your guardian angel [ 40 ]

Here goes part 40 , enjoy ;*

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" Uhhh.. hi.. Dana .. wow , i mean , where are you going? " Ya3goub was startled again by her presence , he didn't know what went on with him , but he didn't even WANT to know


" Oh am going out .. with 7amad .." She bit her lip looking at him


" Oh um.. well have fun ," and he turned back to the T.V , it seemed like he was trying to avoid looking at her



" Do i .. look ok ? , what do you think ? " She asked him



He thought twice about looking at her again , any man would do so if he had the chance, not only did Dana look HOT , the way she looked was enough for a guy to forget his name



" You look.. Nice.. have fun " he said as he looked at her , then he quickly turned back to the T.V



" ohh umm.. ok .." she tried to figure out what to do next , Ya3goub wasn't responding the way she hoped he would , of course all that wasn't made for 7amad's eyes to see !



" I'll just wait , sit around until its 7 , i don't want to show up too early or anything , 7amad is always late .. " she murmured and went to sit next to Ya3goub on the couch



Ya3goub just shrugged and kept his eyes on the T.V screen



He didn't mean to steal a glance or two at Dana , but he was doing that because she was quiet the entire time she sat there , he wondered what she was thinking



Dana was always talkative when she was around him



" Ya3goub .." Suddenly she said in her most seductive voice


He just looked at her , his eyes tense , his ears almost scared to hear what's going to get out of Dana's mouth ..



" Yeah .." he managed to say



" Can you get up ? "


" Huh? " his eyes almost popped out , was she seriously asking him that ?! , what does she want ?



She giggled " my coat , you're sitting over my coat silly .." she gave him a warm smile


" Ohh ! , am so sorry .. " he got up and took her coat



She stood in front of him , purposely close , looking deeply into his black eyes ..



He stared back , thinking only of Jood , as soon as her picture popped into his head , he quickly looked away



He gave the coat to Dana and said


" Have fun tonight , excuse me i have to go call my baby .." He gave her a smile and hurried upstairs



Somehow , Ya3goub was proud of himself , he knew exactly how he felt about Jood and he wasn't going to give her up , he didn't even want to LOOK at another girl , considering what happened just now , all his feelings for Jood only got stronger



Deep inside he thanked Dana for that , for making him realize that he was only in love with one girl , had eyes only for ONE girl



" Joodee .." he said into the phone


He was never happier to hear her sleepy voice


While her beloved 3eesa talked on the phone , excited about what he's going to do with his business , Raseel listened and listened good



She realized that this might be the last call she gets from him , the last details she would hear from him telling her how he was working hard on his new project , how madly he loved working on cars , how he couldn't wait to get out of college so he could grow more of a business man



A tear escaped her eye , she was fine with that .. as long as he wasn't watching , she could cry all she wants , but tomorrow..



She couldn't , she wouldn't



She had to do it , and she didn't want to ruin it by being emotional



If she wanted to make his life go on perfectly as it is , then she had to be out of it



" So what do you think ? " he finally said



" Hmm ? "


Oops, she got lost in her own thoughts ..


" What do you think about us going out tomorrow ?"


" That sounds great .." but her voice wasn't Raseel's voice , the always enthusiastic and cheerful voice


" Baby what's wrong ? " he asked


" Nothing baby nothing wallah .. am just thinking of.. my uncle " she lied



" Ohh, my5alif glbee he'll be alright enshallah , etha tabeen we can skip tomorrow you go visit him "


" oh no no ! , i want to be with you tomorrow "



He smiled " 5alas ok .."



" 3eesa .."



" Ya 3yoon 3eesa enty , goolay .. "



" can we stay extra late tomorrow ? .. "



" Yeah sure 7yaty , bas will your aunt be okay with that? "



" She will.. " at least Raseel hoped



If she was going to spend the last day with her baby , she wanted it to be perfect , she wanted to remember every bit of it , every word , every touch , every look ..



The next day..



Raseel and 3eesa were hanging out , having a romantic evening



Their LAST romantic evening



" Remember the day when i got back after treatment , man i was dying to see you .. i was trying to talk to you the whole night ! " he began



" And we didn't get the chance until .." Raseel interrupted him


" I stole you from that party .." he continued with a smile



As Raseel looked at him , his eyes , she realized she couldn't do it



How could she leave him ? , after all the love they had for one another , after all the things they went through ..



But then she stopped herself , something WORSE was going to happen if she didn't end it .. and NOW



" This was an amazing evening baby.. thank you " she told him



" Why are you so sad then ? " he played with her hair



" 3eesa i love you , when am with you am really happy and i wouldn't trade this for anything .. i just want you to know that ok ? "



3eesa laughed nervously " Baby why are you talking like you're going to leave ? .. we'll stay a bit longer , or we could do this later any time you want "



Raseel had tears in her eyes , but she couldn't let them escape , she couldn't


" Look , if i did something stupid , or made you feel bad , please don't think that i don't love you , because i do 3eesa .. "



3eesa was confused now , he took a good look at her .. trying to figure out what was wrong with her ..



" Raseel .. are you okay ?"



No , no am not , SAY IT DAMN IT ! , Raseel tried so hard to get those words out of her mouth , but there were other words that were SUPPOSED to be said



If she loved him , she had to do this..


His entire life might be ruined because of her ..



But her tears failed her , they started coming down so fast that Raseel didn't even have time to wipe them


" Raseel.. baby ! , shfeech la t5ar3eenee!! " he was terrified , she was crying in front of him with no reason , no reason at all



He held her face between his hands , trying to wipe every tear he saw , but he couldn't , her eyes were like waterfalls



And what killed him the most , it was that she didn't say a word ..



He breathed heavily , trying to think of a bad thing he had said to her , a wrong thing he did ..



" 3eesa .." she finally said when she stopped



" Ha 7yaty .. please gooleelee shfeech .. why are you doing this? "



he looked at her, she saw all the pain in his eyes , all those memories ..



The night he came down and saw Msa3ad when he was about to hit her , the night he came back to the country and saw him pushing her into the car ..the night they had their first kiss..



All that fear in her eyes , all those times


Why was Msa3ad dong this to her ?



She wanted nothing more than to be with 3eesa.. she wanted just that ..



He was the only GOOD thing that happened to her in almost 3 years



But now , she's going to lose him



She saw his eyes searching her face for answers , for an explanation for all of this



She saw how much he loved her and how much she was madly in love with him



And then she knew what she wanted to do at that moment



Their LAST moment ..



" Kiss me " she told him , her voice shivering



She never thought she would say this to a guy , EVER



She didn't even think she would say it to 3eesa



But there it went , the words came out of her mouth so desperate , so sad



He just looked at her .. he loved her so much , he was ready to jump out of a bridge for her



And now all she asked was this ..



He moved closer to her , she felt his warm breath coming closer to her lips



She just closed her eyes to enjoy that moment ..



This was it , the last kiss .. that last she'll ever feel of him ..


The thing she'll remember every time she went to bed at night



He pressed his lips gently on hers , as if he was scared to break her , slowly like he never wanted to let go of her , he didn't want this to end



She imagined if time would stop and pause this very moment , the moment where he makes her feel weak and vulnerable


The moment that makes both their hearts beat faster , make their minds stop working




The moment where she felt safe and loved , and where he felt like he belonged to her and only her



He felt her sadness as their lips moved together , like something was going to be over soon



She wanted this kiss to last longer than any kiss he'd given her , she wanted to remember it



Save that memory in her mind forever



She wanted to remember his hand cupping her face



He wanted to remember his lips dancing with hers



She wanted to remember how amazingly he smelled



He wanted to remember the way she looked right before that kiss



Because Raseel knew , that this way goodbye




3eesa will lose her