my beautiful disaster ( part 20 )

They cant be serious ! I thought to myself , I knew 7amad had some kind of plan to ruin my life but THIS !!?? what the hell is he thinking !?

I rushed towards my room and fell backwards on my bed , my face was so hot and I felt like the walls were coming to squeeze me , without a word I grabbed my phone and called up Rawoo2

' HELL NOOO !!! HE DID WHAT!? ' She snapped when I told her what had happened

' What do I do !? Rawoo2 what do I tell Faris !? '

' I don’t know what the hell is that dweeb 7amad thinking ! shfeee? Yann w ga3ad !? '

' Rawoo2 am so scared ! my dad will never in a million years say no to 7amad or his parents ! plus he and my mom ADORE the guy ! '

' Well its YOUR life not theirs' ! '

' True bas mno ele yesma3 !? , listen babe I gotta go now I'll call you later okay ? I need to think of a way to get out of this mess .. '


' Want me to come over ? '


' No babe its late .. how about tomorrow morning we go get breakfast ? '

' Perfect ! '

I put my hands on my face trying to remember what happened today ..

The sea , the weather , Faris .. it was all perfect until ..

God what do I do ??

Just like he felt what my heart felt at that moment he called me

' Baby is it true !? '

And I knew exactly what he was talking about .. Faris knew ..

' Faris.. '

' Angel jawbeeneee ! tell me you are NOT marrying that doorknob ! baby please ! '

' Faris .. '

' 3yoona ..'

' who told you ? '


' Your aunt Salwa just told me.. , I should've stopped him when I could ! I should've told your dad mn awal ! ana il 7mar ! ana '3abee ele 5alaitech troo7een ! ana '3abee ele 3a6ait hathak fer9a enna yetgarrab minich ..'


' Baby stoooop its not your fault ! am the idiot ! if it wasn’t for me none of this would have happened ! '

' Shasawee bedoonich ? matgooleelee ? shloon a3eesh ? Angel en 9erty 7g '3airy amoot wallah amoot ! '


' Smilah 3leek mn il moot ! lesh gam tgool chthy enta !? '


' Baby wallah il 3atheem inny knt na6er ashte'3el wa56ebech 3shan akoon rayyal wagdar awaferlich kil shay ! 3ashan maga9er ma3ach eb shay ! wala a7rem 3yalna mn shay ! wallah il 3alim shkether a7ibich Angel enty ele '3ayarteenee .. enty ele '3ayartay glbee enty ele 7abait'ha w meste3ed amoot 3ashanha ..'


' You were thinking about us getting married ? '

And then it was quit .. TOO QUIET !


' Aloo ? Faris ?? ALOO !!?? '


' Baby I need to go ..'

' WAIN !? wain rayi7 ? '

' I just need to take some rest baby I'll call you tomorrow .. '

' W t5aleenee chthy broo7ee you give me up 7g a7ad thany ? '

' 7beebtee enty mn gal ra7 a5aleech ? ya5thoon il hawa ele atnafasa wamoot wala ya5thoonich enty minny.. ma7ad yegdar mara7 a5aleehom baby .. mo kaifhom ya5thoon roo7ee minni '


' Baby la tseddaa..'


' 5ala9 enshallah masedda bas aamray entay ..'


' Soolif m3ay lain anam..'

' Shtabeen asooliflich 3anna ? '

' Gooly 8i9a Fwfy ..'

' Hahaaaaaa!! Ma3arf 8i9a9 ! '

' Fwfyyyy…'

' Okay okay .. here we go .. kan ya makan fe 8adeem il zaman ..'

And he went on with the story .. I cant remember what the story was about and what characters were in it .. all I could remember is his sweet warm voice filling my ears before I went to bed .. giving me the strength NOT to breakdown .. NOT to give up on our love ..

I woke up the next morning with the phone next to my head and the floor was filled with white tissues ..

' oh my goodness !! what is this !? it snowed tissues yesterday !!?' Rawoo2 came in to see my bedroom and my face both looking like hell

' Ambee babe ! get up get up get up !! this CANT be happening to you ! NOT AGAIN !! '

She came and helped me get out of bed and ordered me to wash up and get dressed for a small outing

' I ran by your mom downstairs and I told her we're going out ! now hurry ! '

I wore my oversized " Ja Dore Paris" T-shirt with black leggings , pulled up my hair and put on my big glasses to cover the marks from yesterdays crying parade

' Yalla ready to go ? '

We got into the car and Rawoo2 put on some of our all time faves to lighten up the mood

' wallaaaah maaaaakaaaaan il foraaaaag e5teyareeee ' 3bdelmajeeds' voice came smoothly out of the speakers and when I heard that I lowered my head thinking about Faris ..


' Oops ! bad idea! ' and she quickly changed the song

' I don’t wanna runawaaay but iiii cant help it iiii don’t understand .. if am not made for you then whyyy does my heart tells me that I am .. ' Daniel bedingfields' beautiful sad song came next

' You know what !? lets just TALK ! ' and she turned off the radio

I laughed at her

' See progress mn al7een ! hehe '

' yalla we're here ' We arrived at Mcd's near the beach ,

' Shma3na hnee Rawoo2 why didn’t we just go to choco bar nfs kil marra ? '

' You'll see .. '

We got inside and headed upstairs only to see a tired looking guy sitting nervously on one of the chairs staring at window ..

' Faris !!!!????'

' Baby ! ' and he quickly got up and rushed to hug me

His arms were so strong .. his chest was so warm .. I just wanted to melt

' am gonna go get us something to eat until you guys talk a little..' Rawoo2 just left us there ..

' I'm sorry baby..' He told me when he let go ..

' I .. I don’t know what got into me ..'

' Ssshhh…' and I grabbed his hands and we went to sit down

' Faris.. mabee atzawaj..'

He just looked at me with his big worried eyes

I tried not to cry.. I wanted to look strong in front of him..

' wana mabeech tetzawejain ..'

' Shasawee fe 7amad ? baby my dad is never going to say No to him ! he likes him ! w his dad is an old friend .. my parents are never going to say no .. '

I felt like I was so mean telling him that.. he just sat there looking at me..

'Will they say yes to me lmn ayeelich ? '

' What ? ' I looked up to see his beautiful eyes looking at me

' You heard me.. gitlich mara7 a5aleech y3ny mara7 a5aleech .. ma7ad ya5thech minni enty om 3yaly Angel ..'

After hearing those words what girl wouldn’t cry ? my eyes were filled up with tears but I still tried to hold them in ..

' What if my dad tells you no ? and he already gave 7amads' parents a word ? '

' Hathy 7ayatech ! he CANT tell you who to marry ! '

I looked down

' Baby I didn’t mean to yell like that .. am sorry ..' he held up my chin but I moved away my head so he wouldnt see my tears

' Angel shoofeeneee..'

But I didn’t want to look at him.. I didn’t wana see the disappointment in his face..

' Faris you don’t know my dad..'

' I know that he loves you and he wants you to be happy..'

' my happiness is with you.. Faris I love you ! please don’t leave me !! see that’s EXACTLy like my dream !! they were taking you away from me ! you left me there Faris !! You left me all alone ! I cried and followed you ! but you left anyway !! I thought it was a stupid dream and I let it go ! but now its coming true ! Faris la t'hednee la t5aleenee allah y5aleek ! please baby don’t go ! lo zawejoonee '3a9eb ta3ally ta3al save me ! you're my Faris its your job to do that !..' and tears just came out like crazy ! i was hysterical suddenly i had flashbacks from when i was sick and when i heard all those awful things about him ..

Good job trying NOT to cry Angel ..

Before I knew it he grabbed my face with both hands and kissed the tears on my cheeks ..

' Bas Angel .. 5ali9aw dmoo3ech baby bas..'

' How can I Not cry when they're going to take away the love of my life ? '

' ma7ad ya5ethnee minich.. am here ..' he wiped away my tears and pulled me close

' ana il yoom rayi7 akalim obooch..'

' Haaaa?' I looked up like a little baby who just saw ice cream

'ee.. ana il yoom rayi7 7g obooch a56ebech minna..'

My heart almost jumped out of my chest ..If I was meant to be with my Faris forever then the days will show.. and I couldn’t wait but something deep down told me things are NOT going to be easy..

Later Rawoo2 came holding a tray that had pancakes , hash browns and orange juice , everything looked DELICIOUS !

But me and Faris didn’t have the appetite to eat at all .. each one was worried about the other ones feelings so we tried and looked like we were enjoying the food , and with Rawoo2 being there we kind of had fun in spite of the awful thoughts we had about whats going to happen to our future..

' I'll call you as soon as I get home …' I told him

' okay baby becareful .. ' and he kissed my hands and went off to his car

I watched him from far thinking if that's the only time im gonna see him walking away from me.. and if fate has some pretty surprise in store for us..

' Hey..' Rawoo2 put her hands on my shoulder interrupting my thoughts

' I love him Rawoo2..'

' I know babe I know.. allah kareem enshallah..'

Me and Rawoo2 went shopping later , nothing feels greater than buying a couple of shoes !


After we finished I told her to drop me at my grand mothers house , I hadn’t seen them in a while ..

I found Lamooy and Tala there..


' Heeeeeeeey!! Ya7mara enty where are you !!?? ' Lamooy screamed when she saw me

'Wee3 lesh yaya? ' Tala greeted me in her lovely way again

I sat down and told them the story..

' Oh my god ! '

' What are you guys going to do now? '


' Faris said he's gonna talk to my father .. '

' No WAAAAY !!!! ' Lamooy was shocked

' He told you that !? ' Tala asked

' Yea.. my god you guys am scared..'


' 5alas babe don’t be.. what meant to be will be..'


'Yea.. and am gonna bring my new baby the penguin and dance at your wedding ..' Tala suddenly said


' Huh !!?? ' I asked


' Weeeee magitlich 3n my new love story ? I fell in love with a penguin today ! he was the cutest ! the minute I layed my eyes on him I was smitten !! ' She continued like it was a normal salfa


' Shesalfa ! shno ! wain !? yannaitay ? '


' Noo !!!! shefta eb hallmark ! chan ashteree !! am gonna marry him a9lan !! his name is Alfonso !


' BSSHHHHAAHAAHAAAAAAAA!!!!!!! ' Lamia let out a huge laugh

' Speaking of which how is Yousef ? '

' Ow I don’t know he's fine I guess ..' that was the first time I saw lamooy blush in a long long time..

' Wow look at that SOMEONE seems happy ! so you got it bad for him huh ?! '

' I think its worse ! you guys am not this girl ! am not this mushy I love you im crzy about you girl .. whats happening to me ?!'


' I know whats happening to you ..' Tala said

' You're falliiiiing in loooooovveee! ' i was so excited for her I realy was .. Lamooy hadn’t been this happy mn like EVER and she's an amazing girl and a great friend she deserves to be happy

' No.. that’s not it .. what I was going to say is Angel is effecting your brain again THAT’S whats happening to you L .. of course we don’t blame you Angel for being so.. so.. YOU ! Gosh do you always live in La La land ? ' she rolled her eyes at me


' I guess I wont be anymore with Faris being gone.. '

' Hey hey heeey !! stop that ! everythings gonna be fine enshallah ! your dad might say yes and you may get married and have pretty babies ! '

' Not if they look like Angel they wont..' Tala added

' Chub ! ' Lamooy told her

' And we're going to dance our asses off at your wedding and we'll take you to the beauty parlor ourselves ! ' Lamooy continued

' Ofcourse we don’t know how much they can do .. I mean your face is naturally ugly..' Tala didn’t seem to get enough


' Tala !!!!!!!' Lamia snapped at her


' Whaaaat ? am just being me ! lighting up the air a little..'

' yea I can see that ! ' Lamia said

' You're doing great ! ' I joked

' Heey guys yalla goomaw 5nee6la3 ..' Faj2a aunty H7m7 came downstairs with her messed up hair and pj's obviously just woke up from her everyday sleeping .. or in her case HIBERNATING !

' Allaaaaaaaah I want NINo ! ' Tala shrieked

' Eeeeeee!!!' Lamia added

' Chub bas mata3abtaw !? ' H7m7 told them

' Noooo ! ' They both said at the same time

After that we all waited for her to get dressed and we were on our way ..

Later that evening and when we were done with our fun outing as usual they dropped me home first since my house was the closest .. I really had fun and it was great because it was taking my mind off of things..

I went to bed that night thinking the worst .. tossing and turning

Whats going to happen to me and Faris ?

I woke up early the next morning since I couldn’t enjoy my sleep only to hear my mom talking on the phone and she had a very serious tone..


' Salwa ana magdar agool 7g oboha shay wenty tdreen.. Faris 3la 3ainy w 3ala rasee bas bil nesba 7g oboha 7amad awla.. bas laykoon enty 3a6eetee Faris kilma w gilteela inna y7e6 amal ? '