" Am just saying i .. i don't know if this is right anymore .. " Sara looked down at her knees
" Are you sayin you don't want me anymore ? " Sara didn't want to look at 7arith's face when he said that because she know she'll change her mind instantly
" It's not that i don't want you 7arith .. "
" Then what the hell is it ?! "
Sara looked up at him with teary eyes , she promised herself she wouldn't cry ..
But there she was telling the man she loved she didn't want him anymore ..
" Am so sorry .. " She shook her head
" Is this about 3ziz ? " He looked away this time avoiding her gaze, he knew what held her back but he was afraid to say it
Sara didn't reply , she sniffed and it broke his heart
" Well am sorry too " He said gently
Without looking at her again , he got up and walked out of the cafe
Sara looked out the window again without another word
" Hey aunt Muneera , " Jana was saying into the phone
" Is he alright ? .. oh that's great , wish i could talk to him though .. yeah we're going to find a flight right now .. okay then .. we'll call you soon "
Before she could catch another breath , something sneaked up behind her and kissed her neck
She giggled and turned around " Hey .. " She bit her lip
" I thought you were still sleeping "
" Yeah no i just woke up .. was that your aunt ? "
" Yeah , my baby is sleeping just fine "
" YOUR baby ? "
" Well i carried him , didn't i ?"
" And who made that happen ?! "
She laughed " Shutup Yousif "
" Am serious "
" Let's book a flight , common we need to go .. plus i want to come here in time for 7arith and Sara's milcha "
" Can't we stay here for just a few more days? " He held her body against his again " The thought of you in my house and us alone is so ... " he breathed in her curls
" I know .. " She bit her lip again
" Yousif !! "
" Few more minutes then we'll book the flight "
" No !! "
But he didn't care , he picked her up and carried her to the closest couch
" Hey mom " Sara walked in her house
" Oh hey honeeey " She kissed Sara's cheek
" your timing is perfect ! . I was just thinking about the food for your milcha , we have some samples here and you're aunt also wanted to help set up the place and all .. i wanted to ask you if you want it small or should we - "
" Mom ! " Sara closed her eyes shut to try and concentrate , it was all going too fast
" please i just .. i need to lay donw right now , i can't .. handle all this right now "
" Sweetie are you okay ? " Her mother's beautiful voice soothed her , it made her want to say it all
Say everything she felt , about AbdulAziz , about 7arith and the wedding ..
But not now , she couldn't right now ..
She needed to go to her room and FAST
She needed to be alone
" Yeah .. um .. i just need to lay down mom , but .. thanks .. realy " She squeezed her mom's hand and hurried upstairs
She closed the door and locked it twice , she stood with her back stuck to the door and just breathed
Tears were falling with no sound at all ..
Once she was calm enough , she reached for her closet , there was a corner she'd been avoiding since the day AbdulAziz passed away
A conrner of her closet she didn't like looking at .. yet she refused to get rid of what was in it ..
Sara took out a beautiful off-white dress , it was long with a bare back and a bow on the right shoulder
It was her wedding dress , she was going to wear it for her and AbdulAziz's wedding ..
She remembered when she made the order from Paris , AbdulAziz found out about it and went to pick it up once it was delivered
He was dying for her to try it on , he didn't care about all Sara's complaints
About how it was a bad luck to see her in it ..
He was waiting for her to put it on until her mother came and kicked him out
She smiled at the beautiful memory ..
She sat down on the floor next to her bed and held the dress tight
She realised it was cleaned and ironed since the last time she took it out
Mom must have taken it to the dry cleaner's , She thought
She didn't like that .. she wanted to breathe in and inhale his smell agian ..
Because he once held this very dress .. he held it out for her to try ..
She cried again and again , wrinkling the dress and filling it with tears all over again
Just then a white envelope fell on the floor , Sara frowned and stopped crying for a minute
She put the dress on the bed and picked up the envelope
She saw her name on it , and she recognied the handwriting
To my lovely Sara ..
If you're reading this then i must be gone . My beautiful love .. i know it hurts so bad and i know what happened isn't fair , but it's life . I need to apoligize for what i did . I shouldn't have got involved with the people i got involved with , i knew what they were up to and i knew they were bad people but i cannot explain it , it happened and am so so sorry . I want you to live your life and be happy , you have your mother and your friends and i trust them enough to keep you with them . Am so sorry am gone love , i realy am but it's life . I've seen it coming , i did since i got that phone call when i was with you . So i decided to prepare for the worst . I don't want you to be upset and i don't want you to be angry , because i'm in a better place now .
My dearest Sara , if ever comes a man who's ready to offer you what we had and even more , don't hesistate or think twice , just be with him . My love , if he got you to fall in love with him , then he's a good man i know it .
P.S. Please contact 7arith , he's been away for so long and you need him now more than ever . He'll take care of you . Plus , i've seen the way he looks at you .. and with me gone , i know it in my heart he's the man who will make you the happiest girl in the world . I know he's a player , and he's not me .. but he's 7arith .
I wish you all the very best
Just be happy and enjoy life , Don't ever be afriad to fall in love again
All my love ,
AbdulAziz
Sara stared at the letter for a few more minutes until she heard a knock on the door , it was her mother
" Sweetie .. can you please open the door for me ? .. Sara ?? "
She put the letter back in the envelope and got up
" Dear GOD " Her mother walked in with a shocked face " What happened in here ? "
She looked at the ruined dress and th envelope on the floor and Sara's red face explained it all
" Oh honey " She held her daughter in a tight embrace " Am so sorry you had to find it this way .."
Sara broke away and looked up
" Find what? "
" The letter honey .. the one that 3ziz left you .. "
" Wait ... you KNEW about this ? "
" Yes honey , am the one who put it there .. "
" WHAT? .. mom why don't i know about this ! "
" Sara it was delivered here after his death .. and .. you just disappeared , i didn't even have time to give it to you "
Sara looked down , she remembered now
Her mother was right , she left as soon as she heard about his death ..
" I thought you had to come back SOME day .. and so i didn't know think of a better place to put it "
Sara nodded
" What's in it dear ? .. is it that bad ? "
Sara shook her head " It's not bad , it's from 3ziz mom how can it be bad ? "
Her mother hugged her again " You should get some rest "
" Yeah "
Sara went to lay down again , holding the letter
" I can't believe you told me about 7arith .. it's like you knew .. " she said to herself
She cried again , she cried for AbdulAziz ..
She cried for what she did to 7arith ..
Oh how beautiful 3aziz's heart was
She did all this thinking she was somehow betraying him , when he wanted her to follow her heart and do it anyway
She opened her phone to see a picture of her and 7arith in Paris
She knew it was cliche , But she kissed his handsome face that showed on the screen anyway
She missed him , she didn't want to leave him
She did want to be with him
7arith sat in his room thinking of going to that awful place again , the place he used to go with Yousif to forget all their problems
The place where girls and drinking were the best idea ..
But since he had Sara , he decided he'd stop doing what he did before ..
Stop being bad boy 7arith
But right now he was angry and confused , and wanted nothing more than to get out of his room and just DRIVE
He opened up a drawer where he kept his pictures , he picked them all up and started to look at them
There was a picture with the 3 of them
Yousif , 7arith and AbdulAziz
They were about 17 back then , they were grinning happily at the camera with the sun in their eyes
Their handsome faces tanned from the burning heat
" Yeah we were heartbreakers , weren't we ? " He smiled
Just in the middle stuck between those pictures , 7arith saw an envelope with his name on it
" Are you sayin you don't want me anymore ? " Sara didn't want to look at 7arith's face when he said that because she know she'll change her mind instantly
" It's not that i don't want you 7arith .. "
" Then what the hell is it ?! "
Sara looked up at him with teary eyes , she promised herself she wouldn't cry ..
But there she was telling the man she loved she didn't want him anymore ..
" Am so sorry .. " She shook her head
" Is this about 3ziz ? " He looked away this time avoiding her gaze, he knew what held her back but he was afraid to say it
Sara didn't reply , she sniffed and it broke his heart
" Well am sorry too " He said gently
Without looking at her again , he got up and walked out of the cafe
Sara looked out the window again without another word
" Hey aunt Muneera , " Jana was saying into the phone
" Is he alright ? .. oh that's great , wish i could talk to him though .. yeah we're going to find a flight right now .. okay then .. we'll call you soon "
Before she could catch another breath , something sneaked up behind her and kissed her neck
She giggled and turned around " Hey .. " She bit her lip
" I thought you were still sleeping "
" Yeah no i just woke up .. was that your aunt ? "
" Yeah , my baby is sleeping just fine "
" YOUR baby ? "
" Well i carried him , didn't i ?"
" And who made that happen ?! "
She laughed " Shutup Yousif "
" Am serious "
" Let's book a flight , common we need to go .. plus i want to come here in time for 7arith and Sara's milcha "
" Can't we stay here for just a few more days? " He held her body against his again " The thought of you in my house and us alone is so ... " he breathed in her curls
" I know .. " She bit her lip again
They felt like teenagers sneaking up behind their parents' back , it was too exciting and sexy for both of them to manage
" Yousif !! "
" Few more minutes then we'll book the flight "
" No !! "
" Okay , a few more hours then "
She giggled and tried to get out of his firm grip
But he didn't care , he picked her up and carried her to the closest couch
" Hey mom " Sara walked in her house
" Oh hey honeeey " She kissed Sara's cheek
" your timing is perfect ! . I was just thinking about the food for your milcha , we have some samples here and you're aunt also wanted to help set up the place and all .. i wanted to ask you if you want it small or should we - "
" Mom ! " Sara closed her eyes shut to try and concentrate , it was all going too fast
" please i just .. i need to lay donw right now , i can't .. handle all this right now "
" Sweetie are you okay ? " Her mother's beautiful voice soothed her , it made her want to say it all
Say everything she felt , about AbdulAziz , about 7arith and the wedding ..
But not now , she couldn't right now ..
She needed to go to her room and FAST
She needed to be alone
" Yeah .. um .. i just need to lay down mom , but .. thanks .. realy " She squeezed her mom's hand and hurried upstairs
She closed the door and locked it twice , she stood with her back stuck to the door and just breathed
Tears were falling with no sound at all ..
Once she was calm enough , she reached for her closet , there was a corner she'd been avoiding since the day AbdulAziz passed away
A conrner of her closet she didn't like looking at .. yet she refused to get rid of what was in it ..
Sara took out a beautiful off-white dress , it was long with a bare back and a bow on the right shoulder
It was her wedding dress , she was going to wear it for her and AbdulAziz's wedding ..
She remembered when she made the order from Paris , AbdulAziz found out about it and went to pick it up once it was delivered
He was dying for her to try it on , he didn't care about all Sara's complaints
About how it was a bad luck to see her in it ..
He was waiting for her to put it on until her mother came and kicked him out
She smiled at the beautiful memory ..
She sat down on the floor next to her bed and held the dress tight
She realised it was cleaned and ironed since the last time she took it out
Mom must have taken it to the dry cleaner's , She thought
She didn't like that .. she wanted to breathe in and inhale his smell agian ..
Because he once held this very dress .. he held it out for her to try ..
She cried again and again , wrinkling the dress and filling it with tears all over again
Just then a white envelope fell on the floor , Sara frowned and stopped crying for a minute
She put the dress on the bed and picked up the envelope
She saw her name on it , and she recognied the handwriting
To my lovely Sara ..
If you're reading this then i must be gone . My beautiful love .. i know it hurts so bad and i know what happened isn't fair , but it's life . I need to apoligize for what i did . I shouldn't have got involved with the people i got involved with , i knew what they were up to and i knew they were bad people but i cannot explain it , it happened and am so so sorry . I want you to live your life and be happy , you have your mother and your friends and i trust them enough to keep you with them . Am so sorry am gone love , i realy am but it's life . I've seen it coming , i did since i got that phone call when i was with you . So i decided to prepare for the worst . I don't want you to be upset and i don't want you to be angry , because i'm in a better place now .
My dearest Sara , if ever comes a man who's ready to offer you what we had and even more , don't hesistate or think twice , just be with him . My love , if he got you to fall in love with him , then he's a good man i know it .
P.S. Please contact 7arith , he's been away for so long and you need him now more than ever . He'll take care of you . Plus , i've seen the way he looks at you .. and with me gone , i know it in my heart he's the man who will make you the happiest girl in the world . I know he's a player , and he's not me .. but he's 7arith .
I wish you all the very best
Just be happy and enjoy life , Don't ever be afriad to fall in love again
All my love ,
AbdulAziz
Sara stared at the letter for a few more minutes until she heard a knock on the door , it was her mother
" Sweetie .. can you please open the door for me ? .. Sara ?? "
She put the letter back in the envelope and got up
" Dear GOD " Her mother walked in with a shocked face " What happened in here ? "
She looked at the ruined dress and th envelope on the floor and Sara's red face explained it all
" Oh honey " She held her daughter in a tight embrace " Am so sorry you had to find it this way .."
Sara broke away and looked up
" Find what? "
" The letter honey .. the one that 3ziz left you .. "
" Wait ... you KNEW about this ? "
" Yes honey , am the one who put it there .. "
" WHAT? .. mom why don't i know about this ! "
" Sara it was delivered here after his death .. and .. you just disappeared , i didn't even have time to give it to you "
Sara looked down , she remembered now
Her mother was right , she left as soon as she heard about his death ..
" I thought you had to come back SOME day .. and so i didn't know think of a better place to put it "
Sara nodded
" What's in it dear ? .. is it that bad ? "
Sara shook her head " It's not bad , it's from 3ziz mom how can it be bad ? "
Her mother hugged her again " You should get some rest "
" Yeah "
Sara went to lay down again , holding the letter
" I can't believe you told me about 7arith .. it's like you knew .. " she said to herself
She cried again , she cried for AbdulAziz ..
She cried for what she did to 7arith ..
Oh how beautiful 3aziz's heart was
She did all this thinking she was somehow betraying him , when he wanted her to follow her heart and do it anyway
She opened her phone to see a picture of her and 7arith in Paris
She knew it was cliche , But she kissed his handsome face that showed on the screen anyway
She missed him , she didn't want to leave him
She did want to be with him
7arith sat in his room thinking of going to that awful place again , the place he used to go with Yousif to forget all their problems
The place where girls and drinking were the best idea ..
But since he had Sara , he decided he'd stop doing what he did before ..
Stop being bad boy 7arith
But right now he was angry and confused , and wanted nothing more than to get out of his room and just DRIVE
He opened up a drawer where he kept his pictures , he picked them all up and started to look at them
There was a picture with the 3 of them
Yousif , 7arith and AbdulAziz
They were about 17 back then , they were grinning happily at the camera with the sun in their eyes
Their handsome faces tanned from the burning heat
" Yeah we were heartbreakers , weren't we ? " He smiled
Just in the middle stuck between those pictures , 7arith saw an envelope with his name on it
first! now let me read:d
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umbay umbay umbay! clif-hanger:s!!! sara 7daa et7asefatt on what she just did! bs maybe 7arith will red the letter and then go to sara's house then they will be back together! YAAAY (hope that will happen)! w yousif w jana are soooooo cute!!! eyanenooon
ReplyDeletethank you so much for the post! w please post soon badii a3rif shoo bey9er(fajaa gelabt lebnaniya hahah:p)
xoxo,
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WOW WOW WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW....
ReplyDeleteTHIS STORY JUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER AND BETTER....SERIOUSLY LAZIM ISAWOON MUSALSAL
SUSPENSE ^^
ReplyDeleteWaaaaaaaaaay !!!! Aby sara marries 7arith.....!!!
ReplyDeleteEb9ara7a your post this time waaaaayid 3ajabny!!! :) keep the good work hun and thanx for the post <3 ;) please post soon I can't wait... :)
- om 5alood
you haven't written in a while!:/
ReplyDeleteAm I the only one who cried reading this post :'( UGLY CRY.
ReplyDeleteThat's how much I love your blog<3 I've been out of Bahrain and I'm catching up with all of your posts now.
el 9ara7a, as usual, abda3tay :**! You're very talented!
-- Love from Bahrain xx