tarfeeheyyaa I went to bed that night thinking about Faris.. he really was my Faris ! I couldn’t believe how every single detail that I wanted in a guy was in him.. he just came and swept me away with his big white horse ( okay maybe there wasn’t a REAL horse ! but you know what I mean) Faris was mine.. I couldn’t believe it .. he was all mine..

So the next day the famous trio were back .. me , lamooy and Tala were sitting around chatting about various stupid things in life..

' Ambeee wallah hatha madree shfee the guy ! ydesh 3lay yet7acha yabanee!! 3abala ana afham ! akalma English yred 3lay eb Japanese words! Japanese letters! Madree shfeee!!!' Tala was freaking out


' hahahaaaa ambeee hatha mn wain yaybetaa T !!??' I asked her


' Madreeeee I was en hatha e-Buddy b3dain he added me madree shnoo..'


' Zain did you try to start a convo y3ny mithil il nas wel owadem?' Lamia added


' noo.. b3dain 3azoozee ya 9akkar il laptop..'

We laughed at her, 3azoozee was her youngest brother and he was the CUTEST little thing !! he SOMEHOW managed to do many she6ana in their house bas we never see that when he's around us..

So after Tala's interesting story with her and Japanese madree Chinese dude I started telling them what happened yesterday..

' Heey!! Why wasn’t I invited!!??' Tala almost yelled at me

' LOL 6a3 hathyyy lm nana a9eer invited b3dain entay!' Lamooy added

' Heey you guys y3ny ana shdarrany you wanted to come ? wallah maknt adree ..'

' SHUTUP !!' they both said at once then they laughed at each others stupidness

' Zain 3al a8al chan yebteelee paper crown abee crown !! ' lammooy said


' 5aleeha 5aleehaaa ohwa y3ny ksarat 5a6raaa chan ygoolaha you're my princess wela ehya she's not ! bas he felt sorry for her' Tala teased

She was always like this , but I knew she was only joking we were ALWAYS like this .. no hard feelings! Most of the times when I don’t feel like arguing with her we just laugh , me and Tala were like Tom & jerry.. they always do these horrible things to each other but deep inside they LOVED each other

' hey laa 7araaam.. hehee ohwa y3ny bas coz he loves her wella ehya 9ij she's Not a princess kilna nadreee..' Lamooy betragge3 y3ny

' CHuuuuuuuub !!' I made a puppy face

' mama that puppy face doesn’t work on us haa!?' Talaa remarked

' laa 9ij 9ij wallah that’s nice…' she said later feeling a little guilty which was a little weird coz that was Tala y3ny!


Then I was really bored and started dancing in a very VERY goofy way in front of the mirror holding a a box of tissues ( don’t ask me why!!?)

' Yo ! mamaa!! Mn gallich rag9ich 7loo? 3a6eenee 3a6eenee il box ..' Lamooy told me and then I stopped , my phone rang and it was Faris

' aloo..' I said shyly..

' hala walllllaaaah..'

' alooo.. alooo…' Tala teased 8alliding my voice then I gave her a look telling her to shutup .. I should've known they were going to badde3 fenee when I talked to him right now .. that was OUR time 3laa goolaaat'hom


' Babyy I'll talk to you later seems like you've got company..' he said finally giving up because Tala w Lamooy were going crazy!

' okay.. call you later sweetie?'

' Akeed.. '

' okay then.. yalla bbye '

Then as soon as I hung up I felt a little weird about the phone call and when I wanted to start talking to lamooy and Tala he sent me a message

A7bich;*

7yatyy china 7aaaaaas


Later that day I found out that our camp has been removed and we couldn’t go there anymore .. SO there was an alternative KOC camp! Several of my uncles worked there so we had to go and check the camp out .. while I was talking to Rawoo2 on the phone I invited her and lamia to come as well so we can have some fun .. but Tala had an outing with her parents and she told us she had to pass because she had to make her daddy buy her something nice and expensive 3la goolat'ha for no reason ! hehe crazy brat!


We arrived there and AS USUAL many people, lots of noises and lots of kids running around

Rawoo2 had a smile on her face since the moment we went there!

' waay a7eb ahalich ana hathool' she always told me

And they ADORED HER ! almost everyone in the family knew who she was

We saw Faris who brought his cousin 3leewee with him .. and he gave me a smile..

Things looked SO much fun outside so we dicided to go ..

We went out and we took a tour of the place and the weather was UNBELIEVABLE!

' Alaaaaaaah..' lamia found a game of snakes and ladders out on the floor.. it was HUGE ! you have to throw the big dice and move yourself !

We had a BLAST ! then I saw Faris passing by .. with 3leewee and a couple of guys I didn’t know.. I watched him from the far then I noticed he hit his friend.. hmm weird I thought

' Hey mama doorech !!' Rawoo2 told me

' Efff yalla ye3t wana wagfa chthy bser3aa!!' Lamia whined

I rolled my eyes and grabbed the dice and threw it again.. after the game was over we went to a closed playing area for kids.. we like it so much ! and Lamia was 7inning because she wanted to play and we didn’t let her .. then we went and stood near a small play house and there was this young girl in there

' Hiiiiiiii' Rawa2 said

' Shesmiich?' I said with a huge grin on my face

The girl just looked at us and continued playing

' Weee 7araam 5afat minnaa yimkin..' I tell them

' E7na n5arre3? 7aram 3leech!' Rawoo2 said

' Eff wa5raw wa5raw 3annyy.. ' Lamia pushed both of us and went to sit next to the girl

' Hiii ana Lamiaaa y9eer al3ab ma3ach? Hathool refeejaty mayaboonyy may5aloony al3ab..'

' Eee y9eer she replied.. ana esmee mariam '

6a3! Me and Rawoo2 looked at each other for a second and then bursted out laughing , we waited , and waited , and waited..

LAMIA DIDN’T FINISH PLAYING ! MIN 9IJHA KAN !

' Ambee mo mn 9ijich !! e7na berroo7 barra!' I told her and went out

Then she followed us outside and we continued walking around .. and as night fell we went to pray… when we got out we dicided to go see the huge swings in the back .. but it was dark.. VERY DARK !

OH ! theres Faris and 3leewee!! We approach slowly so they wouldn’t notice and I hear Faris sing.. his voice was AMAZING ! he was just goofing around and as soon as 3leeweee told him we were there and quickly stood up !

' haa entaw hnee??' he asked nervously


' Yes e7na hnee.. leesh ma gitly enta t'3anny!!??'

' Uuuuhhhh madree… ! lesh tabeen t3rfeen mo shay mohim ' he put his hand on the back of his head , I smiled at him.. he looked cute being nervous and all

' uuuhh yalla 3leeweee lets go..'


' Ten7aash??..'


He comes closer to me and whispers ' An7ash mn hal goomar?? Shloon ? ahbal ?? bas 7yaty n5aleekom b3d testansoon broo7kom 3aib ana adesh 3arth chthy m3a 3leewee…'


' Okay baby..' I smile at him


' A7ibich ' he whirpers… I blush and look down ' heey 9ij il yoom lesh 6ageet refeejik !? sheftik!!'

He blushes and looks down..' ohoo mayeste7ee..'

' why watd he do?'

' shafkom til3eboon chan ygooly abee om il azrag.. chan akaf5a hal 7mar!'

I laughed SO hard! i was wearing blue that day.. Faris y'3aaar!! waay fedait ele y'3arooon !!

' Baby am yours.. mo 7ag a7ad thanyy..'

' Bas fe alota people dont know that..ma7ad ya5thech minny enty.. not after i found you..' he gives me one of his killer smiles and walks away


I HATED to see him go..


But then we head for the swings.. it was darker shway.. and as soon as we get on the swings.. we hear whistles


' Ambee wth !!?? theres no one here!' I tell them


' Ummm embalaa..' Rawoo2 tells me and points at 3 3gaidy scary looking guys..

' Ambee w theres no one here! Am freaking out you guys lets go !' Lamia says

' Good idea..'

And then we start walking as FAST as our legs can go.. and they were right behind us!

' ambeeeeee!!' I grab both their arms..


And then one of them said something 3gaidee and I freaked out more!

And then ! il kahraba ta6feee!!


UH OH !!!!!! MO WAGTAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!

my beautiful disaster (part 10)

'Faris !! la t5are3neeeee!! Wainiiiik?!!?' i said in panic

' haa kanyy .. bas 6a7 il phone.. 3eeday 3eeday shgeltay ?'

' Gam agoolik la t5are3nee!'

' La mo hathyy ..'

' Faris..'

' Gooleehaa Angel..'

' A7bik..'

Then there was a long pause ..

' Wa2a5eeran ?? 2 months later ?? wallah enny al7een akthar wa7ed mestanes bil 3alam kilaa!!'

' Shda3wa!!' i said with a smile

' Wana amoot feech' he told me , then i lowered my head and started playing with my hair.. i always do that when am shy

' Faris yalla ana baroo7 de5t..'

' Zain sem3ay !! bacher benroo7 kilna il madeena il tarfeeheya!!'

' Hahahaaa ! FAj2a!' i said laughing

' Yal fa9la shfeech !? adree adreee a9lan who goes there anymore ? hehee bas they made this plan and everyone is going its gona be a blast!'

' Ambee a7es we'll be all alone there !! '

' Eee thats the best part !! shtabeen bel nas? 5al nroo7 broo7na nestanas '

' hehe okay okay.. 5alas rethait..'

' Aham shay rethaitay !! as if ohwa bkaifech 7beebtee?? Yalla tomorrow me and your Aunt Salwa we'll pick you up'

' Okay..'

' Ra7 ashoofech bacher??' I can tell he was grinning from ear to ear

' Eee..' I said shyly

' Goodnight baby'

' Goodnight Faris..'

So the next morning was REEEAAAALLY COLD ! so put on my jumper and my sneakers and go wait for my aunt h7m7 to show up.. ( I know I know the name is STUPID but she just loves it ! oh and by the way that is NOT I repeat NOT her real name..hehe) my aunt h7m7 is my mom's sister .. the youngest one of all mashsllah 11 brothers and sisters , she's older than me eb 4 years, she's like our BEST BEST friend and I love her for always being there for us , we can always tell her anything and everything.. and we have a blast talking about whatever crazy things we end up doing

' Haaaaa yalla kanyyy meta eyyoon ?' she says over the phone

' Madree al7een enty ta3alay awal !! '

So she comes over and its only a few minutes till my aunt , my uncle jassim , Faris and my cousin 3azeez to show up

' Il salaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam !!' I say as I hop in the big SUV

' Halaa halaaaa' they answer me

They all greet h7m7 and tease us for the fact that we somehow look alike and share the same height !

We sit in the back and Faris turns his head and chats with my aunt about different subjects.. I liked the fact that they were getting along ..

As I sat there I found a big blue notebook laying there.. and as soon as I opened it up Faris was like ' Noooo !! ' and he made a face

' haw shfeek ? what is it y3ny your secret diary ?' I joked

And I found notes from biology , English and some other subjects..

Ya5teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 7adda mrattab !! 6a3 il 5aaaaaaa6 !!

His handwriting was very neat and nice for a guy..

Ambeee Wayed ytha7ik whwa sha6er ! look at that face ! mo layeg !!!

Then Faris gives me one of hiz GORGEOUS smiles as always.. then I realized I was tanne7ing too much eb his face !!

Oops ! hehee

So we arrive there and more of my cousins show up !!

YAAAAAAAAY! This is gonna be AMAZING !

The first game is 6ab3an !! Sindebad !! lazm no matter how old you are, no matter what year this is !! this game never gets old ! we have to ride it ! its like tradition !!!!!

So we go inside and mafee a7ad bil line '3air 4 or 5 kids .. Faris stands behind me obviously to get into the same rida as me.. we just stand there waiting,.. smiling at each other..

Then the ride comes and I go first and before Faris gets in my little cousins come and sit with me ! Faris helps out my little cousin Jana get in and … !! the ride takes off before he gets in !!

Oh no !! we both just looked at each other until my cart disappeared inside..

So I make the kids sit down as the ride goes inside and I hear scary voices ..at least they were SUPPOSED to be scary ! they were so funny it was obvious that someone was making them ! so I look behind me and there is Faris !! nazel mn his cart !! and right behind ours !

' Besmillaaah !!' I really was scared !! he scared the hell out of me !! 'shfeeek yannait !! we're moving !!!!'

' Ya 3ammyyyy who doesn’t do this !! allah wel li3ba ele rakbeenha ! broo7ha ka7yana Jana tarketh asra3! '

All the kids laugh at him and he hops in beside me then he whispers..

' Besides did you really think I'd let you go like that ? '

I bite my lips and concentrate on the kids

' Faj2a 9erty bit6al3eenhom ? wela matabeen t6al3eeneee??'

' La wallah 5ayfa 3leehom ! yimkin te3alimaw minnik !! al7een kil wa7ed yanzil w yetmashaa !!'

They all laughed at me , ' you're gonna be a great mom someday' he whispers again with a smile

Then everyone was suddenly behind us with their carts.. my cousins were making really stupid noises and we couldn’t help but laugh at their stupidness , then we went into spooky place and all the kids were so scared and they held on to me and Faris , we just looked at each other smiling , I could tell he was thinking the same thing..

' You know I wanna have lots of babies when I grow up..' I tell him

' I know .. and you're perfect for it.. I mean look at them .. they adore you !!'

We just sit there silently ignoring the fact that the kids were screaming their lungs out ! Faris

and I were in a whole different world !

then the ride ended and we head up for the merry go

round ! I absolutely loved riding those electric horses .. I picked a big white horse and Faris was

just standing there ! infront of me ' what are you waiting for ! pick a horse!' I tell him like the

horses are gonna fly away or something ! I always remember getting on the horse so fast

because there were a lot of kids there and I had to choose one quick before anyone else! Gosh I

loved those memories..

' Mabee boogaf shloon ? boogaf bashoofech '

' Ahbal Faris !? kaifik intal 5asran ..' then I turned my head away from him acting like I didn’t care.. then everyone was shouting and telling us to change horses .. we were all just walking around and the Hindi guy was yelling at us so loudly ! and my cousins just waved back at him smiling ! it was SO funny actually !

Then we went to the food court.. while we were ordering Faris found some paper crowns for kids from BurgerKing and came and put one on my head

' There.. my beautiful princess..' he said with a smile , I looked at him as he was waaaaaaay up there .. Faris was 180 ( mashallah !) I was only 146 ! but he loved it..

' Yes she's very bea6ifuuuullll' the philipino guy came interrupting our moment ..

Then Faris went because his order was up .. and me and H7m7 waited .. then she eyed me like she knew something ' whaaaat?!' I tell her acting so innocent

' Don’t give me that face .. ' she said and turned her back.. I just smiled even if H7m7 knew bout this.. she's like my best friend in the world plus me and Faris didn’t do anything wrong ! .. we really did care about each other..

After eating lunch , and after all of them made fun of me and H7m7 for eating kids meals for lunch.. we headed for the new ( at that time they were new) electronic swings.. I LOVED THEM ! , you know the ones ele they go up high w just yet7arrekoon in a circle above ground ? we all got in them ! including uncle Jassim and aunt Salwa !! who were actually on ALL the rides with us .. I loved how they just didn’t care ! and went with whatever was going on , they were like kids today ! but grown up kids..

While we were up there everyone kept throwing away their shoes just for fun !! they looked crazy !!

' Ambeeeeeeh shga3 tsawooon!! Yannaitaw!!' I yelled because they were so far away !

' Jarbay its fuuuun !!!' my cousin 3azeez told me

' Il 3ezzo 6alabtik ! la t5arbe6 bain joteyyee w jootiyyik awal ma tanzel ! ' 7amood yelled at him

As the swings slowed down and were slowly going down my shoes fell !!

' Noooooooooooo!!!!!!!' I yelled again

Everyone laughed at me including the ma9ry guy down there , and as the swings stopped I couldn’t manage to open the belt that was there .. I kept struggling with it

'Heeeeeeey!!' I said

' Want help?? ' Faris asked

' No thank you ! am not a kid ..'

' Hehee I didn’t say that..' Then he held my swing and started moving it

' Yummaa !! Faris ! stop !! STOP !! FARIS !!!'

He was just laughing at me

' 3ammety Salwaaaaaaaaaa shoofeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Yannannyyyyyy!!'

' Mo yahil haaa?' he teased

' Chub ..' I made a puppy face

' Ya 7yaaaaaatyy asef.. gam ath7ak ma3ach ! '

Then I got down ( ABOUT TIME!) and after looking for my shoes I was trying to put them on , everyone went ahead but Faris stayed .. waiting for me

' Al7een 8arrart t9eer 6ayib faj2a?' I tell him smiling

' Ana mn zmaan 6ayeb ..' he smiled back

We continued playing .. we played all the games we wanted.. and at last OF COURSE ! the train.. then at night we finally headed up for our cars.. but this time we went with my cousin 3azeez because we lived in the same area.. too bad I thought I wanted to get in the other car with Faris and my Aunt Salwa .. but whatever ! I spent the whole day with him and I didn’t care ! it was amazing and I didn’t want to forget it .. EVER!

my beautiful disaster (part 9)

I think I love you

Maybe I already do !

I found Tom & Jerry's CD's in my bag .. he must put them in when my bag was in the back seat on our way to pick up my uncle.. I laughed SO HARD when I saw them .. he was sweet and funny and everything !

Suddenly I wasn’t sleepy.. I opened the DVD and watched Tom & Jerry laughing and remembering this beautiful night I had

Then my phone rang.. its him !! first phone call !! EVER !!

I didn’t know what to do but then I answered .. my voice was shaky and my body was shivering ! my stomach filled with butterflies

' Aloo..'

' Hala wallah.. hala bil zain kilaa,,'

' Thanx for the CD's Faris.. bas al7een shloon ! shloon t6ali3 ??'

' weeeh 3endee shkether '3airhom !! I wanted to share them with you.. 3la yoom Angel inshallah mo bas we share love for Tom & Jerry's CD's..'

My face BURNT from his sweet words and I was lost for words!

' Angel..'

' yea?'

' shfeech sekattay?'

' haa? La wala shay bas sera7t shway..'

' Fedeet'ha ele tesra7..'

Ambeeee stop !

' Did you have fun today?' he asked

' sure..'

' Am glad..'
Then we went on and on about what happened today.. and in the mo5ayyam.. we laughed.. we shared EVERYTHING together..

I felt like I've known Faris Mn FOREVER !!

He talked to me about his childhood.. what games he liked to play..

I talked to him about my love for babies

He told me about his EX girlfriends.. I told him about my dreams of perfect prince charming.. and my first heartbreak with 7amad ..

By 4 oclock in the morning ! I discovered something..

Maybe 9ij he was made for me.. could it be ? can this happen ?

'Ambee Faris its 4 !! we've been talking for 4 hours !!'

' Soo ? 5aleenna.. 9arly sena mo shayfech mako mo5ayyam.. 5aleeneee basoolif ma3ach ..'

' Akthar mn chthy??..

' Wakthar b3d..'

I blushed..and I let my head fall on the pillow.. BUT ! it didn’t !! it hit the edge of my bed instead !! ' aa777 !! '

Ofcourse !! am Angel !! etha ma9ert clutz mno y9eeeeeeerrrrr!!!??? ma3arf ma3arf ma afashel nfsee jiddamaa!! Ya aallaaaaah!

' Ohh 5eer 5eer sh9ar!!?'

' Wala shay..' I said almost crying

' Gooleeleee..'

' Okay.. I hit my head..'

' hahahaaaa ya7ilwich ! fedait rasich ! aboosa?'

' Faris !!!!!!!!! awal shay that’s NOT funny !! thany shay !! SHUTUP 3AIB !'

' Leesh 3aib ? mo 3aib damich bet9eereen 7alalee..' he said in a very low voice so I couldn’t hear..

' shgelt??..'

' Salaaamtich w salamat rasich 7yaty..'

7yaty ?? that’s new..AMBEEEE!!! shgam y9eer feneee??

' Yalla nroo7 ennam ?' I suggested

' Noom il 3awafee.. adeg 3leech bacher awal magoom?'

' kaifik' I said blushing

Yes yes yes DEG !!!

I shut the phone and I fell and closed my dreamy eyes..

He called me the next day.. we talked again.. and again .. and again..

We talked for hours.. we talked about everything.. and the more we we talked the more we realized we were made for one another ! he was everything I wanted in a guy.. in my prince.. he was my prince

Whenever I talked to him I was above the clouds .. at times when I don’t talk to him I get so sad and I feel like theres something missing !!

We stayed like that.. just like that.. getting more and more crazy about each other.. I was never the girl with the boyfriend.. or the girl in love.. I was the girl who cried at romantic movies and wished it was her who found the love of her life..

But now..

It was my turn ..

My love story

It finally happened !

Months passed by.. and we were still together .. I loved him more and more each day.. but I never dared to say it ! not even once!

Soon.. valentines day came..

' Rawooooooooooooo2!! Haaaaaa shemsawyaaaa?'

I called Rawoo2a so excited and as usual we'd talk about everything ! and every single detail about our perfect boyfriends and our lovely relationships.. we were never this happy.. never this in love .. never this way with any guys..

' waaaay a7ebba a7ebba a7ebbaa!!!'

'heheheheeee 7abitich il 3aaafya! , hows valentines coming ?'

' Hmm… still don’t know !.. but I have a feeling its gonna be wonderful !'

' Enshaalaaaaaah !'

And that day came… the day we were all waiting for… wondering whats gonna happen..

Faris called me..
' Alooo..' I said shyly through the phone

' Tethbe7eenee chthy..'

' CHUB Faris !! wainiik?' I loved how I never gave him a chance but still loved it when he said these stuff to me

' Wallllaahhheeeeee bil bara7a ele 3nd baitnaa..'

' Bara7aaa? Haw ay bara7a besmillah sh3endek !!??'

' Wallah wala shay ana w 3leeweee ga3deen na6reen bnt il jeeran t6el mn dereeshat'ha 3leeweee motayyam ma daraitay?'

' Ay SHAAAAAAY!! LOL ! wain ga3deen e7na filim ma9ryy??'

' hehee you have no idea whats about to come meskeenaa..' he said in a low voice

' Huh ?? shno mno maskeenaa? ' I had no I dea what he said I only heard the word maskeenaa

' Faris ! why are you bil bara7a bilail w bhal thalma shfeek gam a5af minnik shway'

' Tabeen t3rfeen lesh ana wagef eb wes6 il bara7a eb hal lail A ??'

' Eee wayed ba3arf!'

' okay..'

And before I estaw3ebbed ANYTHING his voice came into my ears like I was near some church bells or something

' ANAA A7EB AAAANNNNNGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

My face was shocked ! my mouth was too dry for words and my belly danced !

' Faris !! YANNAIT ENTAA!! SHFEEK !!! SHSAWEET!!???'

' Knty tabeen t3arfeen ana shgam asawee hnee.. now you know… yay a9arre5 wagool 7g kil il 3alam ana shkether a7ibich.. abee kil il nas yadroon Angel.. wallah inny ma yannait chthy.. ma yannait ila minnich.. yannanteeneee.. wainich mn zman 3annyy?? Leesh twnee algach?'

I put my hand over my mouth and tears of joy fell down my cheeks I was 9ij 9ij lost for words ..

Oh my god I do love you Faris… I love you too

But those words still were in my heart and I could never say them.. I was afraid.. very afraid.. I know its been months.. but I wanted to make sure..

I changed the subject and started talking about different things , he went home and we both were ready for bed..

' Angel..?'
' yes?'
' Mafe shay eb 5a6rech tgooleena gabil la nseddaaa?'

Embala !! I LOVE YOU IM CRAZY ABOUT YOU!!

' Shay mithil shno y3ny??..'

' madree shay..' I knew what he was talking about but I was playing dumb..

' 5alas 3yl 7yaty roo7y namay.. ana banam b3d .. te9be7een 3la 5air..'

' Wenta mn ahlaa..'

But I couldn’t take it anymore

' ahh Faris wait !!..' I said trembling

' Halaa 7yatyyy.. aamray ..'

' Faris.. ana a7bik..'

Then I heard a noise like something hit another thing..

' Aloo? Fariss??.. ALOO!! FARIS !!!!????'

my beautiful disaster (part 8)

So i was sitting on my bed reading the 9ina3ee book my nose starts to hurt.. hmmm shakly gam amrath .. eff 3ad ma7eb il nashlaa !! then my phone rings and it my aunt Salwa

' Salaaaaam aunty Salwa! '

' Hala ! hala eb ameerat monako halaa..'

' haaaa sh3endech il yoom ?'

' madree gilt nroo7 net3asha mokan..'

' ee wallah ye3t !! wain berroooo7?'

' madree kaifech ay mokan tabee il 7ilwa'

' b3d chabdee entay ! 5ala9 agool 7g mama'

So as soon as i had finished the last papers i went to my mom and told her about the plans and then i went to pick something to wear.. i was already getting sick so i wanted to look casual because i wasnt in the mood to dress up.. but then i got a msg

" So betroo7een il ma63am m3a aunt Salwa haa?"

shdarraaaaa!!??

" ee.. lesh shdarak ?"

" shda3wa ma 3ezamtoony ? ;p "

haw shfee hatha? shloon na3zema w lesh !!??

" ana ma3zooma a9lan.. w mo ana 9a7bat il fekraa"

" yalla 3ayal bil 3aafya ;*

I had to say i was a little disapointed he wasnt coming .. so i dressed up in an oversized off white pullover and a pair of cute brown boots

My aunt picked me up and told me we're heading back to her place to wait for her husband to show up because he wanted to come as well

' mashallah baitkom 3ood ' i said empressed by the big pretty house , my aunt Salwa just got married and they didnt have kids yet thats why i was wondering why the big place

' ee mo la2ana shway mn ahal 3ammich hnee ma3ana 7beebtee '

' eee wanasa 3ayal !'

' ee bas kil wa7ed lah his own entrance w his own driveway.. mo wayed nshoof b3th'

' I see ..'

We head to their place an its pretty nice ! so i just hang around in my aunts room waiting for her to finish dressing up since she wasnt ready yet.. i heard a voice outside.. a fimiliar voice..

' 5alty we HAVE to wash these plants 7aram i mean look at them !'

Faris!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????? my jaw dropped and my belly did summersaults! , he was all dressed up like he was gettin ready to go somewhere..

' Hala belly zayernaa..' he was staring at me like he hadnt seen me in years ! then i lowered my head ambee 3ad 7adde mo kash5a!

' Hala feek ..'

He went to sit in the living room and i stayed in my aunts bedroom.. still waiting..

' 5alty cinderella ! il wagt te2a5ar shway.. ana ye3t' i heard him say

ma7ad galik tyee ! i thought to myself

Then I heard him giggle a couple of times

I wonder what he's laughing at ..

' Aunty Salwa..?'

' Hala 7beebtee '

' Faris ga3ed 3endekom bil bait ?'

' Ee mo gitlich oho y9eer 7g 3ammich.. sakin hnee wehwa ya7leelaa kil yoom 3endena bil bait I hope you don’t mind I invited him today'

' La shda3wa 3ad 5al eye 7ayah allah..' then I started blushing

' You know awal ma shafech 3la 6ool sa2alny 3annich .. ' then the subject got more interesting

' oh yeah ? what did he say?'

Then she smiled at me like she know there was something going on ' shafech chan ygooly mno hathy ? mashallah sh7alat'haa ..'
' Aunty Salwaaaaaaa….' Then i rolled my eyes

' Haw wehwa il 9aj ! w bas b3dain ga3adna nsoolif shway.. '

' 3an ..?'

' Shway 3annich shway 3n ashya2 thanyaa..'

' Aham shay !'

' yalla bas bagee 7jabee.. goomy ne6reenee barra kany yaya..'

So I got up and went to see what was going on in there and I could NOT believe my eyes when I saw what Faris w as watching , he didn’t even notice I was there!

Mn 9ija Faris ?? mn 9ija y6ali3 hal sowalif ? ma hagaita mn hal noo3kilish ! ma y5af a7ad eye yshoof ?So that’s what he was giggling at !

' A fan of Tom and Jerry haa?'

Then he turned around to see me w tewahag shway ' uhh.. knt gam agalib bil 8anawat ..'

I smiled at him ' ahaa.. I see ..'

That’s the cutest thing !!

' Yalla re7naa..' my aunt said getting out of her room

' wain 3amy jasem ?' I asked

' Working.. we're gonna go over there now..' she says

So we go to the car and I open the car door and put my bag inside and when I wanted to jump in Faris stops me ' rekby jiddam '

' why ?? I don’t want to '

' Ge3dy jiddam soolfy m3a 5alty .. banat kaifkom .. ana ag3ad wara'

' Okay.. ' I said a little confused

So we all get in the car and drive away.. ' 5alty yeee3333t' he says in an innocent voice

' Shensawee 7beebee yalla te7ammal shway bas..'

' Hey la t7in 3la 3amety hathy sades marra tara ana 3adatlik ..' I say looking backwards at him

' Wenty 3ada cham marra te7achait fehaa?' he looks at me smiling

' Ya mil8eeeee ' I couldn’t help but smile

Then he shows me something written on his phone screen.. I look closer to see
" you look beautiful tonight"

As soon as I read it I quickly turned my head away and my hearts was beating so fast !

' 5alty meta noo9al ..?'

' Yalla we're here .. Faris enzel shoofa in his office ..'
' SURE ! I look like a business dude going to see a manager hehee'

Then he fixed the top of his jacket looking like a boy from the hood rather than a businessman

' Off 9ara7a mga6e3 il business .. la be9adgoonik ! roo7 roo7 3afya..'

He winked at me and walked away then my aunt looked at me and smiled

' shfeech?' I ask smiling

' La salamtich 7beebtee' I could tell she did feel a vibe in that car..

A few minutes later Faris showed up .. alone..

' haa sh9ar ?' my aunt asks

' Ma 5aloony ashoofaa they said I looked nothing like a business man ..' he made a puppy face

Me and my aunt just looked confused

' Kidding ! kaho yay waray !'

Then my uncle showed up ' asef 3lal ta25eer .. alota work to be done ..'

And then we drove away to my favourite place ! NINO !!!

I ordered soup since I felt my throat hurt and my nose was red from the cold , Faris was sitting across the table from me and just sat there staring!

' aklik beraad..' i tell him

' Ohh .. right.. forgot about food..'

I rolled me eyes..

It was pretty nice the whole dinner thing we had some laughs and the food was AMAZING !

As we made our way to the car Faris walked behind me and eyed a few guys that were looking at me .. I could tell because just as he stood a little too close behind me the guys FAJ2A! turn their heads

' Check your phone I heard it ring..' he told me

' No it didn’t..'

' Yes it did !!!'

That’s funny i didn’t hear anything . I waited till I got into the car and I pulled it out of my pockets

1 new message

" look at how beautiful the moon is today .. just as beautiful as you"

Then I looked at him and quickly looked away, my aunt Salwa sat next to me in the back and Faris and uncle Jasem jiddam..

' It was nice having you today Angel kil marra ta3alay baitna' uncle jasem told me

' Eee wallah Angel..' Faris agreed

I just blushed and looked at my aunt

' I had fun.. thank you..' I said as I was ready to leave thar car

' goodluck on your exam tomorrow' my aunt said

Oops ! I forgot I even had that !

I go upstairs to find my mom and dad sitting together

' Il salam..'

' Ahlen hala wallah baba radaity ?'

' Eee wallah I had fun now I need some rest.. '

' yalla goodnight sweetie'

So I go to my room and change into my pyjamas and I opened up my bag to see if there Is any panadol left .. and

Oh my god !!!!!!!!!!!!!

my beautiful disaster (part 7)

As i sit there outside.. in the cold.. waiting for him to show up ! to ease my racing heart from worrying so much Sunshine sat beside me holding my hand .. ' its gona be okay inty la tfakreen chthy smilah 3al walad la tfawleen !' she tells me , i dont reply.. im too worried to.. Faris red..

I see a shadaw .. its a car.. a big one ! sayarat Faris ???!!! my heart skipping beats.. then the car turns left .. no its not.. i sit there still worried i try to make it look like im talking to Sunshine so no one would notice i'm about to cry.. Another car !! no..wait.. its white.. my eyes started filling up with tears.. oh god please bring him.. please.. ' wait ka kaa!! hathy ehy il sayara!! A !! here he comes !! its his car !!' sunshine interrupted my thoughts.. it IS him !! Faris !! thank you god ! thank you !

He parks and comes out of there holding a markaz sel6an bag with him.. he comes over to us.. he sees my eyes filled up with tears.. i just couldnt hold it anymore ! ' enta wain re7t ! sheft sh9ar bil maseera?? !! il kil rad enta wain re7t !?? shfeek masheft il sher6a wel es3af !! ? wain knt entaa!'

WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN !! 3amety Salwa was worried sick ! zain deg 3leeha 6ammenha 3al a8al ! ..' i was about to go on and on and on.. i didnt notice how silly i looked yelling at him like that.. was it 9ij my aunt Salwa who was worried ?? why am i lying to him and myself ? I was worried sick about him ! thinking of all the bad things that could've happened to him !

' Ana asef wallah.. talefoony makan fe sha7an.. re7t markaz sel6an aye..' and then i interrupted him ' zain deg ! mn ay mokan ! mn phone il ma9ry ele mal il chashier ! ay shay ! ' ambee shfeenee!!?? yannait ?why am i yelling at him ? chinny bada3t shway..

' Ana .. ana asef wallah il 3atheem.. wallah.. madree ra7 y9eer kil hathaa..'

' Faris ! ashwa yait ?? knt 5ayfaa 7beebee lesh matdeg t6aminny allah yhadak ??' my aunt Salwa said as she got out of the 5aima..

' Asef 5alty wallah makan 3ndee sha7an adeg wala shay.. welly yammy nasee mobila bil bait..' he looked at his friend

Then he turned around to me ' Angel...' i turn my head the other way so i dont have to see his face , i was very mad..

' Angel .. ana asef wallah.. i got you this..' he handed me the plastic bag..

It was filled with lolipops ! and jelly bags.. omg.. my favourite things in the world ! i looked at him shocked and embarassed.. ' i .. i .. dont know what to say...' ambee yal '3abeyya!! yal habla !! what did you just do !! ???

' Adree shkether t7ebeen markaz sil6an.. w adree you love these things.. so i brought them to you.. '

' Ana .. asfa ambee faris .. here i am yelling at you.. my lungs almost exploding.. wenta yayebly hatha?? you were thinking about me.. you were thinking how to put a smile on my face wana hnee afakker what awful things to say to you when you get back...'

' Its okay.. you were worried and mad.. bil 3aks ana mestanes ennich knty 5ayfa 3lay..' then he smiled

i looked at him .. looked away.. and then i took the plastic bag and just walked away from him.. ' mashkoor..' i managed to say , i was embarassed ! humiliated ! i was lost for words ! ( and i looked a little stupid walking away w metwahga w 7alty 7alaa)

' Il 3afo ya a7la Angel..'

I knew lolipops and jelly bags were NOTHING compared to a diamond ring or some other nice gift ! but he was thinking about me ..

Later that night when i was laying on my bed i was still thinking.. what if it was something else ? what if i had lost Faris ?? what if i never saw him again ? way il 7mdelah enna b5air bas mabee shay..

then my phone beeped " lil7een za3lana miny??"

i just couldnt be mad ! not after what he did ! " la mo za3lanaa.. 6alla3t kil ele bgalbee.. wal7een 7assa eb ta2neeb thameer.." i answered truthfuly..

" la ana il '3l6an ele madagait w 6ammant a7ad 3lay.. ana asef Angel.. mo gader anam bas afaker feech.."

then i blushed and i hid under my covers for a while what do i say ??

" ana b3d asfa.. mo daye5 enta?"

" 7adde .. bas gilt i have to send you a message gabil la anam "

" me too te9ba7 3la 5air Faris w sweet dreams"

" wenty mn ahl il 5air "

Then i closed my eyes and went to my own dreamland, i slept like a baby.. its been a long time since i had a goodnight sleep

I wake up and wash up and go down and while i wait for them to bring my lunch i call up lamooy to tell her the good news
' Aloo .. ha naymaa??'

' mmm..noo..' her voice ashkara nayma !bas she didn’t want to tell me , she's always like that i always think its very sweet and cute when she does that

' hehee call me when you get up girl'

' mmhhm...'

I giggle and start dialing Rawoo2's number

' Ahlaann' she answers she sounds happy

' haaaa miss nashee6a ! ga3daa ashoof'

' eeee how can i sleep enty gooleelee.. way A he's so sweet and cute ! '

' hehee am glad he's not one of those jerks ! '

' eeee off 7adda 9ij enty sh9ar 3leech ?? shway w tabcheen 3lay bil phone ams ! did he show up ?'

' waay Rawooo2 sektay ! after all that il 7mdelah 6ila3 mafe shay ! ya w yayebly bag full of candy and stuff ! way he's so sweet ! wana i looked so silly yelling at him chinny habla ! i mean .. am i supposed to ? do i have the right to ? oho shway a7es ambee ana shako.. bas still !! way Rawoo2'
I was talking too fast i ALWAYS did that some people thought it was cute and funny but others just didn’t understand a word i said

' ya5teee sheftay ? gilnalich la tfawleen'

' yalla my food is heereee call you in a few?'

' okay ana b3d ye3t..'

Then my phone rang again it was lamooy

' heey you ! haa gemtaay?

' ee thanks to you eff..'

' hehee shutup if you didn’t want to call lesh dagaitay?'

' eff shutup'

Then my phone rag again ! it was Tala , I was surprised ! Tala wasn’t a morning person at all , I added her to our call
' hi.' She said

' haaa shessalfa il yoom you woke up early ! 'lamoony tells her

' yes thanks to 3azeez who was jumping on my bed.'

' hahahaaaa way he's so cute ! I SO want a little brother..'I say in a dreamy voice

' well too bad A you don’t ' Tala tells me

' heheeeee ee 7arra bas e7na 3endenaa' lamooy adds

' heey !! tara ana hadda akly 3ashankom !'

' heey ! betroo7een takleen roo7ay we don’t need you tara' Tala said again

' ee 5ala9 okay I'll go'

' hey chub ge3day' lamooy tzefny

Then I start blabbing about last night and told them what happened

' weeee w ma lega yratheech ila eb 7alaw ?? wain il Gucci bag aw diamond bracelet??' Tala jokes

' ee coz ohwa wayed byelga kil hatha eb meena2 3abdallah right next to mcdonlds fe tara mini Gucci store' I say sarcastically

' 9ij ! allah baroo7 !!' Tala m9adga

' hahahaa Taloo yal habla mo 9ij ! bas wallah its sweet he knows you love that !'

' eee mo?' I said playing with my hair ' ambee yalla breakfasty berad'

' 7ilwa hathy'

' eff eff roo7ay ! manabeech a9lan'

I laughed and closed the phone then i realised ! bacher 3ndee emte7an final 9ena3ee ! wana mo darsa.. oops !