my beautiful disaster ( part 20 )

They cant be serious ! I thought to myself , I knew 7amad had some kind of plan to ruin my life but THIS !!?? what the hell is he thinking !?

I rushed towards my room and fell backwards on my bed , my face was so hot and I felt like the walls were coming to squeeze me , without a word I grabbed my phone and called up Rawoo2

' HELL NOOO !!! HE DID WHAT!? ' She snapped when I told her what had happened

' What do I do !? Rawoo2 what do I tell Faris !? '

' I don’t know what the hell is that dweeb 7amad thinking ! shfeee? Yann w ga3ad !? '

' Rawoo2 am so scared ! my dad will never in a million years say no to 7amad or his parents ! plus he and my mom ADORE the guy ! '

' Well its YOUR life not theirs' ! '

' True bas mno ele yesma3 !? , listen babe I gotta go now I'll call you later okay ? I need to think of a way to get out of this mess .. '


' Want me to come over ? '


' No babe its late .. how about tomorrow morning we go get breakfast ? '

' Perfect ! '

I put my hands on my face trying to remember what happened today ..

The sea , the weather , Faris .. it was all perfect until ..

God what do I do ??

Just like he felt what my heart felt at that moment he called me

' Baby is it true !? '

And I knew exactly what he was talking about .. Faris knew ..

' Faris.. '

' Angel jawbeeneee ! tell me you are NOT marrying that doorknob ! baby please ! '

' Faris .. '

' 3yoona ..'

' who told you ? '


' Your aunt Salwa just told me.. , I should've stopped him when I could ! I should've told your dad mn awal ! ana il 7mar ! ana '3abee ele 5alaitech troo7een ! ana '3abee ele 3a6ait hathak fer9a enna yetgarrab minich ..'


' Baby stoooop its not your fault ! am the idiot ! if it wasn’t for me none of this would have happened ! '

' Shasawee bedoonich ? matgooleelee ? shloon a3eesh ? Angel en 9erty 7g '3airy amoot wallah amoot ! '


' Smilah 3leek mn il moot ! lesh gam tgool chthy enta !? '


' Baby wallah il 3atheem inny knt na6er ashte'3el wa56ebech 3shan akoon rayyal wagdar awaferlich kil shay ! 3ashan maga9er ma3ach eb shay ! wala a7rem 3yalna mn shay ! wallah il 3alim shkether a7ibich Angel enty ele '3ayarteenee .. enty ele '3ayartay glbee enty ele 7abait'ha w meste3ed amoot 3ashanha ..'


' You were thinking about us getting married ? '

And then it was quit .. TOO QUIET !


' Aloo ? Faris ?? ALOO !!?? '


' Baby I need to go ..'

' WAIN !? wain rayi7 ? '

' I just need to take some rest baby I'll call you tomorrow .. '

' W t5aleenee chthy broo7ee you give me up 7g a7ad thany ? '

' 7beebtee enty mn gal ra7 a5aleech ? ya5thoon il hawa ele atnafasa wamoot wala ya5thoonich enty minny.. ma7ad yegdar mara7 a5aleehom baby .. mo kaifhom ya5thoon roo7ee minni '


' Baby la tseddaa..'


' 5ala9 enshallah masedda bas aamray entay ..'


' Soolif m3ay lain anam..'

' Shtabeen asooliflich 3anna ? '

' Gooly 8i9a Fwfy ..'

' Hahaaaaaa!! Ma3arf 8i9a9 ! '

' Fwfyyyy…'

' Okay okay .. here we go .. kan ya makan fe 8adeem il zaman ..'

And he went on with the story .. I cant remember what the story was about and what characters were in it .. all I could remember is his sweet warm voice filling my ears before I went to bed .. giving me the strength NOT to breakdown .. NOT to give up on our love ..

I woke up the next morning with the phone next to my head and the floor was filled with white tissues ..

' oh my goodness !! what is this !? it snowed tissues yesterday !!?' Rawoo2 came in to see my bedroom and my face both looking like hell

' Ambee babe ! get up get up get up !! this CANT be happening to you ! NOT AGAIN !! '

She came and helped me get out of bed and ordered me to wash up and get dressed for a small outing

' I ran by your mom downstairs and I told her we're going out ! now hurry ! '

I wore my oversized " Ja Dore Paris" T-shirt with black leggings , pulled up my hair and put on my big glasses to cover the marks from yesterdays crying parade

' Yalla ready to go ? '

We got into the car and Rawoo2 put on some of our all time faves to lighten up the mood

' wallaaaah maaaaakaaaaan il foraaaaag e5teyareeee ' 3bdelmajeeds' voice came smoothly out of the speakers and when I heard that I lowered my head thinking about Faris ..


' Oops ! bad idea! ' and she quickly changed the song

' I don’t wanna runawaaay but iiii cant help it iiii don’t understand .. if am not made for you then whyyy does my heart tells me that I am .. ' Daniel bedingfields' beautiful sad song came next

' You know what !? lets just TALK ! ' and she turned off the radio

I laughed at her

' See progress mn al7een ! hehe '

' yalla we're here ' We arrived at Mcd's near the beach ,

' Shma3na hnee Rawoo2 why didn’t we just go to choco bar nfs kil marra ? '

' You'll see .. '

We got inside and headed upstairs only to see a tired looking guy sitting nervously on one of the chairs staring at window ..

' Faris !!!!????'

' Baby ! ' and he quickly got up and rushed to hug me

His arms were so strong .. his chest was so warm .. I just wanted to melt

' am gonna go get us something to eat until you guys talk a little..' Rawoo2 just left us there ..

' I'm sorry baby..' He told me when he let go ..

' I .. I don’t know what got into me ..'

' Ssshhh…' and I grabbed his hands and we went to sit down

' Faris.. mabee atzawaj..'

He just looked at me with his big worried eyes

I tried not to cry.. I wanted to look strong in front of him..

' wana mabeech tetzawejain ..'

' Shasawee fe 7amad ? baby my dad is never going to say No to him ! he likes him ! w his dad is an old friend .. my parents are never going to say no .. '

I felt like I was so mean telling him that.. he just sat there looking at me..

'Will they say yes to me lmn ayeelich ? '

' What ? ' I looked up to see his beautiful eyes looking at me

' You heard me.. gitlich mara7 a5aleech y3ny mara7 a5aleech .. ma7ad ya5thech minni enty om 3yaly Angel ..'

After hearing those words what girl wouldn’t cry ? my eyes were filled up with tears but I still tried to hold them in ..

' What if my dad tells you no ? and he already gave 7amads' parents a word ? '

' Hathy 7ayatech ! he CANT tell you who to marry ! '

I looked down

' Baby I didn’t mean to yell like that .. am sorry ..' he held up my chin but I moved away my head so he wouldnt see my tears

' Angel shoofeeneee..'

But I didn’t want to look at him.. I didn’t wana see the disappointment in his face..

' Faris you don’t know my dad..'

' I know that he loves you and he wants you to be happy..'

' my happiness is with you.. Faris I love you ! please don’t leave me !! see that’s EXACTLy like my dream !! they were taking you away from me ! you left me there Faris !! You left me all alone ! I cried and followed you ! but you left anyway !! I thought it was a stupid dream and I let it go ! but now its coming true ! Faris la t'hednee la t5aleenee allah y5aleek ! please baby don’t go ! lo zawejoonee '3a9eb ta3ally ta3al save me ! you're my Faris its your job to do that !..' and tears just came out like crazy ! i was hysterical suddenly i had flashbacks from when i was sick and when i heard all those awful things about him ..

Good job trying NOT to cry Angel ..

Before I knew it he grabbed my face with both hands and kissed the tears on my cheeks ..

' Bas Angel .. 5ali9aw dmoo3ech baby bas..'

' How can I Not cry when they're going to take away the love of my life ? '

' ma7ad ya5ethnee minich.. am here ..' he wiped away my tears and pulled me close

' ana il yoom rayi7 akalim obooch..'

' Haaaa?' I looked up like a little baby who just saw ice cream

'ee.. ana il yoom rayi7 7g obooch a56ebech minna..'

My heart almost jumped out of my chest ..If I was meant to be with my Faris forever then the days will show.. and I couldn’t wait but something deep down told me things are NOT going to be easy..

Later Rawoo2 came holding a tray that had pancakes , hash browns and orange juice , everything looked DELICIOUS !

But me and Faris didn’t have the appetite to eat at all .. each one was worried about the other ones feelings so we tried and looked like we were enjoying the food , and with Rawoo2 being there we kind of had fun in spite of the awful thoughts we had about whats going to happen to our future..

' I'll call you as soon as I get home …' I told him

' okay baby becareful .. ' and he kissed my hands and went off to his car

I watched him from far thinking if that's the only time im gonna see him walking away from me.. and if fate has some pretty surprise in store for us..

' Hey..' Rawoo2 put her hands on my shoulder interrupting my thoughts

' I love him Rawoo2..'

' I know babe I know.. allah kareem enshallah..'

Me and Rawoo2 went shopping later , nothing feels greater than buying a couple of shoes !


After we finished I told her to drop me at my grand mothers house , I hadn’t seen them in a while ..

I found Lamooy and Tala there..


' Heeeeeeeey!! Ya7mara enty where are you !!?? ' Lamooy screamed when she saw me

'Wee3 lesh yaya? ' Tala greeted me in her lovely way again

I sat down and told them the story..

' Oh my god ! '

' What are you guys going to do now? '


' Faris said he's gonna talk to my father .. '

' No WAAAAY !!!! ' Lamooy was shocked

' He told you that !? ' Tala asked

' Yea.. my god you guys am scared..'


' 5alas babe don’t be.. what meant to be will be..'


'Yea.. and am gonna bring my new baby the penguin and dance at your wedding ..' Tala suddenly said


' Huh !!?? ' I asked


' Weeeee magitlich 3n my new love story ? I fell in love with a penguin today ! he was the cutest ! the minute I layed my eyes on him I was smitten !! ' She continued like it was a normal salfa


' Shesalfa ! shno ! wain !? yannaitay ? '


' Noo !!!! shefta eb hallmark ! chan ashteree !! am gonna marry him a9lan !! his name is Alfonso !


' BSSHHHHAAHAAHAAAAAAAA!!!!!!! ' Lamia let out a huge laugh

' Speaking of which how is Yousef ? '

' Ow I don’t know he's fine I guess ..' that was the first time I saw lamooy blush in a long long time..

' Wow look at that SOMEONE seems happy ! so you got it bad for him huh ?! '

' I think its worse ! you guys am not this girl ! am not this mushy I love you im crzy about you girl .. whats happening to me ?!'


' I know whats happening to you ..' Tala said

' You're falliiiiing in loooooovveee! ' i was so excited for her I realy was .. Lamooy hadn’t been this happy mn like EVER and she's an amazing girl and a great friend she deserves to be happy

' No.. that’s not it .. what I was going to say is Angel is effecting your brain again THAT’S whats happening to you L .. of course we don’t blame you Angel for being so.. so.. YOU ! Gosh do you always live in La La land ? ' she rolled her eyes at me


' I guess I wont be anymore with Faris being gone.. '

' Hey hey heeey !! stop that ! everythings gonna be fine enshallah ! your dad might say yes and you may get married and have pretty babies ! '

' Not if they look like Angel they wont..' Tala added

' Chub ! ' Lamooy told her

' And we're going to dance our asses off at your wedding and we'll take you to the beauty parlor ourselves ! ' Lamooy continued

' Ofcourse we don’t know how much they can do .. I mean your face is naturally ugly..' Tala didn’t seem to get enough


' Tala !!!!!!!' Lamia snapped at her


' Whaaaat ? am just being me ! lighting up the air a little..'

' yea I can see that ! ' Lamia said

' You're doing great ! ' I joked

' Heey guys yalla goomaw 5nee6la3 ..' Faj2a aunty H7m7 came downstairs with her messed up hair and pj's obviously just woke up from her everyday sleeping .. or in her case HIBERNATING !

' Allaaaaaaaah I want NINo ! ' Tala shrieked

' Eeeeeee!!!' Lamia added

' Chub bas mata3abtaw !? ' H7m7 told them

' Noooo ! ' They both said at the same time

After that we all waited for her to get dressed and we were on our way ..

Later that evening and when we were done with our fun outing as usual they dropped me home first since my house was the closest .. I really had fun and it was great because it was taking my mind off of things..

I went to bed that night thinking the worst .. tossing and turning

Whats going to happen to me and Faris ?

I woke up early the next morning since I couldn’t enjoy my sleep only to hear my mom talking on the phone and she had a very serious tone..


' Salwa ana magdar agool 7g oboha shay wenty tdreen.. Faris 3la 3ainy w 3ala rasee bas bil nesba 7g oboha 7amad awla.. bas laykoon enty 3a6eetee Faris kilma w gilteela inna y7e6 amal ? '

my beautiful disaster (part 19)

' shloonha il 7ilwa ? '

' Am sorry wrong number ! '

' A..' And before he could say anything I hung up

Mo mn 9ija ! mn wain yab ra8mee hatha ! mn wain 6ila3!

' Shno sh9ar 7yaty ? ' Faris asked

' Umm.. baby remember 7amad ? '

' uhh from camp ? I think so .. yeah ..'

' He just called ..'

His face changed completely and I knew it bothered him

' Shyabee hatha ? oho y3rf ra8mich ? '

' Noo ! baby noo!! He doesn’t ! that’s why I freaked out too ! madree mn wain yayeb ra8mee ! madree shyaby a9lan ! '

' Shno y3ny mn wain yaba ! hatha ele baroo7 athba7a al7een ! ' he got more angry , and I just sat there like an IDIOT !

I was so mad at 7amad , that freak ! what the hell did he want ! and how the hell did he get my number !!?

' Ana asef 7yaty.. makan 8a9dee a3a9eb .. bas hatha shyaby y3ny ? enty knty tklmeena awal aw shay ? '

' No ! Faris NO ! am not that girl ! I don’t go around giving my number to everyone ! '

' I didn’t say that Angel bas y3ny am just asking.. '

' Ana gitlik sh9ar mn gabil.. bas inna I had a thing for him w it is MORE than OVER! '

' Hmm .. mashee 5ala9 enty la t'thaygeen 5lgich .. ana asef baby bas I cant STAND the thought of a guy calling you or even looking at you ! '

I smiled when he said that , it was the first time I figured he was jealous , it was the CUTEST!

' t'3ar ..? '

' Haa? Shako.. shfeech t6al3eenee chthy ? ..' his face turned red

' Baby t'3ar 3lay ? ' my smile grew bigger and I moved my head closer to him giving him those suspicious eyes

' Ehheehh.. ee zain ? EE ! a'3ar ! ana mo rayyal hnee ? ma7ad lah 7ag inna yesma3 9ootech '3airy ana ' he looked down
' w hal 5ayes hatha ! marra thanya ta36eenee yah a3alma shi'3il allah ! ' he continued

' 5alas okay.. bas 3la ay asas betzefa enshallah ? '

' ohh ee 9a7 .. 5aywally zain ! 5al ydree shno y3ny ! 3ogeb cham yoom le 9erty morty shyegdar ygool y3ny ! '

' Am sorry.. 3ogeb cham yoom shno ?! '

I heard that sentence pretty well but I wanted him to say it , my stomach was filled with butterflies !

He looked deeply into my eyes .. it was like his eyes wated to do all the talking for him , he kept looking at me like that .. like before .. when he tanni7ed eb my face , focusing on every feature ..

' Fe shay 3la wayhy ? '

Then he let out a huge laugh

' leesh tes2eleen hal so2al il '3areeb faj2a ! '

' Enta madree shfeek ! gam t6ali3nee 5eft ! '

' May9eer a6al3ech y3ny ? '

And there he goes again ! TANE7ING !

Then I looked at my feet

' Walaaaain ma n5ali9 mn hal mesta7a e7na mo ? ' and he grabbed my hand , my whole body shivered

His hands were so big and warm I felt like he was my superman and nobody could ever hurt me while I was with him


' HEY GUUUUUYS ! ' Rawoo2 came with the biggest smile ever

' Oops ! are we interrupting a moment ? ' Lamooy stopped and looked at both of us

' Not at all .. ' And he let go..

I smiled at them ' ha te2a5arna ? '

' Yep.. bas etha tabeen teg3edeen b3d ill go buy some supcakes and come back ..'

' You guys go wait for her in the car she'll be right there ..' I looked at him ' What are you up to ? ' I told him


After Rawaa and Lamia went he took my hands into his

' Deerbalich 3la nafsech , wetha 9ar ay shay tdegeen 3lay ill be there in a flash okay baby ? '

' Okay fwfy..'

' Fwfy ? a5eeeh ! ya 7looha ! yedeedaa hathy.. '

' Chub 3ad ! mo 3ajbetek magoolhaa ! '

' Yah ! sob7an mo'3ayer il a7wal ! la yuba 3ajbatny ! fe shay enty tgooleena w maya3jebny ? zain w hatha il shagool en dag Angel … '

' Adree ..'

' Good .. now go before your friends kill me .. '

' a7bik..'

' Angel roo7ay la a56efech w ma aredech lihom tara ! broo7ee mabeech troo7en ! '

As soon as I got inside the car ' OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOSSSSHHHH YOU GUUUUYYYYS ! 7adde estanast !!! '

' DETAILS PLEASE !! ' they both scream at my face

And then I told them about everything including the whole thing with 7amad

' Wee3 ge6ee3a ! '

' Shyaby hatha ? '

' 9ij mayesete7ee ! '

' Hey tara aroo7 a6egga ! '

And words just kept on coming !
Heheee with friends like these who needs an army !?


Then my mom called ,

' Ha 7beebte enty wainich !? sem3ay ana ra7 3an balee ! el yoom lazm nroo7 bait 3ammich 5alid yalla redday bser3a lazm tyeen 3aib b3d ! '

Oh no !

Uncle 5alid was 7amads' father and an old friend of the family ..

' Weeh mama lesh magiltay mn gabil ? yalla kany yaya bil 6ereej ..bas chinny am feeling a little sick ?..' I lied I didn’t want to go ! not after what happened with 7amad

And then it hit me ! maybe he called to invite us ? bas why didn’t he call my dad instead ? hmm.. madree wallah bas I knew that my mom could tell I was lying and it would be inappropriate if I didn’t go

' Tge9een 3la mno ? al7een tawech radda mn il hyata mn wain yalich il marath faj2a ? yalla redday mama 3aib lazm tyeen ..'

So I got home and changed real fast to go there .. deep inside I didn’t want to go .. I just knew there was something bad going to happen !


As soon as we arrive I go greet my uncle and his wife .. a couple of 7amads' sisters but he was nowhere to be seen ..

THANK GOD !

I texted Faris earlier to tell him I was going .. I knew he would be annoyed , but I didn’t want to lie to him and plus he knew it was bad manners if I didn’t go
' ahlaaaain Angel shloonich sha5barich ? ' Joud 7amads' sister greeted me .. she was a very nice girl and I liked her a lot

' il 7mdelah b5air enty shloonich ? '


' Ana il 7mdelah ! way 9ayra sh7elweeech ! ge3day ge3day 5nsoolif ! mn zmaan 3annich '

I smiled and sat next to her

We talked about everything .. school , college and marriage just came along ,as soon as we mentioned it

He showed up

Wearing a deshdasha .. looking tall .. handsome .. and not to mention very confident

' il salam 3leekom..'

And he came over ' hala bily zayernaa..'

' Hala feek ' I said looking away

He went to sit with the other men

' Eee weee mn awalha chthy mesta7ya b3dain shbetsaween ? ' joud said smiling at me like she knew something

' Halaa ? ' I said confused

' Weeee 6a3 ! tsaween nafsech matadreeen haaa ? 5aleeha 3alallaaaah ! 3adee 3adeee kilna kina chthy ! '

' Ehheh walllah madree shgam t5arbe6een joud '

' Weeh haw oho gal begoolich bnafsaa ! shaklich matadreen shesalfa aw innich gam testa3be6ain ! ' and she looked at his other sister amal

' weeeh .. yalla 3adee 3adee la teste7een 7beebtee e7na mithil 5awatech ! .. mn gaddech ! 3ad yestahal ! adree mo 7a9illa wa7da mithlich wana gitla 3abalich ma gitla ! '

HUH !? what the hell are these people talking about !

' Yalla ya jima3a tfathelaw il 3asha jahez..' 7amads' mom called us all into the big dining room ..

The whole time 7amad was looking at me smiling and pretending like everything was good between us .. I hated that !


After that awful night was over I went home so tired that I was almost hitting the walls while I was walking to my room

I passed y my parents room and the door was slightly open and I couldn’t help but hear the conversation ..

' Eee eee la ana gilt 7ag om 7amad.. bas t5alli9 inshallah Angel il jam3a wagoolahaa .. mo al7een 3ad taw il nas..'

' Adree adree yuba.. bas y3ny 5al tdree.. 3al a8al bas tkoon 5e6ba awal shay mafeha shay… il walad gal inna 3adee yan6er dam inhom 9'3ar lil7een.. bas inna tkoon 3la draya.. '

' Wallah madree shagoolik.. ana bnty tawha 9'3eera .. bas 9ara7a 7amad wel ni3im fe ! 5oooooosh walad ! '

my beautiful disaster ( part 18 )

From that very moment I felt alive again .. I felt the world is a good place again .. I was happy once again ..

My baby was back to me

And there isn’t enough words to describe the way I felt the day he got back to me

There isn’t enough words to describe the way I felt about that boy ..

My god I loved him !

I loved everything about him ..

I loved the way he looked at me

I loved the way he talked to me when I was sad

I loved it when he stops talking just to hear what I had to say when I was hyper and talking a little too fast

I loved it when he laughed at my stupidity

I loved to watch him play football


I loved to watch him play with the all the kids around him


I loved it when he sang to me..

Yes he sang to me with his deep , beautiful voice ..


He made up words .. ANY words ! just to make me happy or to make me laugh

I loved his hair

I loved his eyes

I loved how he was 180 and I was just 145


' Baby what are you doing here ? '


I was sitting on the beach at night .. enjoying the nice breeze and the way it felt on my skin and through my hair ..

' Ga3da .. ' I said still looking at the sea

He came and sat next to me

I looked into his eyes and he looked back

We just sat there for a while


He smiled at me ' a7ibiich '


I smiled back and reached out to touch his hand


But his fingers didn’t try to interlock with mine


And then his hand started to slip ..

I tried to hold it again ..

But he took his hands away from mine


I looked at him to try and figure out what was going on


I looked at him and then he looked down


My eyes started tearing up ..


But he didn’t care


I heard voices in the back

And then he got up to leave


' wain raye7 !!?? '


He looked at me and then he looked down to his feet


' baby !! ' I say still tearing up


' am sorry ..' he said and turned his back on me


' Faris !! baby don’t leave me out here alone !! BABY !! COME BAAAAAACCCKKKK !!! '


But he left ..

He didn’t even look back ..


I started running after him

But I fell

And he still didn’t look back

I got hurt

This cant be happening !!


NO !!


IT CANT !!


' Nooo!!! ' I woke up from my sleep so scared and so upset


It was all a dream ..

No.. it was a nightmare !!


' way il 7mdelah yarabee it wasn’t real ..' I said still trying to catch my breath

But I still had tears in my eyes


' Waaaaay leesh 7lmana chthy ana shfeeneeee ??? ' I was talking to myself again ..


Then my phone rang


' 7yaty..'

' Fwfyyyyy …'

' Ha ya glbee shfeech ? 9ootech mo 3ajebny .. '


' La mako shay bas 7lmana 7ilm 5ayes .. '


' Laaah .. 3adee glbee 3aadee its just a dream .. you're awake now goomay sherbay may '


' Ee al7een banzel..'


' Good.. that’s my girl '


I blushed , I loved it when he called me that


I hadn’t heard it from him in so long ..

I missed it


' Bashoofech.. mo gader ! its been a long time baby..'


' I know.. '


' How about today ? '


' I'll have to ask my mom and see if Baysab fatheelee.. '


' Ok 7yaty ask and tell me .. '


' Okay..'


So I shut the phone and went down to see my family ..

My mom and sisters were sitting on the couch ..


It was 11;30 and a Saturday


' Hiiii mamaaaaaa ' and I went to give her a kiss


' Hala 7beebtee sit down watch spongebob ! 7beebich hatha '


' Ehehehehhhhhhhh ' My sisters laugh at me


' True ..' I smiled and sat next to her


' Mama ba6la3 il yoom..'


' Haw mama tawech 9ayra zaina besmilah magdar a6al3ich chthy ! '


' Mama please ! baroo7 m3a rawoo2 w lamooy ! please please !!! ma a6awel ! '


' Wallah madree shasawee feech enty..'


' mama a7ibiiiich '


' Eee eee gi9ee 3lay ! shoofy troo7een bas mat6awleen sam3a ? '


' ok mama thank yoooooouuuuuuuu ' and I gave her a kiss and went upstairs to call up the girls


' Okay so we'll just hang out together and you go see Faris for a while and then back to us sam3a !? he has to share you with us too !! ' Lamia told me


' Eee wallah ! may9eer ! ' Rawaa added


' Okay okay guys la takloony ! now 7adkom you're coming over to help me pick out an outfit !! '


' Okaay ' They said and hung up the phone ..


Few minutes later they showed up and we got to work !


' how about this ? ' Rawoo2 held a cute silk dress , it was smoky silver and had a bit of baby green and baby pink in it


' Its So CUTE !! and unique ! ' Lamia told me


' Hmmm .. okay then ! '


As Rawoo2 was fixing my hair my mom walked in


' 7beebtee you're not wearing that are you ? ' she asked me


' Yes mama why ? '


' 7beebtee hatha wayed 9aify ! lazm talbeseelich jacket aw shay fooga '


' Mama bas barra 7ar ..'


' my5alif mama enty tawech 6al3a mn marath mo hayyen .. '

' Okay .. '


Then she pulled out a baby green mini jacket and placed it on the bed


My hair was straight and Rawaa put some pins on the left side and Lamooy pulled a pair of beautiful pearl studs


' WAIT !! ' I yelled out and Lamia dropped the earrings and Rawoo2 stopped too


' Besmillah shfeech !!? '


' My tiffany bracelet ! '


' MAAALAAAT !! 5ara3teennaaa! '


' Sorryyyyy !! bas I have to wear it ! '


' eheh ee 7adda you do bas ya7mara don’t scare us like that again ! ' and she hit my head with the brush


' AA777 !! ' I yelled out


' A7san ! ' lamia continued


After we were done we hit the road with Baysab to Marina waves ..


Since the Sea was my favourite place in the wrorld Faris wanted us to go and sit there..


The weather was beautiful.. it wasn’t too hot or too cold and thank god there wasn’t any waves or wind to ruin my hair or do stuff to my dress (e77m e77m )


And there he was .. standing there looking tall and sad waiting for me to show up ..


As soon as he saw the car his beautiful smile lit up his face


' Hala halaa.. '

' Hala feek..' I said with a smile

' Hala Lamia .. Hala Rawaa.. shloonkom ?' he greeted then STILL looking at me


' Hiii Faris ..' the replayed giggling at him

' Thanks for bringing her guys ' he looked at them this time


' You're welcome ' Rawaa answered

' Heey ! deerbalik 3la my cousin ! ' Lamia warned him


' Laaaah la t5afeen 3leeha ba7e6ha b3yoony ..' He said and smiled at me


And when they left he took my hand and led me to Maki ,

My other favorite place !


We went and sat down on the couch .. there was no one there ! except for US !


We sat there talking and talking and talking..


About all the things we missed out on when we were apart ..

About our plans for the future

We talked about babies and football...

We talked about everything !

The hours passed felt like short moments .. the staff there was so happy .. it was like they were sitting with us ! they laughed when we laughed ! and smiled when Faris was teasing me .. They looked so funny !


' Yallaa.. al7een goomay ..'


' Wain ? '


' Goomay yalla another surprise !'


' OOOHH OOOH !! I love surprises !! ' I said with a huge smile on my face


' I know ..' he winked at me


He took my hand as we walked towards the sea ..

' You look beautiful baby.. ' he told me


' Thank you 7yaty..' I looked up at him


' You're so small !! shno hatha shasawee feech enty !!? '


' Heeey chub Faris ! ' I looked at my feet


' Kidding 7yaty .. yalla 3ad ! ' He touched my cheeks


' Mabee ..' still looking at my feet


' Waay fedait il za3lanaa..'


' Mabee..'


' lil7een ? '


' Ee ..'


And before I knew it he held my hands close to his mouth and kissed both of them

I blushed and looked up at him

' Leesh saweet chthy ? '


' Magdar ashoofech za3lana w masawee shay .. '

' a7ibik .. '

' Wana akthar.. '

We continued walking until we reached a spot with a cute small carpet on the sand ..

' PICNIC !! '

' Ee picnic .. You love them yal 3ayooz '

' 7addeeeee!!! '


He laughed at me and we went to sit down ..

We sat there looking at the beautiful colors of the sea..


' This is so perfect baby thank you ..' I told him

' Yea perfect and beautiful just like you ..'


And then my phone rang ..


The number was strange.. I didn’t know who was calling me so I just ignored ..


But then it rang again ..


' Sheelee baby yimkin its important .. '

' Okay..' I picked up and there was a strangers' voice on the other end ..

' Hala wallahh .. hala bil zain .. '

7amad ???????????????????????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!

my beautiful disaster ( part 17 )

' eff 7adde im in the mood for a laugh 3ad .. goolay goolay , ' I said with a very weak smile since I was too sick to even speak

But before Soso could open her mouth my aunty Salwa came ' Yalla ka il Dr. yaay 7beebtee..'
When Soso looked at her she gave me the " I'll tell you later " look

' Okay..' I said and looked the other way , I was so tired and my mind was only thinking of one thing..

Faris I miss you .. I wonder lo tdree ana hnee because of missing you this much shetsawee ?

' Weee 6a3aw ! neseet talefoonee bil sayara ! aroo7 ayeeba wared ..' my aunt Salwa said

Then Soso came and whispered ' He's outside waiting Angel.. he sent those flowers with me but I told everyone that I brought them..'


My heart almost jumped out of my chest when she told me that

I was too tired to cry some more

If that’s the same Faris that was lying, if that was the same Faris that didn’t realy love me.. why would he risk coming here only to see me ? to make sure I was okay ?


Just then my aunt Salwa , my mom and the Dr. showed up


' Il salam 3leeko ..' the Egyption Dr. greeted me with a huge smile on his face


' Ha dr. , shfeeha benty ? ' my mom asked worried


His face changed completely when my mom asked him that

' Things don’t look so good am afraid.. '


' What do you mean !?' my mom almost yelled at him


' Angel feha eltehab re2awee 7ad .. it could be fatal if we don’t take action.. now theres no need to worry because we CAN control that , but we may have to take her in..'

My mom almost cried when she heard that , my aunt Salwa held her arm and she tried to look strong for me ..

' Mama please mabee anam bil mostashfa ! ma7eb ! mabee!! '


' Angel you have to sweetie ma negdar n5aleech chthy..'


' Mama enty t3rfeen my history with hospitals ! ma7ebhom mama please! Dr. la t5aleenee anam hnee ma7eb ! '


' Its only for a few days , and then we'll let you out as soon as we see progress , your case is very dangerous you cant be exposed to the weather outside ..'


' Dr. please isn’t there anyway I can get a nurse that can come home with us ? I cant stay here ! PLEASE! '


He looked at me and I could tell kesart 5a6ra ..

' Angel I want to show you something ..' he said and held up my X-rays towards the white light , all I could see is the thin lines of my lungs and what looked like thick white smoke inside them

' You see that white thickness inside your lungs ? that’s an infection.. all of it ..am sorry to tell you this way but you have to understand you are very sick ..'


' Dr. what are you going to do ? I mean how are you going to treat it ? ' my mom asked


' She has to take daily doses of her medicine along with an injections for a whole week until we see some good results ..'


' So I cant take all that at home ? ' I didn’t give up I really did NOT want to stay in the hospital !


He looked at me ' you insist on going home ? '


' Yes '


' I'll be right back '

It was only a few minutes till another Dr. came along with him


' You know what you're getting yourself into young lady ?' the other Dr. asked me but he was Kuwaiti

' Dr. whats the difference if I stay here or in my home where im comfortable ? '

' You can NOT be exposed to the horrible weather outside ,'


' I promise I'll never go out ! it would be the same ! except im gona be happier and more relaxed in my house ! and I'll come here everyday for my injection or I'll have a nurse in my house or anything ! '


He smiled at me ' Mom you have to promise us that she'll be here everyday and don’t let her go out a lot and take good care of her , you know mostly these cases are caused by the stress that the person is going through .. so try to make her as happy and relaxed as possible ..'


' Will do Dr. thank you very much ..' my mom tells him


' Heeey you got what you wanted after all ! ' Soso yelled out


' 3ad 9ij deerbalich 3la nafsech wela ra7 tshoofeen nafsech hnee again ! ' my aunt Salwa was very relieved


As my mom and aunt Salwa walked the Dr.s' to the door , Soso got a call and went outside too


Then a nurse came to me ' a young man asked me to give this to you ' She said with a sweet smile


It was a cute off white card with silver and gold little hearts all over it but this time I knew who sent this ..

Faris..

Im so sick without you too baby , allah yshafeech w maya7remny minich

Yours,
Faris


Baby ! tears filled my eyes but I still remembered what I heard about him and even if it wasn’t true.. I can never be with him .. never

I hid the card in my bag and started getting up to leave the awful place


I went home and everyone was there ! lots and lots of family members came to check up on me with lots of gifts , flowers , cards ! you name it !


I loved them !

For a whole week I relaxed, took long naps , drank a lot of milk and soup , and always wore lots of comfy PJ's ..


Whenever I felt sad or bad I would look at the card Faris gave me , and remember the great times we had


This time I didn’t cry , I wasn’t sad at all


I was happy ! I was happy and I didn’t care what people said or did to make me feel bad

I knew Faris !


I spent all this time with him !


I get to judge whether he loves me or not ! or whether he's lying or not !


Faris was my baby and he always will be..

Two weeks passed and I went to my checkups regularly and things were getting better il 7mdelah ,


All that freakishly scary white smoke was starting fade off and I felt A LOT better , physically and emotionally ..

Even though I wasn’t with Faris , he was with me all the time

In my heart and keeping me strong


His love made me strong

And the best part was that I knew he was there for me , like he always been ..


After that tragic sickness ended a lot of my friends came to visit and I never felt lonely NOT ONCE !


Thanks to my Rawaa everyone knew about this and they came to cheer me up and help me push all the hard times away


' Rawoo2 I never said thank you ..'

' 3la shno babe ? '

' For always being here for me .. I love you girl..'


' I love you too A , etha masawaitlich enty chthy asawee 7g mnoo ? '


' Speaking of which hows Snorlaxech !!? '


' Ehh.. we're going through some rough time .. I think its about to end .. we're fighting a lot A..'


' Heey sweetie 3adee we all go through fighting and stuff its normal ! '


' I know but its just not the same anymore you know ? '


' hmmm.. Rawoo2 shfeennaaa ? we started this together ! and we're ending this together !! '


' Ambee I know ! 9ij we're best friends !! '

' I know !! '

And we laughed so hard ! GOD I loved how we were so much alike but I sure didn’t love the way things are going with our love lives but having each other made things a lot easier ..


After Rawoo2 went home I stayed near the TV watching Oprah when the phone rang and Flow answered


' Aloo.. HI aunty Salwaaa !! yes am good ! yea Angel is good ! kahee gam t6ali3 tv w magam t5aleenna n6ali3 ! ' she gave me a look


' ANA ! ANA ! ANA BATKALLAAM !! ' my sister meems shouted out and went straight to the phone

' Eheheheeeheeeeheeeeehhhhh ! ' she was laughing like crazy !


' Wain Fariiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiissssss bakalmaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ' she continued


Then my heart kind of STOPPED , I even forgot he goes there a lot

Faris - like me – was the kids favorite.. they ADORED him ! especially my sisters, he always told me that if me and him didn’t get married he would marry one of my sisters and I always yelled at him for saying that..


I smiled when I remembered that .. just then meems threw the phone on my lap


' AAA777 !! what ? ..'


' Yaboonich ..'


' Aloo..'

Silence


' Meems who is it ? … MEEMS !! ??...' both of my sisters ran upstairs


' Aloo.. ' I said again


' Aloo..' His voice came softly to my ears


I took a long deep breath


And another one !


And then I just shut the phone !


' ambee .. ' I whispered to myself

' Ambee shfeeneee 7mdelah wel sheker !! zain leesh sadeeteee yal '3abeyya !! '

OMG ! look at me am talking to myself !!

How long has it been since I last heard his voice ? or saw his face ?

Two months ? yes two months that I managed to survive without the love of my life ..


Later I called Rawoo2 and told her what happened


' Wenty mynoonaa!!?? Lesh sadeeteee!!! ?? '


' Madree Rawooooo2 !! 5eft!! Te9arwa3t!! madree sh9ar feneee'


' Malat 3leech ana agool ! '

' Eff mo mohim now yalla am gonna get me some warm milk and go to bed ..'


' I'll come by tomorrow okay ? '


' see you later babe love you .. '


And when I was done with my milk I put my sleepy head on the pillow when my phone beeped


" ya 7loo 9ootich , lil7een yred fene il roo7 wallah ! "


I felt like I couldn’t breathe ! and before I had time to do anything ! it RANG !! IT WAS HIM !!

I let it ring .. and ring and ring.. until I couldn’t take it anymore !


' Alooo..'


' Ya 7loo hal 9oot…'



' Faris…'


' 3yoona .. 7ayat Faris kilha enty aamraay.. shtabeen ? feech shay ? me7taja shay ? fe shay y3awrech ? il marath gam yzeed ? shfeech gooly te7achay !? '


' Besmilah wenta 3a6aitny facha ? '


He laughed ,


God I miss his laugh !


How can you miss someone when the'yre talking to you at the same time ?


' redeeelee..'


'Shnoo ?! '


' you heard me .. '


' Faris wely 9ar ? wely 9ar fene ? w feek ? kil hatha shensawee fe ? '


' N5aly il nas twally … you don’t actually think I lied A did you ? '


' Fa..'


' Don’t A please.. whatever they said it wasn’t true .. I love you and you love me ! '


I just sat there … I didn’t say a word I couldn’t I didn’t know what to say


' We cant be together .. '


' Why not Angel ? baby please give me one reason ! '


' My parents ! the family ! Faris what if they find out !? we're DEAD! '


' What are you talking about ? il 7ob mo 7aram.. wana mo yay al3ab ana yay a5thech bil 7alal ! bas enty ma3a6eeteenee fer9a ! w il nas allah ysame7hom ! mayaboon a7ad yestanas ! ..'


' Faris please..'


' Don’t Angel please ! ni9 il 3alam ydree enny amoot feech ! wallah shahed enna mako bglbee '3air neyya 9afya ! abeech ana w shareech ! abeech 7aggee !! abee a3eesh weyach le a5er la7tha mn 3omree … '


My eyes started tearing up again


' Faris I cant …'


' Hatha a5er kalam ? '


' Eee a5er kalam ..'

' Allah ywafgech 7yaty.. its weird how I love you So much that im welling to let you go like that.. I must be crazy .. fe a7ad 3endal goomar mn il sema w y5aleeh ? mynoon hatha… wana dam gam asawee chthy akeed mynoon.. listen to me I love you t3rfeen ? all I can say is allah ywafgech..'


' Wenta b3d .. allah ywafgek w yarzegek bkil 5air ..'


' Bye Angel..'


' Goodbye Faris..'



What did I just do !

I sat there for 15 seconds exactly !! When I grabbed my phone again and started calling his number again


Before it even rang he picked up it was like he was waiting !


' A7ibik\ch !! ' we both said at the same time.. as soon as the phone lines got connected together


He laughed


' Faris ! I do !!! I do love you !! I love you a lot !! I don’t want to leave you ! I don’t care what people say I cant live without you ! OMG ! I got a frekin DISEASE when you left me ! Faris …' I started crying now


' 7yaty..'


' Chub !! I LOVE YOU !! CHUB OKAY !!??? CHUB FARIS CHUB !!! CHUB !!! ' I just went hysterical


That’s what Faris did to me .. he made me go crazy.. and when I was mad or crazy he would laugh and make things all good again


' Baby let me talk..'


' La2 mo kaifik !! mo kaifik chthy te5tefy b3dain te6la3ly ! just when I moved on ! tyee terja3 ! ma agdar ! I spent Way much time crying over you ! '


' Angel I love you .. '


' I LOVE YOU TOO YOU DUMASS! '


He laughed at me again


' Redeelee Angel.. redee roo7ee… redeee nabthee 7g galbee.. '


I sniffed

' Is that a yes ? ' he said with a laugh


' No..' I told him

' That’s a lot of yeses ! '