my beautiful disaster ( part 15 )

I couldn’t believe what just happened to me


Lamia and Tala were calling me nonstop but I ddnt answer..


My mind was just too busy thinking !


I grabbed my phone and called h7m7 to try and understand what was going on


' shtabeen ..' she answered rudely


' shfeech enty ?? whats going on what do you mean by all that ?'


' ta3alay bacher w y9eer 5air ! la tlaw3een chabdee!! BYE! '


Tears fell down my cheecks as soon as she shut the phone


I didn’t know what to do.. I didn’t even know what I did for her to talk to me that way ..


I went upstairs and changed fast and I went to bed .. all I wanted to do was to call up Faris and cry


I knew that he of all people would make me feel better no matter what the situation was


Instead I just shut my phone and went to sleep thinking the worst , so scared that I held a pillow so tight to my chest to keep me from feeling that way even though it only helped so much



We all woke up the next morning and got dressed for the zwara we had , I didn’t feel like dressing up at all !


I put on my jeans and an extra large shirt and rapped a scarf around my neck and headed their


Everyone told me that I looked so tired and worried and I knew it showed..

Tala and Lamooy weren’t their yet so we sat down ready to eat lunch when they arrived at once..


They kept looking at me and asking me if there was something wrong but I just couldn’t talk



' We kept calling you all night where were you ?'



' Why'd you switch your phone off faj2a ? you said you'll call back ! '


I just said am sorry and smiled weakly.. they knew something was wrong they just knew ! but it wasn’t the time or place to talk



I barely touched my plate though the food looked amazing , I kept looking over at my aunty H7m7 to try and figure something out from her expressions but she just kept looking away..


As soon as we were done I went upstairs as she told me and waited in her room , it was only a few minutes until she came and locked the door



' Enty shemsawyaa ? ' she asked sharply



' What do you mean !!? '



' you heard me ! that boy Faris !! shelly bainich w baina ?? '



' Whats your deal !? he likes me okay ?? and I like him ! actually .. I LOVE him and he LOVES me ..'



' ay 7ob ay ba6ee5 !! enty yahil w '3abeyya !! mat3rfeen shno y3ny 7ob !! b3dain gooleeleee .. enty ray7a bait'hom ? '



' ee re7t ! lesh saweet shay '3ala6 lmn aroo7 bait 3ammy wehwa mawjood ? '


' ee wehwa shyabee mawjood hnaak ?'



' Enty mynoonaaa!!?? HE LIVES THERE !! '



' Did he try something ??'



' Huh !!!!!!!!??????????? something like what y3ny !!!? '


' Madree anything ..sem3eeneee !! hal walad il zeft ! is a bad person Angel .. he's lying to you ! he doesn’t love you ! he has this idea in his head just like most guys here ! w mala da3eee agoolich whats that idea..'



' laa pleeaaase tell me ! please I want to know ! shno hal tafkeer il 5ayes ele eb rasech !! mestaw3eba what you're saying ?? min gallich inna may7ebny ?? w gam yge9 3lay!! '

' someone knows him pretty well ! w he heard everything he said ! sem3eenee !! tgooleelaa y5aleech mn al7een ! w you are never to see him again ! EVER!! Zain minny ma gilt 7ag omich aw oboch 3shan y3rfoon shi'3ilhom m3a hal 5ayes !! '


I just sat there.. stunned.. shocked .. disappointed .. heartbroken ..


She grabbed my phone looking for his number and started calling him

' Aloo Faris shloonik ? agoolik ra8am Angel tensa w mabee ashoof aw asma3 inik dag aw shayefha fahim ?? ensaha w wa5er 3anha ! w lo t7ebha 9ij matsaweelaha mashakil..' CLICK

And just like that it was over.. it was like she didn’t even care.. she didn’t even bother to hear me or him out ! if ONLY I knew who told her that ! IF ONLY !


' talefoonich hatha ra7 t5aleenaa 3ndee sam3a? '

' e5thy !! WHATEVER !! MA ABEE!! '

Then I couldn’t take it anymore .. I headed for the door unlocked it and ran outside for the other room..

There I found Tala and Lamia waiting for me with their worried faces

As soon as I saw them I collapsed on the floor


' OMG !! ANGEL !! Tala go get her some water ! and don’t let any of the kids up here please ! ' I heard Lamia yell and she hurried to help me up


' Lamiaa.. he.. he… he's gone.. lamia.. I .. ' words wouldn’t come out of my mouth.. I couldn’t even manage to breathe.. I spent a year with a guy and have totally fallen in love with him.. to find out that I cant be with him ..


' Babe just CALM DOWN ! breathe .. now tell me slowly whats going on ..? '

I waited for a while until air came out of my lungs


' she.. she said that he's lying to me.. he's with me for all the wrong reasons..'
'WHAAAT !!?? EEW WHAT KIND OF DISGUSTING FREAK WOULD SAY THAT ! ' Tala came in rushing with a glass of water


' I don’t knoooww… I … ' then I started crying again..

This time I didn’t stop.. I COULDN’T stop..

Lamia just held me tight and let me let it all out..

' Look babe we have to know whats going on this cant be happening.. im sure theres a misunderstanding.. someone must've known about you two.. and didn’t like it so they tried to ruin this for you..' she told me


' I.. I don’t know I don’t care ! Lamia ! I love him ! '

' I know babe I know ..'


' He… he doesn’t …he llii..' then I had another sip of water because I thought I was really going to die at that moment.. the whole scene was scary.. we looked like people out of those stupid Kuwaiti drama's who were over acting scenes.. except.. this was real and scary and none of us were faking..


After all that time.. after all that love.. Faris couldn’t be liar ! he just couldn’t ! the sweet crazy Faris I fell in love with ! .. he's NOT a liar .. he's NOT ! and deep down inside I knew there was something wrong ..


They tried to make me calm down until it was time to go home..

I hadn’t spent much time with my family that day.. but it was okay.. I didn’t want anybody to see me like that.. I looked so Unlike Angel.. that perky , happy , crazy short girl they loved.. I just wasn’t her ...

Before I went home h7m7 gave me my phone back.. she told me that she trusted me .. and made me promise I wouldn’t answer his calls or messages or try to contact him at all..


She said that she bought me credit.. she tried to make it sound like she gave me a gift or something.. but deep down I felt like she only did that to check if I ran out of credit the next day it would mean that I spent it all talking to Faris..


I wasn’t in the mood for any food or sleep that night.. I looked horrible .. my mom thought I was sick so she ordered me to go to bed early that day..


I put my head on the pillow , hot tears coming effortlessly out of my eyes even when they're closed .. but then I just slept..


I woke up in the middle of the night only to see my phone flashing and flashing.. his Inreques' hero ringtone came softly to my ears ..

Faris !!

He was my hero.. my baby.. my prince..my Faris.. at that time I truly believed that song was so me and him.. for a moment I was happy.. Faris is calling..

My I'll be yours forever Faris..

My I'll never leave you Faris..

But then I remembered what happened that day..

And I cried again.. and again.. I felt like I was running out of tears really..

He was calling.. even though my aunt told him not to.. even though he was gonna get into trouble for this..


After millions and millions of phone calls.. he sent me a message


" 7yaty am scared.. please answer me w gooleelee shfeech ? sh9ar il yoom ? why did your aunt call me ? "

I didn’t answer..


Another message..

" 5ala9 baby you must be tired and sleeping I hope you're okay.. aklmich bacher a7ibich ;* "

That message made me cry harder and harder..


Till my mom opened up my door and came rushing towards my bed

' Angel yuma smillah 3leech shfeech ?! 5arra3teenee !! '


' Bad dream mama !! please please !! gawmeeneee! Allah y5aleech gawmeenee mn this nightmare ! ' and I held her so close to me

At that moment I wished I could tell her everything.. but it wasn’t the right time..

' 7beebteee smillah 3leech sherby may wegreelich cham aayaa wenshallah mafeech ila il 5air..' she kissed my forehead and went out of my room..


I just stared at the ceiling with my tired eyes.. until I fell asleep again ..


The next day I didn’t even feel like getting out of bed.. at the old days.. Faris would be the reason I got out of bed.. seeing his picture in my head and knowing I have this amazing guy in my life was enough for me .. he would be calling me any time to talk about his day so i HAD to be up ! but now.. why would i ??

I went and washed up and prayed.. and I got down to eat lunch with my family..


' haa 7beebtee enshallah you're feeling better today ? ' my mom asked

' ta3alay ta3alay yubaa ge3dy yamyyy.. a7e6lich legma takleenha t3addil mazajich.. ommich msawya 5oosh machboos ! ' I smile at my dad and sit down


Still not touching my food.. only playing with the fork and spoon in my hand.. I act like am enjoying the food and try to make some spaces in my plate so it would look like I actually ate something..


I got up and went upstairs again.. only to find H7m7 calling..


' haaa dag 3leeech hatha b33d ?' she asked


' No H7m7 for the gazillionth time he didn’t! ..' I answered


Just then phone calls from my friends came like crazy


' A he's calling me ! what do I do ? ' Rawaa told me ' he's worried about you ! but I told him that you cant talk to him right now.. OMG ! even snorlax sees him at school.. he doesn’t look so good..'


' Ambee Angel he called me last night asking about you.. I told him I don’t know but it would be best if he doesn’t call you right now..' Lamia called to say that too..


Days, weeks passed by.. and Faris didn’t NOT ONCE ! stop calling me ..


And neither did H7m7 ! like crazy.. checking up on me.. see if I called or answered.. not forgetting to check my phone every chance she got to see if I was lying to her ..


Untill one day.. I got a phone call from my cousin Soso.. the girl who helped this love story start between me and Faris..


' Angeellll 7yaty how are you doing ? listen to me.. Faris called me and told me everything.. I think I know whats going on..'


' What do you mean ?' I asked her puzzled


' I think I know who's destroying things between you and Faris A.. I think I know who told h7m7 those awful things..'